"Being gay is somehow an indulgent choice? It infuriates me. You're either Graham Norton or George Michael getting arrested in parks and I'm neither of those things. I think it appeals to the lowest common denominator that basically there are two types of gay men, the slut, or there's the straight acting guy. Neither of these things have anything to do with penises, or cocks in mouths or any of the things that are related to being gay."
- Former Savage Garden lead singer Darren Hayes, speaking to Gay Times magazine about gay stereotypes on television.
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2009 5 July :: 7.29pm
:: Music: The Limousines- Very Busy People
And when we're done sleeping/ we'll stay busy dreaming/ of the things we don't have yet...
we'll end up numb
from playing video games
and we'll get sick
of having sex
and we'll get fat
from eating candy
as we drink ourselves
to death,
we'll stay up late
making mix tapes
photoshopping pictures
of ourselves
while we masturbate
to these pixelated
videos of strangers
fucking themselves
we are very busy people
we are very busy people
there's crusty socks
and stacks of pizza boxes
making trails straight
to the bed
and when we're done
sleeping we'll stay busy
dreaming of the things
we don't have yet
well there's a long
long list of chores
and shit to do before
we play, oh let's just
piss away the day
crank call the cops
down at the station
just for friendly
conversation requesting
songs they never play
let's hear the one
that goes like
we are very busy people
but we've always got
time for new friends
so come on over and
knock on our door
it's open, what's ya
waiting for
we might be spawled
out on the floor
but we still make
lovely company
pull up a chair
i'll pour some tea
we'll shoot the shit
'bout everything
til you get sick
of politics and
flip on the tv screen
we stare at the tv screen
that donnie darko DVD
has been repeating for
a week and we know every
single word
i've got an ipod
like a pirate ship
i'll sail the seas
with fifty thousand
songs i've never heard
all the best of them
go fa la la la la la la la...
BOTB 15
40) Kaiser Chiefs - Never Miss A Beat
39) Snow Patrol - Take Back The City
38) My Morning Jacket - Two Halves
37) Flight of the Conchords - Think About It
36) The National - Brainy
35) Robert Plant & Alison Krauss - Please Read The Letter
34) Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Heads Will Roll
33) The Decemberists - Valerie Plame
32) David Byrne & Brian Eno - My Big Nurse
31) Nine Inch Nails - Discipline
30) The National - Fake Empire
29) TV On The Radio - Family Tree
28) The Hold Steady - Constructive Summer
27) Snow Patrol - Crack The Shutters
26) Coldplay - Viva La Vida
25) Vampire Weekend - Mansard Roof
24) Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Zero
23) Augustana - I Still Ain't Over You
22) The Hold Steady - Sequestered In Memphis
21) Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds - More News From Nowhere
20) Death Cab for Cutie - Bixby Canyon Bridge
19) Green Day - Know Your Enemy
18) M.I.A. - Paper Planes
17) Snow Patrol - Please Just Take These Photos From My Hands
16) Jenny Lewis - Acid Tongue
15) My Morning Jacket - I'm Amazed
14) TV On The Radio - Golden Age
13) Fleet Foxes - White Winter Hymnal
12/11) The Decemberists - The Wanting Comes In Waves / Repaid / The Rake's Song
10) Augustana - Sweet & Low
9) Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds - Jesus of the Moon
8) Jim James & Calexico - Goin' To Acapulco
7) Regina Spektor - Us
6) The Hold Steady - Stay Positive
5) TV On The Radio - Dancing Choose
4) We Are Scientists - After Hours
3) My Morning Jacket - Evil Urges
2) Jenny Lewis - Next Messiah
1) Vampire Weekend - A-Punk
::
2009 15 June :: 12.51pm
:: Music: Dashboard Confessional- The Swiss Army Romance
Making up a history, it's nothing from the life you lead/ But man, will they buy all your lines...
Sleep with all the lights on. You're not so happy. You're not secure.
You're dying to look cute in your blue jeans, but you're plastic just like everyone.
You're just like everyone.
And that face you paint is pressed impressing most of us as permanent and I'd like to see you undone.
College night will draw the crowds. Dorms unload and you're heading out.
Here is your moment to shine. Making up a history.
It has nothing from the life you lead.
But man, will they buy all your lines.
Sleep with all the sheets off your bearing your mattress, bearing your soul.
And you're dying to look smooth with your tattoos but you're searching just like everyone and could be anyone.
And those friends you have are the best impressing most of us as permanent and I'd like to see you undone.
Youth's the most unfaithful mistress.
Still we forge ahead to miss her.
Rushing our moment to shine.
Making up a history, it's nothing from the life you lead but man, will they buy all your lines.
We're not twenty-one, but the sooner we are, the sooner the fun will begin.
So get out your fake eyelashes, and fake I.D's, and real disasters ensue.
It's cool to take these chances. It's cool to fake romances and grow up fast.
So, I was driving home tonight thinking about music, and this entry. I was thinking death metal would be good for my mood, but as I was selecting I realized something much softer and friendlier would be much better. Then the thought continued that death metal would not be a good choice of words.
Tonight, we decided to put Callaway down, to sleep, what is the best choice of words for that? Made me a lot sadder than I have been in a long time. As I took her out for the last walk of the night, my eyes started watering. I decided I needed to think of something completely different to get my mind off it and to clear up my eyes. Guess what subject I picked, porn.
So we need to call the vet and schedule the time. I need to decide if I want to be there when it happens. This would be so much easier if her mind were gone. To see her so alert and happy, but realize that her body can no longer cope is just so sad.
It is hard to drive and blow your nose at the same time. I settled on resting my forearms on the steering wheel and leaning into my hands.
For those wondering, I settled on the latter half of the soundtrack to Twilight. And no, I did not proofread this entry.
The Experian saga continues. I hate that fucking company. How can they be so fucking stupid? Why does anyone trust the information they collect? Why does this shit happen to me? How can I default on loans before I'm born? How can I have multiple social security numbers? The number of problems goes on, and on, and on...
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2009 22 May :: 11.18pm
:: Music: Modest Mouse- She Ionizes and Atomizes
She ionizes and atomizes/ Then turns to sunlight/ He realizes and itemizes/ Pulls harder than gravity...
i am certain that i am a serious hypochondriac.
Among several other things, I've recently discovered that I have Precordial Catch syndrome.
Freakin sick of going to the dr office like 12 times a month. The girls at Bronson even know how to spell my name, CORRECTLY.
"You know, this is the type of person who 12,000 years ago would venture outside the cave, try to pet a cuddly looking sabretooth tiger and then get mauled into a thousand bits and pieces. She wouldn't get the chance to procreate and her useless, stupid genes would be eliminated from human kind. Not today. In 2009, survival of the fittest has been replaced by a first-degree misdemeanor charge of child endangering, a minor misdemeanor for unlawfully restraining a child, and a consequent six-month jail maximum. "
