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2005 15 March :: 8.16am
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: Jimmy Eat World
get out of this place..
All the best DJs are saving
Their slowest song for last
When the dance is through
Its me and you
Come on, would it really be so bad
The things we think might be the same
But I won't fight for more
Its just not me to wear it on my sleeve
Count on that for sure
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2005 11 March :: 7.39am
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: Brand New- Sic Transit Gloria .... and Brittany <33
=]
Well people.. im gunna have the best weekend ever. I got my cell phone back. My mom gave it to me this morning ! and she hit my and shes like thanks for being a good kid. Mmk then =] Well; today when i get home anysias coming over at like 3:30 =] and then at 7:30 we're going to alisons house and ermins gunna be there. We'll watch movies and crap then saturday hanging out with anysia the whole day.. then somehow me;alison;jon;billy;alicia;maddie; and wes are gunna go out to eat. i dont know if i want my hawaiin jon to go.. =\ i like him and all... but i'd rather be with friends .. idk about that situation yet.. i `ll have to talk it over with everyone =]. yeah..
im so glad i have the best sophomore friends in the hole wide fucking world !!!
<3 Later Guys
I LOVE ANYSIA ALI#1 AND ALI # 2
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2005 10 March :: 7.54am
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: The used
Ladi da
hey guys.. i fixed my jernal.
update later..
<3 Laterrr
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2005 2 March :: 7.51am
:: Mood: creative
:: Music: nothing ..
NEW WOOHU
Hey i finally got a new woohu =] so i can update it in computer class.. im trying to figure all these codes out because i forgot how to use it ! lol
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2005 2 March :: 7.47am
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: Nothing
Blahhhhh
Hey guys.
i just got this piece of crap right now. me and brittany are trying to figure out this shit. i used have a whoohu but they went pay so it got deleted and i forgot how to do this. if ANYONE can help PLEASE help me. comment. =] thanks. Well; computer class right now.. nothing new. still boring... hmm.. nothing much else to say. so i'll talk to all you cool peeps later.
Later kiddz
<3
DONT FORGET TO COMMENT THANKS !!
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2005 1 March :: 7.44am
:: Mood: grumpy
:: Music: my chemical romance
hey love
hey love, its britt just testing your wOoHOooO !! lol =] love you tons
xox
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2004 8 December :: 6.09pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Blink-182 "I miss you"
I don't want this to be too sudden, but thank you. In the very very short time I've know you, all my fears of never finding a guy who isn't an asshole, have completley and totally vanished.
Not only do I feel like I have found someone to fu-full all my dreams and so much more, I've got someone I can rely on and trust which may not sound like it means much, but when everyone you've ever really loved or trusted mostly family, has totally betrayed you, it means the absolute world.
I have only known you for a little while and I already feel like the luckiest girl alive. No one else, and nothing else has, and could compare to this. No one else could ever make me feel the way that you do. You really TRUELY, care. You listened to me, and continue to be there for me when I need you. And it'll only get better from here.
That time that I was with you, and I could be with you a million more times like that and it could never change, except for to get better. There's just something competley different about you, your personality, your smell, your touch, you, you're just different. The way you make me feel is totally different, and I don't ever want to feel that way with anyone BUT you. There's a comfort in your eyes that tell sme it's okay to trust you, and something in your coice that tells me this is for real, forever.
I do't ever want to let you down, I only want to make you happy and give you all that I know you deserve. I know you'll be there, to lcing on too when I'm needy and need you, to re-assure me when the world brings me down, tears us down, too hold on to my hand when I'm terrified, to whipe away my tears from my eyes, to be my everything.
I promise you there's no need to worry because I have the best of your intentions at heart. I would never hurt you. I would never lie to you. I would never mis-use your trust, I would never do anything but be me for you.
Things will only get better than how they are now.
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2004 1 December :: 2.04pm
Thank you Jess,Jenna, and Jess. You three just made my day so much better you have no idea!!! Before 6th hour I was raging! Thank you! I love you guys , I <3 you~!
