Megan's Journal

:: 2004 16 February :: 7.15pm

this is a song i wrote to my mom....
Do You Care
Do you care if i die?
What if i go to Heaven early?
Would you care enough to go to my funeral?
What if someone suddenly took me?
Would you care? ask yourself do you care>
Would you ever leave to make yourself happy?
I would cry
I really dont think you care enough to care about me.
You made yourself happy and accidently had me
You probably never thought you'd have me till you did which made you cry cuz you didnt care.
And you didnt want me
You say you really love me but is it true?
I dont know you probably dont!
Mama i thought you loved me, but I guess you just dont care!
I think not which gets me pissed
I feel like crying everytime you do this which is everyday..EVERYDAY!
I tell myself i hate myself for making you hate me
It just kills me, kills me
It just kills me, kills me....

:: 2004 16 February :: 5.14pm

You know whats bad about Vday? my dad didnt even say happy vday...so anyways...2morrow...we go back to that damn school. FUCK! well that kinda sucks but then again its kinda kool cuz its my bday 2morrow and i turn 17. woohoo...i think. anyways ill talk to you all laters

:: 2004 16 February :: 11.43am

What is your favorite..
gum: that apple sour tape stuff or the zebra kind
restaurant: applebees
drink: most juices
season: summer
type of weather: warm sunny
emotion: goofy
thing to do on a half day: get things done
late-night activity: writing
sport: marching band
city: keystone
store: not great day
When was the last time you..
cried: thursday
played a sport: last fall
laughed: yesterday
hugged someone: yesterday
kissed someone: friday
felt depressed: thursday
felt elated: last night and the night before
felt overworked: i think the week before last
faked sick: i don't do that much
lied: friday
What was the last..
word you said: hey! hey!
thing you ate: white cheddar crackers
song you listened to: nfg-dressed to kill
thing you drank: water
place you went to: my aunt's for my birthday dinner
movie you saw: big fish or maybe peter pan
movie you rented: blazing saddles
concert you attended: clearly blind/the pilots/and that crazy screaming guy
Who was the last person you..
hugged: dad
cried over: myself
kissed: yum
danced with: all the ladies at homecoming
shared a secret with: probably dani
had a sleepover with: dani
called: pierre le bullet
went to a movie with: jess and hil or caleb
saw: dddddddddeeeerrrr
were angry with: my dad or sam
couldn't take your eyes off of: pierre
obsessed over: see above
Have you ever..
danced in the rain: yes
kissed someone: no...you're sick
done drugs: i take some drugs, but they are prescribed
drank alcohol: yes
slept around: no
partied 'til the sun came up: no
had a movie marathon: yes, i fell asleep
gone too far on a dare: no, but mitch did
spun until you were immensely dizzy: yes
taken a survey quite like this before: yes,

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:: 2004 15 February :: 4.59pm
:: Mood: idk

well i hope at least some of your valentines day were good....well i was at my aunts house....and i got to see my cuzin mandy and Tj...and there bfs and gfs so that kinda sucked that i didnt have one...oh well i guess...but we all hung out an that was a lot of fun...i have missed them a lot! Tj lives up in the UP and mandy lives over by pando but i only ever see her during xmas..plus she lives with her mom and her dad is my uncle...but yea anyways idk my break has been good...well i found out some bad news about my mom though....my moms ex bf *my lil sisters dad* said he had some tapes of my mom and wes talking he hid a tape player in the van...and on it...my mom said yeah i neer wanted my daughters and rod *my dad* can go to hell. but i dont know if she was just saying that because wes was there and thats what he wants to hear or if she really meant it....so now i know why she dont fucking care if she see's us...she has her fuckin head up her ass and she cant see whats going on....oh well the hell with it i guess.

:: 2004 15 February :: 4.58pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: lifehouse simon

so i'll make a big DEAL about the BIG deal. i think everyone will go for it. i know i'm all for it, but that's expected since it's my idea. i just need to convince someone else.

I need the band to come home right now.

_______________________________

My hot date didn't go so well. Dad was being majorly crazy. And of course that made me crazy too. I was really looking forward to it too.

2 werdz | leave werds

:: 2004 15 February :: 2.10pm

Everything I've ever written:

Every Line-

Of every Stanza-

Of every Poem=

67 Pages on Microsoft Word.

(Size 11 Font.)

I could have just put it in a huge font, then I could have said anything. Just reducing the exaderation.

:: 2004 15 February :: 1.58pm

50 First Dates.

Look good to anyone?

I'll tell you if it is.

Sandler has made alot of movies lately, and none of them were really that awesome.

1 werd | leave werds

:: 2004 14 February :: 5.07pm

You know what i dont see the fucking point of valentines day??? i mean what if you have know one to celebrate it with...to me i never fucking will so FUCK IT! sorry had to get it out..what about those who dont have a *lover* like me! they need a *Who needs a lover day* cuz i would pry be there every year....well anyways ttyl

4 werdz | leave werds

:: 2004 14 February :: 12.31pm

Hmm.

