today SUCKED.
yes, yes it did.

i didn't get into advanced jazz because she had to take upperclassman, and i'm only in leadership staff if jeff is drum major.

actually, i could phrase that more positively. if jeff is drum major, i'm in leadership staff!

hmm. so yeah.

this week should be crazy with choral music. i'm hoping that for the most part this is good. :0/

soooo...voice lesson was okay. eh.

i have a ton of homework so i'll go now. :0(

Hello!
I'd just like to say 'hi' to everyone who reads this. It never ceases to amaze me how many people really click on this link and discuss my entries.

To try to minimize the possibility that I might write yet ANOTHER controversial or secretive thing in here about any of you, I'd really appreciate it if you'd sign below that you read this. Just click on 'sing to me' at the bottom, check 'anonymous', and type your name. Thank you!

Sorry to all of you die-hard Melissa's Journal fans, but I'll keep this post up for a week. Let's hope nothing major happens...:0D

Schadenfreude
Yes, that is a word. It means "happiness at the misfortune of others." Today I experienced quite a bit of schadenfreude. It was very nice. VERY, VERY nice. OMG it made things sooo much better you would not believe. It was good...(or bad, as you could also say...)

But anyway, MWAHAHAHAHAHA. Ohhh it felt good. SOOOO good. Like, I don't know...revenge? But I didn't cause it to happen...guilt-free. Just ask and I'd be GLAD to tell you.

Bio test was bad. But I knew it would be. Oh well...:0/

If your name is Nicole, Ali, Sara, Sarah, Louise, or Molly, you have something in common. Please read between the lines. Thank you. :0D

Wow, this is quite a secretive entry, isn't it? Sorry.

I didn't do very well on the Bio SAT II. :0( My mom said it was an okay score, though... Ehhhh...not happy about that.

I have to have my lines memorized for Jack's Journey tomorrow. HA. Right...

My pool is being refilled. (It was just resurfaced.) Coolness.

Ummmm....I love Shannon and Nat. Shannon gave me a burned copy of Jeckyll and Hyde today, and Nat gave me a burned copy of a CD with the Messa di Gloria that we sang at the Winter Concert on it. :0D I'm not sure how obsessed I am with Jeckyll and Hyde, though. It's kind of long and repetitive...:0/

ANYWAY, I think I finally care less about stuff. Probably an effect of the schadenfreude. Yay!

Bored now. Adieu! (btw, that word is SOOO SEXY. I'm not sure why. But it is.)

WOW I AM SOOO PISSED OFF
Not gonna lie to you. I am PISSED. Why? Oh, well, that too, but mostly because of a certain TEACHER. No, not the one I was previously pissed at. This teacher clearly forms love/hate relationships with all of his students. You can't 'sort of' like this person. It just doesn't happen.

And it's not just that I deserved an award, it's that I know OTHER people in my class who deserved it as well. Other people who deserved it even more than I do, and WERE NOT awarded approprately. In fact, I can name 3 of these individuals, 2 freshman, one sophmore. Someone is clearly...*insert mean things here*

Oh, saw a little of one of the one-acts. LOL. OMFG. Need to see this. Appropriate title as well.

Haha! I came home today and was like "Mom, I had a bad day!" and she was like, "So let's have a good dinner. What do you want?" "MASHED POTATOES WITH BACON BITS AND STEAK!! WHOO!"

And that's what we ate.

Oh, and I love a certain person. A mom, that is. She's sooo sweet. I'm thinking of getting her something for Mother's day. Because really, she's done SOOO much for me. I LOVE YOU!! *hugs and ENDLESS gratitude to a very special woman in my life :0D*

good song. LALALALA!! voice lessons are WONDERFUL things.
Its the End of the World As We Know It (And I Feel Fine) Lyrics - Document Album

That's great, it starts with an earthquake, birds and snakes, an aeroplane -
Lenny Bruce is not afraid. Eye of a hurricane, listen to yourself churn -
world serves its own needs, don't misserve your own needs. Feed it up a knock,
speed, grunt no, strength no. Ladder structure clatter with fear of height,
down height. Wire in a fire, represent the seven games in a government for
hire and a combat site. Left her, wasn't coming in a hurry with the furies
breathing down your neck. Team by team reporters baffled, trump, tethered
crop. Look at that low plane! Fine then. Uh oh, overflow, population,
common group, but it'll do. Save yourself, serve yourself. World serves its
own needs, listen to your heart bleed. Tell me with the rapture and the
reverent in the right - right. You vitriolic, patriotic, slam, fight, bright
light, feeling pretty psyched.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.

Six o'clock - TV hour. Don't get caught in foreign tower. Slash and burn,
return, listen to yourself churn. Lock him in uniform and book burning,
blood letting. Every motive escalate. Automotive incinerate. Light a candle,
light a motive. Step down, step down. Watch a heel crush, crush. Uh oh,
this means no fear - cavalier. Renegade and steer clear! A tournament,
a tournament, a tournament of lies. Offer me solutions, offer me alternatives
and I decline.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.

