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2005 8 July :: 3.37am
:: Mood: pissed
:: Music: Oasis - wonderwall
all these bitches talk shit<3
I LOVE IT WHEN my friends talk shit.. and say they feel bad for me.. *ahem* yeah i no who u r... and ur such a bitch!!!! i did everything for you. But no fuck that! ugh. im so disgusted with you. but thats ok, i wont let it bother me. i have other friends who don't use me.
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2005 7 July :: 11.04pm
:: Mood: numb
:: Music: Scarling - beautiful
today is my first entry in awhile; i used to have woohu back in the day before you had to pay for it. but now i'm back. heh. i was drawingxblackxlines so yeah. nothing has been to good around here, its always shitty for me. my friend<3 bruce left for Iraq :sigh: i miss him more than ever. and i'm having boy troubles? blah its normal but what can i say.. my mom is coming around she isnt so bitchy anymore and my real dad is a cum guzzler whom i hate more than anything..ive been cheated so many times; im fed up!!!, but my last few days have been alright i was at my friend kellys and my other friend jena came over sometimes i feel like they dont really like me; like i get on there nerves.. ever felt like that? well i do all the time i can't help it. i saw the fireworks the other day it was okay. also i came into occurence with my ex dan i got so sick to my stomach it was unbareable he's trying to by me back but i'm sorry it isnt going to happen you cant BUY me back.. and i don't want a guy who says he loves me but cheated on me 5 times; i was with him for a year in a 1/2. ugh. enough said i had a rough few months.
much love,
Rochelle
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2005 4 July :: 9.49am
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: Relint K ~ Be My Escape
Eh . .
So I hung out with Avalon people last night. Met Blakey's sister, shes awesome. Like her lots. Bowled a little . . . mostly talked. I had alot of fun.
Shopping for another costume tomorrow with people. It should be entertaining. Hm . . .so I've decided I need a less-flowy costume for killing people. Like . .my sister introduced me to dance capris. And I guess I would find a semtey shirt or something. . . .I dont know.
Hm . . .a wave of depression just washed over me, lmao. Dont really know why. Or maybe I do, and I dont want to think about it. . . .
Oh well. Isnt the first time.
<3333 to Joe and Blakey.
~The Heartless One
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2005 2 July :: 8.21pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: Breaking Point ~ Show Me a Sign
boredom
Well . . .Avalon was fun again :) The only problem is the ticks -.- Grrrrrrrrrr. Saw Joe again! And I get to see him before Blood Moon . .so thats awesome. I cant wait! Blood Moon is going to own. Its gonna be SOOO orgasmic. ^.^
DRIVERS ED IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now all I have to do is get down to the DMV and take the tests. . . .-.- If my mom ever gets the insurance thing. Oh well . .I'll get it eventually :-P
Well . .thats all. Hopefully tomorrow I'm gonna hang out with some Avalon people :-D Happiness. Well, thats really all. I'm gonna go talk to people and listen to music. Ciaoness!
~Kiwi
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2005 29 June :: 2.00pm
:: Mood: Crushed.
:: Music: P!NK- Hazard to Myself
Woo.
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2005 20 June :: 2.20pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Techno!
Murshank
Wow. So I went to Murshank. It was . . .interesting. It wasnt what I thought it would be. Alot of the people were nice, but others sucked.:-P
I met cool people like Wade, and saw old friends, not to mention JOE! w00tness. All in all, it was fun. I ripped part of my toenail off though -.- Grrrr. Blood Moon is going to pwn. ^.^
Eh . . .Thats really all worth saying. Drivers ed is boring . . . EO next weekend :) My only savior. . . . .
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Ciao.
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2005 13 June :: 9.26pm
I think I won't be updating this so much...
I'm sorting things out in my life.
Feel free to comment anyways.
I'll be back to read them.
<333
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2005 10 June :: 2.08pm
:: Mood: grumpy
:: Music: Three Days Grace
-.-
Hm . .been a while. Driver's ed is fun. I love driving :) We went to the beach today . .and Dusty almost killed us -.- Jesus Christ, man.