Valentines Day:

Not a holiday.

7 werdz | leave werds

:: 2004 14 February :: 12.09am

you're dashboard confessional! emo to the core,
you're not afraid to show your feelings. you're
so emo you make other people cry with stories
of unfaithful partners and hard break-ups.
congrats.

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:: 2004 13 February :: 11.15pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: THE BTP!!!

You can't just break promises like that.

:: 2004 13 February :: 3.08pm

Aye homies. How's it goin'? I just got back from shopping, got some shirts and shoes, and a cd. I got etnies, and my brother called me a poser, even thought he got dc's and doesn't skateboard either. I don't think you have to skateboard to wear clothing that people wear for skateboarding. Thats gay, I just like shoes, and thats all.

Thats all I have to say.

Ron--

5 werdz | leave werds

:: 2004 13 February :: 12.37pm

I think that sometimes when life sucks you sink way down on your self esteem and that must happen to me a lot cuz im in this whole that i cant climb out of....and no one can help me...

2 werdz | leave werds

Janice_2001

:: 2004 12 February :: 10.41pm

HOMIE-G-DAWG-FUNK

:: 2004 12 February :: 10.10pm
:: Mood: excited

Friends
Amanda S: my bestest friend in the world!! omg i love you soo much! you mean a lot to me and i know i can come to you for anything.

Jackie R: Girl you are so funny! omg we have to hang out soon...you just make my day when i see you at lunch! you make lunch and Choir well worth being there.

Jenni S: OMG!! To much to say right there!! lol i have missed you soo much and yet we live right around the corner from one another! lol that is just craziness, but i love you soo much!!

Stacy C: wow your so funny! lol at least we have math together??!? lol its so funny yet were like failing it lmao oh well at least its all fun, we have to get together more often.

Jake: My brothers only Brother....lol your a good friend and you mean well. and yes i do miss you...and my bro....i dont see you guys all that much anymore *sighs* well idk what to say!

Danielle P: We are to crazy together!! damn! lol but i still love you!! haha!

Cj F: your just a crazy guy....but its great!!

Dj C: your just crazy too! lol and its also great

Amanda Maxwell: Wow have we been in to much trouble together lol oh well its all fun...we just need to plan ahead from now on!! lol love yas!

Well thats all for now.....and ITS MY 17TH BIRTHDAY ON TUESDAY!! WOOWOOO! lol anyways ttyl byes!

:: 2004 12 February :: 8.50pm
:: Mood: awesome
:: Music: why can't we be friendssss?

ha ha ha

i have a jorb. and bangs. and a hot date. and i'm going to be seventeeno. a proper teenager at last.

yeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

1 werd | leave werds

:: 2004 12 February :: 1.43pm
:: Music: Sevendust

Woohu.......meh...
Woohu is getting boring. If that new version doesn't come soon I might have to abandon it. The only updates I have are poems in my alastar journal, which hardly anyone reads, and this one, saying how much I have nothing to say. Lovely.

Ron--

Janice_2001

:: 2004 12 February :: 1.44pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: Lil Jon and 69 boyz (salt shaker)

I have had so much fun the past 2 weekends, and now its gona be cool cuz I am gonna do what I did last weekend and Cindy is gonna be with me and her and I are gonn have a blast. Mike and Syd broke up for sure and they aren't together anymore. That makes me better. Mike needs someone who is closer!

Janice

:: 2004 11 February :: 9.30pm
:: Music: Maroon 5 - Harder to Breathe

Repaired Renewed Mended Fixed Restored
I don't have anything to say. And i don't want to be all gay and talk about how much fun break is going to be, because its not going to be. Maybe friday will though, i still haven't found out if i can go to Brad's party, but i'm going to try.

My computer is screwed up again. I thought about just erasing the hard drive, but i can't find the cd that i would have to have to load it onto it again. I still can't go to msn, yahoo, or google, but i found the site its bringing me to, and deleted it on my favorites, and everything else on my computer, but it still brings me to it as my home page.

Just as I thought I was relieved of my habits, they come back to me.

7 werdz | leave werds

:: 2004 11 February :: 7.44pm

my life would suck if i weren't in band

Star_Gazer05

:: 2004 11 February :: 8.26am

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRADLEY BLAIR!!!!!

:: 2004 10 February :: 10.25pm
:: Music: Audioslave - Like a Stone

I have nothing to say. But I'm saying something. Which is hard to do with nothing to say.

Audioslave is kicking ass in the background.

Orange message boxes blink in the forground.

And I'm caught somewhere in the middle.

:: 2004 10 February :: 9.38pm

I'm not unhappy. I'm just grumpy. Nearly Perpetually.