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2004 11 September :: 12.57am
:: Mood: blah
Today was not my day.
Work was odd. Was $40 under because of damn Ken and damn ticketing and damn damnness. Urrgh. Saw Jackie and David and Melanie though. That was fun.
Took a box of popcorn home from work. The sister and I are still working on it. Yuuuuuuummmm.....
-Patrice
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2004 10 September :: 11.43pm
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2004 10 September :: 11.34pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: 103.5 (song they spend up the sounds horrible fast but awesome slow)
I Have No Idea.
This is a completely random entry. i honestly dont know what to write about.
i had a convo w/my mom and my grandma about me getting married (my mom wants me out of the house by 21 thats shit). My grandma started listing random guys in iraq (one had an awesome name and i think he was the number one choice, yea ive never met him) i thought it was funny and sad.
i told my mom what if i brought home an american she turned around and simply said "your dad would probably poisin him" it was funny. But no i know my options are so limited.
i dont like the "party" music on kiss fm, it sucks.
Fuck, arg, grr. Ok sry. randomness.
im supposed to observe a conversation of creative writing and then redo it, im not excited for that, it seems long and stupid.
Grr.
i dont think i have any other thoughts.
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2004 9 September :: 6.04pm
Aquarius January 20 - February 18
Sometimes you feel like every love song in the world was written with you in mind -- and then, later on, you realize nothing could be further from the truth. No matter -- you're going to hear the lyrics how you hear them today.
It's interesting...because it makes sense...I usually can't relate to "love songs" because....well yeah....just thought I'd add it here.
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2004 8 September :: 10.13pm
My Dream
My family...or maybe just me ...we had a slurpee/smoothie maker. And I went to this place and I thought it was cool because it made those in like minutes (cuz it doesn’t anyway??? lol) and so I made 4...1 for each member of my family
Then I was with my gym class and like this spirit came...or a ghost or something (he was somehow connected to my family too) and we were getting ready to meet him (he came out of like a magic lamp or something) so someone was like...we should give him the smoothies...I’m like....err.... but I didn’t tell them that they were meant for my family because I figured I could make more
So someone (it may have been Melanie) helped me to make more...but we had to make 4 different flavors because they were all out of the ones I was supposed to make and I had no idea how I’d explain the fact that the flavors were wrong to my family. So anyway the guy came and he put up walls all around us and Mr. Morrello tried to explain that we had to go to classes but the guy wanted us to stay with him and never interact with the outside world.
Everyone was kind of freaking out...but at the same time no one quite understood what the walls meant. Then he was like I can do this too and he grabbed me and put up walls around the two of us and Mr. Morrello was like...that’s not cool you shouldn’t do that
So then I think I started getting claustrophobic and I was panicking and the guy felt bad. I was complaining that I couldn’t breathe because I started realizing before everyone else that we were going to be stuck here. So everyone got on a bus to go back to my house but he rushed me back there with him. We went to the like the attic and he started kissing me and he was all happy and didn’t want anyone to come ruin it. It was like his first kiss or something (don’t know how I kissed a ghost lol) and then people arrived and he was trying to find anyway to keep us from the rest of the world. That’s all I remember. It was weird though.
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2004 8 September :: 8.03pm
All hail the heartbreaker
I just finished up my first paper of the year.
It only took me an hour and didn't even really count as a paper. It only had to be two pages long. Double spaced.
So rock, yo.
I'm sick. I'm hoping this weekend I'll get over it. It's not that bad, my nose is running/stuffed up and I can't hear people or how loud I am talking. I'm feeling okay, just extra tired.
That was pointless.
Nick got promoted to manager. He'll train up until he turns 18 and then it's official.
Which reminds me, his birthday is coming up fast.
My day was cool. Mrs. Phillips, my psych teacher gave us a quiz today but there was a fire drill and afterwards she just threw the quiz out.
Yeah. That's my highlight... not having a quiz count for a grade.
I have a psych and math test on Friday. Icky. My first math test of the year.
73h end!
I love you all.
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2004 7 September :: 10.49pm
:: Mood: Hmm...
