I PLAYED MY FIRST GAME OF DDR TODAY! (more like 13 games xD)
Oh wow that was so fun! ^^ Me and Martika went to the mall before I had to go to my outside 'play' practice today at 2. ::cough:: I was an hour and 20minutes late for practice today though XD! The place had two younger boys on it (12-15?) and once we stood by them they started screwing up and I finnaly asked them (since they didn't run off) for us to have a turn and they went. ^^ (I kicked martika's ass in Tekken 4 again before that n.n) yea it was fun! We went on.. standard.. and died then we found out that there is a beginner stage.. so it was fun! We already knew a bunch of the tunes cuase of my CD so we just picked a few favorite songs, ran out of tokens, got more and played some more. Time flew by and it was time for my practice (it's like a 40 minute drive from the town we was in) and so we went to eat. Went to a chinese resturant xD omg the dude was hott! I dunno ... a cook or something. But he sat us at a table and hee hee he went and swept up some stuff off the floor near someone elses talbe so I threw my straw paper on the ground in hopes he would some 'sweep' it up and XE xD IT DIDN'T WORK! lol it was so much fun today though. And it even got BETTER!
At practice (even though I WAS an hour and 20mins late) Bonny and her two grandsons finnaly showed up for pracitce! Her 13 yearold grandson John is rather cute and tall. (I've mentioned him before have I not?) Yes but anyway he was.. umm talking to me more.. Boldly do I dare? ^^ Yes he was! I was soo surprized too cause he didn't talk to me next to none last last last week ^^' He tried to push me in a pile of horse shit and (I didn't step in it!) so I pushed him to get him back. He didn't push back. (Ooo physical contact! Jk) That and José was there! Oohhhhhh José is apperently mexcian and a Hottie at that! Boy is he cute! lol I always get a hug from him and I've known him since I was like.. 7 or 8 or something. He's 21 n.n I know I ain't going no where with him and I wouldn't dare! I don't trust him one bit! >.< but I do enjoy his hugs ahh so much.
John plays DDR and lives in walking distance of the mall so I asked him for his number so we could bmeet up at the mall sometime and he did. I asked him if he wanted my number and he more then normaly said 'Yes!' and I was surprized at his tone ^^ hee xD I can't help it! I think he's cute! :\
Yesserz. God, my parents are fucking going to the casino even though we are like out of money! They are writing checks for next month and carp and screwing us all up! Once the taxes come in they are gonna be sucked up!
.. ... yea.. I have homework.. I don't want to do it.. I just want to talk to Laike (who is ignoring me at the moment.. T.T there are wayy too many of those moments)

Ja~

Martika spent the night last night. Today we went to Hastings and the Mall ^^. xD we went to Dillards and started trying on all this expensive clothes and having a good'ol time (me daddy was tagging along keepin an eye on us) and then this little girl and her mom and son came in and their mom started trying on clothes and like the 12 year old boy was staring at martika and me while we was comming out with our clothes on ._. and then Martika talked to the little girl (nothing bad) saying 'this is what you get to do when your older' meaning have fun and try on stuff. Her mom got 'offended' told my dad told a clerk and then we got in trouble -.-' got out and dad made us 'apologize for offending her daughter' -_-+ ^^ but besides that it was fun fun fun today!
Went to .. ahh.. Gazooks (hee I spelt that wrong) and got me a $5 shirt baby! ^^' it was marked down twice xD ha ha ha! ::clears throat:: Then we went to the arcade that they have in the mall (smallllll) and watched People play DDR (Dance Dance Revolution) and it turns out that I have a burnt CD with all the DDR music on it ^^' hee I didn't even know that CD was for DDR! Coolz! Yea, then we went next to them and played Tekken 4 (so cool! I need to get that game the graphics kick ass!) and some guy who was playing DDR with his friends came up to me and wanted to play me in Tekken 4. He k.o. me the first time then I kicked his ass the second match then he kicked my ass again -.-' so me and martika went to tekken tag since he wasn't dieing anytime soon on tekken 4. Played and watched DDR (we was gonna play but there was a group of freaky guys (that dudes friends ^^') playing so ya.. no time to fit 'us' in) Yes and that was fun.
I got Get Backers volume 1 from Waldens today.
Worked for 2 hours and 5 minutes today at work (just got back like 30 or so mins ago) and so that is $10 right there baby! And I got another $5 commin and so that is looking at a $15 paycheck! (doesn't sound like much ne? To me it is!)
God, at that place (my job) fucking all they talk about is drugs drugs drugs.... god... -_- they was going to a party tonight and therer was a bunch of crack-heads commin in... ugly crack-heads... god... it's friggin messed up... I'm a bit scared.. you know.. they talkin bout buying drugs and everything... .... what if some people come.. like from a gang (there are many gangs) come after one of the guys that work there and I get cought up in it? ._. eek right?
Yesserz, I've only read like 15pages of Get Backers so that is what I'm bout to do that and my neck is killing me from work!
Alrighty ...

