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2020 31 March :: 3.25pm
I just wish I had someone to talk to, who said more than just "ok" or nothing. I have animals for that.
this is why I don't trust anyone, or open up, or share. because people always just are hard like rocks or prickly like porcupines when literally all I want is a hug and for someone to say "I know how you feel, and I hope it gets better for both of us" and maybe idk.. actually try to relate to me? rather than just making me feel like an idiot for even trying to share.
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godessalthena
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2020 25 March :: 11.55am
happy birthday
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godessalthena
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2020 23 March :: 3.38pm
I hate myself with every fiber of my being.
why are these decisions so hard?
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2020 19 March :: 4.00pm
COVID-19
If I get stuck at home, you can bet your sweet booty I'll be uploading lots of recordings ;)
As it stands, I still have a job, and we're staying open, so I get to continue working. But if that changes, expect to be seeing some updates <3
Stay safe out there, friends.
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godessalthena
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2020 13 March :: 12.43pm
I know my heart should guide me but,
There's a hole within my soul
What will fill this emptiness inside of me?
Am I to be satisfied without knowing?
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2020 13 March :: 8.41am
almost to our 4 year anniversary and finally starting to plan on moving in together
we both have a lot of trepidation as we are concerned our personalities might clash living together. we both enjoy our own time apart, but also enjoy each other's company.
I've been on edge lately. we went to Corry's grave last weekend and it filled me with sorrow, grief, regrets and introspection. I wish I had done more to help him, taken him to follow up appointments. he is buried next to his dad, who literally died the year before. so much heartbreak. I miss you.
and that just tore open the flood gates for all my other negative emotions. I just feel terrible about myself, and everything seems to freak me out. this move is scary because of my past with roommates. this move is scary cuz I still have a bit of debt and I'd like to not have that hanging over me. I'm nervous about living with a 19 year old.
but I'm excited to start my life with him, and excited for the future, and I want to stay that way. it's just hard to overcome my negative thoughts.
idk what to do. stay here longer? move out now? wait for the bubble to pop and buy a house and live there?
I wish I knew. I wish I had a sign.
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godessalthena
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2020 2 March :: 7.22am
shit is just so boring. even with a new plague taking the world, I'm still just like...
meh.
who cares?
good riddance anyway.
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2020 1 March :: 8.01pm
Recorded on 2.29.20
OPEN TALK
In which I am joined by a host of promises. I gave an open talk at the alano club in Grand Rapids, and didn't really talk about booze that much.
Links to stuff I mentioned:
(Ultraclean floss is rad, btw. It is stretchy and doesn't break or tear like normal floss. Get you some ultraclean.)
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godessalthena
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2020 17 February :: 9.31am
I love you
why do you have to make things so hard for yourself?
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godessalthena
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2020 25 January :: 8.22pm
feeling drunk and feeling invisible
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godessalthena
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2019 28 December :: 11.52pm
don't like feeling anxious
don't like feeling like a fool
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godessalthena
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2019 13 December :: 12.54pm
NO ONE FUCKING CARES
just get it into your thick fucking troglodyte skull, self.
you don't matter now and you never will. you insignificant speck of shit.
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godessalthena
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2019 15 November :: 10.30pm
rollercoaster today at work... some days I really love what I do and other times it makes me cry and I hate it. I just don't understand why so many people feel compelled to be assholes... like what does it really serve?
I guess everyone had bad days but if every day is a bad day maybe you need to change something..? maybe try a career change first?
I love have been feeling like I want to try to be a manager, but I just love what I do so much... like I would love to be a trainer, I'd love to be a business analyst...
I'd love to be a stay at home mom and active in my community and shit.
I just want to be in a position where we don't have to both work, so maybe we can make more time for fun things. you know... like back in the old days when more parents could afford to have one stay home and shit. TV & tablets raise kinda shitty kids...
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godessalthena
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2019 15 November :: 10.23pm
rollercoaster today at work... some days I really love what I do and other times it makes me cry and I hate it. I just don't understand why so many people feel compelled to be assholes... like what does it really serve?
I guess everyone had bad days but if every day is a bad day maybe you need to change something..? maybe try a career change first?
I love have been feeling like I want to try to be a manager, but I just love what I do so much... like I would love to be a trainer, I'd love to be a business analyst...
I'd love to be a stay at home mom and active in my community and shit.
I just want to be in a position where we don't have to both work, so maybe we can make more time for fun things. you know... like back in the old days when more parents could afford to have one stay home and shit. TV & tablets raise kinda shitty kids...
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