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2005 30 January :: 7.24 pm
:: Mood: aggravated
so what if i think everyones always against me, to tell you the truth..im not perfectly fine with the way i turned out. But i can't change the way i am, and i cant changed whats happened in the past..nothing is ment to be..its just my stupid actions that made me turn out like this. I hate the way i am...and i hate how everything has to suddenly make me feel like shit. Today was such a good day..until i got home and fucking came online and had to talk to ppl..and then it all makes me think.
and what i hate most of all is how fucking people are so fake. and i hate hipocrites and how i just wanna kill everyone sometimes. I hate natick and i cant wait to get the fuck out of here..yea i said it...drugs are the only way i can connect to ppl, its the only reason i hang out with people...cuz without them what the fuck would we do. and its pretty damn sad how much people realy on them. These years in high school are sopossed to be good...i mean they were..but then everything changed and i hate school...i ever hate my friends sometimes cuz i just hate how i feel wen im with them...and all these fucking crazy mixed up things go threw my head. and its all of the fucking shit i have to deal with that makes me fucking crazy....why cant i just find a true friend who i can actually talk to and fucking understand..who can relate to me and who DOESNT FUCKING LEAVE ME FOR FUCKING PEOPLE WHO FUCKING DONT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT THEM. w.e..
NOBODY WILL EVER NO ANYONE ELSE....
YOU WILL NEVER NO ME...AND I WILL NEVER NO YOU
2 you need me like a bad habbit |
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2005 30 January :: 7.03 pm
:: Mood: happy
Today i worked till 4. Then went over jimmys <3
yay..new layout again lol...yea im a loser what can i say ;)
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2005 30 January :: 9.36 am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: jimmys voice lol
Define irony:A bunch of criminals on a plane, singing along to a song made famous by a band...who died in a plane crash.
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2005 26 January :: 5.54 pm
:: Mood: mellow
:: Music: old shit
<3
I do swear that I'll aways be there.
I'd give anything and everything and I will always care.
Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow,
for better or worse, I will love you with
every beat of my heart
From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on
From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on
I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you
From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on
You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you
From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on
1 you need me like a bad habbit |
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2005 24 January :: 2.59 pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: nOne
My horoscope for this month .. *
Okay, let's not take the whole 'maiden' thing too far. Sure, you're the sign of the virgin, but you know what you want and you know how to get it. So what's holding you back? As the year kicks off -- that is, the 1st and the 2nd -- the answer to the question of what is standing in your way is: absolutely nothing. Take this month -- in fact, take this whole year -- and work on recognizing your romantic opportunities. The 4th, 5th and 6th are especially good days for self-examination. Once you see where your romantic gold mine is, it's a heck of a lot easier to go out and start prospecting. Sure, some days -- like the 7th through the 10th -- you won't have quite as much leeway to follow your heart as others, but the 15th through the 18th gets you back on track and panning for nuggets. A fantastic opportunity comes your way on the 21st, and although nothing serious may come of it, it puts you in one heck of a good mood. Moments where you feel there are nothing but wide-open hearts and possibilities (minutes, hours, heck, days!) are back again at the end of the month. Have you gotten any better at taking full advantage of them?
^^ its kinda scary how true it is.
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2005 24 January :: 2.14 pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: radio
BlAh!! ..::
New set-up * ....
No school today. They call this a blizzard..pfft..its just like 1 foot of snow come on deal with it <>. Imagine snow up to your fuckin head...now that would be a blizzard.
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2005 23 January :: 6.05 pm
:: Mood: happy
i <3 drugs...and jimmy
You scored as Ecstacy. Love, sex, parties, and DANCING! Just be wary of your mood coming down! www.dancesafe.org
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2005 18 January :: 6.39 pm
:: Mood: baked
:: Music: seether
This background is really summery..i miss summer..i hate winter, i hate how everything looks...dead. Its all i see..deadness and dead people. I just want it to be summer again...or atleast spring so i dont have to freeze in like fricken 3 degree weather...i couldnt even walk into the school this morning without being frozen cold.
Yea so exams are this week. Its ok i guess, i think i did good on my spanish exam....it was easy lol. So yea today taylor came over, we ate some cake, and watched some good movies to watch when your full. Im so tired now tho, but i dont have any exams tomorrow which is good.
So yea things with jimmy are going good :) hes really sweet..n i love talking to him..its good i think. Ashley said shes gunna get me on her friends list so maybe i can go visit him n stuff, but he gets out soon so yea thats good. I like how he doesnt say i love u, like all the other guys i go out with there like oh i love you so much..its bull if they loved me i would still be with them. So its just kinda like were good friends. I like it how it is tho.
write later*
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2005 16 January :: 10.06 am
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: seether * driven under
you're all I have. If I had to explain it
I wouldn't know where to start.
It's like you're falling in love while I just fall apart.
Well i have to work 12-6 today, like everyday. But theres no school tomorrow so thats good :)...then exams :) i dont have to go to school wends, cuz i dont have to take taddeos exam! woo hoo.Im eating burry burst cheerios..there so good lol.
So yea jimmy gets out of his harbinger house on february 2nd, yay..so then i can chill with him out of school n stuff...which is good..for a change.
*write later
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2005 14 January :: 5.49 pm
i'm sick and tired of holding on to something that isnt there, so i'm letting go, letting go of all the pain and tearz, and moving on, because i cant take it anymore
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