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2005 5 October :: 2.54 am
My love, note to you, I would really enjoy it if you would sometimes drop me a line, It saddens me greatly that I always have to look for you and that I always have to make the plans. Very sad. thats what I am.
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2005 4 October :: 1.17 pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: All Jacked Up.
well phew.
both tests over with and the paper written, not very well but written nonetheless. I smell. because i have yet to shower today. slept through my alarm and missed math class, big whoop. anyway. I don't have to work again until friday so that is fantastic. Im so wiped out. I fell off the top of a ladder last night, that was bad news. a high ladder. I fell onto my side and the heavy box that knocked me off balance to begin with fell on me. I don't know how that works. but what my back has been bothering me anyway so why don't I just fall off a ladder and become paralyzed. Jeff seemed pretty concerned because I called him to let him know. One of the other employees said i would have to fill out a report. I guess not unless I get hurt. THANK GAWD. I hate reports and people making a fuss. Hopefully I don't feel that back thing again later on. Besides that a package is lost on layaway. I dont know that I lost it. or who lost it, but I discovered it as lost which is the scary thing because Aline will flip her lid at me and thats not good. She is a crazy ol' bitch.
Onto school news. High School left me completely unprepared for college. All they talk about is being prepared for college, nope nothing close to prepared and that is mostly my fault because I did next to nothing in high school and came out with A's. ???????? I don't know, anyway now Im in college and want to continue doing nothing and its just not working out for me. Apparently they want you to earn your grade. Whats that about anyway. Whatever Im getting used to it and fighting the overwhelmedness thats been pushing me back. Im getting a little organized and I seem to be caught up in everything now i just need to get steadied and keep up for good.
I miss PJ. Haven't seen him in like four days. I don't like that so much. I miss Joslyn too. Come home soon dude, like when Im not doing anything. If I have the money Im coming there for spring break. Pj too, he just doesn't know it yet. thats a big if. Because the money is tight. But after Christmas I should be okay. Okay then that would be my entry Im just superior amounts of bored, and I haven't seen Leo in like 3 weeks and I should go meet up with him before class because that is our tuesday thing and I totally blew him off last week, except i did call to tell him I wouldnt be there but he never called back. I think maybe he is a little mad. Whoops. Okay is all.
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2005 3 October :: 12.17 am
well after two nights of hell at work tonight was just okay, I was supposed to get out at 10 but then as i was heading for the time clock at 1015 jeff stopped me and asked if I would stay and i was like eh, paper, two tests, jeff and he was like one cart liz, we are so swamped. four carts and an hour later i punch out, That sneaky bastard. anyway i was hoping to talk to pj tonight but he seems to be not anywhere, not msn, now WoW i wonder what hes doing. weirdness. okay gotta study up a litte and hit the bed.
oh and pj you know what song makes me cry.
Sarabeth by rascal flatts listen to that, so much sadder than the little girl. so much.
IM me quick.
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2005 2 October :: 10.27 am
Friday night and the moon is high
I'm wide-awake just watchin' you sleep
And I promise you you're gonna have
More than just the things that you need
We ain't got much now, We're just startin' out
But I know somehow paradise is comin'
Someday baby, You and I are gonna be the ones
Good luck's gonna shine
Someday baby you and I are gonna be the ones
So hold on
We're headed for a better life
Oh now there's a place for you and me
Where we can dream as big as the sky
I know it's hard to see it now
But baby someday we're gonna fly
This road we're on, you know it might be long
But my faith is strong
It's all that really matters
[Someday baby, You and I are gonna be the ones
Good luck's gonna shine
Someday baby you and I are gonna be the ones
So hold on
We're headed for a better life
So hold on, hold on
C'mon baby, hold on
Yeah, we're gonna have it all
And ooh
Someday baby, You and I are gonna be the ones
Good luck's gonna shine
Someday baby you and I are gonna be the ones
So hold on
We're headed for a better life
Someday baby, You and I are gonna be the ones
Good luck's gonna shine
Someday baby you and I are gonna be the ones
So hold on
We're headed for a better life
Oh, a better life
Hey we're gonna leave this all behind us baby, wait and see
We're headed for a better life, you and me
We're gonna break the chains that bind and, finally we'll be free
We're gonna be the ones that have it all, you and me
Just hold on tight now baby
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2005 2 October :: 12.36 am
I sleep so much better with you next to me, whats about anyway.
God i love you so much. I can think of no one who makes me as happy as you do. not even ronald mcdonald.
thats a lot because Im fat girl who love eating.
But yeah work was better today, we found those packages but then lost another one. Its okay though because after a round or two or Liz calm down, take a seat, BREATHE. Fawn and I figured it out and accomplished some stuff and all presents itself as okay, hopefully tomorrow will be kind of slow so that i can get two nights of paperwork done. Aline is going to be angry but thats okay Ill get over it i suppose.
Either way. I love you a whole bunches of a lot and i wish you were here with me right now.
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2005 1 October :: 4.47 am
I find myself tired. can we please go home yet?
