GRRR
Dear Journal thingie,
Hey how r u? i am okay but not real great. I have been trying to be friends with this girl named Carri, well i asked her if she would want to come over and she said sure so i waited till five and then I called her and she said she would rather go to the mall with her other friend... Isnt that mean..? I thought she liked me more than that... .Jeez I felt really mad at her... aw well....

Life is rich... Let's make it juicy!
Dear journal thingie,
Don't pay any attention to the title ^_^ It was fun to write 'cause it's in a sausage commercial. Hey i am going to show you some poems that I have written... All right? The darkness falls

I shudder with fright

The demonic spirits fly through my heart

I scream in the torture of their evil

The light is all I need

As the pain splits my heart in two

The light shines upon me

A light unlike no other

The light that saved me

It still blinds me

But with the truth of life....

That I needed to know... To survive...
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The lust for a battle
She lived for a thrill
atacking and fighting
For just one more kill

She had an evil gleam
Filling her eyes
Until one day
Which came a surprise

In the demonic battle
She began to freeze
She saw a gentle man
Who came to her with the breeze

He stood in front of her
He kissed her cheek
he took her hand
But she couldn't speak

Why did he hold her?
Why was he there?
Why did he love her?
Why did he care?

She knew this feeling
In the battle apart
This was her love
This was the start.....
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The darkness of night...
She too well knew
She knew the truth
Of the evening dew

She found it one night
When looking above
She found the glow
Of a true love

He seemed to come
From out of her heart
He smiled at her
And She fell apart

She had never felt love
Like that night so dim
Smiling and laughing
She knew it was him

Her whole life hero
Her only one
Her truest lover
The light of the sun

They could never be together
Their worlds too fall apart
When reality showed itself
It broke her heart...

But she knew she loved him
She knew it was true
They must be together
And start a life anew

They ran away together
And started their dream
He would smile at her
And make her heart gleam

For the rest of their lives
Fate kept them together
It was and will always be
Their promise forever.....
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A man lies hungry
Cold and alone
With no place to go
No place to call home

He looked to the sky
To fins someone above
He found his wish
A one true love

A woman came down
From out of the sky
She looked at him ternderly
He did not know why

She did not know him
She should not care
But she looked at him tenderly
And combed her fingers through his hair


He held her close
To make sure she was true
Her eyes smiled softly
A deep shade of blue

The night went by
In a blaze it seemed
She waltzed away
Tears in her eyes gleamed

She held him close
For one last time
And dissapeared in the dusk
Like breeze in the chimes

He ran after her
To find his lost love
But she was already gone
Back to her home up above

He looked up to the sky
He lost her and gained one thing
He gained faith
He knew that was what she wanted to bring
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Lonliness...
A feeling of living for only one person.... Yourself.....
Never knowing the truths of love and pure ecstacy.....
Never hearing a voice other than the silence of the darkness...
Never comprehensing the truth of life and the meaning of all....
The depression of heart and the silence of happiness....
Lonliness.....
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One last hit...
Would kill his love...
Until he took the hit
And death would be above

He died that day...
In her arms
As she sobbed and bawled
Without harm...

How could she live?
Now that he was gone?
The only one she cared for
She cried so long....

She knew he was with her
Protecting from above
But she couldnt take the lonliness
Without touching her true love...

Tears running down her cheeks
She saw his grave
She touched the stone cross
And missed the love he always gave

She lay a rose
On the mossy place
She stood up
Tears trickling down her face

She walked silently away
But turned to gaze
"Goodbye my beloved"
She said in the haze

That was their last goodbye
For her mortal life
But when she died...
The man again had his wife...
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Well... what do you think? I am excited about going to my Kendall class with Joe... I just wish KT was going... It won't be fun with out her... There's this guy on the internet who is beginging to be suicidal... ever since i "broke up" with him.... He's been a mess and i don't know what to do... Ack.... I hate these kind of problems.... Sometimes at school I fel like I hate it... But I always think that I don't need anyone there... I wake up everyday thinking of Joe.. smiling because of him..... Why have I fallen for a guy like this? *sigh*

Dear Journal Thingie
Hey how r u? Genki desu. I hope KT-chan is not mad at me. When I was on yesterday whenever I said Hi she got off... I hope not!

Well... Joe was on last night but not for too long. But we both got our money in and r going to take the class...

I took my math test yesterday... I hope I did okay... If I get an "A" on it my grade in Algebra may go up! *she prays* I am in a new exciting role play made by my friend Reanna-chan. It's great! I love it!

