"Thou Knowes't the mask of night is on my face"

 

home | profile | guestbook


A shoujo's tale of life, love and lollipops

recent entries | past entries


kthpkc

:: 2005 24 September :: 8.41pm

Black ink scribbled across history notes
Seh' ich echt so hesslich aus, dass
neimand will bei mir setzen?

Meine Augen sind nass
ich will wienen
Warum seid
ihr so gemein?

So ich trage schwarz.
Du trägst blue, du braun
und du rosa.

Keine Mädchen setzen sich
bei mir
heute,
nur Männer.

Er riecht wie Seife.
Er redet mit mir.
Dass ist gut genug für mich.

Jetzt fühle ich nicht so
allein.

Heute Nacht
flieg ich frei
-Megaherz

It's amazing how emo I can be at 10 in the morning. And in German, no less ^^"

1 Little Lover | Wilt thou answer?


Angel_Bob

:: 2005 24 September :: 5.58pm

I have a car!

3 Little LoverDolls | Wilt thou answer?


KTHPKC

:: 2005 24 September :: 4.17pm
:: Mood: Rammstein-induced craze

Rammstein Rammstein Rammstein Rammstein Rammstein

Their store has a Keine Lust patch that makes me think of Tracey.

I really want to get a Mein Teil shirt, Rammsten hoodie, and Rammstein jacket. Ich brauche Geld für Einkaufen!!!!!

Bored, but not so bored because of my wonderful Rammstein blaring throughout the dorm room.

Gib mir Benzin!!!!!!!

Thank you, this has been a broadcast brought to you by the ravings of a local Rammstein fan.

1 Little Lover | Wilt thou answer?


KTHPKC

:: 2005 23 September :: 12.12pm
:: Mood: hungry/thoughtful
:: Music: Violin music

Random thoughts
I hear someone playing their violin.

I want to find them and sit at their feet while they play. I want to watch them close their eyes and play like no tomorrow, body gliding like a dancer's as they sweep the bow against the strings.

I love the violin. It's one of the most beautiful, and sad, instruments that I've ever heard. Hearing it makes me want to swoon with delight. The tone, the quality, the beauty of it all.

A guy sat next to me in history today. He smelled like soap. It smelled good. I thought that I was going to be sitting all by myself because there weren't as many people there today. It's my lonely class because I don't have anyone to talk to in it.

I should probably get food. Or get ready to leave for math. But all I want to do is just sit back and listen to the music. And try to find the vioinist.

2 Little LoverDolls | Wilt thou answer?


KTHPKC

:: 2005 22 September :: 9.46pm
:: Mood: bleck/sick

Well today was eventful.

We got to have chocolate (sadly not German though) in my German Conversation class because it was some guy's birthday last week. He's probably 24 or something.

We get to do our first roleplay in class on Tuesday. It's supposed to be about dating. I'm with this one kid that's a senior at the local high school. He's so fricking adorable!!!! He's got freckles, and I love freckers. We'll be going out to a dinner and a movie. He's going to be a jerk and I'm going to be violent.

In my German Conversation class we actually laughed. It was probably the best class so far, other than the first day. Had another quiz that squeezed my brain.

In English we just researched stuff for a paper we'll be writing. We got let out early by at least half an hour.

Amanda and I ordered pizza from Dominos tonight because her roommate said that the food in the car wasn't good today. So we had cheese pizza and bread sticks. Then played a video game (Guilty Gear X, I think) on her ps2 in their dorm room.

Now I'm back and popping pills because it feels like I'm coming down with something. Blegh. My sinuses hurt. And I feel tired and like shit.

I should eat breakfast in the caf sometime. I really should. Someone make me. Or even better, come and eat with me *pleading look*

2 Little LoverDolls | Wilt thou answer?


shinigami

:: 2005 22 September :: 7.41am

Did any of you watch Captain Planet when you were a kid? I was looking at this comic here and got to thinking...those kids had awesome power over the elements. What if someone took over control of those kids and used them for evil? Or they wanted to do bad things because of the emo-years? Wouldn't that be scary?

5 Little LoverDolls | Wilt thou answer?


Angel_Bob

:: 2005 21 September :: 1.31pm

Nintendo revolution
Don't know if any of you all have seen this (or care) but I think it's totally awesome.

It's shaped like a remote and the analog stick just plugs into it on its own cord extention. It looks very interesting. And, especially, fun to use and play.

I love you all.

P.S. Here is a close-up. Kinda sexy.

