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2003 31 August :: 2.02am
I felt it necessary to repost this
Realize that I can never win
sometimes I feel like I have failed
inside where do i begin
my mind is laughing at me
Tell me why am I to blame
Aren't we supposed to be the same
That's why I will never tame
This thing that's burning in me
I am the one who chose my path
I am the one who couldnt last
I feel the life pulled from me
I feel the anger changing me
Sometimes I can never tell
If I've got something after me
That's why I just beg and plead
For this curse to leave me
Tell me why am I to blame
Aren't we supposed to be the same
That's why I will never tame
This thing that's burning in me
I am the one who chose my path
I am the one who couldnt last
I feel the life pulled from me
I feel the anger changing me
Betrayed,
I feel so, enslaved
I really tried
I did my time
I did my time
I did my time
I did my time
I am the one who chose my path
I am the one who couldnt last
I feel the life pulled from me
I feel the anger changing me
Oh god the anger's changing me
Oh god the anger's changing me
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2003 31 August :: 12.03am
Quiz
Your treasure is a Black Pearl. You are wise and
faithful.
What's Your Treasure?
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"I'm so weak and powerless over you." -A Perfect Circle/Weak and Powerless
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2003 30 August :: 8.27pm
"But you just can't tell, who you'll love and who you wont." -Smashing Pumpkins/Beautiful"
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2003 30 August :: 5.43pm
I am bored. If you're online, e-mail me. I can't get on msn... I miss my friends. And not just talking to them. I miss hanging out, alot.
"Money so they say is the root of all evil today, but if you ask for a rise, it's no surprise, they're giving none away." -Pink Floyd/Money
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2003 29 August :: 10.39pm
:: Mood: regretful
it's fucked up
yeah.. this is my life. Maybe I'm starting to get used to it getting worse constantly. whatever. i'm apathetic, i'm angry and i don't care. i've lost a lot of happiness in my life and who fucking cares... yeah, sucks to be kate. yes, i'm whining about my life. i'm pathetic. blah blah blah.. go suck a dick. i don't care to hear anyone's lame ass comebacks on how i need to stop feeling sorry for myself. this is me, kate. Everything sucks. and I'm sick of it. fuck it all. it's not your fault justin. don't feel guilty. there's no way you could've prevented it. as for your mom talking to my parents, they don't give a shit. they don't like your mom a lot. because they judge and they'll never change. if you don't meet their standards, they don't accept you. *sigh* I cried today. I watched 8 fucking hours worth of movies to pass the time. For the first time ever, a movie actually made me cry. I've gotten teary before, sure. But this movie actually mustered up one tear to fall down my cheek. Igby Goes Down. I think it's my favorite movie. I've seen it before, but this time it actually made me cry. Maybe because I can relate to him and such. yeah. fuck this psychological crap. I'm so sick of being deep and understanding and all this shit. I think way too fucking much. I understand more than I should sometimes I think, yet I'm never taken seriously. nobody even cares. I could be as dumb and ditsy as the next person and nobody would care any more than they do now. Fuck it. I'm done trying. I'm never going to cry for anyone again. Tears don't do anything but give me a headache and I have enough of those. I'm going to go to school. I'm going to hug my friends. I'm going to get my good grades. and I'm going to feel fucking bored and pointless the whole time. This is me. I am Kate. And this is my life. And I finally realized it.
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2003 28 August :: 5.13pm
:: Music: eve 6 - Think Twice
Courtney, James and I are at Justin's house, without Justin. Courtney and I are only wearing Justin's clothes, no under clothing and we're eating soft taco shells.