:: Music: Grease
"We convince ourselves that life will be better after we graduate, when we get a boyfriend/girlfriend, when we break up with the boyfriend/girlfriend, when summer gets here, when we go to college, when we get married, when we have kids...and on it goes. We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when we get our driver's license, when we get a car, when we get a nicer car, when we can afford a nice vacation, when we retire. The truth is, there's no better time to be happy than right now. If not now, when? Your life will always be filled with challenges. It's best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway. Alfred D. Souza said, 'For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin-real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first-a rough week, the big game, an injury of a cold. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.' This perspective helps to see that there is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have. And treasure it more because you shared it with special people, special enough to spend your time with...and remember that time waits for no one.
So stop waiting until you finish school, until you go back to school, until you lose ten pounds, until you gain ten pounds, until Friday night, until Sunday morning, until sport season, until you turn 16, or 18, or 21, until your song comes on, until this day is over, or this week is over, or this month is over, or this year is over. Like who you are. Like who you are with. Like what you have. Like where you are. Happiness is a journey, not a destination."
Thanks Sarah-dude. You started a trend. ;-)
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2004 7 September :: 9.00pm
Dream
So you know those crazy flashback dreams? I had one of those the other night. It was weird. 6th grade stuff. Which means no fun. Yeah. Ok. Bye.
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2004 7 September :: 4.19pm
:: Mood: calm
I DROVE.
My brother left his math book at school and my sister and I tagged along for fun.
When my mom was out of the driveway, I said, "You should make me drive."
And she did.
And it was okay.
And I wasn't scared. At all.
I was shaking a little when I got out of the car, but it was okay.
I wasn't scared.
Smurfing wow.
I think, that if this keeps up, I might like driving someday.
It's like a sign of the apocalypse!
I'm going to try to drive everywhere starting soon. Well not today. School's open house is tonight (I'll be going with my mom as always) and I can't park worth smurf. Plus I'll freak everyone out with my slow driving. Actually, I just might drive there tonight.
I don't know.
My mom was freaking out. Not directly. But she was talking louder than she normally would. It's like people do during an "awkward silence" (which don't exist by the way). She just seemed nervous. You could tell.
I'll tell about my day maybe later. I want to do some, if not all, of my homework before we leave. Plus I have a paper due Thursday and I want to at least get it started if not finish it. I can work on it afterwards though since it ends around 8:30.
Nick's at work. I was going to call him to see how his first day of school went but we left to go get my brother's book. By the time I called, his mom said he went to get a haircut then found out he had to work from 4 to 10. On a school night... He'll be exhausted.
I love you all.
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2004 6 September :: 10.20pm
So I decided that I'm going back to the good old days...you know, the days where I worshipped actors and musicians... Melanie and I worked out guys into three groups according to Hanson.
See, theres Isaac, who is a 'Hot Guy', Taylor a "Pretty Guy' and Zac, "The Chunky, but still cute guy"
See Johnny Depp is inbetween being pretty and hot...hes definitely both, Orlando is pretty, Shawn Ashmore...pretty, Heath Ledger...pretty. Lots of pretty guys. Haha it was a fun night.
I was thawing out. (Melanie would get this hehe)
And falling in love with fake people instead of real people. Fake guys are sooo much better to fall in love with. You can obsess over them and they will think its normal becuase lots of people do it! Isaac is so hot when he sings "Ain't No Sunshine When Shes Gone" :D ::Deep sigh:: See everything is better when you think about how great a fake guy is lol. I really like those guys that sing...or sing and act...like Heath in 10 things i hate about you. When he sings to her from the bleachers ::SIGH:: That was the best movie moment ever. And the poem at the end is cool...
I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick --
It even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh --
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way
I don't hate you --
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.
And then they get together and its all happy.
Ok back to my Hansoness and working on my Purdue Application to turn in tomorrow. Bye
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2004 6 September :: 7.25pm
:: Mood: tired
We've no time for later, now.
Oh well what you waiting for?
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2004 6 September :: 1.38am
:: Mood: tired
I don't know. It was good until I started typing...
I'm a cynic. I'm an optimist. I'm a hopeless romantic. I'm a pessimist. I'm open-minded. I'm hopeful. I'm dreary. I'm sad. I'm happy.
