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2003 28 July :: 8.35pm
:: Mood: Fine.
Tell me - how accurate is this to me?
You are quick to pick up information, Kate, and someone needs only explain something to you once for you to grasp the entire concept. Your questions are clear and concise, and no one will be able to accuse you of not paying attention to their words or actions. At the same time, you may be become too sensitive to the information around you. An overload of stimuli could eventually overwhelm you.
Your sign is that of intense Scorpio, the eighth sign of the zodiac, best characterized by passion, intensity, and emotionality. You are considered to be the most powerful and extreme sign of the zodiac, because you deal with the process of fundamental transformation on all levels.
Pluto is your ruler, Scorpio, and is known as the planet of permanent change and transformation. It is also associated with sex, the life cycle of birth and death, and regeneration.
You are the second of the three water signs. Pluto's influence makes you a charismatic, yet enigmatic person. While you may appear serene on the surface, you contain a magnetic intensity and powerfully hypnotic personality, belied only by a penetrating stare of deep intelligence.
Scorpio, you rule the eighth house of the chart, which is associated with other people's money, possessions, and values, as well as wealth received through inheritance; it also describes how and to what extent we commit, and bond with our partner, both on a sexual and emotional level. Yours is a fixed sign, which means that you are steadfast in adversity. Once you put your mind to something, you display self-discipline and staying power. You work stoically to achieve your goals - no matter the cost!
Dear Scorpio your strengths lie in your ability to confront and channel powerful emotions and profound insights. With your great tenacity and willpower, you are well suited to positions of authority, thanks also to your firm sense of responsibility, your strategical approaches, and your charismatic aura.
You do have weaknesses, too! You can be blunt and demanding, and at worst, you may become merciless, obsessive, and manipulative. You are known for your passive-aggressive behavior, which sometimes reveals your proclivity for martyrdom. You also run the risk of displaying destructive, and revengeful behavior, which confirms your radical all-or-nothing approach to life.
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2003 28 July :: 8.26pm
:: Music: Tool
Scorpio & Cancer
Two Water signs dominated by sensuality... their sex life is likely to be thrilling! But is that enough? Cancer and Scorpio share a common craving. Both want to settle down; they claim to be monogamous, and instinctively sense the other's emotions. Both are comfortable in the realm of silence. However, Scorpio's rudeness may sometimes cause Cancer to recoil; Cancer's moodiness may be hard for Scorpio to bear. Moreover, Scorpio's overweening selfishness could wilt the strongest Cancerian love. If they endure, their love will be a symphony.
I hope I'm not rude.
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2003 26 July :: 10.50pm
:: Mood: fuck.
:: Music: The Hives - Find Yourself Another Girl
my family = fucking morons beyond possible belief
on another note.. got my 21st cone tonight. It was sitting outside the hospital so I just.. picked it up... took it to the car.. and brought it home. It says Wet Floor on it.
The MRI was nothing. If anything, the worst part was the shot or the wait. I just layed in the tube thing and they gave me these goggles so I watched a movie. It was... way easy. I get the results in about a week they say. Let's hope I'm not dying or something.
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2003 26 July :: 5.15pm
:: Music: Tool
She sat there, at her desk, staring at that blank white wall as she had done so many times before. But this time, the whiteness swirled. Swirled and twisted into horrible images. The red of blood, the sight of pain and the aroma of death filled the room. She sat transfixed on the images that seemed to flash before her eyes. She showed no emotion even as a child of age 5 appeared, hung by its own bedsheet. The mouth lagged and the eyes hung from their sockets. After examining the sight, she blinked and the child disappeared. Standing up, filled with such deep apathy, she seemed to float over to her dresser. Bottom drawer, in the back right corner, under the box of lost memories, she picked up that knife. The one she sharpened every night. The one she thought of daily. The one.. she planned to use. She walked out of the room, into the world, and slaughtered the one she loved, with no more than a tear. Nothing but lethargy coursed through her body, her heart. She looked at his lifeless face and stared into the blank eyes, stained with the tears he had begged with for his life moments earlier. A smirk, and she greeted herself with her favorite knife.
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2003 26 July :: 2.47pm
:: Music: Tool - Schism
So I just got some chocolate milk. mmm. The great day kind, not Save-A-Lot shit.
So my last 2 days were pretty good. Had their fun times... Refer to Neilee's journal for more details. Heh.
Not much in the mood to write a whole lot today.
MRI is today.....
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2003 25 July :: 1.46am
I'm cold.
Our Lady Peace - Clumsy
Throw away the radio
Suitcase keeps you awake
Hide the telephone, telephone, telephone in case,
You realize that sometimes you're just not okay
You level off level off you level off, but its not allright now
You need to understand
There's nothing strange about this
You need to know your friends
You need to know that
I'll be waving my hand watching you drown
Watching you scream, quiet or loud
And maybe you should sleep
And maybe you just need a friend
As clumsy as you've been
There's no one laughing
You will be safe in here
You will be safe in here
Throw away this very old shoelace
Tripped you again
Try and shrug it off shrug it off shrug it off
It's only skin now
You need to understand
There's nothing fake about this
You need to let me in
I'm watching you and
I'll be waving my hand watching you drown
Watching you scream
No ones around
And maybe you should sleep
And maybe you just need a friend
As clumsy as you've been
With no one laughing
You will be safe in here
You will be safe in
I'll be wavin my hand
Watching you drown
Watching you scream
Quiet or loud
And maybe you should sleep
And maybe you just need a friend
As clumsy as you've been
And no ones laughing
You will be safe in here
You will be safe in here
You will be safe in here
In here, in here, in here, in here
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2003 23 July :: 10.28pm
It will always be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end.
