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2004 12 September :: 11.48am
:: Mood: depressed
amanda maltz
my convo with amanda that made me a little bit less sad.........
xNikkiE 435x: no she didnt go!
BlckTangldHrt35x: hello my love lol
xNikkiE 435x: i was looking for her all day lol
xNikkiE 435x: hello my love too
xNikkiE 435x: lol
BlckTangldHrt35x: i was with dana yesterday for 10 hours
BlckTangldHrt35x: how insane is that
xNikkiE 435x: insanely
xNikkiE 435x: lol
xNikkiE 435x: you needa go out with him
xNikkiE 435x: lol
BlckTangldHrt35x: and i didnt get bored of him
BlckTangldHrt35x: isnt he gorgeous
xNikkiE 435x: ya.. lol so lizzy told me you went home from jimmys at 1 am
xNikkiE 435x: thats awesome!
BlckTangldHrt35x: :-)
xNikkiE 435x: amanda.. im so depressed
xNikkiE 435x: i really wanna kill myself
BlckTangldHrt35x: why so
BlckTangldHrt35x: SHUT UP
xNikkiE 435x: im not even kidding
BlckTangldHrt35x: why?
xNikkiE 435x: like everytime things are starting to go good.. my family is there to fuck it up
xNikkiE 435x: like ii was sitting on the front steps cuz its a nice day out nd my dad was like i want you out of the house today!
xNikkiE 435x: ui didnt even fucking do a single thing.. i dint even say anything
xNikkiE 435x: and then he went into my room and trashed it and stole my cell phone
BlckTangldHrt35x: :-\
xNikkiE 435x: and was like pushing me
BlckTangldHrt35x: nikkie i love you so much
xNikkiE 435x: .. and i feel kinda bad cuz i took thepicture of him and his father (who died) and sprayed windex all over it
BlckTangldHrt35x: but he had no right to push you or trash your room
xNikkiE 435x: but then after 3 hours of screaming and me crying my mom made him gimme the phone back if i gave the picture back... and he called my bama(his mom) and left a message of him like taping me!
xNikkiE 435x: like me saying i was gunna ruin all the pics ofg him and his dad
xNikkiE 435x: and now he left and it was the first time i ever sed fuck you to my dad... but lemme tell ya it felt Good
xNikkiE 435x: my mom said that on monday shes calling dss or that 10 day place jessie went to or whatever its called.. and she doesnt want me to come back!
BlckTangldHrt35x: are you kidding me
xNikkiE 435x: i swear
BlckTangldHrt35x: you didnt do anything wrong
xNikkiE 435x: i dont wanan go anywhere\
xNikkiE 435x: i knw
BlckTangldHrt35x: come live with me
xNikkiE 435x: but i have drugs in my system and everything
xNikkiE 435x: i dont know
xNikkiE 435x: what to do
BlckTangldHrt35x: omg
xNikkiE 435x: i know
xNikkiE 435x: and im just sitting hereat the computer crying
BlckTangldHrt35x: you need omni clean
xNikkiE 435x: ???????
xNikkiE 435x: whats that?
BlckTangldHrt35x: its this pill that clears your system of any drugs
xNikkiE 435x: ohhh...
xNikkiE 435x: well whatever if shes gunna send me away for real then i dont ever want to come back to see or or live with her or talk to her Ever again...
BlckTangldHrt35x: :'(
xNikkiE 435x: if she really sends me there i going to tell them i dont want her to visit me or anyone else
xNikkiE 435x: i just want to die amanda
xNikkiE 435x: i really really do
BlckTangldHrt35x: nicole
xNikkiE 435x: amanda
BlckTangldHrt35x: please dont say taht
xNikkiE 435x: i cant help it
xNikkiE 435x: h/o i needa tissue
BlckTangldHrt35x: ok :-(
xNikkiE 435x: ok im back... amanda.. i have a bloddy nose now .. this dfay fucken sucks
BlckTangldHrt35x: nikkie are you allowed to do anything?
xNikkiE 435x: no
BlckTangldHrt35x: ugh :-(
xNikkiE 435x: im stuck in this fucken house until monday when shes calling she says someone is gunna pick me up from school or some shit
BlckTangldHrt35x: Kocis350: well i can order this drink
Kocis350: that you take 2-3 hours before your test
Kocis350: and it holds all the toxins in your body
BlckTangldHrt35x: does it work?