The other night I tripped a nice continental drift divide. Mount St. Edelite.
Leonard Bernstein. Leonid Breshnev, Lenny Bruce and Lester Bangs.
Birthday party, cheesecake, jelly bean, boom! You symbiotic, patriotic,
slam, but neck, right? Right.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine...fine...

(It's time I had some time alone)


except that i don't quite feel fine. but apparently francesco might go out with me!! and i had a date to MA's prom!! ('had' because my mom won't pay for bids...but i had a date!! and he's HOT HOT HOT!!)

oh, and andrew really DOES make me :0D. it's the best thing in the world to sing with him. he's just so cool! yay for jokes and people who want to comfort me!

and now jokes, compliments of ANDREW!!!

"Once upon a time, a beautiful young antelope had a wild date in the forest, so she was getting all gussied up—new dress, makeup, everything. Suddenly, as she was just about ready, she was stampeded by a herd of wildebeests, becoming the world's first self-dressed, stamped antelope."

"How do we know that Adam and Eve were Lutheran?
Who else could stand beside a naked woman and be tempted by a piece of fruit?"

"My cousin is a transvestite. He likes to eat, drink and be Mary."

"One day the captain of the royal barge went down to address the slaves chained to the oars. "Men, the good news is that the queen will be joining us today for a trip up the river. The bad news is she wants to go water skiing."

"There's been a falling-out between Madonna and Cher. Apparently they're no longer on a first-name basis."

"What’s large, gray, and doesn’t matter?
An irrelephant."

"Why did the blonde have square boobs?
She forgot to take the tissues out of the box"


"Why can't Episcopalians play chess?
They can't tell the difference between a bishop and a queen"

"What do you get when you mix beans and onions?
Tear gas."

oooh, this one's bad:

"How are blondes like cowpies?
The older they get, the easier they are to pick up."

"My name's Pavlov. Ring a bell?"

"The blonde was so proud because she finished a puzzle in 52 days that said "2-3 years.""

"What were the best three years of George Bush's life?
Grade 5"

and from his brother, david:

"ok how do u torture an engineer?
u strap them to a chair and fold a map the wrong way in front of them"

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! ahhh so we might have a church-centered rafting trip this summer!! whooo!! it'd be like my family, the two guys who were sending me jokes, annie and ruthie, and chris!! YAY!!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!

as for other ppl...haha nah, jk.

I LOVE PAIGE!! AHHHH!!! she is my life. seriously. that woman is convinced that i'm going to be an opera conductor. I LOVE HER!!!

*props to http://prairiehome.publicradio.org/performances/20040417/scripts/alljokes.shtml for supplying andrew with jokes.

sooo annoying...
So my mom somehow finds out that I've written all this crap about a certain incident that happened recently involving one of my teachers at school and tells me, at like 10:15 as i'm getting ready for bed, that I'd better delete it all because if the administration found out and it got back to that teacher, I could be kicked out of Ambassadors. (Essentially...so I basically thought the admissions process was unfair and I was being given an unfair chance at being admitted to the organization.)

So ANYWAY, a few entires have been made private (friend's only, so sign in guys on my friend's list) and I've deleted bits and pieces.

I STILL have those raidical ideas about how this is FREEDOM OF THE 'PRESS' and if not that, FREEDOM OF SPEECH, GODDAMNIT!! This is MY JOURNAL, and I think I can write what I damn well want to! And besides, I'll tell that teacher to her face if she asks that I was incredibly angry with her for her shortness towards me as I tried to apply for Ambassadors. I felt like I was being given less of a chance!! She DIDN'T really give me a chance, either!

So whatever. Just a heads up that some stuff is now gone. God, this is annoying. I shouldn't have to censor my stuff in order to feel safe from the school admin. That's definitely not cool.

23rd entry, 5th line
So everyone's doing this thing on LJ where they post the 5th line of their 23rd entry. Well, my 23rd entry was a conversation between me and Nicole, so the 5th line was:

Horseeyoregal: it really is hella freaky that i wud think of that window thing

haha. funnylicious. creepy times...:-p

MAIN STREET GETS BACK TONIGHT!!! WHOOOO!

Oh, and the church musical is STILL incredibly crappy and cheesy. YOU SHOULD ALL COME, THOUGH!! Details later. 7 hours of rehersals per weekend now. crapola. And extra rehersals for leads. That'd be me. UGH.

Jazz is fun to play. Singing jazz with all of that weird crap is not. Clarinet is cool, but my teacher is not. And that is all I have to say.

Oh, one more thing. Andrew makes me :0D.

DUCKS!
So, I'm being bored and obsessive, and I stumble apon Jeff's (the freshman in college, not the junior at lahs) journal. It gets boring reading one drunken/stoned entry to the next, so I decide to raid his friends' list. YAY! Who do I find, but Greg! (The freshman in college again, not the junior at lahs.) This would be the Greg whose ass was accidentally grabbed by Nicole backstage during an LAYT production. Anyway, he's smart. So I'm reading, and I come across this:

"Something about those ducks. People talk about how stupid ducks are, but when you watch them for a few minutes, you begin to see how absolutely brilliantly they're engineered. I mean, yes, they walk funny, but watch them swim, look at them fly, then look at them rotate through all three effortlessly. It's almost as if making them walk was an afterthought.