<3 Jess
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2004 30 November :: 6.56pm
The COOLEST Kissing Survey! | Created by xoILuvChrisxo and taken 94 times on bzoink! | | What is your name? | Jess | | Age? | 16 | | Ok, so how many people have you kissed? | Not a lot, not a little. | | How old were you when you had your first kiss? | 5 | | When was the last time you kissed someone? | Last night | | By far who was your best kiss? and why? | Oh billy the fire man, Kate knows what I'm talkin bout dontcha ? ;) | | And worst? why? | hmm tony? | | What is the best kissing advice you have? | Start on a lady's neck,it can hook any girl, then she'll definatly be all over you. | | What do you like best when a guy kisses you? | The neck, duh?? Weren't you paying any attention? | | Where do you put your hands when you kiss? | I think it's sooo hot when a guy puts his hands on my neck when he kisses me,makes me feel comfortable and safe lol | | Do you keep your eyes closed or open? | uhh closed like the rest of us sane ppl | | Do you like to kiss to music? | yeah that's hot | | Where is the best place to kiss? | someone place where people can't see | | Are movie theaters good places? | yeah | | What makes someone a bad kisser? | if they drool on you like a cocker spaniel | | Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex? | yeah, I kiss Kate goodnight all the time | | Do you prefer soft pecks or intense make out sessions? | neither, I like REAL kisses | | Have you ever kissed a stranger? | yeah | | Would you ever just hook up with someone just for the fun of it? | What do you mean hooking up? Like sex, cos if that's what you mean no, b/c im still a virgin. | | What is your favorite makeout song? | I think it'd be hot to make out to "I will for you" by Monica and i have it in my purse if anyone pulls a quckie on me ;) | | What is your favorite kissing game? | "Spoil Jess with kisses" It's a fun game you should try it sometime. | | Have you ever kissed someone with bad breath? | can't say that I have | | What is your favorite kissing lip gloss? | sour smackers it's the only stuff i like to actually taste | | Do you think kissing is very private? | yes, very private and personal. To me at least. | | How do you feel about PDA's? | Public Affection?? hm...it's okay as long as your not maken out | | Have you ever practiced kissing on a mirror or pillow? | umm no definatly not | | Do you like to kiss in the dark? | yeah | | Do you like eskimo and butterfly kisses? | aww eskimo kisses are sooo cute so are butterfly kisses | | If you could replay one kiss in your life, which one would it be? | the one in my basment | | Which is better:kissing or sex? | kissing, im not ready for sex, and prob. wont be for along time | Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink! |
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2004 30 November :: 5.04pm
I just did something really really bad...that might come back to bite me in the ass. Ugh!
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2004 30 November :: 1.55pm
That makes me so happy. you make me so happy. you dont even understand how much that meant to me. I wasn't expecting it at all, and the fact that you went out of your way makes me even more thankful that I can even...connect with you on that level. You just don't even understand yay!!
I can't wait till the play on Thursday :)
Katie, I love you darlin! You are my sunshine!
I hate Mrs. Schaffer..ughhh dumb dumb dumb.
I NEED A TUTOR FOR ANATOMY BITCHES!
babysitting ahhh...no more. I can't handle anymore.
Ohhhh stand by me lol I cannot believe how dumb I am. Stand by me, stand by me.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh please last please last please last.
<3 Jess
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2004 29 November :: 9.26pm
I thought today was going to be miserable, but after 2nd hour it wasn't all that bad. It was great. After school me and Kate went over to Nate's then, had to babysit from 3:15 till like 8:30 ughhhhhhhh I smell like baby ...baby....baby. Ugh! Their adoreable, but don't listen at all. Finally got home and called Mitch back, and I'm just so happy right now.I hope it stays that way! I LOVE YOU JESSIE GILLETTE YOU ARE A SWEETHEART! I love you Jess WIlde, you are a BOMB ASS PUSSY! and KATE YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE YOU MAKE ME HAPPY WHEN SKYS ARE GREY YOU"LL NEVER KNOW DEAR HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU SO PLEASE DONT TAKE MY SUNSHINE AWAY!!! :) *smiles uncontroablly*
PLEASE if ANY one can tutor me in Anatomy, please please please leave a comment or call me 648-3771.
<3 Jess
Leave me a comment if you love me!!!
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2004 29 November :: 2.23pm
If anyone is good in Anatomy and is willing to tutor me once or twice a week, it would be greatly appreciated. 10 dollars a session, wherever it's convient for you. Leave me a comment or give me a jingle 648-3771.
<3 Jess
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2004 28 November :: 6.43pm
Everythings a bet and I'm the only one losing because no one else could ever win this bet against me. Because no one understands enough to try. Understands that no matter how hard you try, for others , for even yourself that it never works out it never counts or turns out the way you want it too. That somehow you always screw things up, even when you're trying so hard to make it the secret dream you keep deep down, just wishing and praying to come true. When you won't admit it , but you want something serious more than anyone would ever have guessed.
It's a bet, and I wish someone else would try to win it against me. Just to hear the words, I win.
*sigh
No one even possiably understands at all.
