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:: 2005 9 November :: 10.55am

so this is one of those days where everything feels kind of crappy and i can't work up any gratefulness.

andrea and alli got me to skip aerobics. that's okay with me as long as i don't do it next week.

but seriously. i woke up in such a bad mood this morning.

my roomate is so dumb.

she woke me up no less than five times last night. it's usually only twice.

but here's the deal. every tuesday my floor goes out for chicken strips at the roadhouse. i don't like to go because they come back to late and i have to get up at 7 on wednesdays. so i'm up in my bed reading and you can't see me very well from the floor. chuck comes in and wonders asks where i am and christian says the lounge because she knew i didn't want to go. i thought she was just covering me like a good roomate.

but maybe she's just stupid and didn't know i was in my bed. she's like that. so she leaves to somewhere, i don't know where and i didn't really care. except that she left the tv on which is why i don't think she knew i was there, but you never know. she's pretty rude.
then i called her to see if she was coming back. but she didn't take her phone. i decided to turn the tv off anyway.

i went to bed around 10:45

at 12:30 ish i get a phone call. from ole' roomie. i didn't answer it because i was sleeping.

But then. . .i hear my voicemail from my room.

ummm?

Then christan starts talking and leaving a message for her sister on my phone because she thought she got a new phone.

we don't even have the same area codes. and my voice mail says 'this is sarah'

so this means she isn't paying attention to my phone ringing or hear sarah or reconize an area code and she didn't put my number in her phone when i gave it to her a month ago.

and then she calls again so i turn my phone off. and then she woke me up from moving around and lights and stuff like that.

i'm being so mean. but i don't even care. she drives me crazy.

And then this morning we had to have a debate in english about globalization. does that make sense? everyone was just making stuff up and one person in my group didn't even understand her topic and was getting all mad when the judges called her out on it.

Here are some good things though
I made my schedual early because they still think i'm in the honors college

i love jake huizenga

i don't think i even have to write paper five in english

that's it.

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:: 2005 3 November :: 12.04am

oh yes. score and a half for me.

who got a 95 percent on their math pretest??

hmmmm???!

AND ALSO STARTED MY JOBBIE???

me. that's who.

i'm so awesome you can't even stand it.

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:: 2005 1 November :: 1.12pm

alright. good times. i didn't know you little guys would work so fast, but i'm already feeling it.

ABCDEEE. ha ha ha ha.

that one's for my sunshine/robot!

yay for everything!

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:: 2005 31 October :: 11.36am
:: Music: early november-ever so sweet

i think i have become the biggest lowlife ever.

eh.

but i'm changing right now.

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:: 2005 30 October :: 4.43pm
:: Mood: shame
:: Music: lumberjack song

there is nothing better than sitting here with my cat.

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:: 2005 29 October :: 10.07pm

i don't know why i can't grow up.

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:: 2005 29 October :: 9.40pm

this can't even be happening.

i feel so sick and wrong and exhaused.

:: 2005 27 October :: 3.37pm

i'm sorry. i feel really bad.

BUT I AM NOT CAPABLE OF WORKING IN GROUPS.

i cannot do it, even with people i like. even if the project is super hard, i'd so much rather do it alone.

that way i don't have to depend on anyone except myself and then no
on has to depend on me.

and this time i got forced into the leader position. SARAH COHEN is the most aggressive person in this group. . .

so i don't know how to lead people and they don't do what i ask anyway, so what the hell does it matter?

it's painful. excrusiating.

i don't trust anyone to to their own work right (the way i want it) if they even do it at all, so i take all the work and i can and get mad because no one is helping me.

ps-i think i hate my roomate too.

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:: 2005 20 October :: 4.06pm

no seriously. umm i got a job in september and it hasn't started yet. they finally called me yesterday to ask about my availabiltiy and then i call back and there isn't anyone in the office. for two days.

and i can't even work during break. so i'll have like a month of a job and then nothing.

WHAT THE DEAL???!!!!!??!?!?!??!?