Well, doesnt look like I'm going to Murshank . .again. WHats this, the third time? Grrr . .goddamnit. I'm going sometime soon.
SO yeah . .I bored/tired/REALLY hungry. Havent talked to Joe in a while, either. . . life blows.
Ciao.
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2005 7 June :: 11.20am
I was reminded this morning,
That it wasn't a dream.
I actually ripped someone's heart out...
Sheerly because I was unhappy.
I suppose it's for the best-
It'll make both of us happier in the long run.
But it hurts so fucking bad.
*sigh* What have I gotten myself into?
I'm so selfish and weak.
I can't believe myself sometimes.
John was the first guy to treat me like his everything,
And I just destroyed that,
Because I felt insecure...
With him being so far away,
And us not having means of communication at the time.
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2005 6 June :: 8.58pm
It's one of those times.
I'm so down...
I won't be myself for a while.
And I'll go ahead and apologize in advance.
I've reached the lowest of lows.
I can't stop crying.
I guess I do love him.
And I just threw it all away.
I should've realized...
I'm not old enough to handle something like this.
I realize now.
And it hurts so bad.
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2005 5 June :: 10.18am
:: Mood: Tired and depressed.
:: Music: Dashboard Confessional- Again I Go Unnoticed
Another sleepless night.
I don't know how I can deal with this.
It hurts so bad...
Why can't I just...
Know what I want.
For once in my life?
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2005 3 June :: 5.11pm
Revelations-
They're beautiful.
And they hurt so much.
I've realized, that this is not working,
For either of us.
And it hurts like hell, but I know it's not going to last.
We're both too young
To be so serious about this.
I do still love him.
But sometimes loving someone,
Isn't just being a couple.
It's doing what's best for the person,
No matter what.
Ever since he left, it's like...
There's this big, empty gap in my chest-
Gay, I know.
I'm not really sure where I'm going with this,
Or what I'm going to do...
I feel nauseated.
It happens when I get really upset.
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2005 2 June :: 10.41pm
:: Mood: Crushed.
:: Music: My Chemical Romance- Helena
*sigh*
Sadly, once again...
I succeeded in being the faggot,
Who sat in the corner.
Not talking.
I apologize for everything wrong I've done.
To any and all of you.
And I apologize for being so desolate and quiet.
I just haven't really been myself lately.
Or maybe I've just been my old self.
The Dana I used to be.
The Dana I hated.
The Dana that everyone hated.
I'm not very fond of change,
And I'm afraid that things may never be the same again.
I miss everyone.
I miss having more than three real friends;
Friends I actually spend time with and see regularly.
Who knows...
Maybe this is just me being an angsty teen.
This time, I doubt it.
Everything has just fallen apart so fast.
I hate not being able to change things.
I really do.
Cameron, thank you for trying to talk to me.
I appreciate it so much. It really means a lot to me.
I hope maybe some day,
Things can go back to how they used to be.
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2005 31 May :: 8.48pm
:: Mood: Mediocre.
:: Music: Flogging Molly- Drunken Lullabyes
Slurp.
Well, last night/today was pretty good.
I spent the night with Aisha and Keely...
It was pretty fun.
Then I slept on the floor. Ha.
We got up, and Aisha made me breakfast. =)
Then, we came to my house for a while.
After a while, we went and got Andrew, and went to the mall.
Where we found Derrek, who was just getting off work.
So we hung out with him.
He's crazy. Heh. It's so funny.
Well, the mall got boring after a while.
So we all piled in the car, and went to my house.
Where we hung out for a while.
And then Andrew had to leave. ='(
So we're sitting here, listening to music.
And everyone's about to leave.
I'm starting to get used to summer.
--- Oh yeah. And, uh, about my last post... Still comment on it. I'll make a post on it like tomorrow or something. =)
I take it back.
Summer sucks.
Because I'm just a shitty friend
Who never does anything right.
I knew it'd happen like this...
I'd lose touch with people,
And someone's feelings would get hurt.
And now I'm a bad guy.
*sigh*
♥
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