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2005 13 November :: 10.44pm
I wanna be I wanna be like that mountain
I wanna stand taller and bigger than rest
See I just wanna be a guy who wins all the time
I wanna be a big star a king and rule my own life
And God I know that it's wrong
So please just make my heart right
Inside and destroy my pride
_the rocket summer
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2005 9 November :: 10.55am
so this is one of those days where everything feels kind of crappy and i can't work up any gratefulness.
andrea and alli got me to skip aerobics. that's okay with me as long as i don't do it next week.
but seriously. i woke up in such a bad mood this morning.
my roomate is so dumb.
she woke me up no less than five times last night. it's usually only twice.
but here's the deal. every tuesday my floor goes out for chicken strips at the roadhouse. i don't like to go because they come back to late and i have to get up at 7 on wednesdays. so i'm up in my bed reading and you can't see me very well from the floor. chuck comes in and wonders asks where i am and christian says the lounge because she knew i didn't want to go. i thought she was just covering me like a good roomate.
but maybe she's just stupid and didn't know i was in my bed. she's like that. so she leaves to somewhere, i don't know where and i didn't really care. except that she left the tv on which is why i don't think she knew i was there, but you never know. she's pretty rude.
then i called her to see if she was coming back. but she didn't take her phone. i decided to turn the tv off anyway.
i went to bed around 10:45
at 12:30 ish i get a phone call. from ole' roomie. i didn't answer it because i was sleeping.
But then. . .i hear my voicemail from my room.
ummm?
Then christan starts talking and leaving a message for her sister on my phone because she thought she got a new phone.
we don't even have the same area codes. and my voice mail says 'this is sarah'
so this means she isn't paying attention to my phone ringing or hear sarah or reconize an area code and she didn't put my number in her phone when i gave it to her a month ago.
and then she calls again so i turn my phone off. and then she woke me up from moving around and lights and stuff like that.
i'm being so mean. but i don't even care. she drives me crazy.
And then this morning we had to have a debate in english about globalization. does that make sense? everyone was just making stuff up and one person in my group didn't even understand her topic and was getting all mad when the judges called her out on it.
Here are some good things though
I made my schedual early because they still think i'm in the honors college
i love jake huizenga
i don't think i even have to write paper five in english
that's it.
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2005 7 November :: 6.37pm
For You Katie....
May there always be work for your hands to do;
May your purse always hold a coin or two;
May the sun always shine on your windowpane;
May a rainbow be certain to follow each rain;
May the hand of a friend always be near you;
May God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you.
What I said to you earlier on the phone was out of line. I am just excited about Eve. And because of that I rushed to her defense. I really don't know much about her other than she is a very tough pony. If you read this before I talk to you, I am sorry.
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2005 6 November :: 8.03pm
:: Mood: flustered
My toes are cold
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2005 4 November :: 7.36pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Country
Its True....
Katie I love you more than Scotty!!!!
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2005 3 November :: 8.58pm
:: Mood: full
:: Music: PLANS
It All Comes Together Now....
Puppy left today. I wasn't sad because Brad said he would go to a home over i Sparta. I almost want to doubt him because he would send him to market and make it a s a cover up. But what is stange about all of this is that he asked me if he found a home for him could he sell him. And also told me to go say my goodbyes before they left. I hopre they are finally coming around to my world a little bit.
I had mentioned getting another horse so long as John was at a new home and my Dad didn't object so hopefully that is going to happen in the near future.
I almost want think of the bad that could happen and almost want to think of something that makes me not want him. But I can think of nothing. Its strange really because he is not the hottest thing that has ever walked this planet but he is cute in is own way. He has a sense of humor that splits my sides and has a way of of making me feel loved without even saying anything. The thought of loosing him never stays in my mind because I feel like I have him in my bubble. It is actually hard to explain. I do believe that he is the only one that I can say I truely love. And I mean that. I love him.
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2005 3 November :: 5.58pm
I've been accepted to CMU. They sent me a t-shirt today. It's a very bright white. I like its newness.
So much as been going on lately. I leave for school in the morning when it's dark out, and I get home when it's dark outside. It's almost as if there was never a day at all. But of course that would be false, because even if I don't see it, it's still there, right? I hope so.
All state band auditions are saturday. I'm not sure I'm as prepared as I should be. I've been practicing between three and five hours a day for a little over the past week. My tone is getting a lot better (recovering from the horridness of piccolo). I'm still nervous, though. I guess I've talked myself into believing that it doesn't matter if I get in or not, but it does. It's one of the only things that I'll be able to do. I can't go to CMU's workshop, I can't go to CMU's honors band, I can't go to EMU's honors band. This is about the last thing that I'll be able to do where I'll be challenged and not have to play horridly easy music with people who don't know how to play their fucking instrument.
But I rant.
My eighteenth birthday is a month from tomorrow. Work will be happy because then I can sell lottery and tobacco at the service desk. As much as I want to kill people who run that place, I still can't help but fantasize that someday I could get a degree in marketing or something and be a higher executive than all of them and fire them because they're stupid. I don't think that they realize that they expect too much out of people they only pay six dollars an hour to. I see so many people there that are intelligent and should be doing something, but no, they work for a measly six dollars an hour and will never do any better. The waste of potential disgusts me.
Whenever I am there I feel as though some goodness, some intelligent part of me is dying. Everytime someone yells at me because meijer screwed them over I feel like saying "You know what? They're screwing me over too. I get paid fucking six dollars and hour to stand here and take your shit for them, and guess what, they don't care, even if I do get a manager and they listen to you and assure you they'll 'look into it', nothing is going to happen. You standing here yelling at me is doing neither of us any good, and nothing is going to change because frankly all that corporate does care about are numbers, their profit, how many defective items they can pass off you to, how many times they can screw you over by not pricing things and you aren't a number, you're a real person, just like me, and therefore, they don't care. So fuck off."
End rant.
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2005 3 November :: 12.04am
oh yes. score and a half for me.
who got a 95 percent on their math pretest??
hmmmm???!
AND ALSO STARTED MY JOBBIE???
me. that's who.
i'm so awesome you can't even stand it.
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2005 1 November :: 1.12pm
alright. good times. i didn't know you little guys would work so fast, but i'm already feeling it.
ABCDEEE. ha ha ha ha.
that one's for my sunshine/robot!
yay for everything!
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2005 31 October :: 11.36am
:: Music: early november-ever so sweet
i think i have become the biggest lowlife ever.
eh.
but i'm changing right now.
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