<3 Jess
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2004 28 November :: 5.03pm
I hate you for tearing this too pieces just to put them back together again, and who knows if you'll finish the puzzle.
I hate people who smell bad. I LOVEEEE LOVEEEE people who smell good.
I hate the movie King Pin cos Collin is stupid and made me rent it.
I hate that I don't like Anatomy because then I never pay attention. Why I took that class I don't know because it will never help me because I want to be a teacher slash little kids basketball coach.
I hate that this is still my junior year cos I want it to be my senior year soooooo bad! I would do anything for this to be my last year so I can go to CMU and forget high school. I want to go to college so bad cos i hate hate hate!! high school!
I want someone to have and to hold. without getting involed, scared, and running away from it.
I hate my mom and what a terriable mom she really is.
I hate that I ahven't talked to my pretty pussy Jess in like 3 days. :( Where are you pussy???
I hate that you call at the worse of times.
I hate that I can't find a job.
I hate that I can't drive.
I hate that every time I see you I want to smack you for not seeing how great things really are, and how great they could be for you, but I just don't say anything because the thought of fighting with you, again..breaks my heart.
I hate that I have red hair, boo I'm sick of it. and It's "lucious" curls as Andy perfers to call them.
I hate that I'm ACTUALLY wearing the thongs that Joey got my for my birthday lol. What a faggot.
I hate that I've sold ONE add total in yearbook class, and I know how to do absolutely nothing at all!
I hate that I'm obsessed with Rascal Flats and everytime their song comes on I honestly flip a nut.
I hate that school is back in session tomorrow :( ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I h ate that I'm so upset over nothing and sometimes I get so worked up just for the hell of it, and I can't help it and nothing can stop it or make it okay. I just ugh hate it.
I hate I hate I hate kdjfakjdfkasjdf
No one understands how I really feel about anything...because no one knows. I bet my soul..that no one will ever even be able to understand how I feel about a single thing.
<3 Jess
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2004 28 November :: 1.27pm
I'm starting to feel the same way I did when it happened the first time. I don't want to feel like that again. I just want to be happy, and stay that way for longer than a day or two. So please...either be my everything, or just ...leave. For good. I can't handle any ..one minute im here, the next your not. So just decide and leave it be.
I have to go meet some lady at two, because she wants me and Kate to babysit for her. So that should be fun.
I just want it to snow, and for it to be Christmas Vacation.
Ughh..I hate school I don't wanna go back tomorrow.
Jess
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2004 27 November :: 10.23pm
Willma...I love you with all of my heart. You are my best guy friend that I have or will ever have. You mean the absolute world to me! I know that no matter what you are always here for me, and that you will always care about me. The days where I think things could only get worse you are the only one who can get a smile out of me and make me laugh. You have the largest heart, and you definatly make sure it gets put to good use. If I could give you everything you wanted to make you happy, I would do it in a heartbeat, and I hope you know that I love you from the bottom of my heart and will always be here for you.
*hug*
I love you will!
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2004 27 November :: 10.18pm
Please don't do this to me again. I can't handle it. I honestly can't...because I could just whipe it off my mind right now..and just leave things the way that I thought they were and move on, get over it, and possiably find someone else to fu full my needs and wished, dreams, and happiness. So don't even do it if you're not going to take it seriously this time....ugh don't. And I can't exactlly say this flat to your face, because I don't know why you even decided to pop back into my life again. YOu didn't give me an explanation last time wheny ou just decided that was it, or whatever it was you decided, leaving me in pain..but this time...I'm not going to let it happen. I need to know what your intentions are NOW, because I can't take another blow to the heart, because it just might be the last one that I ever can actually handle.
.....just please have g.i's. -jess
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2004 27 November :: 5.53pm
Today was fun. I spent the day shopping at the mall with Kate, Jenn, and Mommy Schaub. It was fun. I got a puppy calendar. Something I'd perfer not to say cos it's kinda gay, someting for my bed, haha me and Kate got "Best Friend Necklaces" haha aren't we the gayest people in the world?!? Anyway. Um I got a really cute belt,My little red and white fluffy stocking, and hmm...I dunno. I'm not supouse to know thatI got something for Christmas but I definatly know what it is, and that I got it lol. I love you Kate! ;)
So yeah I definatly am happy that you are back..."in my life" parsay. :) *smiles* But I swear if you even fuck me over this time I will f u up the butt and kill you!..okay that sounded terriable. I mean I will kill you!
:)
I'm so in the Christmas mood.
<3 Jess
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2004 25 November :: 10.09pm
Did I honestly think that everything would be okay again? You are such a selfish, greedy, miserable bitch that you can't take two seconds to love your own daughter on the day you should be THANKFUL to have me.
