Megan's Journal

Megan's Journal

:: 2006 6 March :: 10.25pm

i've done a good jorb todizzle.

i applied at walgreens, bed bath and beyond and hollister. and also i'm going to volonteer at the hospital.

yay yay ya yaya.

1 werd | leave werds

sugarmouse0587

:: 2006 6 March :: 3.10pm

not unhappy. just disapointed.

1 werd | leave werds

sugarmouse0587

:: 2006 26 February :: 1.21pm

i've gone completly off my gord.

but seriously? fucking sheets?

i feel like such a waste sometimes. and also a psycho. i don't know. i need to start voulunteering or something. or maybe declare my major. hmmpt.

i want to work this week. i fianally got Gabe and Adayja to start talking. And i got Paigen to do her tasks. uuuuggggggggg.

4 werdz | leave werds

sugarmouse0587

:: 2006 22 February :: 11.24am

i don't know why everyone has to be so ridiculous, but they are.

on monday i had this hispanic culture midterm and i knew it was going to be hard. but not so stupid. okay. so we talked a lot about cuba and this movie we watched and i read about two million things about
puerto rico
i love lucy
the mexican revolution
the treaty of guadalupe hidalgo
the spanish american war
the cuban revolution
the bay of pigs/cuban missile crisis
dominican republic
honduras
guatamala
columbia
san salvador
hipanic television-english and spanish
hispanic politics
the rafters
the cuban adjustment act of 1966
the jones act
the foraker act
braceros
repatriation

so i had to know all this stuff. i went to every class. i participated. i read the texts. did well on the pop quizzes. everything.

did we get a study guide?

no.

did we talk about a movie that wasn't on the midterm instead of reviewing like she promised?

yes.

and you know what's on this seven question essay test?

what is a chicano?

an obscrure little detail that i vaugley remember talking about like the second day of class. and she goes on and on about how we talked about it so much and blah blah blah and its origins. and everyone's like no way, we didn't talk about it that much. even the people who knew what it was guessed.

i just don't understand how i could filter all that information when the test only had seven questions and i had no clue what they could be about.

7 werdz | leave werds

sugarmouse0587

:: 2006 12 February :: 5.28pm

I've been thinking. This weekend was really really great. I've got a cyst on my ovary, but that's okay.

But I'm realizing this. I hate drinking and drugs. It's all so stupid. And I'm not just saying that because I've never tried it. But I really do think it ruins things. When I'm drunk I get in trouble or I cry or I think I'm dying. When I'm sober and see drunk people I think, "what's the point?" And I'm always uncomfortable at parties where people are drinking. They scare me and it's boring. Everyone acts so stupid. Plus it's illegal and can get you into all kinds of trouble. People who are allowed to drink get used by people who are younger. Then there are the people who keep me up all night because it's Thirstly Thursday. I like sleeping. I don't like hearing your gangsta rap coming down the pipe at three in the morning while you sing along. I don't like finding girls passed out in front of their doors. I don't like people thinking I"m weird when I decide that tonight is not a good idea.

And I'm all for making weed legal, just so we can stop wasting time and money. The war on drugs seems like it's mostly bullshit. It could be regulated and people could actually make a profit without getting in trouble. But I know it's more complicated than that and also probably too late, but it would be a nice birthday present. As of now, it's screwing up my family, and it's the most horrible thing. Don't tell me that I'm wrong. I'm just so sick and tired. It's breaking my heart.

5 werdz | leave werds

sugarmouse0587

:: 2006 8 February :: 4.12pm

this morning had so much promise.

doughnuts, sausage and strawberries.
but my piano teacher is hella crazy and scary.

and also i have a sore throat, mr. aleman makes me really mad and so does sarra b. ug.

and i'm sick again. it's been two years.

2 werdz | leave werds

sugarmouse0587

:: 2006 6 February :: 9.03am

I'm waiting for blood to flow to my fingers,
I'll be all right when my hands get warm.Ignoring the phone,
I'd rather say nothing. I'd rather you'd never heard my voice.
You're calling too late
too late to be gracious you do not warrant long goodbyes.

this kind of friendship is too good to let go. we just had a thin part and we're used to being so thick.

i love you.