So it comes down to a matter of function. Ducks swim well and fly well because that's what they're designed to do. But what are we desgined to do? Yeah, we eat, sleep, move around, but every animal does that and, relative to other animals, we don't do any of it that great. "

He's a genious. Actually, I just liked that it was about ducks. (Can't imagine why...)

STAR testing is a joke, and I like it! Adv. Jazz auditions went okay, would have been better if I had practiced more. Oh well. I did okay.

*this part of the entry deleted 5/3 because my mom thought it might be potentially bad for me if the school found out what i was typing...God...*

I've got to study Bio, but I won't. Just to spite her. (My mom, that is.) She threw a fit becuase I've been HAVING FUN with friends and spending NOT THAT MUCH of her money. I swear, it's been 2 weeks and I've borrowed $10. Yes, ten. I got a $20 so I could see Ali in Sleeping Beauty. I consequently spent it all when Sarah forgot to put extra money in her wallet. Did I care? NO! I'm a good friend! But then, when I ask for lunch money, I CAN'T HAVE ANY!! THAT $20 WAS APPARENTLY MY LUNCH MONEY AS WELL!! grrr...

Well, at least there's ONE MAN in my life who's good at comforting me!! The other's just a depressed old man who SEES LIFE THROUGH DARKENED EYES. Damn this depression of so many of our world's teens! BE HAPPY, DAMNIT!!! *snarl*

I want MAIN STREET BACK!!! I WANT MR. SHAULL!! COME BAAAACKKKK!!

it's kinda late...
i'm turning into much of a nocternal creature once again...it's the curse of break, along with people online who'll talk to me at like 1 in the morning. haha. i'm sitting here eating cheescake, which i should really save for breakfast, seeing as i'm not hungry AT ALL right now.

gotta love sarah's family. my mom just goes crazy when i'm like 'i love their family. i love her mom. she's so cool.' she like flips out. she was like 'well maybe you should get BECKY a mother's day present.' ha. maybe i will. i'll write her a cute card that's like 'you're the coolest mom i know!! (aside from my own...but i can't tell her that. teenage mom's aren't supposed to know that they're loved. but you are! yay! way to be a super cool mom and hostess!'

now THAT would be nice. right well.

ate at the cheescake factory with the daddy-o and the rents. you'd think these mom, dad, mom's bf, me interactions would be awkward, but they're not really. maybe i'm just an extremely adjusted teenager. i love maggie. she's my pastor. she's always going on about how wonderful i am. ANYWAYS.

some people are just dipshits. i think they're cool anyway, but ya know. i love that word. DIPSHIT! YAY!

should be a sad, sad choir rehearsal tomorrow. 4 hours of HELL. yeah, the dance connection people think that THEIR rehearsals are bad, try singing with a lady who can neither conduct nor play piano. she's always going 'oh, and to think i was a piano performance major...' MY GOD. and our leading man, who i'm sort of crushing on (it's the annual spring melissa thinks andrew is hot thing that never amounts to anything but a lot of drama during church) won't even BE there because he's got a gig in soCal. HA! (band trip. he plays trumpet. YUMMM. he's good, too.) i mean wahhhh! haha. but yeah. operation: mel is going to get a date to the gunn jr./sr. prom begins next week. HELLZ TO THE YES! haha. dontcha just love how i go for the guys who totally aren't ready/into girls yet? it's wonderful! at least i'm being safe...

and i digress. anyway, went to sarah's house for dinner tonight. i love her family! nice conversation in a nice outdoor setting and yummy pasta. mmmm... sarah's room is AWESOME. full of ribbons and horse stuff. i felt right at home. :0D she has a rat!! it's awesome!

oh, and now i'm skipping around again. ANYWAY. we went shopping after eating and ran into becky and jeanette. i love becky. oh wait, i already said that. (this is my mom's cue to begin her hysteria.) ANYWAY. oh, i bought 2 cute tops and a lil skanky skirt that really isn't all that skanky. i could have gone for REALLY skanky skirts (that were sooo cute) but i didn't think i'd wear them in public. besides, NO ONE LOVES MY ASS. *tear* omg someone (i think it was ali or sarah) was like 'WOW, YOUR ASS IS FLAT!!' the other day. it was very sad.

went to see sleeping beauty (featuring our own alison and ruthie!) with nicole and sarah. twas fun. we bugged the people around us by saying skanky things and laughing quietly. nicole kept whispering funny stuff to me throughout the ballet. and then we guessed which classes each group was from. *sigh*

I MISS DANCING!! WAHHHH!!!

and omg james is hot. EAT ME. yeah. and prince desire was just so DESIREABLE. except not really. it was great.

and now i have idina menzel and christin chennoweth stuck in my head. quick! which musical is that? WICKED! (no, that's the name of the musical. HA.)

i'd better get to sleep. must read scripture in church tomorrow with the *evil* pastor. ha. don't tell anyone i said that. i might go to hell. NOT. ha. i am loved in thy sight. how nice. now may i please find a date to prom...like ANY prom? thanks.