Of all the falling in and out love. Of all the breaking up and making up. Of all the kisses and the hugs. Of all the dreams made and hopes crushed. Of all the promises spoken and hearts broken.
It doesn't really matter.
You'll go back and forth.
I hate love.
I love love.
I hate you.
I love you.
And it's all worth one single moment of happiness.
You may not think it now as you cry in bed.
You may not think it now as your teddy bear seems your only friend.
But in the end, when it all comes down to it, it's worth it.
You need to have your heart broken.
You need to love and hate.
You need to be the one to end it.
You need to have it ended.
I'm sorry.
But it's all to help you. It's all to build you up until that final one.
The one.
It's all to help you learn. It's all to help you know people. It's all to help you know yourself.
It's to help you learn how people think. It's to help you learn how you think.
It's to help you learn what you want.
It's to help you learn what you need.
But you need more than one try.
You need more than one tear.
You need more than one heartbreak.
You need more than one day.
And you'll need more than one lesson.
I'm sorry that it's hard. I'm sorry that it hurts.
But it's all to help you.
It's never futile. It's never a race while standing still.
You'll never learn all there is in one shot.
And it's not going to be easy.
You're going to make and break a thousand promises.
You're going to meet and leave a thousand people.
You're going to learn and love a thousand things.
You're going to cry and die a thousand times.
You're going to end up right where you belong.
But not without trying.
Nothing comes easy.
Would you want a horrible relationship that you just had to blink an eye for?
Or would you want something that was painstakingly perfected through trying and failing and crying and dying and heartbreak and loss only to end up better than anything?
I don't know. I don't even remember my point anymore. Or if I even had one.
This all sounded fantastic in my head but once I put it down....
Blah. I don't know.
I guess what I'm saying is: don't give up. It's not the end of the world, it's the beginning. It's another step up the ladder.
I'm sorry. It hurts. I know. But you can't just stop. You can't just give up.
You'll never get there standing still.
You'll never be happy if you keep crying.
You'll never start walking if you don't stand up.
And you'll never find the perfect person just for you if you don't step out the door and try.
They're not going to fall into your lap. They're not going to fall from the sky.
And they're not coming right away.
There are over six billion people in the world and one of them is just for you. They aren't all going to come knocking on your door.
And the first one you meet isn't going to be the last.
Don't give up.
You need to try.
I love you all.
J'ai versé une larme dans l'océan, dès qu'elle sera trouvée, je cesserai de t'aimer.
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2004 6 September :: 1.28am
:: Mood: Congested. Yum.
Awww Look At The Dog
So. I am officially sick. Woo yeah.
Saw Garden State again. Amazing, as usual. Can't stand Zach Braff still. Urgh.
Sandy was so funny. There's a part..where the dog humps the guy's leg. Right before that, the dog walks up and everyone else in the theatre can tell whats about to happen. Sandy goes "awwwwww.." then the dog starts..umm. yeah. I almost died. Haha. Good times.
Work wasn't bad. I'm too "innocent" I decided. Don't know what a "square" is. Well. Now I do. Poor innocent me.
Now I really don't feel good. So I'm going to try sleeping. Although it won't work. ::shrugs:: I want Caribou, in case anyone's wondering.
You know what I'm going to tell myself wheneveer I feel like complaining alot or over-reacting? There are people who have it worse. It helps. makes you feel bad for wanting to complain.
So yeah
Much love my friends.
-Patrice
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2004 5 September :: 11.22pm
:: Mood: bored
This is the best thing I've read in the past week.
Read more..
I found an icon too. It's awesome.
I'm slightly VERY tempted to hand out flyers like this at school. Or post them in the hallways.
It would be funny. Cruel and sardonic but funny.
I love you all.
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2004 5 September :: 9.04pm
Whatever Nick says, I am not on drugs.
If you were a hot dog, and you were starving, would you eat yourself?
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2004 5 September :: 12.32pm
Apology Unaccepted
Shameless plug.
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2004 4 September :: 7.40pm
TO ALL WOOHU FRIENDS, EX-WOOHU-ERS OR WOOHU-ERS IN FLORIDA:
Don't die!