I had a bubblegum Jone's today... I smile evily... XD. Well.... I must go
miwako-chan

Day After B-Day!
Dear Journal thingie,
Hey how r u? I am good ^_^ I had a great B-day yesterday! I am now 14! Well... We celebrated my b-day on Friday! It was a whole barrel of monkeys fun! I invited my three great friends Katie, Kris, and Reanna. We all went to Mongolian BBQ and to Woodland mall. We had a lot of fun and did a lot of DDR! I wish they could have stayed longer the next day tho! It was the best b-day I have ever had! Welp that's all for now! Bye bee!
miwako-chan

BAKABAKABAKABAKA
Dear Journal thingie,
Hey how r u? I am good ^_^. I called Joe again today ^^. I was really happy to talk to him again, and he snapped at me a bit and then he felt all bad. I am glad he has a concience. We figured a good name for burly my chinchilla... A "furvert!" LMAO!

School was pretty dull... I almost fell asleep three times in History today... It was just sooo borin. Joe again asked me to move to Sparta and he said again he would always be with me.... I hope Katie does the same... I don't want theem to leave me when they go to College.....
bye bee
miwako-chan

Joe!!!!
Dear Journal-thingie,
Hey how are you??? I am great!!! Perfect!!! Super!!! I called Joe and we talked for an hour! That is longer than I talk to most of my friends! We flirted and sang and decided on a class (i think) But i have never had such a wonderful feeling with anyone before! It's just "on top of the world" i almost can't describe it. I really care about him... He is the person i could spend my whole life with... I know that... But I am going to call him tommorrow to finally decide the class we will definatley take. I am so excited about seeing him! I haven't see nhim in a whole year, but have gotten so close to him I know so much about him... it's funny how that happened.... Aw well I am babling now well ttyl
miwako-chan

Dear Journal thingie,
Hi-lo! How r u? I am good. I think Rachel is all grr at me and Katie for Katie has an online boyfriend.... Katie and I discussed it today, and stuff. But all in all, I believe Katie will do what she knows in her heart. (and i don't want her or me to get in trouble with anyone)

For some reason my mom has been a real grump today.... I wonder why... I just worry... But sometimes she just gets even madder that way.....

Well... My roleplay on moonprincess.com/bbs is almost over *sniff tears tears* I hope that the last battle lasts a long time so it won't be over so soon....

My mom just got mad again because I asked her if she was depressed... And she just went grr and fussed at me.... I hate it when that happens.... I am just concerned.... Not trying to be a bother.....

Aw welll see ya l8r
miwako-chan

^^ HAPPY!!!^^
Dear Journal Thingie,
Hi! I had a very good day! I juts got back from Stephanie's (a little girl i babysit) birthday party. SHe is now nine! Geez... I feel old ^^;. But anywhoo... Also, Katie now has a Boyfriend! She now has Prof Cheechi (aka Dave) as her new in like^^. I am glad I could help, Kt-chan! I just hope her mum and dad don't find out... Or she is sunk.... X.X.. Also, Joe was soo sad last night... I had a terrible feeling about it... I was up till one worrying over him...... I have never done that over a guy before.... Ever.... Or basically never with anyone else... Is this the real thing...? Is this love..? Well... Me and him are going to take a class at Kendall soon ^_^. I hope kT-chan can go too! Also, my mom and KT-chan fussed at me for not sending him a valentine... I should have....
Well g2g
miwako-chan

<(^^<) (>^^)> (<^^>) (>^^<)
Dear Journal Thingie
Hey how r u? I am okay... I have been a bit self concious lately... Kinda laike Caroline... Worrying cause I am not skinny like Kris, or Not the prettiest... Ack! Me and Caroline have some of the same problems... -_-;;. I am watching anne of Avonlea 'cause nothing else is really on -_-. But Anne's Boyfriend is dying! OH NO! *runs and hides in a box* But as for life... It has been okies... Me and Inu-Yasha cuddled up earlier and watched the movie "signs" It was good! It was pretty scary tho! Through most of it i was hugging My Yasha-chan real tight... While I was watching it, Burly ran away! I had to chase him for a bit! Phew whatta workout chasing a speedy rodent! Gilbert told Anne, "I still have to finish Med. school... Our Life won't be full of sunbursts.." Adn Anne said, "I don't want sunbursts.... I just want to be with you..." Thatz how I feel about Joe.... I just wish that I knew how he felt towards me..... I mean he is always flirting and stuff... But is he just leading me on... Or does he mean what he says...? When he tells me that He wouldn't let me live in Japan without him because he would miuss me too much... I wonder if he means it...? Well... BYe 4 now!
Miwako-chan
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Japanese Word of the Day!
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good day= Konnichi-wa

Lucky Charms!
Dear Journal thingie,
Hey how r u? I am good! I just had lots of Lucky Charms but htey are GONE! GONE I TELL YOU! But I JUST GOT MORE!! PURE DELIGHT!!!!

