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2005 19 March :: 10.31am
hey akon, was your song about me?
me, myself, and beautiful ashley?
francis, the girl i love, said i am.
retorted with a droop cause ive felt like mister lonely. she knows i have. i love her to death, and she loves me. after she finished telling me she was kidding and that im not mister lonely, who did she say I deserve to be? mister lonely. not who i was, someone i deserved to be. well that word deserve smacked a nerve.
you know what stems from the mouth of lonely? fuck that. serve it to me. if its what i deserve. try to make me mister lonely. mind as well murder me. try. all you can do is try. ill never be mister lonely. cause truth is if i was ever alone from you my clock would stop. id die.
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2005 2 March :: 12.24am
cold hearted bitch
Shmay. Fake ass Bray.
What a bunch of lard. (Literally)
You don't stand in my way.
I have nothing to hide.
You'll never have what I've got.
I know where my heart is.
You're just a cold hearted bitch with nappy hair.
Devil, give me all you've got.
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2005 16 February :: 4.26pm
valentines day was wonderful. bryan was my valentine and was a good one at that. i drove to his apartment and hung out for a while. he bought me roses, a teddy bear and these chocolates that were soooo good. we had a dinner reservation at P.F.Changs at 8:45. Glenn always talked about going there, but we never did. It was soo good. We talked and had a wonderful time. At one point i looked over, and seanandashley were sitting like 3 tables away from us. i was tempted to go say hello, but i opted not to because it was valentines day and didnt want to interrupt their romantic dinner. they looked so happy, it made me happy. as much as i miss him, and wish he and i could have some sort of a friendship, it makes mehappy just knowing that everything is going good for him. but anyways, after dinner, we went back to bryans apartment and we hung out for a little longer, and then around 11:45 i left. but before i left, bryan kissed me. it was sooooo weird becuase we have been friends for like 2-2.5 years. but it finally happened, and i enjoyed it. he made my valentines day special. and i adore him for that.
i texted glenn on valentines day and said 'happy valentines day, remembr the last one?' and he didnt respond. but im hoping that he didnt because he actually thought of the last one and what happened. all the shit i did for him, andall the shit he did for me. and the weekend we spent on peanut island camping. priceless.
i just have to keep it in my mind that everything happens for a reason.
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2005 9 February :: 12.22am
today is a wonderful day.
Goodmorning babe !! <3
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2005 31 January :: 5.05pm
fuck it all. he came down. and expected. and i am not giving it up. made a plan. till marriage. and i dont want anything serious right now. cant stand one boy for more then a week. so hen he expected, i felt disrespected and ejected his ass. fuck all that. i got my girls. its all i need. not some jerkoff who wants ass.....
im not giving it up. ever. till marriage.
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2005 30 January :: 3.39am
always here im always here
everclear
never fear
ill stand till the end of time
for the most beautiful girl methemorphasize the world
i will.
and i just wanted to spill
the best two year old news there is: i love you
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2005 26 January :: 8.14pm
assume i hate.. you fill in the blank
lori told me she saw him in the mall with his girlfriend. the girl i knew he was dating. uhg. i so knew it. oh well.. but its not even who hes dating or the fact that he is dating, its what he had the nerve to say. to assume that im doing 'just fine' really pisses me off. what i would give for you to call me and see how im doing. but i guess you are too preoccupied. whatever. slowly im getting over it, but... to assume. you only make an ass of yourself.
i have a man. not a boy. a man. for the first time. it shows what i was missing out on. you are just a boy. who will always have a piece of my heart. unfortunately. and its the exact reason why i want to move away from here. now. i want to pack my bags and run away. run to the man. but it seems like im good from running away from problems. what i would give for it to all just dissipate. for good. like the pictures on my wall, or the memories. or the wax hand we mad together. everything.. escaping.
like my heart.
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2005 11 January :: 12.39am
gone crazy.
you and i . US. thats what we are. thats what we always will be. yesturday and tomorrow. ALWAYS. but for today life wont be how it used to. it will be an adventure. it started when some bad weather blew in. our plans got messed up. but instead of letting it ruin our day, we're going to make the best of it and change them. it's not what we wanted, but its better then being disappointed and letting it get the best of us. tomorrow will eventually come. and it will be the best morning of my life.
babe, I Love You. nothing is any match for us. look what we've been through and what we're going through. nothing will keep us apart. if you believe that then theres nothing to worry about. you know i dont have bad intentions. i know youre trying and it means so much to me. trust your crazy heart and mine.
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2005 9 January :: 2.36pm
feels like dying
dead trying
drum silouhette rat tat tat
someone lit a bomb tuesday my name scatterbrain ever since. vicodin and all the other shit with this wisdom teeth mouth garbage fucks up the head id suggest just opting to go into a coma for a few days to recover if you ever need your wisdom teeth gone. whadda crazy ass week to start the new year definetly a few screws loose for sure ahh but im tightening those bitches up. i wish we would have had breakfast babe but oh darn it will have to be another day i hope. got to go back to boca raton soon and get back up in the riff raff but this time will be different im not gonna waste these months sitting and smoking and shitting. the 3 S's haha. im gonna start writing and using my mind again that shit feels like its been on pause too long and im gonna learn to play the fucking geetar if it kills me im not blowing shit out my ass i am going to learn and going to kill with it hell yea. lets all have some fun.
