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2016 15 July :: 7.31am
we can get better cause we're not dead yet.
but what if there's no better and this is the best it'll ever be.
I have a good job, a man, food, entertainment, nature.. so why do I still feel this void inside of me.
and tha sun got brighter then
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2016 14 July :: 7.30am
so... what happens next?
write your own story. you're the heroine, you're the winner. write history.
and tha sun got brighter then
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2016 8 July :: 4.57pm
oh god come quickly I can feel the earth beneath my feet
I'm feeling badly, it's not an attempt at decency
and tha sun got brighter then
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2016 4 July :: 7.58pm
happy 240th bday America
who knows how many more you'll have
better enjoy them now
as a kid it was always so much more magical
now it's just another day
no fireworks or picnics
and tha sun got brighter then
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2016 1 July :: 8.31pm
the constant need to prove my capabilities is tiresome. as a woman I feel as though I must always be at my best, always have to prove I'm worth something
i hate that I was born with a vagina. I hate everything that comes with it. that feeling that you'll never quite be good enough, even if you are the best.
so some of us give up.. and are harshly judged. there is no winning. there is no victory. there is no headway. but it's a non issue. we are second class citizens, and our struggles aren't real. they are just some form of hysteria
so get back into the kitchen, kick off those shoes, you're gonna be making sandwiches for a while yet ladies.
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and tha sun got brighter then
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2016 29 June :: 2.23pm
and just like that, a friendship ends.
why do I keep becoming friends with psychological vampires.
and tha sun got brighter then
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2016 25 June :: 10.10pm
I just want to fucking bawl my eyes out
why do I fuckin ruin everything
why are people so fuckin weird
why is this a fucking issue every single time
I just want to be normal, and that was robbed from me
I will always be weird inside I will always be lame.
and tha sun got brighter then
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2016 21 June :: 5.35pm
Where was your heart
When we needed it most?
Live in denial
And I'll be your ghost
There is nothing to let go
Only time will let you know
If you're worth anything
and you know then
That I'm giving up way too early
Let the axis turn you free
And destroy everything you love
The world looks better when you're falling
Grace to comfort enough to crawling
Divided we must
Pray for the broken
No one could fix us
We are, we'll always be
The wronged
and tha sun got brighter then
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2016 17 June :: 11.54pm
I wish I had never been born
and tha sun got brighter then
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2016 16 June :: 7.56am
things are never easy and simple. and if they appear to be, you will likely end up paying dearly for it in the future.
and tha sun got brighter then
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2016 15 June :: 2.43pm
is never eating again an option?
and tha sun got brighter then
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2016 13 June :: 9.29am
when all you can see are the shattered pieces of your past present and future..
and you hope with all your heart maybe you'll find someone who can see the bigger picture..
but deep down you know you're too broken to ever really be complete again.
and tha sun got brighter then
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2016 11 June :: 2.43pm
it's like a constant reminder of how broken I am..
why did so much bullshit happen to me?
why was I such a victim?
and why am I still paying for it now...
klara committed suicide last Sunday.. I can't even begin to fathom that family's pain. how they continue to survive is so deeply moving.
I could never inflict that kind of pain. as much as I hate where I've been and where I'm going, I am so terrified about what's after that this isn't so bad..
I just.. what to know why. and it's something I will never know.
it sucks when the people who have caused you the most damage are the ones who know you best...
and tha sun got brighter then
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2016 8 June :: 7.18am
visited J's new digs yesterday. have to say I am extremely envious.
it's on a little lake out in Cheney. absolutely picturesque. I saw a heron, a bullocks oriel, and so many red winged black birds. I need to get some binoculars!
she has some goats living out there with her. they were the fuckin cutest. they kept staring up at us in the trailer bleating. they all have unique voices.. there's a screamer and meek one and everything in between!
we watched what about bob and pigged out on junk food. I have the biggest mosquito bite on my forehead, it gets and is making me feel kinda sick, but omg we could not stop laughing. I looked like a unicorn at first. now my face is just deformed and swollen.
going back out on Sunday, can't wait!! I missed the other side of my bestie sammich.
and tha sun got brighter then
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2016 7 June :: 9.18am
:: Music: coheed & cambria
pull the trigger and the night mare stops
and tha sun got brighter then
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2016 2 June :: 12.01pm
yesterday was my 6 year work anniversary.
me, Samie, Torie, Zuzu, Morgan and Juan all had sushi at sushi.com.
Juan brought me some cupcakes from a local bakery.
we went to the Monterey, it was me Torie Samie Chris and Juan, we ran into Raymond and it was a nice low key time.
today I left work early.
it's so insane. 6 years has flown by.
and tha sun got brighter then
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2016 28 May :: 9.27pm
there's just somethin in the way he laps my tears away
the concerned look the warm tongue
cuddles and kisses, just what the dr ordered
I love Bjorne. I wouldn't give him up. not for everything in the whole world
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2016 28 May :: 8.35pm
how can I trust you when I can't even trust myself
and tha sun got brighter then
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