Kocis350: and it has a 200% guarantee
BlckTangldHrt35x: how much is it
Kocis350: http://www.tests-shop.com/product71/product_info.html
Kocis350: 30 bucks a bottle
xNikkiE 435x: it offers a double money back guarentee
xNikkiE 435x: lol
xNikkiE 435x: amanda i love talking to you becasue i know you will listen and not criticise me or judge meore anything... and you always make me happy and make me laugh
BlckTangldHrt35x: :-Dgood i love you
xNikkiE 435x: i love you too
BlckTangldHrt35x: Kocis350: like 2-3 hours before your test you drink the whole bottle, then you fill it up with water and drink it, and then you have to go pee like 2 or 3 times
Kocis350: and you will pass your piss test for 5 hours
xNikkiE 435x: and who is giving us all this information?
BlckTangldHrt35x: dave kocis
xNikkiE 435x: and that would beeee...? lol
xNikkiE 435x: do i know this kocis fello?
BlckTangldHrt35x: you might
xNikkiE 435x: probobly not tho lol
xNikkiE 435x: i was really bored last night so i changed my journal
BlckTangldHrt35x: one sec
xNikkiE 435x: www.woohu.com/~xonixioex
xNikkiE 435x: k
xNikkiE 435x: ooopps wrong link
xNikkiE 435x: www.woohu.com/~xonixieox
BlckTangldHrt35x: i like ittttt
xNikkiE 435x: yay :-)
xNikkiE 435x: aww i like how yours says dana got sick
xNikkiE 435x: and you took care of him
xNikkiE 435x: and you didnt wanna leave him alone
xNikkiE 435x: lol
BlckTangldHrt35x: :-D
xNikkiE 435x: ast night i went to jimmis with lizzy john mike ryann mike costello lee and tim.. haha we had an interesting night i must say
xNikkiE 435x: excuse meeeee
BlckTangldHrt35x: ;lol cuz 7u had to go
BlckTangldHrt35x: u missed all the more drinking
BlckTangldHrt35x: aty least john cma eback you meany
BlckTangldHrt35x: and you barely said goodbye!
xNikkiE 435x: there should be a "nikkie was there but she had to leqave but she smoked a blunt and i love her"
xNikkiE 435x: iu hugged you asshoole
BlckTangldHrt35x: bahahah look aty it
xNikkiE 435x: ewwwe there was a inchworm in your bud
xNikkiE 435x: ewwwe
xNikkiE 435x: k
BlckTangldHrt35x: YES lol
xNikkiE 435x: awwwwwwww your the love of my life too
xNikkiE 435x: lol
BlckTangldHrt35x: :-D
xNikkiE 435x: ewwe what if you smoked
xNikkiE 435x: it
xNikkiE 435x: grrroooosssss
BlckTangldHrt35x: I KNOW thats what i thought
xNikkiE 435x: im fucking gagging
xNikkiE 435x: thats soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo NASTY
BlckTangldHrt35x: u should have seen it
xNikkiE 435x: i wish i did
xNikkiE 435x: it was probobly stoned
xNikkiE 435x: did you keep it
xNikkiE 435x: lol
BlckTangldHrt35x: lol no
xNikkiE 435x: aww you should have broght it into school as a science project and said this is the incworm i found in my weed
xNikkiE 435x: its a stoner and i love it
xNikkiE 435x: and its my best friend
xNikkiE 435x: lol
BlckTangldHrt35x: LOL
^aww she makes me happy
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2004 11 September :: 8.15pm
Havnt updated in a really long time! well i hae alot to say but im to tired to say it!
wow school sucks but i love being with my friends all the time!
Wow i must say that Yesterday was the best day of my life! wow grape is my new favorite flavor from now on... rightt lizzy! i love lizzy and amanda and all of the new people i met yesterday!
i ahd so much fun with those people... i wish that they could like teach the scumbag guys in our school a lesson! (that sounds kinda sexual... its not dont worry) anyways...
had natick days today so we had to wake up wicked earlyu after the game last night kinda a bad day to have it... 9/11! ohh well..
i painted faces for a while and then we threw up some stunts.. and did an amazing job!i have never thrown up a stunt that good. that was awesome!
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If tomorrow all the things were gone I’d worked for all my life,
And I had to start again with just my children and my wife.
