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selidor

:: 2005 20 November :: 9.53pm
:: Mood: tired

Quiz Results Etc.
I know I haven't updated in ages. I was at a comic convention today, but I'm tired so I'll write about it tomorrow (maybe.)


Take The quiz yourself

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wiredshut

:: 2005 18 November :: 2.59pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: AFI

will anyone say anything?
If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything, either good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you!

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wiredshut

:: 2005 18 November :: 9.50am

Sorry guys- it seems that whenever i say im going to be quick i waffle on forever. ooops.

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wiredshut

:: 2005 17 November :: 5.10pm
:: Mood: hyper

Riding and other periods of my wierd life.
well i have to be quick because the libary is about to close. its really annoying walking home in the dark again- it takes me a while to get used to it. and this flipping coldness is killing me! i dont handle the cold well and its getting through and hitting my bones! hard. was daydreaming as usual on my way home yesterday and found myself dreaming of riding again (horses- do not think anything else!!!) i really miss it and am trying to think of a way to get into it again comfortably. its also a really good way to keep of the dreaded weight- i mean i was able to look good in jodphurs for christ sake! no way would i now. in fact i still have my jods at home- the day i fit into thouse again will be the day that i am waiting for- i think i will be waiting a long frickin time i tell ya! i kinda failed the other day when my uncle brought chocolates and i almost ate the whole box- literally. but i love chocolate. mm.. chocolate... anyway, i really would love to start at the stables again but i left so suddenly and i also don't think that they have a horse big enough for me- its only their children that ride there now. i really do love horses though- i always had such fun. in fact it was the best time of my life when i wwas there- we were like a little family and we used to have so much laughs- jumping of the balcony, dancing in the barn, swinging on the trapize- doing anything horsey. even mucking out was fun. me and lyds were best friend and we did ewverything together. we used to plan these syncronised riding plans and i used to look after her when she got nervouss of jumping. then i became a reclused holed up my room on my own doing nothing, then i became a slut, holed up elsewhere not so on my own and not doing nothing, then i became a girly girl, then i became a loner, then i became friends obsessed and now i am me. what gonna happen next???

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wiredshut

:: 2005 14 November :: 3.29pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: spineshank

what will happen?
well that survey thing went on forever and i should be working but i can't seem to concentrate. i've been thinking about what has happened and what i think will happen in my life. 1. i can't remember so much! it's really bad! 2. i can't think of one thing that has happened to me in my life that at least one other person knows about. 3. i am v.v worried as i can't see my life. not one little peek of what i think it will be like. i mean i don't think i'm smart enough to get into any chosen prefession. i'm not pretty enough to have my world circle around me and a love. so, what will my life circle around??? i won't have a good job and i won't have someone to love me. there is nothing else that i can think of that i may need. any of my dreams won't come true as an adult. that i'm sure of. i guess i just have to wait and see what will happen. that scares me.

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wiredshut

:: 2005 14 November :: 3.19pm
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: slipknot

uhh- question thingy
7 things that scare me:
[1]never being loved
[2]beetles
[3]suffocation
[4]deafness
[5]dieing alone
[6]puppets
[7]disappointing the people I love

7 things I like the most:
[1]dreaming
[2]music
[3]yellow teddy (anyone think thats funny will die a painful death.)
[4]being lazy
[5]food
[6]drawing
[7]my room

7 important thing in my room:
[1]yellow
[2]cd player
[3]diary
[4]photos
[5]bed
[6]pictures
[7]computer will be

7 random facts about me:
[1]my nose is pierced
[2]my mind is nevver blank
[3]I obsess over random things
[4]I'm v.slightly OCD and also paranoid
[5]My favorite color is red
[6]my favourite shade is black
[7]I'm anti social

7 thing I want to do before I die:
[1]be loved
[2]love
[3]make my friends happy
[4]be a respected fashion designer
[5]go to egypt
[6]live in a penthouse apartment designed by me
[7]live