Ja~

I don't feel right.

Today it stormed.. before I went to school, during school, and after school. It has stoped though... it got sunny and is now drying up I guess...
I was in such a good mood today at school too... doing my work.. well kinda... such a nice gloomy, dark, warmish cool day... foggy and misty.. days I love... the clouds were so dark the entire town was in shade... beautiful. During 6th hour it poured hard and the storm was passing over us. The whole school was called into the gym to wait it out. A nearby town was on a Tornado Warning... we get that alot out here. We were on flash flood too.. ... .. I got a ride home so atleast I didn't have to walk in the rain..
Ever since our house got struck by lightening (right by my window, I was by the window at the time too.. god.. it was so scary) I've been afraid of storms since.. that's what? Been a year or so? ... yea.. so.. I didn't want to walk home while it was still thundering...

I... I dont know why I'm feeling so... depressed.

.... ..I just want to go outside in the night cold, when everything is wet and has that wonderful scent, and just walk around. But.. it's dangerious and my mother won't let me... I myself.. am scared to walk.. but it's such a great night... .. ah...
I have this pain in my left thigh/hip. It feels like I have a bruse under my skin.. I dont' know.. did I pull a muscle? It's like right on that bone.. I dunno...
.. I'm so tired... .. I don't want to stay up and watch Witch Hunter Robin.. but I want to watch it... make sense? ... ..
... ... I just want out... away from this house.. away from this small ugly town.. and go into the town 25minutes away... .. my hometown... .. that's were I want to go.. go to the moives.. hang out at the mall.. even by myself so I can meet new people... .. who would probably want to rape me -.-' ... I don't know... I just.. am tired of the same old thing.. over and over.. the sight never changes...... ..
It can drive someone crazy... .. and I think it has driven me to something.... I don't like the quite life.. out in the country, small town, small school, limited education... I hate all this... why the hell do my parents wish to live out here? They say it's safer, more quite, but we go into town all the time.. it's so fucking stupid... ..

I want to play the piano right now.. god I wish we had one.. a keyboard .. fucking something... ... god.. I want to just either cry or scream out of fustration right now.. what is wrong with me? ...

-.- such mood swings.. no this is me.. the true me.....


Ja...

^^ for those of you who care: work went well today.
Worked with Sonny... the one that just got out of jail for posession of marijuana ^^' I like Johnothin more ^^',\ Sonny's alright though.
I got paid too.. I don't think that waitress likes me... well I don't like her so there!
$10.30! Yep, for last Saturday ^^
I can get me a Graphic Novel now! Manga manga! Nnn what to get!? I CAN'T WAIT! I'LL BE ABLE TO BUY A NEW BOOK EVERY WEEK! JOYZ!!!! oh joyz joyz
I don't know when my Japanese lessons will start.. my mom says she'll call her thrusday -.-'
I haven't got my physical yet.. we have a game Monday... I don't want to play anymore.. I skipped sewing class today after school.. it was raining and I just wanted to get home -.-' (walking home in the rain is not that fun when it's freezeing cold)

Yessers... letter from Japan dude didn't come in today -.-'
Essay is due thrusday instead of tomorrow so I'll start on it tomorrow.
Have homework.. will I do it?:NO
....


Ja

Let the Rain fall down and wake my dreams, let it wash away my sanity, cause I wanna feel the thunder I wanna scream, let the rain fall down.. I'm comming clean...

Yes, I like that part. I don't like her but I have to say, I like that song.. the music video is good too -.-' I'm so ashamed to say that.

Tomorrow I work! Joy! I didn't want to stay at piano practice (got stuck on a song: Saints go Marching in -.-;;) so I made up the lie that I had to leave 20mins early ^^' I cought a glimse of her watch (I don't have one and there isn't one in the room) and that's what time it was: five till four.