I promise.
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2003 23 July :: 10.19pm
:: Music: Red Hot Chili Peppers
I think I'll have fun.
Okay... great. heh. where.. is it... ?
I'm watching the time capsule.
As it falls through my hands.
Fragments near my feet.
Shattered like the heart of that lonely man.
Lost in a corner
Staring out with blank eyes
emotional apathy
frustrated serenity
That's just the way it goes.
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2003 23 July :: 11.44am
:: Music: The White Stripes - Seven Nation Army
I'm laying there sleeping last night. I'm dreaming but am sort of awake at the same time because I could feel this pain in my stomach. Suddenly I'm wide awake and I walk out in to the living room. My stomach hurts a lot. Then I run over to the trash can in the kitchen and throw up. Stand there for a second afterwards, trying to breath and shaking like mad. I slowly walk back to the bathroom and wash my mouth out. Then I layed back in my bed, still shaking, and fell asleep. I didn't go to work. I feel fine now...
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2003 22 July :: 12.36pm
Your magical style is Dark.
What type of Magic do you work?. Take the Magical Style Quiz by Paradox
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2003 22 July :: 12.17pm
You are a siren.
What legend are you?. Take the Legendary Being Quiz by Paradox
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2003 21 July :: 9.05pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: OK GO - There's a Fire
"I never say quite what I mean, and never mean quite what I say, and how did that get out of me, and what the hell did I mean to say?"
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2003 21 July :: 11.36am
:: Music: Lit - Ziplock
I was thinking about it and I'm not trying to change who I am, I guess I'm just trying to find who that is so I can become it. Basically, I'm "looking for myself." Yeeah, I know that sounds kind of like a cliche and is said a lot, but *shrugs* I don't know what else to say about it.
Today during work it started to thunder. I really enjoy the thunder. It makes me feel serene and content. I was slightly sad when it cleared up and went away. Ahh.. got out of work early today so Robin's here until her mom can pick her up. I should go and see what she's up to.
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2003 20 July :: 7.15pm
:: Mood: thoughtful
:: Music: Godsmack - Straight Out Of Line
it's got chicken legs...
Went to church with Kamal today. We're immature and both laughed when the preacher said "don't be a man pleaser," even though he meant it a different way. pfft. Then we were sitting there afterwards eating free food, (Chicken and salt.....oh and fries.) I threw away what I didn't eat, went and took a drink from a drinking fountain. I came back to Kamal and said, "That water tasted like crack." She laughed, for a long time.. Then I said, "a metal bar." Those became our inside jokes the whole day.. we kept going:
Kate: A metal bar
Kamal: a metal bar
Kate: a metal bar!
Kamal: a metal bar!
Kate: it's the crack.
Kamal: the crack!
It was retarded.... and not funny at all really... but those things happen. Then we went to the mall. We layed down in this bed in a display window for like 20 minutes. It was so comfortable... I had to leave the precious bed when a lady asked us to. It was sad I suppose. We then went home and watched IZ until Kamal departed from my house. It was an exciting day... i suppose.. er.. better than usual anyway.
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2003 20 July :: 10.52am
It's July 20, already. Sometimes it feels fast and other times not. I don't know. Confused, I suppose. Tony's party was... entertaining. Don't know if I could go as far as to say fun. I was quiet. Or so Justin says. Quiet, staring into space, something on my mind. Sometimes I'd be sitting there thinking about what exactly was on my mind. I'm not sure. I feel like I lost something. Don't assume now, I'm not talking about Joe because I know a few who would think I meant that. No... something of myself. I haven't figured out what it was, but something is definetly gone. I've thought I might have entered a state of apathy, but then when I get all emotional, I know that's not it. Why am I emotional? No, why am I so emotional? I never used to be like this. I'm going to get back to my old self, I've been working on it. I'm really not sure what hit me so hard as to knock me into this vulnerable, emotional, unintentionally blind... person. I hate this person and they're going away. I've changed who I am before and I can do it again. Don't tell me not to change myself, because this isn't who I'm supposed to be, I'm going to become the person I want. so...
i kept getting booted off the bench. that damn bench. *shakes fist* Eric looked awfully upset or perhaps lonely, for having a girl sitting on his lap almost the whole time. Wonder what's up.. he's not always willing to open up. I might call him today and see if he's okay and if he might want to talk.
Kamal just woke up. :P bum.. I've been up for about 2 hours. Oh well, I went to bed earlier. Working got me into this horrible routine of going to bed early and getting up early. I like getting up early, but I actually hate going to bed early. I like to stay up late into the night. I guess last night didn't really matter though since there wouldn't be many people to talk to, considering most were at Tony's.
Bah, guess we're going to church soon, fun fun. so. Kamal's snap just came undone. "I hate my life" -Kamal
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2003 19 July :: 2.02pm
:: Music: Red Hot Chili Peppers - Scar Tissue
I've used the word facade more this week than I can rememeber ever using it.
party today. woo.
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2003 18 July :: 9.32pm
Your Heart is Red
What Color is Your Heart?
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2003 17 July :: 6.32pm
Let's see what tomorrow brings.
Robin let me borrow her CD player at work today so I could pass time faster. It was horrible, her CD. "Lick my neck, my back, lick my pussy and my crack." and "I'll blow your mind when you taste my ice cream." How is that called music? It was revulting and... *shivers* One line I thought was incredibly dumb was "You must be tired because you were running through my mind all day." psh... rap.
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2003 16 July :: 7.43pm
here's some more tears for the week..
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