7 things that attract me to the opposite sex:
[1]manners
[2]smile
[3]beauty
[4]intelligence
[5]can sit in silence comfortably
[6]humour
[7]a special flicker in my heart when i see them
(not in order)

7 things I say the most:
[1]what was i going to say?
[2]sorry
[3]ok
[4]ha ha
[5]thats not funny
[6]i am starrrvvvving
[7]hey

7 celebrity crushes:
[1]nicole kidman
[2]ewan mgreggor
[3]eliza dushku
[4]jonny depp (in edward scissorhands)
[5]sandra bullock
[6]girl in coyote uly called rachel
[7]daniel radcliffe (shut up- i know your laughing!)

7 favorite drinks:
[1]milkshake
[2]milk
[3]green J2O
[4]milk
[5]apple juice
[6]pinapple juice
[7]ribena

7 memorable television shows I watched when I was little:
[1]digimon
[2]sliders
[3]quantem leap
[4]star trek
[5]oaky doke
[6]sesame street
[7]the simpsons

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wiredshut

:: 2005 11 November :: 10.47am
:: Mood: amused

HASH(0x8c68790)
you are lonely... you need some fun in your life...
sure, you have your books and music, but how
about some people?


What is really inside your heart?
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wiredshut

:: 2005 11 November :: 10.33am
:: Mood: amused

HASH(0x8596b84)
You are...Ginny Weasley. You are fierce and
determined, but have a soft side to you, also.
You are very good at Quidditch and sometimes
want to kill your older brothers. You are the
center of affection for Harry Potter. You are
your own person and are strong.


Which HP character are you *girls only!*
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wiredshut

:: 2005 9 November :: 4.45pm
:: Mood: optimistic
:: Music: Within Temptation. Sometimes and Aquarious.

Weight, hair and sand in the bed.
well, i've lost 8 pounds so far in the last week and am feeling hopeful. i'm feeling like it's not to hard at the moment. worked out that if i lose weight at a healthy rate (which will slow down after the inital week) i will be down to my ideal weight for my height and build in 5 months. well its not that long if you think about it. and in that time my hair will have grown loads and i can't wait til its to my waist! i am determined to grow it that far. this also shouldn't be that hard as my hair grows so fast. Rach and Lee are coming over on the weekend so it should be a good one. Had an absolutely brilliant bonfire night with the afore mentioned two coming to that also, it was a beautiful night and a really good display. we hung out at the beach for a while afterwards and that was nice too but as the other two had a wrestling match i now have sand in my bed that is impossible to shift which must have sprung from various orifices of my two friends. so thank you v.much you two!

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wiredshut

:: 2005 2 November :: 1.59pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: half time mix

stuff
well, its school again (and hotmail is banned again- damn them!!!!!) i've started a new diet (again!) and im feeling... good actually. hee hee! bet you wern't expecting that were you?? im always so miserable and ive realised that i do sound like a stupid emo. well- it has GOT TO STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!! firework night so soon! i must say that this is one of the best days of my year. seriously- i love it!! leek and potato soup in polystyarine (sp) cups- jacket potatoes in tin foil (obvious that im on a diet is it??) but also there are the beautiful sights of fireworks and bonfire. its usually a nice night aswell. i dont know what is but everytime on firework night i feel so happy. and so hopeful. as if everything will always, always work out. and it will work out in a good way. plus there is the joy of getting a free sparkler, lighting it, then running as fast as you can up to the flood wall sitting n it and still having some left to right you name with as you sit on the wall looking out t the reflections of the fireworks over the river. and then when the fireworks run out going so close to the fire that you face starts to roast. also the walk home which is usually fun- or funny. like last year mira and laura came and laura fell in a ditch and got stung from head to foot in stinging nettles. i nearly wet myself i laughed so hard. anyway- its o soon and i cant wait!!!! will talk about half term later.

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selidor

:: 2005 23 October :: 7.20pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Lostprophets - Last Summer [Radio Edit]

Ok... I haven't updated in ages ^_^

Anyway, I've had a busy couple of days and I'm really tired now, but I actually have something worth updating about.