I’d thank my lucky stars to be living here today,
‘Cause the flag still stands for freedom and they can’t take that away.
And I’m proud to be an American where at least I know I’m free.
And I won’t forget the men who died, who gave that right to me.
And I’d gladly stand up next to you and defend her still today.
‘Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land God bless the U.S.A.
From the lakes of Minnesota, to the hills of Tennessee,
across the plains of Texas, from sea to shining sea,
From Detroit down to Houston and New York to LA,
Well, there’s pride in every American heart,
and it’s time to stand and say:
I’m proud to be an American where at least I know I’m free.
And I won’t forget the men who died, who gave that right to me.
And I’d gladly stand up next to you and defend her still today.
‘Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land God bless the U.S.A
IN LOVING MEMORY OF ANYONE WHO DIED DURING THE TRAGEDIES OF SEPTEMBER 11TH 2001, OR DURING THE WAR IN IRAQ
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- NikkiE
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2004 30 August :: 8.40pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: my sniffling still
FUCK THE WORLD
ok well today i talked to amanda and she was at benhem with emme.. i miss them both..
oh wait first it started where i was supposed to do something with becca but "shes out with the girls" so whatever fuck that!
so i asked my mom to drive me she sed no... then i asked her again and she sed fine..
then my dad sed no dont drive her anywhere shes a rude ignorant bitch
so i yelled and sed that i didnt do anything and they just boith started hitting me and yelling and screaming and i cant stop crying..
then i went outside for air because you know when you cry really hard how you cant breath? ya so when i went to go back insidse they locked me out so i was banging and they were standing there inside watching me but they wouldnt open the door...
at that moment i just wanted to go lay down in the middle of rt 9 and just kill myself! i really want to right now
u fucking hate my family... then my sister opened the door and they pushed me and locked it again.. when they finnaly let me in they sed they called the cops... i kinda wish thewy had so i wouldnt have to still be here!
well then they unplugeed my cable but i figured it out and now...
now.. now i can still hear them yelling at eachother abouit me like always! if my dad cant yell at me he will find someone to yell at! :(
thats all i can write im too upset.. to much going through my head..
i thought about so much... the butchers knofe... asprin.. my dads heart meds.. rt 9 .. i dont know i just dont want to be here anymore... what is there really to live for? nothiing... NOTHING at all
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xonixieox
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2004 30 August :: 8.31pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: my sniffling?
i fucking hate everyone!
grrrrrrr
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krazykelc1
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2004 25 August :: 10.39pm
Tech n9ne-Imma tell
The killa clowns in your town raising all hell
Tecca nina with the stamina coming to damage ya buckin'
The bammer when I bust with a bang.
And it ain't no clause that say fraud ain't no tall tales
Women love it when I hit when I covet the booty they
Giving it to me but it ain't no thang
We reppin' KCMO fellas and the ladies know
That we comin' with the killas I'm with the gorillas
The villains will get you when you disrespect us
Even the babies know Tech nina got crazy flow
We be giving the women the willy we sick of the haterz
Wanna pay us go to get this record
This is important we be courtin' every place we go
Get you up in the room ain't trippin' off of the groom
I'll give it to you anyway you wanna have it
Baby is a horse and yes of course Imma have 2 break the ho
Leaving the kids at home I wanna bone alone we hopping
Up and down like jack rabbits
So many kids put this on their daddy's mind
Never will I ever put him out there like that feelin' that
I did Tecca nina take it right back. Tellin' him that the mommy's
Boyfriend's Tech N9ne. Do be lookin' at me like you really wanna fight
Cat all Tecca nina wanna know is where the mic at?
[Chorus]
This is the town where the clowns put it down baby
(Mama say stop or I'm gonna tell papa)
Close the doe, before ya child hear the sound baby
(Mama say stop or I'm gonna tell papa)
[Verse 2]
151 Malibu rum and pineapple juice
4 those who don't know that's caribou lou origin in Missou
We having fun got some buns on some yac abuse
Rogue dogs and I'm reppin' the smoke a lot regime outlaws
Deuce klick and the zou
Stagga, when you with the nutthowze we gon have ya
Taking everything up in the book from ex to that puff you
Lookin' to get took. Abracadabra, 151 and coke is viagra
Give it to me give it to me give it to me got her in love
From having the bed shook
Look, I'm hella fed up with all the silly rumors dog
Sayin' that we got dropped JCOR that never ever would
Happen I mean what do they know? We kept our
Head up now money's coming to us all.