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2004 4 September :: 4.59pm
:: Mood: content
The Tale of the Grizounding
Nick borrowed Shrek 2 a long time ago, gave it back to me and I forgot it at Ben's. Tom was over at Ben's and decided it was a cool idea to take it. So I ended up forgetting that it was even out of the house. Tom gave it to Katie so Katie could give it back to me.
So on to last night. Katie, Ben and I were hanging out and my sister called to ask me where Shrek 2 was. I had no idea. I couldn't remember it even leaving the house. Then my mom called and was pretty mad so I asked Katie and Ben for the whole story and they told me all that stuff upstairs.
Katie told me that Tom gave it to her and blah de blah.
My mom and I went back and forth for a while about the fact that she was really pissed and I was a giant idiot and she threatened to not let Nick in the house. I pleaded with her and she finally just said, "You better have fun hanging out with your friends tonight because it won't be happening for a while." And we hung up and I cried.
So anyway. My parents are both asleep downstairs right now or I'd ask my mom about the terms and conditions.
Nick came over today and we tried to put my dad's old stereo/CD player into Nick's car but it just turned out to be really frustrating.
I think that means it's okay if people come over here. Since so many people do all the time.
We had an anime club meeting today but since I'm grounded and didn't feel like going, I didn't go.
I need to find a book for Contemporary Lit. Woah. I just found a site with contemp lit book reviews. Some of them I've read. Sigh.
I might do some of my homework before Monday night.
I love you all.
"We do not disappear without a trace. We leave a wake that never quite disappears, a gash in time that we so laboriously leave behind us."
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2004 4 September :: 3.45pm
:: Mood: chipper
Chipper makes me sound like a bird
So. my horoscope told me today that either I should A) completly slack off all day and not do anything productive or B) Finish all my "chores". Then my other horoscope told me to over-indulge. That made me think of chocolate cake. Haha.
So. Screw photo. Screw lit. Screw trig. Screw cleaning my room. Screw colleging. I need a day off. Atleast until 5:45. :-P
So take that. Ha.
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2004 4 September :: 3.11pm
:: Mood: yucky
I need to shower
I haven't updated in nearly two weeks I think, maybe more. I guess I haven't had the "inspiration" to write lol. So here's a quick recap:
-School started...it's not bad...Isabelli isn't bad so far...he really expects you to learn and I like that...I think I'll get a lot out from his class this year...I'm just not looking forward to writing papers for him. Also Dircks isn't too bad either. She seems to be ok with me so it's all good. Her voice can get a little annoying but other than that, I don't mind her. She really seems to know what she's talking about and I like that as well. Things actually make sense and I'm estactic.
-I didn't make Dracula which I'm fine with actually. I was pissed but it wasn't because I didnt' make it I swear. I mean I was disappointed with things...but because I kinda let my emotions get in the way of how I presented myself. I could've done so much better...but I was pissed when I got on stage and that affected my presentation. I didn't have the feeling of "I gave it my all" when I was sent home. That's one of the reason's I was pissed. But overall, I felt really great about making callbacks. I had never been so excited to be call back in my life. They cut 50 people!!!! Yeah exactly! They only called back 21 out of 70 people...of course I feel great about that.
-I decided to do One Acts. I'm gonna work really hard and try to make it. It can be my little practice type thing for the musical. That's the one I'm gonna be freaking out about. I really really REALLY REALLY REALLY want to get a good role for that one and I need to be able to act and I need a lot of practice in that area...especially because I'm not great of an actor. But I try and I have fun with and that's a plus, I think.
-I decided not to ASM because there really isn't a need for two for a 10 person cast. There really isn't. Phelan said so himself. And it was good because that's what I was thinking and he kind of got me out of the grey area. And I've ASM-ed in the past and Stage managed. I generally know what I'm doing. There's still some things I need to learn but I don't need to be trained from the beginning. So I decided I'm gonna go tell Phelan on Monday that I'm not gonna ASM but do One Acts. I'm really happy that he wasn't going to turn me down though. He said he was plaining on having me ASM in the first place and that made me really happy. Just the fact that he wasn't going to turn me down felt really good. Sorry, Phelan, but I don't think you need me for this show. Now for Bo, I'm happy to help him out by joining crew :-).