2 Little LoverDolls | Wilt thou answer?


kthpkc

:: 2005 20 September :: 7.56pm

Zomigosh!!!

Tracey, you can see Rammstein's new music video, Benzin, online now!!!

Hope you have quicktime.

Wilt thou answer?


Angel_Bob

:: 2005 20 September :: 6.02pm

Haircut
I am so bipolar. This morning I hated my haircut but now, I love it.

PIC-A-TOURS!

Read more..


That is my haircut. For now, I like it. It's cute. My janitor friend, Jose, said it made me look older and taller. My French teacher said it was very flattering and everyone else said: "I love your haircut."

But, seriously, who would admit that they hated it? Or that it was ugly?

Anyway.

I love you all.

6 Little LoverDolls | Wilt thou answer?


kthpkc

:: 2005 20 September :: 1.01pm

I'm up by Miller right now. Enjoying the weather, the people, the fact that I have another class in less than 2 hours...

I'm trying out just hanging around the Brown/Miller/Sprau Tower area all day today. Well, until my last class gets over at 5:50. Then I'll be hungry and probably demand to eat with Amanda again because her caf is much closer than mine. Speaking of food, I'm contemplating trying out the food place in Sprau Tower. If I get brave enough to go in and see if they'll take my i.d. because I don't have any moneys with me today.

My friend, and fellow member of the "let's try to wear black every day" club, burned me a copy of Advent Children today. How nice of her!!! But I think she'll have to burn it again because my version of windows media player is slightly more advanced than the one she had in mind. Oh well, at least I'll be able to finally see Advent Children! Jacob was watching it yesterday when we were messengering, and I kept growling at him to not tell me anything that's happening because I still needed to see it. *shakes fist at Jacob* I forgot your phone number already so I won't be able to call you whenever I'm back in Rockford! Mwahahahaha!!!

Blah, yeah, I'm in a slightly strange mood today. Thanks to German class. And not consuming a breakfast and, probably, a lunch. To eat or not to eat, that is the question.

Wilt thou answer?


shinigami

:: 2005 19 September :: 9.58pm

I think...I'm going to stay at Macaroni Grill.

3 Little LoverDolls | Wilt thou answer?


Angel_Bob

:: 2005 19 September :: 9.31pm

I got a haircut today.

I don't know if I like it.

4 Little LoverDolls | Wilt thou answer?


kthpkc

:: 2005 19 September :: 9.24pm

I had another crazy dream last night. This time dealing with characters from Mulan.

Chien-Po and I had to take a shower together so we kept averting our eyes and shutting them all the time. Then I jumped up to ask for some shampoo and conditioner and somehow turned into Mulan and pissed Shang off.

Thankfully the alarm clock went off then, because I didn't want to know anything else. Being stuck naked in a shower with another naked disney character was about as much as my mind could handle.

2 Little LoverDolls | Wilt thou answer?


KTHPKC

:: 2005 19 September :: 9.03am

Oh good Lord, I feel like I'm going to puke.





This is the last time I eat instant breakfast when he is visiting.

Edit 1:08 pm

I'm dumb. I just started to get better and went down to the caf with Tara and some of her friends and ate apple pie for dessert. That apple pie had nuts in it. Fuck.


My stomach's hurting again ;_;

6 Little LoverDolls | Wilt thou answer?


angel_bob

:: 2005 19 September :: 12.47am

I wasn't saying, Kyle, that people who drink are anything less than people. My parents drink and, before they were married, my father drank quite a bit. I'm so sorry that I'm upset that the people I care a ton about are making stupid decisions.

And I'm especially sorry that you think I don't give a flying fuck about them. I'm sorry that you think I don't care. I thought that by now, you'd know me better than that. I'm sorry that you weren't there to see me when I found out that Ben spent the weekend at his brother's drinking and getting drunk. I'm sorry that you didn't see how much I worried about him and still do worry about him. I'm sorry you don't see me pray every night that he, Jackie, Kelly and everyone at college or elsewhere will be okay.

Amanda's cousin died of alcohol poisoning.

I'm sorry that you don't see how important this subject is to me.

And I'm sorry that you don't see how important everyone is to me.

I apologize that I'm having a difficult time adjusting to everyone growing up and experiencing adulthood but I am. There's been a lot of stuff lately that has made me have to grow up and it's too bad that you aren't here to see it and that I'm not comfortable enough to tell you.

Yes, people with make dumb decisions. I accept that. I can suck it up.

I can care about them. And I do.

1 Little Lover | Wilt thou answer?

Woohu.com | Random Journal