We kickin' it with strange wollowing in fame giving
The game only when I say so.
So crack some bub wit me demons get some
Love wit me. Do what you gotta do to get what you
Gotta get I gotta get it all Tecca nina's on a roll
Get on some shrub wit me 2 cases of Bud wit me
What you gonna do to get the women on krunk Imma
Hit'em with the funk got'em all like oh
[Chorus]
That's Tech N9ne, sex all the time
Teasing your chakra and ain't nobody hotter
(Mama say stop or I'm gonna tell papa)
[Verse 3]
One and then comes the two to the three and
That was the anthem now this the anthem
Hella rockin' the planet again you can't stand it again
Huns, they been comin' thru to see me man
Then I depants'em and I bust Randon in the bed
Imma land'em dog gwamn it I ram it again
Raves. I love to get high and get paid
Why do I wanna stick'em with another hit up out
Of abyss baby ya don't wanna miss the titts
Babes they love to come by and get laid
Why am I the pinnacle when I rip it Imma
Kill'em in this to the haters I gotta send'em
A gift
Bump this in your ride or in the club
Giving everybody what they need I give it all
So they give it all back to me
Hataz don't you hide just show some love
Do you dig it Imma rep the B. and never ever let the
C. get the best of me
So many kids put this on their daddy's mind
Never will I put him out there like that feeling that I did
Tecca nina take it right back
Telling him their mommy's boyfriend is Tech N9ne
Oh no girl yo babies at the doe
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2004 25 August :: 2.29am
:: Mood: decent
:: Music: Tech N9ne-Imma Tell
this is the town where tha clowns throw it down baby...
today was my Hammy's birthday..I love her. It didn't turn out so good thanks to Ryan fogarty though :-) he has it comin to him.. it's only a matter of time
just incase you see this Ryan, I HOPE ROBBIE DECKS YOU & COZZY KICKS YOU IN THE FACE AGAIN :-)
I LOVE YOU MEG HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY!!
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2004 23 August :: 11.11am
this is all about christina cerutti! shes awesome! i finally got my pictures onto the computer!!
[Random christina]
[Hot Stuff]
[Sexxay pics!]
hhahahahah funny pics! :)
going to last day of work :( im so sad
then cheerin!
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<3 NikkiE
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2004 23 August :: 12.07am
Marilyn Manson-Tainted love
Sometimes I feel I've got to
Run away I've got to
Get away
From the pain that you drive into the heart of me
The love we share
Seems to go nowhere
I've lost my lights
I toss and turn I can't sleep at night
Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love
Tainted love
Now I know I've got to
Run away I've got to
Get away
You don't really want any more from me
To make things right
You need someone to hold you tight
You think love is to pray
But I'm sorry I don't pray that way
Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love
Tainted love
Don't touch me please
I cannot stand the way you tease
I love you though you hurt me so
Now I'm going to pack my things and go
Touch me baby, tainted love
Touch me baby, tainted love
Touch me baby, tainted love
Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I'll run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all
Tainted love
Tainted love
Tainted love
good song.. haha props to Derek and Kaplan
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2004 22 August :: 2.25am
:: Mood: refreshed
:: Music: Master P-I always feel like somebody's watchin me
So here's my plan for this year.....
this Summer was everything I wanted.. it was perfect. I spent almost every day with the guy I labeled as the one I "love" ..but who the hell knows what the word means at 14 & 15 years old..
anyways.. yeah the perfect summer ended sadly a few nights ago.
but from a different point a view, it could be a good change. a chance to get my life back together and do things I wasn't able to do this year because of the priorities I had chosen... which are fun for a while but after a year of all of that... its like one big long vacation and no hard work. too much focusing on drugs and friends and...robbie.
well thanks to a few of my inspirations :-) Serge,Tori,Ryan, and an old friend..., I will be recovering hopefully... I came into high school different then when I left junior high... and I think it's time to change again... or atleast try, I need to see what else is out there.. besides what my heads been focusing on this past year.
and as far as robbie goes, obv me and him aren't supposed to be together right now...
and maybe not EVER. so whether or not that day ever comes he will remain in my heart and I can start a new life......
to my old friend who probably will not read this... I respect the reasons why you did what you did, I didn't understand then but I understand now. and I'm sorry.
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