please don't break me...</3

:: 2008 5 May :: 8.40pm

In Rockford all week. However, I am working 9 to 5. So if you want to hang. Gimme a ring a ling.

:: 2008 4 May :: 8.42pm

I went to AQ's graduation yesterday. The girls (Bekka, Laura and Theresa) all graduated.

Today they moved out. And even though I know that we will keep in touch and I will see them again, it still makes me sad. I hate endings.

mudpiegrl

:: 2008 28 April :: 1.58pm

so, i've lost faith in humanity. and men. and teachers.

adults are no more intelligent than kids. in fact, less so. and they think they know everything, which makes it worse.

it's always nice, too, when people lie to you. or when they use you. or when they cheat on their gfs.

oh, hospitals are also very fun places. spend time there. you'll love the smell of your clothes when you leave. also, keeping things from people because they're sick is a good way to handle things. now you know.

being behind in school is also a grade A way to handle things. just let it not happen all day, and it won't get done tmro either.

I'm such a fantastic person.
can i just die now?

3 broke me | I think im broken

loserxdork

:: 2008 28 April :: 8.56am

Whoa, I haven't been on here in like almost a year!
Holy crap, it's been forever and woohu was my first
love. Well, I'm back now. I can't guarantee you how
often I'll be on here but I will try my hardest. Now,
I'm going to read my entries and see how retarded
my life was over the past I think 4 or 5 years.

8 broke me | I think im broken

:: 2008 27 April :: 9.25pm

Looking at cars as ours is dying/dead. I found one I really want. They say it runs fine, it just doesn't reverse. How much do you need reverse anyway? Just park where you don't have to back up.

So if you guys find/see/hear of any cheap cars... let me know.

I love you all.

:: 2008 25 April :: 1.09am

Thing I just remembered:

When Hannah and I went to see Don Quixote, we thought during the entire ballet that this one woman was this other chick's mother. But then she suddenly marries/hooks up with this creepy guy. And she is apparently other chick's really old and ugly sister.

mudpiegrl

:: 2008 24 April :: 6.10pm

it has upset me for the very last time.

being told that i am too creative will never end, but i've realised that it's okay.

for one, the greatest artists in history have gone against the grain and were rejected for it.

examples:

Pablo Picasso

Jacques Louis David

Theodore Gericault

Alfred Jarry

Benjamin Franklin (though not a fine artist, a rejector nonetheless)

i don't pretend to be nearly as great as any of these people, and though there are failures among the greats, i will find something else to do if i fail.

For instance, my teacher does not have her name in lights, nor won an academy award. She is a teacher at columbia college. and she has to steal shows from seniors when she wants to do them, because she is no great human, even in chicago.

besides this, i refuse to misrepresent myself as an artist. i have been told to never lie and never to give the impression that i can do something i cannot. so why would my portfolio, as she says, present me in that way.

so for portfolio day, i will copy pictures of statues and old photographs. i will take tracing paper and trace them all, leaving the photocopied images in behind them. i will present them for my A, and not allow her to see my portfolio.

if she fails me, i will go to the dean and protest my failing the class based on too much creativity.

after all, i chose a school with the motto, "CREATE CHANGE".

if only this was practiced...:/

:: 2008 22 April :: 3.27am

Hey remember when I was all "no more writing papers at the last minute and no more staying up until 6 am"?

Well here I am writing a paper. I am trying to wrap it up as much as I can as I have a little time to work on it tomorrow and am pretty tired and sick of it already.

2 broke me | I think im broken

:: 2008 21 April :: 1.00am

"I used to think the world was broken down by tribes. By black and white. By Indian and white. But I know that isn't true. The world is only broken into two tribes: The people who are assholes and the people who are not."

Anyone else know how angry I am at myself that I did not see this man speak when I had the chance? I am quite upset. He best not keel over before I see him.

Also, how upset am I that I did not go to U of Chicago? Look at this essay prompt: "Don't play what's there, play what's not there." -- Miles Davis (1926-91)

And this one: Chicago professor W. J. T. Mitchell entitled his 2005 book "What Do Pictures Want?" Describe a picture and explore what it wants.

And my favorite: Modern improvisational comedy had its start with The Compass Players, a group of University of Chicago students, who later formed the Second City comedy troupe. Here is a chance to play along. Improvise a story, essay, or script that meets all of the following requirements:

* It must include the line "And yes I said yes I will Yes" (Ulysses, by James Joyce).
* Its characters may not have superpowers.
* Your work has to mention the University of Chicago, but please, no accounts of a high school student applying to the University–this is fiction, not autobiography.
* Your work must include at least four of the following elements:
o a paper airplane
o a transformation
o a shoe
o the invisible hand
o two doors
o pointillism
o a fanciful explanation of the Pythagorean Theorem
o a ventriloquist or ventriloquism
o the Periodic Table of the Elements
o the concept of jeong
o number two pencils

SERIOUS.

:: 2008 20 April :: 10.39pm

STRESS CHECK
One paper due Tuesday. Exam for same class on Tuesday. Currently have a D+ in this class. Thank goodness I can write it in English.

One paper due on Friday. Tons of questions also due on Friday. Currently have a C in this class. Oh PS this is the one in French.

One paper was due last Friday. I stayed up all night writing it. Got maybe two hours of sleep. I do not want to do that again but here I am, not writing any papers.

Two exams next week.

Laura's birthday on Thursday. The What's Morally Wrong with Homosexuality guy is coming on Wednesday. I would like to get these things done ahead of time but I just wasted all my weekend.

I = lame ass.

I = love you all.

:: 2008 19 April :: 12.51pm

Monk
Nick and I have been watching Monk all weekend. I am glad I finally got him to watch and like this show.

Every time Monk talks to his psychiatrist, which happens in almost every episode, I get really sad. Stanley Kamel died last week.

This made me cry, it's a full page ad that the cast of Monk placed in Daily Variety:
Read more..

2 broke me | I think im broken

queenofcarrotflowers

:: 2008 18 April :: 11.41pm

friends only.
a fresh new start.
i will keep up with my old journal,
but i believe that i will update this one from now on.
too many memories.
i've got a new perspective;
a better outlook.

it feels great.

mudpiegrl

:: 2008 17 April :: 12.02am

i have issues with being a tree in a parking lot.

all the other trees get to hand out together on the side, but i have a slab of asphalt in my way.

:/