:: 2005 25 August :: 10.46 pm

Well tonight was tiring.
i went home for dinner and that was yay. then to walmart where i spent too much money then to meijer, same as walmart.
meh. pj and i explored the campus today and that was quite enjoyable. we did spend ample amounts of time in my room as well. very very enjoyable. either way college is definately looking up.

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:: 2005 24 August :: 10.34 am

the morning presents betterness.
yay.
im going to take a shower in my new shower.
im drinking my very own coffee that my roomate made for me.
joslyn by the way no q's asked your staying at my dorm on friday night, cuz my roomate and i did the agreement and guess what. guests can stay the night WHENEVER THEY WANT TO. which is yay because its what i was wondering the most about.
wOOt wOOt.

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:: 2005 24 August :: 2.06 am

Well here I am. at home.
in my dorm room the one that is actually the size of my bathroom at home. i want to go home.
i hate this.
i hate being alone.
nothing is right.
i hate change. nothing will be the same ever.
I dont know about this roomate and im tired already. steak and shake with annie was fun at least. we talked a lot. always good talking.
learned a few things that i needed to figure out for awhile now. cant wait for friday with joslyn.
need that too.
i guess thought that i will put on the television and cry for awhile while i try to catch my bearings about being alone. i hate lonliness so bad.
i cannot take it at all.
still have to make a roomate contract yet. blek.
okay well pj i love you. i dont know when ill see you again but soon i hope. im working at four on saturday so if you want ill go to that reunion with you. not my idea of a great time, in fact i dread it, but i want to be with you more than anything right now.
fuck orientation. i dont need it.
joslyn and i are hanging out friday. so maybe ill just stay somewhere in cedar. or something. well see.
ill talk to you later.
sorry i missed you tonight by the way, the friggin floor meeting took like two hours.
fuck.

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:: 2005 23 August :: 7.05 am

Cant sleep anymore which may be a first.
I got up around 430
had some coffee and some breakfast.
i just went into the kitchen for a refill and my dad was there getting ready to go and i said headin' out. and he was like yeah and I said what time do you think youll be home and he said probably 200 and i said well pj and i will probably go ahead of you guys then. and he said *sigh* yeah okay ill see you there then. all sadlike.
well then im going to bathe and do my last load of laundry and finish up in here.
sadness mixed with ecstatic.

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:: 2005 22 August :: 2.50 pm
:: Music: MXPX-PUNK RAWK SHOW

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:: 2005 21 August :: 2.39 pm

Quote of To Day
"why the hell would you run unless someone is chasing you?"

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:: 2005 21 August :: 11.46 am

Work really blew last night. we were there late, with about 13 return carts. we can longer make and end of night statement. so while we close at ten i was still running my register at 1030. horrible. take another 15 for counting my drawer down and there is absolutely no way that im getting out on time.
Also i brought in some movies for Leo to borrow and the sensor when off when I walked in the door. so I took it to the courtesy desk and deactivated it. The manager walked over and asked about it and i was like I work here and I brought these in for Leo to borrow. if i stole them why would I bring them back into the store. duh.
so that was easy enough. it might have been funnier if I left them activated so that leo would go off when he left. he carries a messenger so they would have searched the whole thing. but i think he would have been pretty pissed and last night he was really irritated to begin with. there were only 3 people working the floor. covering all of the departments. hence the massive amount of return carts. then i got in a little argument with some woman, because her daughter was ripping candy open and eating it and I said your daughter is eating that candy and she said Oh Well and I said well you have to pay for it and she said im not paying for it and i was like yes, because thats stealing and she is your minor daughter which makes it your responsibility. and she said whatever and paid for it. score one for liz.
anyway. that would be all that happened at work. im almost done packing it all up in my room. actually not really close to almost done at all. but most of what is left is everyday stuff that ill hold until tuesday. all of my clothes except for whats in the wash is packed. most of my shoes. that was a feat let me tell you. ive started rolling up my pennies. im at about thirty dollars now with those so score. and i have all my hygiene stuff and makeup and soap and things that ill need until the day i move so whatever. i guess it okay and good enough for the moment ill finish her up on tuesday.
and so thats what happening around here.
I love you pj.

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:: 2005 19 August :: 10.23 pm

Don't you want me baby, dont you want me OOOhhhh Oeewww ooohh
Well today was the day to finish up this week. Finally, It was one hell of a week ill tell ya.
Two break ups some confusions some bullshit. and one very happy ending.
But lets focus on TODAY,
I got up and pj and I hung out. It was extraordinary.
Then He, Justin, Amanda, Mike and I went to Michgans Adventures.
No story there, it was all sorts of great fun. PJ won me a stuffed Cookie Monster that I am going to cherish forever and ever.
BTW. Amanda McDonald. Im sorry If i seemed short with you by the lockers. I was really dazed and I didnt mean to be rude to you guys. Im so sorry. Afterwards I was like, "wow they must really think that im a bitch" so yeah sorry about that.
Then we went to Taco Bell. then PJ and I went to walmart and i bought stuff for my dorm, some under the bed totes and coffee filters.
lol. 4 Days until move in.
Yayness and trepidation.
So everything is great. Im so happy. Only now you all know that Pj and I do not have the ideal relationship. Yeah its true we Fight, only we never really did fight we just agreed and got on with it. Maybe our relationship is ideal then, because we both know how to communicate what we need and want without getting pissed off..
I dont know how but it works for us.
I love him so much.
BUT either way it was just one silly flat tire on the road that is the rest of my life with PJ, It stopped us for awhile but were on the way now. smooth sailing.
lol
well either way that would be my day.

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:: 2005 19 August :: 12.37 am

ha everything is all happy and good again

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:: 2005 18 August :: 1.05 pm

Being a teenager is so effing stupid.
Thank God Pj loves me. Im so done with all of this bullshit.
No one is PJ. NO ONE. you cant fuck with soul mates my friend cant fuck with em.
I love you Pj

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:: 2005 18 August :: 12.08 pm

heres to hoping that the two hours of sleep i got could make up for all that i lost last night.
I was almost done crying i thought, apparently i just ran out of energy. Now that Im slightly refreshed its back to gut wrenching sobs and screaming.
One more day of this and I dont know that I will be able to make it.
Im so fucking tore up

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:: 2005 18 August :: 7.09 am

Sorry to clog up your friends page...
what i really hate is knowing the next morning that everything i did was wrong.
talking to my mom and having her verify what i knew in my heart but shoved aside for practicalities sake.
You will know what this is the next time we talked. soon hopefully i dont think that ill be able to make those two weeks. im already half dead and know what i want finally.
apparently it takes one sleepless night and Deidra to enlighten.
I should have talked to her first. no offense to those who tried to help but well shes Deidra and a damn good mentor.
so now im off to the drs. I look like total shit.
huge ass bags under my eyes all that stuff. you know.
I never really understood that song "Praying for Daylight"
It finally set in around 5:30 this morning as I finished up disk two of the second season of Sex and the City.
I really hope that we work this out. well its not much working out anymore Im finally straight I just hope that it not to late in the game to fix everything. I shouldnt post this i should be talking to you. Im done. I love you.

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:: 2005 18 August :: 4.50 am

fucking god I hope that your forgiving.

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:: 2005 18 August :: 4.47 am

well two hours left until i can "get up"
or at least until my alarm goes off.
this day isnt starting so well maybe cuz yesterday never ended.
work is going to suck.
who am I kidding everything sucks.

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:: 2005 18 August :: 3.22 am

with three hours until my alarm is set to go off i wonder if I should even bother trying to sleep anymore.
my head is splitting.
I still love you, you know.

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