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2005 7 January :: 1.44pm
I just got home from the beach. Jon and I went to the Delray beach because its my favorite and then we went to lunch at the Old Key Lime House. We nearly got attacked by the seagulls there. It was fun. Last night Lange brought flowers to my work and I got embarrassed. They were beautiful and I hung out with him after I got out of work at 11:30. We went to his friend Justins apartment and started messing with my car. I told them what im going to do with it and they made a few phone calls. Everyone thinks my car is going to look soo sweet. I have to work tonight and tomorrow night. Saturday night Lori and I are going out, so we’ll have fun. I got the new Used c.d. and I got Lion King 1 ½. I love the Lion King. Now all I have to get is Lion King 2. Jon is buying a boat soon so we can go on it. He and I are going to take a fishing trip and camp out. He’s going to let me ride his new bike when his ankle heals. He’s selling his car for the boat and is going to ride his bike around primarily.
Im tinting my windows this weekend. Lange is going to do all of the windows except the back. Im getting the back window done at Tint World hopefully on Saturday or Tuesday. Then Im buying these rims for $400 and dropping my car. Justin is going to do my paint job, which will be black with a pink stripe going around. Before the paint job, im getting a body kit, and since they don’t make one for the year my car was made, im going to get one a year later and all of the guys are going to mold it to my car to make it fit. Then my new seats are black with pink lining. Pink neons on the interior and exterior. New speakers are going in shortly and a system. A radar detector and new mirrors. All within a few months. Im excited.
Well I have to get ready for work, so…. Have a good day.
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2005 7 January :: 11.23pm
dizzyspell in my head. big juan.
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2005 7 January :: 12.10am
dah babe all the gush it smells like a tush pubic hair can look like a bush annd you make my heart melt to mush
the same heart you drive up the wall and make crazy as fuck
it can feel alot of different ways but it always goes back to mush
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2005 1 January :: 2.32pm
Well this week has been crazy. It started on Tuesday but all those details are old now. on Thursday lori and I went to the clubs downtown. We stayed in pure because Ronnie is the owner and we hung out with him most of the time. We had soo much fun. Everyone had to leave around 5am because Ronnie was shutting it down for the night and a fight started right out front. Lori and I didn’t know anything was going on until we got to my car and realized no one was behind us, so we walked all the way back and Richard was fighting some kid over some stupid shit, and another kid popped out some mase and sprayed everyone. Jess got sprayed in her eyes and was crying. Adriana was soo drunk and when she drinks she gets all emotional. The whole time shes trying to walk, shes crying and stumbling and saying, “that fight was all about me because I was talking to this kid and pauls brother saw.” Yet the fight was over some stupid shit with the kid and Richard. Because jess couldn’t see, I had to drive to Wellington to drop off aliza, Adriana, jess and Stephan. Lori and I got home around 6-6:30. and slept until 11. we drove to the beach and realized it was too damn cold out so we went and got our nails done. Then last night was fun as hell. I originally didn’t have plans. I really wanted to hang out with jose but by the time I got off work, he was in Wellington already. So mark came and picked me up and we went to this block party in one of the le chalet neighborhoods. We stayed there with Justine, Erica and Felicia for a while but mark got a call from his uncle about a party they were having in Wellington, so we went there. the guys house is like a mansion and they got a bounce house, a dj a caterer and it was soo much fun. I met all of marks family pretty much and we had a few drinks, and went and ……. Lets just say about 8 of us packed in to a car for some fun. Mark and I left around 1 and I was done. All I wanted was to go home. My mom was trashed and didn’t notice anything was up with me. Crazy. And tonight… lori and I are going back downtown. This time, im not driving, so it will be more fun.
I texted him and told him happy new years and he didn’t reply. I really don’t understand. I wish someone could explain this to me.
anyways, going to work. come in and see me.
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2004 31 December :: 10.01pm
wow...
its been entirely too long since i've stepped into the newly "elite" land of woohu. Well Andy, I must say that the place looks good!
To a new year... God help us in what may come.
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2004 23 December :: 4.20pm
drving there i had a weird feeling. looking back i had no idea the reason i didnt want to go. i should've listened to my intuition. but of course, i went. so finishing at the table, i look over and see a familiar face walk into the bathroom. right away i knew he was there. i looked up, and there he was, oblivious to the fact that i was a mere 30 feet behind him. leaving everything on the table, i walked out. panicing, not knowing if i should go say hi, or leave it alone.
and of course, i left well enough alone. i walked out and saw his car. and in the rearview window was the necklace i bought him hanging there. right in that second i froze. it was hard for me to breathe through my crying, but i drove off.
sitting here i am wondering if they are dating. is she the reason im not in his life anymore? i thought i was alright, okay even. i could say that everything is going ok. but its in the moment that you see the person you spent so much time with. everything i had told myself just fell.
and im glad he didnt see me.
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