Dude in Japan said he already sent me a letter. I CAN'T WAIT TILL I GET IT! ^^ I'm so excited.
I keep finding these great online comics.. ahh the art is so beautiful. It makes me draw so much more. I draw at school, at home when I'm supposed to do homework. I'm seriosly thinking about droping out of school and just taking Japanese language courses and of course Kanji and then my art. ^^' but I would be bored out of my mind if i didn't have to go to school, so -.-' I'm finishing school. And I'm going to college ::thinks she has it planned:: I don't want to go to school here though. You have to take spanish. Do you know how much that'll screw me up if I'm tring to learn Japanese? I have a friend that is doing that and he's failing Spanish II! -.-' (sorry friend!)

It's Eerie Queerie ^^ two E's aww I love that it's so cute! Yes, I want to go draw some more but my hands are so worn out -.-' they are telling me to stop typing.
I got my essays done 4th hour at school. Well, 2 of them anyway. (the 200-word ones) 288words and 246words ^^ hee hee I think I did pretty good :D and then I have to friggin type a 400-500 word one tomorrow since I didn't work on it today -.-'
My teeth hurt ;_; my teeth.. I'm so worried about them because they are so senstive. -_- feels like they are shattering right now. They aren't all fucked up either! I have nice straight upper teeth that are WHITE and my bottem teeth are a bit crowded but they are more or less striaght as well (jinx?)
ah.. yea.. now that you know about my teeth ^^',\
turns our bailey had an ear fungus ._. .. yea..
well don't want to miss which hunter rombin so ...


Ja~

hey hey hey
Dang, staying up to watch Witch Hunter Robin is taking it's toll ~_~ tired.

BUT GOOD NEWS!!!!!!! I have a job now!! Today at school I went to stand by Martika and she told me that the other dishwasher quit and her boss told her that she would have to work every day of the week. But then Martika reminded her of me and she told Martika to call me to tell me to call her because I got the JOB! Joyz ^^ I'm happy ^^',\ even though I'll only be working around 2 days a week if I'm lucky o_o meaning I'll only be making around $10 a week if that .__. ^^ but I guess it's a start.

The princibal has a problem with my hair. He doesn't like it and says that he believes it against the rules [the bastard knows it's not, the rule book says nothing of the sort]. He said that when I wear my 'do' like I 'do' [meaning spiking it up] that I do it for attention, and the ass got up and my face and was like' right right!?' -_-+ I swear I wanted just to go off at him but he gave me no chances to butt in and I didn't want to get on his bad side, since I want to keep my hair this color. Ah.. well it doesn't matter, I shouldn't talk about it. He's a bastard and I know it ^^ that is that! ::is still pissed and wants to kill him:: >.>'
(jk JK!)
There was a fight at school between these two fat Indian druggies :\ retards.. yea.. it was at lunch and I was dumping my trey and I saw it though the door window and I was like o.o? ^^ My friend Shay was out there with them and she said one had the other against the wall and was pounding her face then it was turned around and the other girl had the other in a head lock and yada yada. Teachers rushed out and that was that!

My knee itches. I still hate my brother. My back itches. I just now remembered I have a test tomorrow. I'm getting annoyed with my self. And I still am annoyed with myself.

Why am I like this? I don't like how I am.. I don't like that I dont' have any friends with the same intrests as me and dress the way I do.. my friends and I are not 'similar' to put it bluntly.

.. he said I do it for attention.. I fucking don't... I'm not gothic.. yet.. and I don't want to be.. I dont' look good in all black ::has tired it:: dumbass bastard... ..

I'm just waiting for someone to come on... so I can IM him.. but I'll probably be dissapointed...

At school I was sneeking away to go to the autotium to play on the piano in there ^^ I can't get away from them now! I want to get a keyboard so I can play at home...
Taxes will be comming in soon.. Friday I'm supposed to go to Whichita Falls to go shopping... that's IF we get the money...

MMmm Hot Topic... can't wait.. am I setting myself up for a fall again?