What else is there? Oh yeah, people are flipping out about Homecoming. I decided I'm not gonna go. It's no big deal...well unless I'm asked...but I'm not planning on that. Last year, Homecoming was kind of arranged and it wasn't as fun as it could have been because both my date and I were there because people wanted us there. ::Shrugs:: He's still cool though. He's still super awesome.
I'm racist against dances, boys, and bugs.
Always, Sandy
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2004 4 September :: 2.45pm
:: Mood: sore
The Vain and Unimportant Rants Of Me
My sisters all went out for lunch and to go to the mall. Now, as much as I hate the mall, I hate the fact that I was left here. Do you know why I was left here? I'm Patrice. Amanda and Erin don't mind hanging out with Gabbie and Kristy because they're younger versions of themselves. They won't make Amanda and Gabbie look bad. I wish I was pretty or atleast normal-looking sometimes.
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2004 4 September :: 1.47am
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: Jesus Walks~~Kanye West
IM A BITCH SRY
Yea the title pretty much says it all. Actually this is just to jessica: "im a freakin bitch sorry, i am just not in the mood to deal with shit so please dont ignore me for like three months ok, im sry i shouldnt hung up the phone on you but i just feel like shit"
Ok thats all
BYE
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2004 3 September :: 11.12pm
GRIZOUNDED!
I be grounded, yo.
Sorry, Kelly, I can't go to the thing on Monday.
Sorry, everyone, I won't be able to go anywhere for a while. I'm sure it's okay if you stop by though. HINT! HINT!
It'll be for a week or so. I don't know. I'll get details in the morning.
I love you all.
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2004 3 September :: 6.03pm
I've updated this more in the past two days then the rest of the month. Weird.
I have so much I want to say.
Why can't you read my mind?
-Patrice
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2004 3 September :: 12.47pm
New icon thingy.
I made this for Alex:
The bug is iri smurfing descent.
I was so unaware that it had a flower vase. That's like the most awesome thing ever.
I love you all.
"The ceremony was not proper
There was not enough people
And who picked the music?
Those melodies almost made me physically sick"
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2004 3 September :: 9.22am
:: Mood: hyper
Random Thoughts From First Period
Supa-Fly.
Peace out yo.
Pibb Extra is the Godliest of all Godly drinks.
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2004 3 September :: 1.19am
:: Mood: accomplished
I drove today. For the first time in a year and a half. Only almost caused one accident. I am amazing. :-)
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2004 2 September :: 10.51pm
:: Mood: gloomy
today i got pulled out of gym first period for group, which was fine. it was cool, no new people, which is good. as i was walking to my next class i passes by the nurses office and i was reminded of mrs. kolton, i asked marci if she had heard anything..... i didn't know she passes away. i was hoping i heard wrong, or that i imagined her saying it but as my head went down and i got that sick feeling i turned around back to the lst. i coudln't stop crying. i loved her so much. i prayed that i would die instead of her. i prayed for anything a miricle. but she's gone and i didn't even know. i talked ot mr.s carlson about it, she was crying too. i have never seen her cry. and i went to math and coudln't pay any attention, right after i saw campi and he asked me what was wrong, and i told him and all of a sudden muchroom apeared, and tears were there but nooone saw them. when i went to gov. i started to cry again, but with my head down and noone heard or saw so it was fine, i didn't go out to lunch, i didn't feel good. then i went to alex's study hall and got a little cheered up. next was journalistic writing where i just rooled my eyes at rachel the whole time, and then latin, where i actually payed attention.
when i began to write this tears came to my eyes. it's reminding me about other people who have gone away. but this was hurts alot. she seemed happy all the time, really cared about us. she was an amazing lady and i miss her so much.
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2004 2 September :: 8.26pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: I like that...
Random
I am currently a soccer mom in training. yes i take my two younger brothers to soccer practice and heres the schedule:
taha monday
weseem and taha wed.
weseem thursday
my life is so sad
Omg i had this randomly awesome thought and i totally forgot it hold on let me think....shit i cant think of it. ARG...it was the reason im updating my journal.
Whatever adios amigas.
Yasamin
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2004 2 September :: 8.14pm
:: Music: Elton John
And Jesus
He wants to go to Venus
Leave Levon far behind
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