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2003 27 August :: 7.01pm
:: Music: The White Stripes - Elephant
The White Stripes - You've Got Her In Your Pocket
You've got her in your pocket
And there's no way out now
Put it in the safe and lock it
'cause it's at home sweet home
Nobody ever told you that it was the wrong way
To trick a woman, make her feel she did it her way
And you'll be there if she ever feels blue
And you'll be there when she finds someone new
What to do
Well you know
You keep her in your pocket
Where there's no way out now
Put it in a safe a lock it
'cause it's home sweet home
The smile on your face made her think she had the right one
Then she thought she was sure
By the way you two could have fun
But now you're scared
You think she's running away
You search in your hand for something clever to say
Don't go away
'cause I want
To keep you in my pocket
Where there's no way out now
Put it in a safe a lock it
'cause it's home sweet home
And in your own mind
You know your're lucky just to know her
And in the beginning all you wanted was to show her
But now she might leave
Like she's threatened before
Grab hold of her fast
Before her feet leave the floor
And she's out the door
'cause you want
To keep her in your pocket
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2003 26 August :: 11.36pm
i cannot sleep... i need a remedy for insomnia. ... I don't even know what to type. This sucks.
"The bottom line is money. Nobody gives a fuck. 4,000 hungry children leave us per hour from starvation while millions are spent on bombs, creating death showers." -SoaD/Boom!
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2003 24 August :: 8.59pm
Little 2 year old Christopher comes over with his family. He comes in my room, I tell them to keep him out of my room. I pick him up and bring him into the living room. Later, he comes back into my room because obviously his fucking parents aren't watching him and dumps the kitty litter all over my floor. Of course I have to clean it up because It's somehow my fault even though I already told them not to let him in my room. So now I have kitty littler all over my fucking floor which I have to fucking clean up. They need to learn to watch their stupid little child.
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2003 24 August :: 8.49pm
I had to put this in here. It made me laugh.
You aren't a M and M. You are death. You eat candy
while leading souls to the afterlife.
(One question) Which M&M are you?
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2003 24 August :: 6.33pm
Kate Kate Kate Kate Kate Kate Kate
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2003 24 August :: 1.35am
The Crow
People once believed that when someone dies, a Crow carries their soul to the land of the dead, but sometimes something so bad happens that a terrible sadness is carried with it and the soul can't rest. Then sometimes, just sometimes, the Crow can bring the soul back and put the wrong things right.
"Victims? Aren't we all?"
"It can't rain all the time."
"Nothing is trivial."
"You're all going to die."
"Buildings burn, people die, but real love is forever."
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2003 22 August :: 6.39pm
You are the typical feminist, depressed, artist.
You go against the crowd and do everything you
can to be different. Too bad noone notices.
Try communicating with people, not just looking
down on them.
What kind of typical high school character from a movie are you?
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I'd have to disagree with this. I only put it in here because I thought it was ironic that I got daria and I've been compared to her by a couple people.
"Be right back after this, the unavoidable kiss, where the minty fresh death breath is sure to outlast this catastrophe." -Jason Mraz/The Remedy
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2003 19 August :: 5.07pm
It was a windy night. Not too cold. The stars were hidden by the gloom of dark clouds. She sat on the bench waiting patiently. The words played over and over in her head, uncertain of which ones to use. She heard the crunching of autumn leaves and looked up. There he was, leisurely making his way toward her, the darkness revealing him slowly. He stopped in front of her and she stood up to face him. Taking his hand, she looked in his eyes.
"I'm sorry. I love him," she spoke and looked down. After a moment she looked up at his expressionless face. He leaned forward, whisered in her ear, "I still love you," and kissed her cheek. He then turned back the way he came and left her at the dark street as the night seemed to grow darker. She stood for several minutes, staring after him until he was no longer visable. She turned the opposite direction and made her way home.
It was a week later. She lay in the arms of her love. The phone rang and she answered it. He was at the hospital. He was dying.
"We have to go see him," she tells her love.
Lying on his deathbed, he stared at her at his side. Her love standing next to her. He felt deep abhoration for that man. He hated that his enemy could see him in his weakest state. Pain coursed through his body and tears streamed from his face. He grabbed her hand and held it tight as he took his last gasping breaths.
"Please.." he breathed, "kiss me one last time."
She bent over and kissed him gently. She felt the life leave him as her lips did.
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