Ja

.. Ok that last entry was.. umm.. messed up.
[ah I love this keyboard!]
Now... .. Laike... wow.. I don't think he knows how much.. this means to me! I don't think YOU know how much this means to me! It's been a dream of mine for quite some time to go to Japan.. to have a friend that lives in Japan... god this is so great! I could acctually SEE Japan though his eyes... awesome... gosh I want to go to Japan so bad! I just hope I can restrain myself and not go crazy on him and scare him off T_T... -.- ...

I have piano practice after school, thing is softball practice is afterschool aswell -_- and I told Mrs. B that but... she is.. umm.. pissed? She wants me at her practice.. Piano lessons is over at 4:15 and softball practice is over at 4:30... It's in the gym of the school because it rained today.. early this morning.. It's so nice outside ^^ I love it when it rains. The breeze is just chilly enough to when you stand in it long enough, it'll send a shiver down your spine ^^

Japan.. JAPAN!!! GACKT! My dreams usually come true.. yes it does sound weird, but I get these... um.. I dunno how to explain it.. clips? Just these like strange pictures in my head that I totally just push aside cause they are really confusing and then like weeks or so later or just whenever, a sictuation will come and then it'll click. 'I've done this before' and it's from that picture in my dream.. Days-ya-voo? [Y_Y yes I know I can't spell]

Ahh... I just found out that I can't go to softball practice till I get a physical -_-+ Grrr those pervertive old guys... -__-'

But anyway, back to what I was getting at, remember me saying something about that dream I had like last month or so? About I was in Japan with my parents and there were people that spoke English around me and then there was that Gackt movie and that girl loved Gackt like me and wanted to go see it with me? Well, now I know someone in Japan.. so.. woudln't it just rock if that dream came true? But I usually dont' remember my dreams untill the sictuation comes up to were I suddenly remember so now since I thought about it I probably jinxed it so now it won't come true .__. boy I just confused myself. Besides, I don't remember a guy my age in my dream anyway ::sigh::

I can't wait to talk to him.. with my luck he probaly won't be on -_- wow.. I was just going to bed last night and he was getting ready for class.. [homeschool]... wow...

... @.@ OoooOo lost my train of thought.

Oh! The principal hasn't said anything about my hair ^^! YeAh! So I'll be getting it dyed a deeper shade sometime and my friend Shay wants to come with me and get her hair dyed blue.. though her hair is a true deep brown so I dont' know if It'll show up. I'm calling Wade whenever I get home ^^ so I can ask him to squeeze me in sometime.

... I want to go into town today... I want to get blink 182.. but maybe I should save my money so I can buy Laike stuff ^^ xD!!! CHIPS!!!

....yes I am crazy ._.'


Ja

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)

::shivers:: damn I'm cold for some reason -.-' well maybe if I was a bit darker and not so white I would attract heat instead of reflecting it ^^',\ heh heh

-.-' god I didn't fall asleep in class... and I haven't taken a nap yet either... so cold... well witch hunter robin comes on tonight so i'll have to stay up meaning i can't catch up on my sleep. Went to Wal-Fart today and got me a red big long pillow thingie.. yea can't wait to sleep T_T whenever that might be -_- I need a bigger bed, twin just ain't cuttin it. -__- I almost feel out of it this morning... ahh... I'm getting better at drawing.. .. manga... ah.. my dream... to draw manga... guess it wouldn't be manga since I'm not Japanese -_- .. I don't like the word comic though... -_-+

My dad and I wasn't getting along at all today.. he is finally putting his foot down and making me listen to him.. I usualy just dismiss him.. and everyone.. I've been like that lately, keeping to myself.. -_- ... oh!

We are having classes after school ^^ yea! I'm taking Piano and sewing o_o ^^ I had Piano today and I have it again thrusday because I'm older! joy! umm yea well anyway, it's after school from 3:15 to 4:15... and i've decided to play slow pitch softball this year.. it starts next week, practice.. i need a new glove though.. I told mrs b that I was thinking about playing and damn that women and a few girls just gave me a friggin tight ass hug.. they really need some good players... i'm good at softball.. but .. taking a break for 2 years.. i'm well worse then just out of shape.. -_- so I'll probably be a laugh ^^' heh...

Got to find my wrist things so my bones won's snap since i'm so boney -.-' naw i ain't THAT boney.. it just helps my weak ass joints... -_- ick and running.. and it's so cold and you have to practice outside.. maybe i'll just play in the sumer >.>

..