Yesterday evening I was at a friend's party from seven until eleven, which was cool. There was alcohol involved, but I didn't drink any, obviously. There weren't many people who were completely drunk off their heads, although some girl drank loads, and might have thrown up (I'm not sure, she was scary, so I kept away.) I met some new people, which was cool (I actually talked to strangers!) There weren't many from Sion there, but I knew the ones that were, plus I saw a couple of people from Davisons as well. So overall, it was a pretty good evening.

Today I went up to London with my mother and a friend from school. We went to an anime festival at County Hall, which was good. I entered a character design contest (which was cool, except for the fact that they had lights in the room where we were drawing that kept changing colour... pink, green, blue, red... it was enough to make me feel ill by the end.) There was a decent size trade area, where I spent most of my money. I bought volumes six and seven of Naruto, volume two of Full Metal Alchemist, a Sasuke poster, a D.N.Angel poster, a cute little keyring of Envy from FMA, a shitajiki with Naruto and Gaara on, a pencil case with the Akatsuki cloud design from Naruto, and my personal favourite buy of the day: a Full Metal Alchemist doujinshi! It's a gen one, rather than a specific pairing, because I'm not much of a fan of FMA pairings. I will admit to being a bit of an EnvyxEd fan at times, but it's a pretty rare pairing. I was a little disappointed there were no SasuxNaru doujinshi (there wasn't much Naruto doujinshi at all; most of it was Prince Of Tennis or Saiyuki or FMA, usually of the RoyxEd variety) but it was very cool to find doujinshi on sale in the UK. So yeah, it was a cool day overall. I'm going to be so tired by tomorrow, though.

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wiredshut

:: 2005 20 October :: 10.53am

name?:

vicky
age?:16
birth date?:19/04/1989
zodiac sign?:aries
where were you born?:reading
where do you live now?:walberswick- suffolk
color of eyes?:green
color of hair?:brunette
height?:6 feet 11.75 inches
worst fear?:beetles and suffocation
do you smoke?:no
do you drink?:no
do you use drugs?:no
do you cuss?:yes
do you steal?:no
are you dependable?or trustworthy?:i hope so
any peircings or tatoos?:yes
do you suffer from depression diorder?:no
if you had a choice how you die what would it be?:in my sleep or laughing
are you a violent person?:no
do you take your anger out on other people?:no
do you blame other people for your mistakes?:sometimes
favorite movie?:edward scissorhands, mouin rouge, queen of the damned
favorite song?:lots of them
favorite band?:afi
favorite color?:red. (black)
have you ever dyed your hair and unusual color?:kind of
do you have self inflicted scars?:yes
what do you dislike mostly in your life?:At the moment- my weight
does the world piss you off?:sometimes
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wiredshut

:: 2005 19 October :: 4.48pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: slunt

bowling and lots of other babble.
Bowling. Who doesnt love it hey?? i love it!!!!!!! we had "fund raising day" today and me, clare, laura, sally, vicky and becky went in a team. was great. i came second twice. (damn that vicky she was too good!) all ive been doing is laughing like a maniac all day. have i ever mentioned how much i laugh?? well ill say this- and its an understatement- i laugh a lot. way too much probably but who cares. also i have a funny laugh that seems to make others laugh which is a good thing i guess. im slightly asthmatic (v.slightly) and when i laugh i always run out of breath and have to drag in a really loud breath that usually is high pitched and this makes people laugh.(sometimes i do it on perpose just to make people laugh) i have to start my diet soon. thinking of getting slimming pills and seeing if they help. friends said they do. sarah agrees that i would be better looking if i were thinner which i know is obviously true. i think maybe i could even be a bit pretty if i were thin. well, not thin, just thinner.
im feeling really giddy from having a nice day. i have decided to put one fact about myself every time i write an entry in an attempt to get to know myslf better.

-i am a natrally quiet person but act loud around loud people or if the people around me are too quiet or upset.

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