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2 I love you | In a phrase to cut these lips

:: 2006 27 May :: 5.12pm
:: Mood: exhausted

Fuck

:: 2006 23 May :: 10.10pm
:: Mood: Nervous

I like to ramble about nothing...

Thoughts are like clouds that casually drift on by. They dont stay very long because they are only thoughts. I have alot of thoughts and for the life of me I dont know what to do with alot of them. Many I keep to meself and never tell a soul. Others I share with my close friends and others I simply share with everybody. But my question is why do I have so many that I cant say to anybody. The things that go through my head is amazing. Alot of times I can organize them but right now I cant. They are good thoughts but I am afraid that if I mention my thoughts to anybody then the thoughts will disappear or turn sour.

I am very content right now but I have so many things floating through my head that I dont know what to do about them. I hear songs or CDs that remind me of certain people and of the good times back then. And then I have a sudden rush of wondering of what might of happened if I had done it differently. Or maybe even simply said what was on my mind at the time. Or maybe just let time pass and see what happened. But most of the time things turned sour because I had something that was repeated and I got screwed over which was really my fault anyway because I took the chance to say it and it was fair game to be repeated.

I have been pretty stupid on certain things in the last 2 years and some of it I regret but it is nothing I can change. If I could do it over again I would think things through more clearly before I had acted.

I think to much and I do believe whole heartedly that that is my problem. Maybe if I just let things happen as they would, without my thoughts, then I might be better off.

But sometimes thoughts are good.
Just not the ones I think though.
I guess.

Conclusion: Thoughts can be good when the situation is becoming bad but when you have a good thing going just dont think and everything will work out.

I am sure of it.

:: 2006 23 May :: 12.16am
:: Mood: tired

I usually dont post about my track results but I just have to for this.

I ran at the Champion of Champions meet today and placed 8th in the 800 m run. That sounds bad but not when you look at the time. I ran it in 2:29. To sum it up that is getting competive in the girls race. Wth that time I was able to qualify for the Jon Bose Initavational at Houseman Field this Wednesday and I have decided to run.

I am just so excited that in needed to share that.

:: 2006 22 May :: 1.17pm
:: Mood: crazy

This is rare...

I'm pretty....

I don't say that very often because the majority of the time I'm not but today I am.

And today I don't care what anybody says.

I just am.

3 I love you | In a phrase to cut these lips

m&ms487

:: 2006 21 May :: 7.47am
:: Mood: apathetic

School is done.

Now I get to look forward to working. at meijer. at the service desk. for six an hour. bitches.

It was fun while it lasted, i guess.

Now i get to go to college, that's the scary part.

Mine and Rueben's two year anniversary was Friday. It seems like we've been together forever....
He got me flowers and last night we went out to eat and then we fell asleep together. I love falling asleep with him. It's the only time when I feel safe. I can curl up next to him and know he won't let anything hurt me. It's a wonderful feeling.

i miss band.

:: 2006 18 May :: 10.21pm
:: Mood: mellow

Sometimes the best things in life are worth losing everything over but then again it just shows what you are really worth to everybody else.

:: 2006 17 May :: 7.35pm
:: Music: Death Cab for Cutie

Clouds....

I feel like I am walking on air. I just feel like the possibilities for life are endless and that I will never feel sad again.

But come on lets face it, nobody can be happy forever. I guess I just realized that there is more to everything than what the eyes see, but I just don't look that far most of the time. I figure if I keep low key about most things then everything will work out alright.

Forget me because I am already lost with no way to find my way back and you cannot save me.

:: 2006 10 May :: 10.02pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: Death Cab For Cutie

I do love you....

Katie---- I don't know if you are thinking it but I don't hate you and I am not mad at you in any way. I don't know how often you are on here but I thought I might let you know if I don't get a chance to talk to you. I am almost out of school which means that I will be able to spend more time with you hopefully. I have many things to tell you, good and bad. I swear to you that I love you with every last bit stength I have and dont let anybody tell you any difference because frankly they are dead wrong.

On a lighter note I have a free feeling and I absolutly love it. I can stand being attached or held down. I don't want to belong to somebody because that is not who I am. I will flirt but unless something magic happens the odds that it will carry on to something more are slim. I love being single.

m&ms487

:: 2006 9 May :: 9.05pm
:: Mood: sad

I miss you. I wish you were here. But you aren't.

whatever.

Band awards dessert tonight. I'm receiving my department award on May 30 at honors convocation.

I got my honors band CD today. It is quite lovely. I like listening to people who can actually play.

Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.

michelle

m&ms487

:: 2006 8 May :: 8.34pm

I'm printing off the pictures for the mr. robuck and mr. green present thing for tomorrow. I'm not sure if i have enough photo paper. oh well.

I didn't do my rough draft for english. I turned my test in late. I bullshitted my way through my presentation. I don't know how I got through the past four years.

Jessie, Josh, and I are going to the mall on wednesday! I'm really excited. I love josh, he's my favorite oboe player ever.

Graduation party is June 3. Everyone is invited. Ask for directions if you need to. We'll have good food and a classic rock band (my dad's band).

mmhmmm.

I got a flower for my flute choir concert because I was a senior. I was extremely excited. You have no idea. My solo went well, the piccolo song, not too much. Oh well, it wasn't my fault he was so sharp.

Band concert went well. Last band concert. I cried on the way home. I know, i'm a band geek. It happens.

Pictures are almost complete. I'm getting very excited.

Good night.