Ja

Oh damn this is a good RP ::giggles:: oh ::clears throat::

Just got GC's CD today, used at Hastings for 9$

Tuesday I'm getting my hair cut (yea!) and Friday I get it dyed ^^ joyz...

not supposed to tell but it's true.. we are getting like 5,000 something in taxes back or whatever you call it.. mom said she was going to take me on a shoping spree.. I told her that 40$ is not a shopping spree and she said that it wouldn't be 40$ but around 400$ and I as like .. . just nodding lol that isn't much when you think about it. But that would be cool. Most of the money is going to bills and paying off one of our cars, my brother is getting 1500 because we 'owe' him 2100 and blah blah yea... maybe he'll move out (i can only wish) yea.. but today..well yesterday laura turned 16.. she is gonna dump jason and go out with jeff.. -_- jeff=my flirting buddy.. i like him.. if he asked me out i would say yes.. he is younger then me but... -.-' can't say no to those hott indian/mexican guys ^^' naw he is cool... ah -_- why does he like laura? grrr oh well i can't do anything about it.. well i won't do anything abou it >.>

Meh.. well.. oh mom said she would take me to Whichita Falls TX to go shoping at their mall WHICH HAS HOT TOPIC!!! I can't wait, I really hope what she says isn't just.. something that isn't going to happen.. goodness... i need a job...

A group of Japanse people came to this practice I had today, its' an outside play, big, yeah but anyway they went to check out the place and i was leaving and I heard them say watashi something but they were speaking too low for me to understand T_T I really want to learn Japanese... I wanted to say to them 'sumimasen, e-ka ga desu ka? -.-' but I didn't cause i was in a crowd and rush rush hurry hurry -_- yes.. but.. ah..

... dad is getting old.. real old... it's bad... i wonder how long he has left... -_- ... ... shit.. i have tests tomorrow at school and i can't stop RPing T_T .... 'hold on if you feel like letting go, hold on gets better then you know' 'your days, you say they're way too long, your nights, you can't sleep at all' ' and we all bleed the same was as you do' ... ah... gackt is hott, PIA is hott.. i had a dream that i was in japan and there were these girls that could speak english and it was beautiful... ... and then there was a gackt movie.. and this girl loved gackt so we were gonna go and ... well i woke up.. but you don't know how hard I tried to fall back asleep into that dream...

...

ja

Heh MXC on Spike TV is soo funny. Lol

Umm.. well.. just fun. I hate our dogs. Wish someone would take them in, my parents wouldn't get rid of them.

.. heh I have homework. I didn't study for a test I had today and crammed once I got to school. I think it helped a bit but not much. I'm liking Jeff more and Aaron is just an annoyence now, and it seems like he's wanting my attention more. Heh I could just be making the whole bit up.

Oh.. I feel asleep today 6th hour ^^' the class I had the test in xD ha ha ha I mean I FELL ASLEEP! I've only feel asleep once before, ok maybe a few more than once but never for more then a few mins. I usually just rest there and zone out with my eyes closed but never really 'fall asleep' but I did today xD gahh though the whole frickin hour! It's lititure! And I missed the story, but there ain't no way I'm reading it on my own, I'm just too lazy. I woke up to the bell and eveyone said I had an imprint of my braclets on my forehead -.-' oh well

..

Why am I the last to find out? I am just a kid. I get treated as one, I act like one.. but.. on the inside.. I'm not one, on the outside .... I don't want to be one.
We are having money problems -_- whats' new right? I just went shoping today and well... now I feel .. foolish.. I'm gonna have to start managing my parents money. My dad lets me get whatever I want and he really shouldn't cause we apprently can't offord it. Well, we owe 200$ more than what we have and the only way we can get it is pawning shit. It pisses me off. I.. want a job.. I .. i hate this ... I don't want to say it. I hate this family. This isn't a family.. .. I hate this house.. .. this life.. .. me.. i hate it all.....

... .. i hate my parents for being idiots.. dont' they know anything? I want to blame it all on the casino but that's won't help anything. They are both in their early 50's and should have 20 or more years... but.. I think that they only have a few left. .. I hate my brother... ...

