:)

:: 2014 30 April :: 6.13am

I need a vacation. Somewhere on my own. I just need to get away and disconnect. I'm overloaded and I'm afraid I may snap.

spud

:: 2014 29 April :: 1.43pm

turns out i'm a pig....

i never really considered how being friend-zoned basically implies that (assuming the friendzoner is a lady, and the friendzonee is me) it is somehow the fault of the lady for not being into me, as opposed to being my fault for being into her.

as much as it always seems like "i just can't help the way i feel about you," why is it suddenly so bad a thing that she just can't help the way she doesn't feel about me, you know?

don't get me wrong, ladies, i'm still a pathetic romantic with more emotions than i know what to do with. but i'll try better to not hold it against you for not being interested in such a hot mess. not that i blame you in the slightest, and not that i don't feel awful in the rare event that i'm the friendzoner, but there still is some residual subconscious resentment and awkwardness there. and that is wrong.

:: 2014 28 April :: 5.06pm

Somebody, somewhere, will clean out your wounds. With dirty fingers, we'll bury the lie.

:: 2014 27 April :: 9.03pm
:: Mood: peaceful

Wow. Just wow. Why couldn't that have happened on my birthday ?

DAMN so glad I was your lover~~~~

I so totally needed that.

:: 2014 25 April :: 10.08am

I feel dead inside. I want to drink heavily to forget this emptiness inside. I want to smoke so much weed I can't remember my name. If only for a moment I could forget myself, where I've been, who I've become, who I was and all the mistakes and triumphs.

Just for one second I'd like to feel what it's like to not be me.

moomoo

:: 2014 24 April :: 8.50pm

Had a really good job interview today for a doctors office job. They invited me back tomorrow to shadow. I'm hoping this is a good sign. I really want a mon-fri job on 1st shift. Hopefully I get it and its not too much of a pay cut. The honeymoon was great. So much Sun and food. So hard go back to work. Looking forward to the future.

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:: 2014 23 April :: 9.11pm

I'm so tired of feeling ashamed.

:: 2014 21 April :: 9.49pm

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:: 2014 20 April :: 4.18pm

WHY IS THIS MOVIE SO FREAKY?!

This is my third attempt to watch Event Horizon in the past six months.

My 420 resolution is to finish it.

moomoo

:: 2014 16 April :: 7.19pm

So the wedding went great, no problems the whole day. The wedding was so much fun. So nice to see everyone all together family and friends. Had so much fun dancing. I cant wait to see all my wedding pictures. It was so nice of the photographer to set up a shoot in the hall and from what I have seen you cant even tell. Many pictures to come. The honeymoon so was also very nice. So warm, nice, good food, and great time. Now back to work :(

:: 2014 16 April :: 2.07pm

Remember those online quizzes, they had that one question : "most common used phrase?"

I finally figured mine out: "I'm too high for this shit."

I think I might say this AT LEAST once a day.

They grow up too fast.