:: 2005 12 September :: 10.09 am

Today marks the tenth month since I have placed my foot on the never ending road to happiness. It is our tenth month anniversary! Yeah!!!! Amelia, I love you. You are my dearest, my highschool sweetheart, my lover. I hope you get your present in the mail today. If not, know that I still love you and blame the mailing system for not "delivering my heart to you". Call me later today and I promise I will be in a better mood for you. LOVE YOU!!!!

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:: 2005 11 September :: 8.32 pm
:: Mood: lonely

Grrr... I wish I didn't feel so depressed right now. I'm just really bored and lonely out here and feel like people don't really like me. They don't show me much respect, and I don't know how many favors I've done, and my "karma pot" hasn't really repaid me with anything. Then I brought her day down too by being depressed. That doesn't really make me feel like perking right up knowing I ruined the end of somebody else's day. I didn't want her to leave though. I brushed off a lot of her comments and didn't take much in. God I feel horrible. I almost started crying when she said she had to go eat dinner. Then I didn't even give her a good, good-bye. I love you...even though I'm not very convincing at saying it...

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:: 2005 11 September :: 7.27 pm

Yeah. Today was a pretty boring day. I spent the first part watching TV and doing some math and french homework. I watched Mythbusters, which seems like it is becoming a more popular show. Then my roomemates came back from church and Isreal invited me to go eat lunch with him, Luis, and Juan. They talked a lot in spanish, but I didn't say much because I didn't feel like trying. They don't really seem like they are "mormon" because they say the word "fag" a lot, which I think is a pretty offensive word, especially when you refrain yourself from saying "ass" or whatever. I don't know, just not too impressed with what their beliefs say, and how they act. Then we came back and I watched the final match of the US Open while doing laundry, and Agassi unfortunately lost to Federer. That didn't make me happy, because I was rooting for Agassi the whole way. Anyway, now I'm really bored and hungry and might go eat hot dogs or something.

"That's not very Christ-like..."

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:: 2005 9 September :: 10.50 am

My schedule:

Monday-
Math 8:00-8:50 AM
French 9:00-9:50 AM

Tuesday-
Math 8:00-8:50 AM
French 9:00-9:50 AM
Intro to Mormonism 11:00-11:50 AM
Tae Kwon Do 7:00-8:00 PM

Wednesday-
Math 8:00-8:50 AM
French 9:00-9:50 AM
Humanities 7:00-9:40 PM

Thursday-
Math 8:00-8:50 AM
French 9:00-9:50 AM
Intro to Mormonism 11:00-11:50 AM
Tae Kwon Do 7:00-8:00 PM

Friday-
Math 8:00-8:50 AM
French 9:00-9:50 AM
Tae Kwon Do Sparring 4:30-5:30 PM

Phone # 1-(208) 359-3197
Address 236 West 3rd South #11
Rexburg, ID 83440

P.S. Girlfriends are the best!

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:: 2005 8 September :: 2.08 pm

Similarities between Greek Mythology and the Bible.

Remember when you read this, these are only similarities, not exact same stories. These books were each written about a thousand years or more apart.

War in heaven: In Greek Mythology, there was a war between the titans and the gods. In the bible, it was a war between god/followers and Lucifer/followers.

Prometheus/Jesus Christ. Prometheus created man in the image of the gods. Jesus Christ claims we are created in the image of the gods. Prometheus declined temptation by not accepting a wife. Jesus was about declining temptation. Both suffered for the "good" of mankind. Prometheus was chained to a rock where Zeus' eagle flew down each day to eat it, and it reformed at night. Jesus' liver was stabbed to see if he was dead and water came out. His liver is also the symbol for resserection.

Hermes carries a staff with two snakes encircling it. Moses' staff turned into a snake. The staff with two snakes is actually the sign of hospitality(as in hospitable) and is on our hospitals, along with the cross.

God gave a child to Mary from a beam of light. Zeus did the same to Danea and bore her the child Perseus from a beam of light as well. Both god and Zues are reffered to as "god", "father in heaven", and "the lord".

Both of the first women created did something they were not supposed to and brought death upon the world. Eve ate the apple. Pandora oppened the box of leftover gifts.

Greek Mythology had a great flood like that of Noah and his ark. In the Greek version, and hero named Deucalion was prewarned about the flood(like Noah) and built an ark with his wife. They ended up on a tall mountian after the flood.

Both stories are very close in their chronological order, starting with creation. The bible mentions that your memory is wiped clean from you before you enter this world from your premortal life. In Greek mythology, there exists a river called Lethe. This is the river of forgetfullness. The Greeks believes that you had to drink from this river in order to forget everything about your past lives before you were able to be reincarnated.

The Greeks also foretold the coming of a savior("Jesus"). All of these Greek documentations happened at least five hundred years before Jesus was born. Greek mythology happened for about five hundred years till somebody first wrote the stories down. Some believe this was first done by Homer with the Iliad and Oddyssey. Even still, Homer wrote this five hundred B.C., so the stories were actually a thousand years old when Jesus was born.

Just some food for thought...
(sorry it's so long. I don't know how to do the "read more")

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:: 2005 7 September :: 10.23 am

I'm really kinda upset at everyone. Nobody is really helping one another with their problems, but just creating more problems. Nobody even seems to care to communicate with anybody anymore. It pisses me off because they know they should be doing better than they are. Everybody just needs to pull their shit together and stop living in this weird state of mind. I don't know, maybe I'm just over reacting and school needs to go on for a bit before everybody is back to normal, but... whatever.

