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2016 24 September :: 12.28am
definitely not getting any sleep tonight
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2016 22 September :: 10.12pm
if i close my eyes and imagine laying in my favorite field of clover and sunlight with you, will you ease my pain?
if i hold out my hand in the dark will i find yours there next to me?
i wish i could cuddle with you again, in the early morning hours in your leather chair. could i forget all that's happened since then? can we sit in the golden montana sun and snore our lives away? i miss you so much. i wish i could have hugged you one last time.
why are things always so fucking painful? why are people so terrible? why does everything turn into a burning pile of charred ash and cinder..
i just want to sleep forever. i feel so dead inside.
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2016 22 September :: 8.24am
:: Music: FIDLAR bad habits
sometimes i really want to become a drug addict
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2016 22 September :: 6.56am
the sun is no longer up when i go to work :(
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2016 21 September :: 9.17pm
a lil drunk
feelin pretty grood
not worried about too much besides my internet being a fucking bastard
y u no netflix & chill, vizio?
going to portugal. the man in november. bought everyone tickets for their birthdays. i love me some scorpios man.
what da fuq for halloween doe.. dayman and nightman? harambe and a banana? the fox and the little princess?
i don't know man. i just don't know.
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2016 16 September :: 2.11pm
gotta take a picture.
but first gotta find the damn thing.
still haven't unpacked from my move a year ago.
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2016 14 September :: 8.07pm
I don't like the way I'm feeling right now
my stomach sinking
all the blood rushing to my trunk
I just feel so frustrated that you won't talk time about anything.
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2016 13 September :: 12.04pm
this dead heart of mine is a heavy burden to carry.
I used to think maybe I wasn't meant to carry it alone
but every day that passes it seems more and more like a fact
I am not made to be happy. I am not made to love.
I am not made for anything. I am a tamed animal that's been left alone to waste away.
this hollowness I feel grows more every day. temporarily am I filled, but only to have it slip out of my cracked base.
i watch the wind through the trees and feel the brisk autumn air against my exposed flesh.
I feel nothing but meaningless inside.
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2016 13 September :: 7.52am
disappointment
why can't you be a little more responsible?
or why am I such a responsible old windbag?
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2016 8 September :: 10.05pm
I can make it if I tired
I closed my eyes I kept on swimming
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2016 5 September :: 11.13pm
splurged on some new clothing today. torrid was having a buy one get one free clearance so I stocked up. a lil reward for paying off my car! I deserve it!
I just hope it all fits. the shitty thing is no returns... but let's be honest I'm too fucking lazy to go into a store.
I have some Blazers that never get worn.. I want to start wearing them more often just because. I'll dress up on Tuesdays, since men have tie Tuesday.
and maybe I'll get some new lipstick too...
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2016 31 August :: 9.07pm
maybe I really am just not ready
I fucking hate that motherfucker. I hate who I've become. who he trained me to be. I am so weak. still a slave to those putrid habits.
I am broken indefinitely. with broken strings it's hard to fix oneself.
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2016 30 August :: 8.05am
reasons I hate work:
- nothing ever works
- offshore processing
- NOTHING EVER WORKS
- OFFSHORE PROCESSING
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2016 28 August :: 10.27am
oh my god I am tired
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2016 25 August :: 10.08pm
off to the tri cities for another Mexican birthday celebration and the taco guy
he makes the most delicious tacos, and to watch him prepare them is a treat
camping out in the back yard in a tent
it's going to be how you say
el mejor
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