.. my mom is getting tax money and my brother is wanting alot of it. It's supposed to be like 3000$ but it'll all go to bills. My bro is supposed to get a 1000$ I guess. Yes he is a selfish ass. Mom said he 'gave' us 400$ not too long ago. Heh were'd the fuck did it go? He doesnt' pay rent and my parents always manage to suck money from him to pay bills that just get more and more behind. People are so stupid. I hate thses animals. They treat them... like people, like they are smart or something. ... dad calls the dog son. Sure I'm jealous... would I push one of them down a long long hill? Sure I would. Mom thinks I'm poisoning her cause her stomach hurts, dad says it's students from her job. It's not me. .. i'm pissed now...

Ja

A new year all ready

Yep, school is tomorrow, yea...

Wow,.. I haven't updated in a long time. ... I'm looking forward to seeing Martika, Amanda, Amy and Sandra at school tomorrow. ... I think I just dumped my old friends ^^' lol my classmate friends. I'm tired of being in a class full of younger kids... .. I.. I think being with Amanda and Martika and Amy and Sandra and Kiki made me realize, that.. my friends are immature... young... I already am more fond of Amanda, Martika and so on more than Laura and Jessica and Mattie and blah.. the only friend in my class that I think I care about is Laura. Jessica lost my trust and no one besides Laura ever had a sliver of it. I heard Laura got me a xMas present.. I feel bad. I haven't talked to her, called her.. and I haven't been at her games. I think she's fond of me.. not in a lez way... I stick up for my friends.. I gues that's why she likes me.. I dont' want to hurt her feelings.. she is cool.. we have some things and common I guess I shouldn't just jump on my new friends. We have so much in common, anime and shonen-ai, yaoi and stuff... music.. Laura doesn't like my Japanese music but these other girls do! .. yea.. umm got FAKE volume 5, and Utena the Moive.. Utena is a lez thing.. but I love the moive.. it's awesome, I thought I woudlnt' like it cause of the girl girl thing but it rocks. Martika had been wanting to see it so she'll be happy to hear I have it and volume 5 of FAKE, so will Amanda n.n

... my back hurts... .. today my daddy is .. 51 I think... yea.. I think my mom and dad are at a casino now... .. I want my hair cut.. I want my ears pierced more.. my left will have atleast 4 and right 3... maybe 5 on my left.. I want my hair highlighted red... with blonder streaks... I want I want I want.

...

I need a Job...


Ja~

Well, today.. I woke up to my dad.

He was dressed and ready for town. He and mom left around 10 something (casino dumbass) and I got up around .. 10 something probably and watched tv till around 12:30, my brother had left and I was home alone. I grabbed a few small doughnuts and ate them and got on the computer than my bro got home and I started to finish cleaning up my room, meaning I was aiming for the closet. I was really into it too, got all my clothes and put them on my bed, than worked on the shelves. I took all I found that I didn't want (all the stuff but a small amount) got piles at a time and broght them downstairs and put them on the table and the area around the table since it didn't take long to fill the table up comepletely except for ontop of the cat dish. I kept going back and forth untill one of my bro's friends came over. I didn't have a bra on so I rushed to my room. Damn asshole he could of told me to go get decent because a guy friend was comming over, damnit, guys you best tell your sis that if it ever happens. Gahh he pissed me off! He could of told me.. but anyway, I almost ran into the guy in the hallway and I just kept on working on my closet. Cleaned and vaccroomed it out and than started putting stuff back in. Mom called and said they would be comming home so to be ready. I got ready and my cloest is the best it's ever looked. The floor is empty except for shoes, and a box. The second self is packed with stuff but the top slef only has a few things on it. Wow. Well, I'm still not done cleaning though.

They came like they said and we left and got a tree. Mom told me in the car that we would get the tree, bring it back to the house, than go into town and eat than go shopping. She said they would of just gone shoping, but she remembered me telling her that I liked to just go grocery shopping with them. I'm glad she did. The eating went fine and we went to WalMart to get my neice some gifts for christmas. I didn't think we had the money, but they payed with check so.. yeah... it's getting close to the first of the month so yeah. .. my dad said that we could go to home depot some time and get me my paint.. so I guess.. I realy am gonna get to do my room. I'm so happy at that thought. Mom said that not the first check of january but the second one we could use it to put a new bed for me on layaway. I told her that they should use it for the loan instead of the bed and she got upset about that... Yea.. but anyway.. that's bout all that happened.. oh they picked me up around 5 something.. yea.. gone at the casino all day... .. damn... .. I was working all day. I'm really proud of the way my room looks. Empty cause I got rid of everything but CLEAN!