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:: 2005 6 September :: 6.07 pm

Gahh... I feel horrible/icky/weird. I just want to take my girlfriend with me somewhere and gaurd her from the world. Amelia, if you get this before 6:45(my time) then call me. Otherwise I'll just call you after Tae Kwon Do. P.S. I looked at October's schedule and found out that I could probably stay the 28th to November 1st. God it's so fucking long away...

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:: 2005 6 September :: 5.10 pm

No matter how early I got up, or how late I stayed up, it just wasn't enough. I tried to not let her see me cry...it was hard...

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:: 2005 6 September :: 3.25 pm

Well I just got back from a super, spectacular weekend! Ahhh... it was great. I got to see Amelia, Zuzu, their parents, their dogs, Allan, and Kellen. I miss home already. Amelia and I had a great time and nothing has changed between us, which I'm grateful for. If anything, you could say we had a stronger bond. We talked a lot, cuddled, played video games, went to Baskin and Robins, loved eachother, went to Roseours, and went to the park. I am so glad I got a chance to have the weekend with just her. I'll probably write more later, and I hope you guys had a good first day at school.

Love, Jeremiah

"You can make a box and put all of your problems in it to solve them later"

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:: 2005 2 September :: 12.32 pm

I wish you were here right now. I arrived here about an hour ago and waiting for you is torture. *sigh*...

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:: 2005 31 August :: 9.44 pm

Today was a pretty interesting day. I had an ok time and am getting used to my classes now. I still need to take the spanish test, but they were closed today. In my Humanities class we looked at a lot of art. I was ok at recognizing some of the art to my own suprise. Summer didn't totally drain me of...smart. The teacher showed a sculpture of Mary and Jesus. Mary was about 1.5 times the size of Jesus to show how motherly she was to her dead child. The way I visualize motherness is kinda the same as the sculpture as in I imagine a larger person enveloping you from the top with her arms in a bracing hug and you can just fit perfectly in with your head in their chest and arms around their back. That got to me thinking about Amelia because she is very motherly like that and that is exactly what I feel from her. We also went over the sciences and a Charles Darwin quote that said he felt like he had lost the ability to love because he looked at everything scientifically instead of using his heart. He said he felt like a machine. I think I have kinda swerved off into that general direction too, so taking this vacation will get me back on track. I'm really kinda happy now because I feel really loved by my one and only and don't need to worry about anything. I'm glad she's here to keep me in line. I definitely can't wait till Friday! Ahh.... the happy, loving times I'll have.

"Que duermas con los angelitos, y conmigo a ladito."
(May you sleep with the little angels, and close with me)

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:: 2005 30 August :: 1.32 pm

Well, my schedule is pretty much taken care of. I don't have to worry about not knowing enough about the Book of Mormon or anything anymore. My math class is kinda tough because my teacher doesn't explain how to do the problems he just stands up at the board and says " and then you do this". Yargh. I do trust you Amelia, I just was wondering who that was. I think I remember you telling me about Jay, but not much. I don't think I ever knew he was Yamiyugi and I never read him saying "I Love You" before just so randomly. I'm sorry...

"Secrets in white houses"

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:: 2005 27 August :: 9.05 pm

Well the cold hand of reality decided to visit me a few times today. I'm so stressed and sad right now. My stomach is sick, my head is full, my heart grows heavy with every moment of time. I don't want to be here. I'm all alone here...I'm even scared...I reach out to hug her and am only embraced by the emptiness of the air. The songs I listen to accurately depict my feelings of sadness and jealousy. It's not ok. I don't know how "ok" it's going to be. I hear and feel the pain that others put forth of their loneliness, but I believe it is only a fraction of what I'm having to endure. Why do others ask this of me? Do they really believe I am that strong? To sacrifice most everything and change my entire universe? I don't know if I can even accept that. I don't know if I am that strong...It hurts, my heart moans and I have to stop breathing and listening to everything in order to keep my composure and not fall apart. That solitude time alone leaves me with only the thoughts and memories my head produces. The harder I try to hold the tears back, the harder they want to fall, until I feel a stream of wetness fall down my cheek. I have to keep my chin up and not let this happen around others, and only do it in the privacy of my car where there is no one else but me. When it starts, I can't even talk, not one word, or I will crumble into a thousand pieces. Why must I be here? Why must I let this go on? I could solve everything by driving away and never coming back...no...I could convince everybody to move here...no... I guess this is just the price I pay for being able to love. I am paying my respects and dues before I am able to be permitted to live my universe, my dream...I am all alone now...

"The greates thing in life, is ability to love"

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:: 2005 26 August :: 11.42 am

I'm really not happy right now. I don't know who the hell this cyberman/dennis or whatever the fuck his name is, but I don't like what I see and what's going on. I wish he would fuck off. I'm really sick of this. The thing is, I don't know if she enjoys talking to him or not. I'm so confused...

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:: 2005 25 August :: 3.08 pm

Well I'm all moved in today. I'm kinda sick of everything and everybody though. There is just a bunch of bickering, and interigating, and blah, blah, blah... Anyway, my room mate is from Mexico and he has a couple of spanish friends that were over(kind of ironic I would say...). I'm done with my room and am situated to live here for a while. I really miss home and my old bed though.

"I am Zim!"

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