HeAD RusH

14 People Fired | Ready..Aim..

:: 2003 9 September :: 7.00pm

i think of how frustrated i've become with everything. Today just pulled my last string with band. After class I went in to tell Mr.Lerner that I was going to miss the Sept 19th gamve vs. Martin County because I am going to be going to Gainesville to meet with the music school up there... Lerner breaks out with "well, you have a commitment to the band, you made a commitment to tuesdays, thursdays and fridays" to which I responded "I understand but that was the only date that I could get a meeting with the administration and I could go up to gainesville" to which hes like "well you have to stick to your commitments" & I said "Well I also have a commitment to myself to go to COLLEGE!" to which he responds "well maybe you shouldn't pick conflicting commitments" and at that point i just kind of blew up saying "If i have to choose between band and going to college, i'm going to college" and dashed out.

Its funny... something i used to love so much has become the bane of my existence. I truly despise what this organization has become. I can honestly say that i am ashamed of meeting other band members after they have seen our show (or lack there of) ... I am co captain of this band, whatever that happens out there is a direct reflectiono n my leadership skills (or lack thereof)...

if things get worse (and i thought i'd NEVER be saying this) then chorus & Mr.Houchins aren't looking too bad...

::sigh::

:: 2003 8 September :: 11.18pm

Do you hear the people sing?

3 People Fired | Ready..Aim..

whenthesunsets

:: 2003 8 September :: 3.36pm
:: Mood: optimistic

its these days im given
each none like the other
and they tell my story that you wont forget
carved in my soul
each page written in gold
and marked by your fingerprints
(this is only the beginning of the series)

:: 2003 5 September :: 8.05am

the libra sign that was assigned to me was sensible at first. but really i think it should have been cancer. because the name seems just so fitting of me. a dangerous anomaly in your system. and what shall you do?

4 People Fired | Ready..Aim..

:: 2003 4 September :: 2.37am

fuck european history.

i didn't even want to take the bullshit class.

ANGRY!

1,175 words... thats as good as its getting.
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I'm going to UF the 18th-20th or 21st... anyone care to join me?

8 People Fired | Ready..Aim..

:: 2003 1 September :: 11.55pm

what a wonderful weekend...

Greg came home to me Friday night and no other word can describe this weekend except purely "magical."

He left me again today and you know what, i'm okay. I have faith that our love will overcome all of the obstacles thrown at us and distance will mean nothing. Everyday as I look towards the future I realize how serious this is getting and how serious it can be in the future and surprisingly enough, i'm not scared.

I'm glad its taken me 18 years to experience this, any less and I wouldn't know what to do with it.

:: 2003 1 September :: 1.46am

inthe face of mortality
i will declare my infinity

my muscles will atrophy
but i am infinity
my speech might stutter
heart may flutter
vision will fail me
but i am infinity
my limbs may drag
my balls will sag
hearing might lag
but i am infinity
my skin might dry
senses go awry
my body will die
but i am infinity

so my body will atomize?
that is no reason to dramatize
my future lack of physical size
for i. i am inFINNNNNity

~

:: 2003 26 August :: 10.41pm

my baby boys...

and Weston's crazy misfits tattoo smack on his leg :0P

first real SAT class today... wow. I didn't realize there were so many dumb people in this world. Class is okay though, my instructor is pretty rad.

My baby comes home to me in 3 days!!!!...all crazy tattooed and all...

silly boy <3

6 People Fired | Ready..Aim..

:: 2003 25 August :: 4.35pm

JohnCerone: oh guess what babe
JohnCerone: i spent 270 on books today!!!!
JohnCerone: and only bought two books
JohnCerone: and engineering paper
picsxstarsxdream: aww
JohnCerone: i have to buy one more
JohnCerone: for 106
JohnCerone: blah!
picsxstarsxdream: aww
JohnCerone: screw this
JohnCerone: im gonna be a professional vivi lover
JohnCerone: it's free
picsxstarsxdream: lol
JohnCerone: with great benefits

silly silly silly boy.

4 People Fired | Ready..Aim..

:: 2003 24 August :: 12.00am

baby in this town the sun dont eva' go down

Ready..Aim..

13 People Fired | Ready..Aim..

:: 2003 23 August :: 1.39am

and hes gone...

i can't seem to stop crying... whatever am i going to do

:: 2003 22 August :: 6.24pm

friends. ha. what a crock of shit.

4 People Fired | Ready..Aim..

:: 2003 22 August :: 12.00am

the modern concept of friendship is almost all but a relic remaining of the greatest concept ever to be. im not sure what compells people to be so cold, but it is so nevertheless. there does exist a moral conciousness far stronger than anything we have thought or made, yet it continues to be ignored for the lack of it's benefit to the power-hungry individual and their personal gain. we are human, none above the other. fixated on becoming demi-gods through our technology, we are leaving ourselves behind in this maelstorm of automation and super-everything. supercars, superchips, supersize, supercomputers, supersonic planes, superweapons. for fucks sake our country prides itself on being a "superpower." there's nothing "super" about having enough weapons to destroy the planet several times over. where the hell do we think we are going? this icy road is downdowndown. compassion is the shit man.

Ready..Aim..

:: 2003 20 August :: 3.46pm

BAM!!! Guess who won another photo contest!!!!!!!!!

beary beary happy :0) that means TWO published pictures for this little girl!

In other news, T- minus 3 days :0(