8 werdz | leave werds

sugarmouse0587

:: 2006 28 January :: 2.14pm

ho hum pigs bum.

that was stupid. whatever.

it's bien though. muy bien.

2 werdz | leave werds

sugarmouse0587

:: 2006 23 January :: 12.25pm

brokeback mountain. real downer. i couldn't sleep last night. i was that upset. i'm sill kind of in a funk about it.

i needs me peepers.

2 werdz | leave werds

sugarmouse0587

:: 2005 29 December :: 6.04pm

ha hahahahahahhahahhahhahahahahaha.

*glowing. lala la la allalalalalal

3 werdz | leave werds

wildthing

:: 2005 23 December :: 6.43pm

Hey What yall been up to? I've just been workin and goin to school, I cannot believe this school year is almost done! I mean i'm thinkin about next and what ill be doin and it wont be high school anymore, the other day i was lookin through my yearbook from last year, *Autumn Silvers picked it up for me...thank Audie!!* and i was thinkin about what i would do with my hair next year, then i was like wait...I'm not in High school next year, To tell you the truth, I'm scared, Now is the time for real life and reality to hit me, and I really dont think I'm ready for it...I mean i have my dad to help me but He isnt always gonna be there, Its nuts...
I feel like i have just now moved to Tennessee and am just gettin to know my friends down there whom i love to death, I'm so glad i got down there and met new ppl, They mean the world to me...But so does everyone up here, Its 2 different worlds ill tell you that much, What with the KKK, yeah its real shit down there, get this a new mexican resturaunt came and within a week the KKK Spray painted KKK on their New sign...Thats when it hit me that its totally different down there...But anywho.
I hope ya'll have an Safe and Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year,Good luck with your Futures!!

1 werd | leave werds

sugarmouse0587

:: 2005 16 December :: 11.13pm
:: Music: pashing mumpkins-garewell and foodnight

maybe i'll be like emily dickinson. i'll just live in my parent's attic writing poetry.

maybe i'll get a grip and stop being selfish. maybe someone will punch me in the face.

maybe. i don't want to think about it.

i'm sorry. i can't stop being like this. if i'm ruining your life please stop bothering with me. i'll get you a fruit basket to make up for it.

2 werdz | leave werds

sugarmouse0587

:: 2005 10 December :: 5.18pm

i'd say i don't care anymore. i think i want that to happen cause i'm not doing a very good job. why can't i have two or three? who says that's wrong? i'm still not over all those stupid things either. it's like it wasn't almost two years ago.

and it's official. again. christmas is horrible. it's so dumb. i don't want presents. i don't want trees or lights or family or friends. i want to do something good for someone who needs me. NOT because it's christmas, but because i should be a good person all year. then maybe i can feel decent. i miss my peepers. i think they're the only thing i don't hate.

i hate everything. la la la lala.

and the paranoia is coming back. good times.

so sad. meh. nothing makes sense. i'm contemplating jumping off a bridge. head's up.

love,
useless.

3 werdz | leave werds

sugarmouse0587

:: 2005 9 December :: 11.05am

ha ha ha ha i'm homie home home home homies.

just hanging out with griffin and tyrone and apollo. it's good stuff.

i love being here so much. i'm all alone all day and i'm watching boston public. best show ever.

i don't even feel sad. i like school, but i'm not overly attached to anything.

1 werd | leave werds

sugarmouse0587

:: 2005 7 December :: 11.43pm

my last night in 120 shilling. it's good. everyone is being so cute and nice. i wish it had been like this the whole time. ahh. life.

going home tomorrow. my goodness. i'm so excited.

1 werd | leave werds

sugarmouse0587

:: 2005 6 December :: 9.03pm

algebra final finished. i can say that i paid attention, never skipped class, passed all of my tests, did all of my homework, asked questions.
i even though i understood most of it.

that's never happened before.

so if i don't pass we can finally say that i don't get it. and then i can take it again.

or drop out of life. whatever.

and if i do pass. . .hmmm. it's cause for celebration because i can't even add in my head. or count.