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:: 2005 20 October :: 3.57pm

so i'm trying to be a good person. like not so bitchy and complainy and mean and two faced. i'm annoying myself.

but i feel so spiteful and vindicitve. and guilty. esp. guilty.

i want to go home right now. it's not that i hate it here. i actually like it a lot, but my house sounds really good right now.

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:: 2005 19 October :: 10.49pm

it's that feeling where you hate everyone, but still want them to love you.

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:: 2005 18 October :: 4.12pm

so yesterday started the official sarah is not a jerk era in my life.

i'm doing okay considering.

except that i was just mean to my mom. i didn't mean to be. but now i just feel like punching something big time.

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:: 2005 15 October :: 5.22pm

and why do people act so suprised when you do things alone?

i don't want pity. i want silence.

:: 2005 15 October :: 5.15pm

oh my gooooosssssssssh........!

can't you even take a hint? can't you ever stop talking or making noise?

i can't stand your stupid face and voice. you're really dumb and annoying.

can't you just go away?

far far away. go. now. leave me.

:: 2005 14 October :: 7.01pm
:: Music: all american rejects-it ends tonight

I'm so bored and sad right now, but I'm not running to Jake.

Take that mom.

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:: 2005 14 October :: 6.04am

Hey everyone its Heather, well i'm doin really good down here its fun, but i miss ya'll a lot I have a lot of new friends but i miss my old ones :(:( I'm in school right now, but we are in the library so yeah, anywho i dont have much to say ttyl!@

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:: 2005 11 October :: 6.30pm
:: Music: red hot chile peppers coming from kevin's room at an unnessarily loud volume

my goal this week was to just lump it. But it's not working out. killing someone would be okay though.

I'm eating candy and i'm not supposed to be doing that
fuck. i'm hungary.

as for lumping it. probably not happening cause i'm so pissed.

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:: 2005 6 October :: 3.27pm

okay so. . .every time i walk my building i am screaming in my head. not any words, but yelling.

there's something creepy in my room and i think it's going to kill me.
seriously.

i am going to freak out because i'm not sure what's going on.

am i being picky and judgemental and mean? am i really trying?

yeah. so i bet god is way pissed at me because i can't even bother to be sincerely nice.

ahhh. i don't know. i just don't like it. am i supposed to like everyone? am i supposed to be good to those i like the least. it's hard. it's really really really really hard. and i'm not even good at faking things.

plus i'm really petty. seriously a hugh bitch is what i am. and i hate pretending. i hateeeeeeeeee ittttt.

ugh, but other people have told me the same thing, so it's probably not just me. still. i'm not being good.

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:: 2005 6 October :: 1.14pm
:: Mood: delicious

right now i am eating taco sause off a cheese stick.

sooooo good

:: 2005 3 October :: 4.01pm
:: Mood: sickish

i don't know about you guys though. i want you to go away, cause i don't feel like talking.

:: 2005 29 September :: 6.56pm

1) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, liposuction and air conditioning.

2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

3) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.

4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Britney Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.

6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.

7) Obviously, gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.

8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.

9) Children can never succeed without both a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans...

*Re-post this if you believe that laws against gay marriage are just plain stupid

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:: 2005 27 September :: 11.30am

good things i've been doing

drinking milk
walking to class
going to the rec center
making friends
going to bed early
doing my homework
*feeding the homeless

*that is a lie

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:: 2005 26 September :: 2.14pm
:: Music: fallllloutuuut boyyyy

So new phone number everyone!

799-1066

it's the year william the Conqueror invaded england!!!!

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:: 2005 26 September :: 5.18pm
:: Music: motioncity

i'm gonna throw up.

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:: 2005 26 September :: 12.00am
:: Music: lovedrug-spiders

seriously. i'm freaking out. there are just too many people and i don't know. i miss you and you're mad and i don't know what to do. i want to go to bed and not talk to anyone for a few days if that's okay.

ack ack ack. sigh.

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