I wonder what will happen tomorrow.

Oh, that tree was hell putting up. It's still bear.



Ja~

Well, this morning woke up and mom cooked me breakfast for a change, big surprize lol. It was yummie. One fried egg sunny side up, 2 scrambled eggs with surup and then one piece of toast and some cold tea ^^'

I called Amanda and told her that she could borrow my Marmalade Boy mangas and she could come pick me up and take me to school since she had to drop of her twin brother and sister and her other sister Brittney for school, Martika was in the car too. So, they picked me up from my house and I let Martika borrow FAKE which she loves and after she finished it Amanda wants to read it and then Martika is gonna read Marmalade Boy I think. That's cool. I didn't have to take any tests today, meaning I'm out for Christmas break if I choose to be, but I wanted to go and just take some tests, seeing how much I knew since it wouldn't count agaisnt my grade. Than once I was done with my test I could read, and I liked this book CROOKED, it's really good so I wanted to read pretty much all day since I only had to half ass the tests if I didn't want to answer the questions. Went their and took science test, it was pretty easy except this one part, and it showed ^^' made a 79 ^^''' yeah, but I got a few chapters done in my book. Then OK-History, and I decided that I didn't want to take it but our teacher talked me in to just taking 10 mins to finish it, he said I could go when I was done. So, he graded it for me once I was done and it turned out that I got 25 out of 50 correct, making that test an F xD ha ha well he just laughed at me and said that I should read the text book over our break, oh yea, I sure would do something like that. Lol like hell. Walked home and then called Amanda. She had to take Martika in later for a test she had to take, I told her that when she droped her off she could pick me up and we could go to her house to watch Marmalade Boy on DVD (my friends which I still have ^^' ty btw) and she said it would be great, but on the way intown she had ran over a nail and she told me but I didn't know it was still stuck in the tire. Her tire was completely flat so she couldn't come get me. My dad took me and it was fun. We watched anime and I brought over my anime magazines. It was cool. Martika was .. being weird. Acting weird. This was our second meeting (well with Amanda, myslef, and her) and it was just weird cause she poked me with the phone top in my side which made me frickin giggle all werid lol it tickled and she cracked up and kept trying it. It was weird. She sat by me on the couch and.. it was just weird... yea.. and she talks about yuri which is female x female relationships, lez stuff and it freaks me out but I just nod and look away lol We watched FAKE on DVD then put in Marmalade Boy. Looked at some magazines and then her mom got back and we like went to sonic to get something and then Marika had to go and me and Brittney went back and Drew, then Martika and Brittney and the twins were home and her mom was too and Brittney had her music way up loud and it was annoying me, and then we kinda watched some of Cowboy Bebop the movie. Oh, we went to Martika's house to. Man, huge house. They are remodling it and it shows lol. Her mom is pretty but weird. That book Tika has is a series, Samuri Girl, yeah, there are 4 books out now and she let me borrow the first one and Amanda let me borrow Love Hina vol. 1 so yea, I'm tired as hell and need to get some sleep. Only got 4 hours yesterday ^^' that's what I get for rping up till 2:30 am xD Amanda is supposed to call in the morning, she has to take Brittney and the twins to school again and Martika spent the night, they will maybe pick me up and we can watch anime all day long. Problem though. Laura just started playing for High School in basketball and is loving it and there is a home game tomorrow at 6:30 and she is starting and I think she's hinting to me that she wants me to be there. Cause she kept asking if I was going. Yea, well I'm beat now. I want to read but I'm getting up school time so I dont' know if I should read cause I might stay up later. Oh, I'll figure something out...



Ja~

Well, today was a complete surprize.

!!!

School went great! No work, just movies. Well, in English there was a test, but just two pages and we had lots of classtime after we were done just to do whatever. Martika waved to me when we were changing classes 5th hour. I think she likes me THAT way. I smiled back (hand full of books) yea, checked out a new book, CROOKED, I haven't read much, just a page or two. It's worth 13 points and is like 365 pages long or something. But anyway the best part of today was when I got home!