Do you know how you make me feel?? I bet if you did you would hate yourself. I have never told anyone the depth of all the pain and emotion there is to it, because I can't even express it in words. You make me hate my life, myself, the second i feel okay with the world, you kick me on my ass. You cause me anger, hurt, tears and you don't even understand what it's doing to me. You don't care, because it isn't you. You don't care because all your emotions are exactlly the opposite of mine. You JUST DONT CARE AND I HATE YOU FOR IT I HATE YOU!!!! I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU!!! You make feel like I am nothing, and not jus to you and our stupid "family" but to the world, to my friends, to anyone and everyone. You make me just want to fucking shoot myself in the head. I am happy, and the second i talk to you that feel of happiness disapears. I can't handle this. I love you so much, and I hate you at the same time. Why I love you..I don't know. You don't deserve my love. But for some reason I still care about you. I'm getting to the point though where I just don't care though. The way ytou make me feel, no one should EVER feel. I hope one day this comes back to kick you in the ass, because you will never understand. Ever. You will never understand how much you hurt me every day. Things will never be the same. Ever. I wish for one day you could eveN TRY to handle me feelings, handle how I feel because of you! You make me feel like no one will ever love me, ever that I will NEVER be good enough, that all I am is a fucking pain in the ass, and a terriable person. Ugh I hate you I hate you! That's not who I am. I hate you!
Happy fucking thanksgiving mom.
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2004 25 November :: 5.01pm
Thanksgiving was fun. The potates were bomb. That's my favorite. Mashed Poates. My comfort food. I love the Schaubs. We played spoons ha, it was bomb. Now I'm going to see Spongebob w/ Jess, what the hell is the matter w/ us?? Spongebob, I hate Spongebob. I don't even want to go. I want to see the Polar Epress. Maybe I can talk her into seeing it instead.Ughh if I have to sit through Spongebob I'll kill myself. YOu have no idea.
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2004 25 November :: 11.49am
Off to go to Thanksgiving dinner w/ Kate and the fam. I love you Kate!!! I am so happy. Just for nor eason I'm really happy. Snow, I hated it, now I love it just cos I haven't been outside once since it got here, but it makes e verythinglook so pretty and me and Kate got in the Christmas mood. We like got out the Christmas mugs and made hot co co and were looking for Christmas movies. Lol Ahhh
If you love me, please leave me a comment.
<3 muah Jess
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2004 24 November :: 11.30pm
That makes me so happy. Jess yay!!! thank you for telling me that. Thank you thank you thank you.
I coudln't believe that , ...that was it. That there was no closure, no ...ending. Now either I'm going to get it. Or I'm going to get everything I wanted from the start.
I actually love the snow right now.
Jess
yayyyyyyyy
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2004 24 November :: 8.39pm
Have You Ever? | Created by voidedINK and taken 7461 times on bzoink! | | Have you ever hit someone forcefully? | Yes | | Have you ever thrown anything at a moving car? | yes | | Have you ever been in a fist fight? | only with like family, and my neighbor | | Have you ever laughed so hard you cried? | yes | | Have you ever hit an animal on the road? | no | | Have you ever seen a Beatles film? | no | | Have you ever cussed? | oh yeah | | Have you ever been on a subway? | no | | Have you ever taught a little kid to cuss? | haha no | | Have you ever cheated on a test/exam? | yes | | Have you ever skipped school? | of course | | Have you ever egged someones house? | no | | Have you ever gotten a computer virus? | yes | | Have you ever cried for no reason at all? | yes | | Have you ever missed someone? | yes | Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink! |
The Perfect Guy | Created by madhatter and taken 6425 times on bzoink! | | Hair color? | Dark | | Eye color? | Brown | | Height? | Tall like 6 foot | | Six pack? | yes | | Long hair or short? | Either Curly hair, like the attractive curly hair, or like shaggy skater boy hair w/ highlights | | Glasses? | no | | Piercings? | cartilage is hot | | Eyebrows? | tamed | | Big butt or little? | tight | | Chest hair? | eww no | | Buff or skinny? | buff | | Teeth? | nice smile | | Section 2 | | Funny or serious? | funny, but knows when to be serious | | Party-hopper or more stay-at-home? | Stay at home w/ me, but party on special occasions | | Should he be able to bake or cook? | oh yeah he's gotta be able to take care of me | | Does he have a best friend? | yes | | Is it okay for him to have a lot of female friends? | ehh yeah i guess, as long as that's all they are | | Out-going or shy? | out going | | Sarcastic or sincere? | sincere | | Does he love his mother? | yes | | Should he watch chick-flicks? | only when i make him | | Would he be a smoker? | hell no | | How about a drinking? | sure | | And swearing? | we all do it | | Would he play with your hair? | when he's being corny and fun yeah | | Would he have more than one girlfriend at a time? | no | | Would he pay for you when you're