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3 broke me | I think im broken

:: 2006 25 August :: 10.36pm

My mom doesn't think I can get enough money to go to France.

Thanks for the support, Mom.

2 broke me | I think im broken

:: 2006 25 August :: 12.34pm
:: Mood: contemplative

if you really did love me more than anyone else in the world...

you wouldn't let a(n) asshole/douche bag/shit head/dick/jerk/mother fucker/wigger/pot head who thinks he's better than everybody else take you away from me.

and yes, i forgive you. people change, i understand that. people get caught up in things, i understand that as well. just as of now, i don't want you to think i'm going to sit around thinking things are how they used to be, or even okay. i'm sure they can be, eventually. when you're done letting that asshole treat you like shit and walk all over you.

i can't promise that when you're ready to be yourself again there will be some fucking gumdrop-fairy-unicorn land recovery.
(although there very likely could be, considering the kind of people we are.)

i still love you, carly. you'll always be my favourite person. you'll always be in my life. (there is no escaping me, mwahaha.) i'll always be able to come to you when i need you (unless you're with douche man.) and i hope you'll be able to come to me, too. i know you're sad. that's not you. carly is not a sad person. do what it takes to make yourself happy.

if it's staying with an asshole just so you have someone to hold on to, do that i guess.
but if it's breaking up with him and catching shit for it, deal with the shit. then get over it.

you only have one year left here, how do you want to spend it?

:: 2006 23 August :: 6.16pm
:: Mood: apathetic.

my mom tried to run over me yesterday.

i'm wondering why i don't care.

:: 2006 22 August :: 9.37pm

Classes are fine. I will hopefully be getting books tomorrow or Thursday because I have homework due on Thursday and Friday.

I got a new tire. It was 48 dollars and change.

I need $1100 give or take $10 by September 6. Then I will need $520 every month through April. France.

I love you all.

:: 2006 20 August :: 7.56pm

Since my classes don't start until tomorrow at noon, I'm going to try and see if I can get my tire fixed before then.

I hope so because I have class until 6:30.

I'm all set for school (minus books), just nervous.

I'm going to go do laundry and clean my room.

I love you all.

:: 2006 20 August :: 10.16am

I got a flat tire...

:(

2 broke me | I think im broken

Angel_Bob

:: 2006 19 August :: 11.43pm

Jessa, why didn't you tell me?
I don't know whether to be happy or sad about this.

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3 broke me | I think im broken

:: 2006 19 August :: 8.17am

Some student mentioned on The Moose (Aquinas' online forum/news post thing) that he wanted to start an Arabic class and all he needed were people who wanted to take it.

I stupidly emailed him to say I would love to take it. Even though I'm at 18 credits and six classes. I don't know about your college, but at Aquinas 12-18 credits is the same price and 19 credits or higher costs more money.

So if this Arabic class does pan out, I have to drop something. Maybe more than one somethings because a language class is usually 4 credits. So there goes Spanish.

I don't mind really. I have always wanted to learn Arabic. My grandmother never spoke it. She always told us when our shintins were showing but besides that, the only Arabic she spoke was when she told us the names of the food she was making.

I miss my grandmother. I miss her yelling at my mom ("Annie!") or just plain exclaiming ("For HEAVEN'S sake"). I miss the plastic lego-like plants on the table that no one dared to sit by and the hassock that was held together, barely, by packaging tape. I miss Easter and her horribly 50's Christmas tree. I miss Thanksgiving with everyone in the family and time-outs in "the chair" when we were too old. I miss her homemade play-doh and the little cinnamon rolls she always bought. I miss "Uncle Mike's juice" and my cousin, Tyler. I miss my grandfather's chair and watching TV through his binoculars. I miss her fireplace and her huge piece-of-furniture-TV.

Tangent, sorry.

I love you all.

I think im broken

mudpiegrl

:: 2006 18 August :: 10.03pm

im finally home from work.

i spent an awesome week in the city. patrice and i both got jobs; mine is at columbia and hers is at coldstone. we ate at some restaurants, walked on some streets, spent loads of money, went grocery shopping. we unpacked a lot, and patrice has endless clothes.

i went to columbia today to sign a paper at ten am, then hurried to make the ten thirty metra to north glenview, which i did.
except i got on the west line...not the north. so i had to turn around, wait thirty minutes for the eastbound train, run off that train to catch the northbound and i finally made it to north glenview, and then to yardhouse, forty minutes late. but work wasnt too bad. i coloured mostly.

afterwards, i called a bunch of friends and my family. no one could come pick me up. none of my friends answered, and my brother was going out, and my parents were both too intoxicated. isn't that fun?
my brother didnt even leave until i got home anyway...and i had to have katie, who was planning to head twenty minutes the opposite direction, drive me home.

so needless to say, im a little perturbed.

however, my paycheck is $402.80, the most i've ever made on one paycheck. and it's most of my rent.

also, my new job pays $7.75/hr, and has a steady 20 hrs a week. that makes $155 a week, $620 a month, minus taxes, but it's still good for rent. heck yes! plus, i'm planning on aquiring another job for the weekends... :-D

I think im broken

Angel_Bob

:: 2006 18 August :: 7.01pm

I was going to call Katie and Kelly and whomever else today to see who wanted to hang out but I just don't feel up to it.

I'm worn out.

Angel_Bob

:: 2006 17 August :: 12.12pm

Little Miss Sunshine showtimes... Saturday...

Celebration
1:00 3:15 5:30 7:45 10:00

Cinemark at Grandville
10:55 1:40 4:25 7:25 9:55

3 broke me | I think im broken

:: 2006 16 August :: 1.50pm

yesterday scared me.
i felt... distance.

but as the night went on, it went away.
he never ceases to amaze me.

little things make me happy.
like his mom giving me cap erasers.
and bringing in his baby pictures.

i love him.

...
this is totally off subject.
but i'm looking out of my window at all the people zooming around in their boats...

it's prettier when the boats aren't there.

i want them to crash into eachother.

7 broke me | I think im broken

:: 2006 15 August :: 10.06pm

Work is really busy this week because of people who want to schedule or change classes at the last minute. How much of the last minute? School starts on Monday and people are making appointments for Friday.

Anyway, I went into work today from 9-5 and I'll go in tomorrow too. Then I'll be in for my normal hours the rest of the week.

I am not looking forward to next week. The first few weeks are horrible work-wise. Everyone wants a copy of their schedule (even though they can get it online) and they all want to drop and add classes.

I'm excited that classes start soon but my schedule is so messy that I'm afraid I'll be stressed out.

[Schedule below the cut.]
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I can't remember when I work so until I do, just think of it as Tuesday, Wednesday and Friday when I'm not in class.

I love you all.