Got a call and it was from some voice I've never heard before. They said something about an anime night and I'm like 'must be someone from some anime fourm I mailed in' but no! It was Brittney! She said that we will have an animenight Friday and for me to bring all my DVD's ^^' which we won't be able to watch in one day so I'm not going to bring them all. She also said that they were going into town, to Hastings, to rent DVD's!!! Wow! She invited me!! She came in picked me up (Amanda drove, she was the one on the phone) yea and Martika and Amy was in the car too. My parents weren't home and I called the casino but they had already left. I left a note and told my brother that I just got off the phone with mom and dad and they said I could go ha ha a lie! Yeah, but when Amanda was driving back to her house, we passed them on the road lol! So I called mom from Amanda and Brittney's house. Brittney wasn't home, she was somewhere with her mother.

Ok, Amanda's car is jacked up and like ... a purplish red old color. But anyway, their van is way wrose. The side door is broken and doesn't open all the time, and the inside is... old and messed up and the window was broken once and they had plastic overing it up, and it floped when they drove. I mean, it's a hunk of junk and I'm surprized it even starts. We got ready to go and the side of the van wouldn't open, so we could either climb in though the front or the back. We all chose the back. Amanda sat in the front and me and Martika and Amy climbed though the back. Amy, then me and then Tika. I sat on the end and Amy was in the middle. We talked about anime and games on the long ride there. (oh Amanda's twin brother and sister went too, they are like 5 or something) Once at Hastings it was embarrasing to climb out the back but it had to be done. It was night so that helped lol. It was cool, her dad took the kids somewhere and left us there for close to 2 hours. It was cool, first we checked out manga.

Turns out that Martika likes shonen-ai/yaoi!!! OMG SO FUCKING COOL!!! oh Yea, coolness. She's read FAKE vol. 1 and is hooked. She lite up when she heard that I had volumes 2 and 3. Cool. It's really weird though (oh yeah btw at Amanda's house she took a picture of me ^^' fucking freaked the shit out of me. Damn, weird, she took other pictures too, that made me feel a tad better) Then it was off to CD's ^^ music. We all like rock which is cool xD Martika doesn't like Evanescence!!! However you spell it, or Trapt!!! I love them. Amy was dieing for COLD, Year of the Spider CD but she couldn't find a used one. Amanda is cool, she talks with such a soft voice, freakie coming from such a large person (no offense to anyone out there) Then DVD's. Then I left everyone in music (went back there again) and grabbed MARS vol. 3 and started reading. Like 10 minutes later or so they all came and got a book and sat and read. Amy had Love Hina, I with my MARS, Amanda had this one I couldn't remember but the Inu Yasha creator is the one who drew it, and Martika had a book book, with all words ya'know? Well, it was Romiate and Joulit or some thing like that. I asked if Romiate was a guy or girl and she said girl. Girl girl. Meaning BOTH were girls!!! Weird as hell! Yeah, then she ran off looking at other books or something. Clock stroked 8 and we had to go to her dad that came inside. Put the books up and rented the first two Lain DVD's on my name since Whom ever rented them didn't have a card (can't remember) Amanda bought Love Hina volume one, and Martika got 2 books. One about some art or something like that and then Samuri Girl or something. Yeah, but I want to read that book that she got, Samuri Girl, if that's what it was called. yeah, the ride home was weird cause I was munchin on these cheeze crackers that Amanda's little brother and sister had and Martika sat next to me. She was werid around me the whole time. I dont' now she kept running off then when she did talk to me, it was just weird. Well, for example she called me Da'da instead of Buda (except my real name) Yeah, weird. She was looking at lez stuff.. well reading bout it anyway I guess and then in the van she brought up .. no not in the van, in the car on the way to my house. Her dad brought us to their house then we all got in Amanda's car and she drove me and amy and martika home. But in the van we mostly talked about games ^^' it was cool. In the car Martika brought up shojo-ai.... shojo... girl x girl relationships. Grr frickin weird. She might be a lez I don't know. I dont' know but I had fun all in all and can't wait till Friday!!! Unfotinatly they said Sandra will probably be there. Grrr I really don't like her. But anyway, I want to get going so I can read some CROOKED ^^ yes well peace and I didn't spend a penny tonight xD oh and the scrimage was cancled btw. Yes well ta ta and I'm in a good mood because they was listening to me for anime talk. Martika isn't allowed to play games like on a PS2 or get on the Internet. Weird, so she doesn't watch alot of anime at home. Yeah, she goes to Amanda's and Amy well she just plays games 24/7 lol really though, dang. Yeah, well ok ok later


Ja~