on a date? | yes | | Does he kiss on the first date? | yes | | Where would you go for dinner? | AppleBeas or Olive Garden | | Would he buy you flowers? | yeah | | Would he lay under the stars with you and spout random philosophies? | aww tha'd be cute | | Would he write poetry about you? | eh, doens't have too, but sure | | Would he use endearments? | hmm...good question...lol | | Would he hang out with your and YOUR friends? | yes | | How about you hanging out with him and HIS friends? | yeah | | Would he walk you up to the door at the end of the evening? | yes | | Would you hold hands? | yes | | Section 3 | | Does he play soccer? | no | | Baseball? | yes | | Football? | yes | | Basketball? | yes | | Water polo? | no | | Golf or something equally boring? | who cares | | Does he surf? | that'd be bomb cos that'd mean i lived by the ocean | | Skateboard? | no | | Snowboard? | sure | | Can he sing? | yes | | Play the guitar? | yes | | Play piano? | yes | | Play the drums? | no | | Can he keep his room clean? | who cares | | Is he an artist of sorts? | yeah | | Does he write his own music? | sure | | Does he have pets? | YES puppies!!! | | Section 4 | | Does he use the word dude? | no | | How about tight? | no | | Would he watch the sun rise and set with you? | sure | | What kind of car does he drive? | who cares | | How old is he? | older than me | | What's his name? | KABONY!!!! | Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink! |
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2004 24 November :: 4.17pm
Oh my gosh. I'm flippin out. Me and Kate took a nap in my bed downstairs. And we woke up and we pop our heads up from the blinding white light coming out of my windows and huh wierd... the ground is covered in snow and it's whit eeverywhere. It's like a friecken blizzard. ugh grr I hate it.
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2004 24 November :: 12.10pm
Last night Cass and Heath came over and I had so much fun. We are the 3 most immature people in the world. I haven't had that much fun in a long time.
Will we're sorry, and I understand if you don't want to forgive us. It was only a joke and we didn't think you'd think it was that big of deal. But we were wrong, and we're sorry.
I feel bad about that.
I did have a great night though!
<3 Jess
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2004 23 November :: 2.25pm
You Are the Stuffing |
You're complicated and complex, yet all your pieces fit together.
People miss you if you're gone - but they're not sure why.
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You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself.
You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable.
You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt.
Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.
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2004 23 November :: 2.02pm
I feel like I'm being forced to keep moving, keep pushing along, but I just can't because I can't stop and deal with all the emotions running throught my head, let along my heart. I just can't shake it.
I forget so often that pretending to be happy doesn't make you any happier. I forgot that pretending I'm satisfied with everything won't give me any satisfaction at all. I forgot that prettending to have an ounce of hope, ins't going to give me any. Most of all I just FORGOT that pretending is only pretending, it doesn't lessen the amount of pain, or make it any less important, or suttle the emotion or tears. The tears that stream down my cheeks are the same with or without any pretending involved. If there IS any difference it's only that the tears fall heaveir when pretending.
If there's anything I can do to help myself get my head back in the game, it's be honest with myself I know what I want and I know what I need so escaping it only makes me a fool for dwelling and complaing about it.
My second worst fear is to wake up one day from my lip gloss, loud music, and shop till I drop reality and realize that's exactlly! what my reality is. That it's everything BUT living. Life is taking chances and it IS taking risks. Stepping on the edge and jumping head first into life and stop avoiding it. Stop coming up with any and every excuse to not live on the wild side for once. To go after what I want to be chasing after.
I wish I had the balls to actually do it, or someone to help me. because I'll just wake up tomorrow and I'll be the exact same way I am every other day.
My only concern is proving it to my self, proving me wrong if no one else can.
Jess
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2004 22 November :: 6.06pm
I wish it could be more, but it never will be, because you're too different from me. I wish we were the same, oh God do I wish.
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2004 22 November :: 5.58pm
Me and Kate just got home from Meijers to get Jessica's birthday present, and we fell in love with the cutest little gerible. And there only 5.99 and the bedding was cheap, and the cage, and everything.I had moeny and we were already picking out names and were soooo exctied, then we called her mom. and yeah it has to be approved by the fadge with will never happen. Lol he doesn't really think we can take care of ourselves let alone another living object. :( I want a puppy.
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