10 werdz | leave werds

wildthing

:: 2005 2 December :: 11.31pm

Hey guys whats up!! not much here just talkin to my boyfriend!! WHOM I LOVE TO DEATH, He is sooo Sexy! lol anywho, things are goin good, i'm back at work again unfortunatly but hey its money and the only money i got lol well I dont got much to say LOVE YA'LL
Heather

leave werds

sugarmouse0587

:: 2005 2 December :: 1.07pm

some people make me so sad. if you're drunk at 1 in the morning and wake everyone up and get written up for it you should probably just go to hell. cause i'm sick and even if i wasn't i wouldn't want to be woken up at 1 in the freaking morning.

i almost passed out in target yesterday. that was fun.

and i'm kind of sad to be moving out. christan is being very cool.

3 werdz | leave werds

sugarmouse0587

:: 2005 28 November :: 10.12pm

there is a violence in me.

anger and resentment all the time. uhhhhhhh.

i'm sorry sorry sorry. i pray all the time, but i don't think i'm doing it right cause i don't feel any better or changed.

and avoiding the situation? is that good or bad? is it right to sit here in the tension and the silence wishing i could not be so mad.

ok.

leave werds

sugarmouse0587

:: 2005 28 November :: 4.04pm
:: Music: motion city-when you're around

sssoooo. tizzle was gizzle. more like grizzle though.

i think i love kids. seriously. i thought i hated the sixth graders, but i don't. even the ones that i thought hated me don't really. they make me feel good even when i don't do anything. and they make me feel weird because i don't remember much of being 11. i don't know exactly how to treat them, but still. . .i'm in complete and total awe.

and the preschoolers are so great and sweet and smart. i love them. if i were a kidnapper my tiny little room would be full of little kids. that sounds kind of sick. that's okay.

ho ho ho. i love cheese its. but you know what i hate?

Nextel Phones. They are stupid and also dumb and redundent. I hate them so much I want to smash them into the ground. No one wants to hear your stupid conversations or that stupid ugly chirping noise. and you don't have to talk so loud. no one cares that much. What is the point of having a walkie talkie unless you're on some kind of crazy mission to save the world. but you're not saving the world, you're annoying me please die in a horrible accident.

chirp chirp die. i will bury your grandchildren.

i'm moving out of my room with jenna skenna. she is nice and isn't stupid and doesn't have a nextel. i won't have to cut myself anymore. and she lives on the cool third floor. i can get away from chuck and all the gansta wanstas.

i love robots, puzzles and jake huizenga.

5 werdz | leave werds

sugarmouse0587

:: 2005 27 November :: 4.15pm

my stomach hurts now. i think i left my english folder at home, but how could i have done that? i remember packing it.

everything isn't shitty and still i want to throw up and die.

3 werdz | leave werds

wildthing

:: 2005 23 November :: 2.37am

Hey Ya'll whats up!!! Not much here well a lot actually my dad and janet are gettin divorced thank god! lol
I have a Boyfriend, his name is Daryl weve been goin out a month and i love him so much! but yeah n e who ttyl@

2 werdz | leave werds

star_gazer05

:: 2005 21 November :: 10.38am

hey all,

i dont really enjoy updating but i will. I am away at college and having fun. i have a life now so i dont update!! sorry!

2 werdz | leave werds

sugarmouse0587

:: 2005 15 November :: 12.18pm

here's a warning for everyone. don't hang out with AARON DANIEL COHEN. not only does he listen to the backstreet boys and billy joel, he has really dumb ideas and makes people cry.

but only i can say that because he's my dumb brother and i love him*

*sometimes.

7 werdz | leave werds

sugarmouse0587

:: 2005 13 November :: 10.44pm

I wanna be I wanna be like that mountain
I wanna stand taller and bigger than rest
See I just wanna be a guy who wins all the time
I wanna be a big star a king and rule my own life
And God I know that it's wrong
So please just make my heart right
Inside and destroy my pride

_the rocket summer

2 werdz | leave werds