But off my Luckies, I can't wait till my b-day! 15 more days! I had fun with Caroline last night!! I don't think she wanted to leave! and I didn't want her too neither!! I love it when Caroline comes over cause i don't see her too often!She went home at 4:00.. ;_; So sad!
Love,
miwako-chan
P.S. I can't believe that i said i loved Joe.... I mean... am too young to experience this..? Too naive?? I almost feel bad nervous about this.... I just am not sure.... If saying it is truth... But the feeling I get..... hm....
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Japanese word of the day!!!
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inu= doggy

Dance Dance Dance!
Dear Journal-thingie
Hey how are you? I am good ^^. Caroline is sleeping overs tonight! I am soo happy cause i do not see her as often as I would like. As I type this she plays Sonic-chan ^^. I also confided my feeling about Joe to her ^^.

I think she understands me better than most people. Mostly we have been playing DDR. I got three or four A's! I can't believe that a week ago I couldn't barely get a C and now a A!

I am glad she got to come over! I know I may be too immature to understand this...

But... i think... love Joe... I have never been able to say this... It's just... I know.... I have never had a feeling this strong except for my faith in God... Maybe... Joe and I... are meant to be..? Someday.... Somewhere... I hope and pray.... I just know I couldn't tell him now.... I could not now... I am too young to know this feeling... Sometimes it almost feels odd... I have never felt such a deep feeling for a boy before.... Am I going insane..? Sometimes I feel that way...

But off my deep thoughts... ^^;. I ma wearing a great shirt today My "ride the pig" shirt ^^. I love! Yes... but I must flee! Caroline and Miwako-chan r talking to scary perv (he's kinda odd... oO)!
Well... Bye bee!
Miwako-chan
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Japanese word of the day!!!
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baka= stupid!

HAPPY ALL OF A SUDDEN!
Dear Journal thingie,
Hey how r u??? I am good! When I hear The barbie girl song in Japanese I get happy ^^. Also, i just realized my bestest buddy Caroline can come sleep over tommorrow! YAY! I can't wait now! ^^. My mommy still needs one more week to recover from her surgery. But soon she can drive again. I hope she gets better soonerthan that... My daddy was kinda a jerk to her ealier... He can be really insensitive to her feelings.... Thats why I always try hard to make her happy... No one else tries sometimes... Unless it is a good day for them. Aw well Lost the happy there ^^;. I also heard that Caroline was bringing Arjuna! I am now overly excited to see Arjuna and my bestest buddy ^^. Well A tu te lerre!

When first light falls....
Hey Journal thingie
How r u? I am good... I have just realized something... Which is almost frightening.... When I am talking or around my friend Joe... I get and idescribable feeling.... I mean I have never really experienced it before... i mean with every other guy I have ever known... It's been annoying... weird bugged feeling... Or just a really flirty feeling... But lately with Joe.. It has been different... I have a safe... warm feeling that makes me blush terribly... It makes me feel... I don't know how to describe it... I just know I love the feeling....

Also, today I hope Reanna didn't get mad at me! She seemed really annoyed today... I don't want her to be mad at me! ;_; SHe is really nice.. I hope i don't get annoying... Oneof my friends said was behind my baack and ever since then I really haven't trusted many of my freinds... even though I should... The onlky two friends I trust truly are Joe and Katie from Kendall. I don't totally know what to think sometimes of my other friends... She said i didn't get her angry she was just in a bad mood and wanted to talk to Courtney... Ack! I am paronoid!

Here is a song that truly describes the way I feel for... I made this song myself ^^When first light falls
Upon my face
I truly know
my place
And i know....
that my place is with you....
I don't know why......
I don't know why....

Maybe cause I'm in love with you....
and i know you love me too
I just know that we will come together...
Tommorrow's too far away.....
We must smile together everyday....
Just us two........
Just me and you....
Walking by...
not even knowing why....
today

Now that it's time....
To look away....
I have the urge.....
begging you to stay.....
with me....
for eternity....
I don't know why...
I don't know why...

Maybe cause I'm in love with you...
and i know you love me too.....
But it's hard to walk away and miss you...
When tommorrow may not appear...
And i won't hear you laughing clear....
If we part
Will it break our hearts?
Or maybe....
tommorrow we will see
someday........

Well... What do you all think? See... I am too frightened to actually tell Joe how I feel... If he didn't feel the same feeling... I don't know how I would take it... So many people have told me to tell him, cause everyone thinks he likes me back... I am just frightened... Aw well ^^;;