I hate walmart, it has officially become cuntmart through ray and I's imaginations while scavening the outside bins trying to take care of layaways and I lost some boxes because I was super stressed and I was like fuck it Ill deal with it tomorrow and its totally going to come out in the log and Aline will see it and then yell at me but they told me to leave and I was upset and Jeff was liike "what are all those boxes liz?" and I was like "thats the product of somebody doing their job Jeff, odd I know and something not seen often around here but it happens"
and then he said "Im sensing a little hostility" and so I said "ya think" and left and he yelled back, "whose all ready to complain about everything tonight" and walked back and said "well whose ready to tell someone she can have an extension and not let the people on layaway know so the customer doesnt have her merchandise and walmart has to give her a discout, no wonder we have to rush and cut hours, maybe it has to do the with level incompetence of our superiors" and then i got really upset and when i was trying to get some paperwork done I realized that I had written a couple of numbers down wrong and I couldnt figure out the telzone and that tonight was nothing compared to what christmas is going to be and I have no idea what the hell Im going to do because I cannot take the stress of layaway and I hate walmart, and to cap off the night ray and I were walking out and what, there was our mananger taking pictures of the interior of a truck the was covered in paint, ray was really upset because he does hardware and he mixes paint and he knows that he put the lid on tight, so while he claims partial responsibility i told him that the lady probably opened it to check the color and didnt get the lid on, but that is just another little incident to throw on walmarts tab. corporote bastards. fuck i hate that place.
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2005 29 September :: 11.57 pm
I fucking love you okay.
gah.
im going to sleep now.
or at least trying.
goodness i hate being dependent.
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2005 29 September :: 9.24 pm
PPPPPPPPJJJJJJJJJJJJJjj
I need to talk to you my studying and wow is hurting my head.
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2005 29 September :: 7.34 pm
i was reading some comments on another journal. comments in reference to red flannel and the pictures that were in the entry.
Guess what guys. Sammye is really nice and if you don't like her than great. Deal with the fact that she won isn't a "sham" and she isnt a bitch and so shut up and stop being pissed off that the world works the way that it does and that the person who gets good grades and is involved and probably genuinely cares about the community won and deserves it the most won.
fuck.
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2005 29 September :: 7.23 pm
I am so wiped out.
My dumbass.
I like to wait until the last minute on everything.
Well I have two tests on Monday that Ive been studying up for, and there is a paper that i was supposed to have done on tuesday that I have yet to finish.
yuckness.
i really need to do that, only its just going to be a whole bunch of suck all around. well god. i should just get back to studying because the oc is on and i know that it will take precidence over my studying.
idiot.
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2005 28 September :: 12.29 pm
blah blalk paper due.
cant think to write.
fuck fuck fuck.
going to fail and be a big failure.
only not really.
yuck i have to work today.
ah suckness.
pj is here though and i love him
and i miss mitch it is time for him to come home.
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2005 27 September :: 3.09 pm
OKay so today is a good day.
I just saw charlie and chrissy at the commons and that makes me uber excited. I miss everyone so much.
i saw whit a couple of weeks ago at walmart too.
yay.
also tonight mtv is featuring Death Cab for Cutie on the Ten spot so that should be really cool.
Thats about all for now i have to go to a meeting a work. Blahk i say.
stupid work.
im looking into other employment oppurtunities at this point.
I hate walmart.
okay is all
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2005 27 September :: 8.49 am
i got up on time and took a shower and ate breakfast, not bad for a tuesday.
only it never would have happened if my 8 oclock class hadnt been canceled.
I heart canceled.
heart it so much.
Love pj.
see you tonight.
yayness
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2005 26 September :: 11.21 pm
so i fucking lost my favorite earrings. or at least one of them.
they were up on a bookshelf and then i knocked them off and only found one.
Im bummed bum bummed.
then i read some stuff about the red flannel and frankly i am glad the sammye won because well i like her and I think that she is really cool and smart and nice. so excitement abound.
plus i think that yearbooks will be handed out at the powder puff football game on friday at least that is what i was told today at the school. goodness and yays.
Lizzy
Im so tired
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2005 26 September :: 8.45 pm
god im so fucking tired.
I cant get untired no matter how hard I try and its not even like im doing anything im just going to work and school and not doing anything else.
I have a sore throat and my chest hurts if i inhale deeply or yawn and im tired so im constantly yawning so my chest just keeps on hurting. i dont know what the problem is but i dont like it and it worries me. \
nothing is right like its supposed to be itsjust all suckiness and boring.\
I want to make new friends at school and not be so stuck in high school and the past
fuck fuck fucking fuck.
I wish pj didnt have jamie with him so that he coudl come and stay with me tonight. i just want to spend the day in bed with him. only he would want to get up and play some video game at like 10 anyway so fuck that shit right in the ass..
why am i so pissed off all the time. gawd.
I want to read some good book that i havent read in awhile but alas i have no time. im always on the go. doing something. no time.\
everything i say is a contradiction.
im so fucking tired.
i have a paper that im supposed to peer edit tomorrow and of course i have yet to start it.
but im not going to that class anyway for two reasons.
one i have a thing at work that apparently i must attend even though it is against my availability and all that bullshit.
second i despise peer editing. why because i hate reading people papers and having a million suggestions that they get angry when i make them, or try to help them make their paper way better, or at least grammatically correct, then there is that they read my paper and tell me how to change it and while sometime i get valuable advice usually i get a "its good I dont have any suggestions"
WTF there is always room for improvement stop pussyfooting around and tell me what I can do to make this the best damn paper ever. so being that it is an analytical paper i am going to pass on the peer editing because I hate peer editing and if my paper sucks well then i will just pass on putting it in my main portfolio. fuck i find myself tired and aching for bed.
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