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2004 11 November :: 7.11pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: beautiful soul by jesse mccartney
i dont want my love to go to waste...
WORST DAY EVER:
-had a weird night last night. didnt get much sleep.
-POFL book wasnt in my locker and i had the test today.
-^^that led to me crying before first hour.
-took POFL test, bullshitted most of it, grr.
-spanish was jus down right gay.
-lunch-fucking dr.pepper was sold out so i push mountain dew and i get a fucking PINEAPPLE SUNKIST. wtfff. it was the most disgusting thing ever.
-while walking to lunch i dropped the stupid soda shit and it exploded everywhere on teh ground so i jus lef it.
-gustavo kept hitting me.
-fucking janitor like swept my ass (lol niki)
-pierciing boy was not at school.
-got a 76 on my history test=more crying.
-math was soooo gay. wtf how the fuck to u factor? jesus christ. im swear im gunna fucking dropout.
-arsalan fucking made me spill my other soda all over the computer in math class.
----after school met up with nicole to help her study for her math test and we met up with chris and jeremy and amanda and maria. it was fun things were looking up. ha yeahh ok...
-people pissed me off=morrre crying cuz im a gay faggot who cries instead of getting mad and yelling or w/e the fuck ppl do.
-and now im thinking about things which is making me sad. god im such an idiot.
(maybe tomorrow will be better?)
--fuck this shit--
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2004 11 November :: 6.36pm
--stole this from nicole cuz i absolutely love it.
Somewhere b e t w e e n procrastination.... and homework.... and the incessant fowards.... and the friendships.... and the calls to each other complaining about crushes.... Somewhere b e t w e e n phone calls to o l d f r i e n d s.... And the “I miss you's” and "I love you's".... And the "What are we doing tonight?'s”... And somewhere b e t w e e n growing & changing.... And somewhere b e t w e e n classes.... And the skipping classes.... And the studying for tests.... And the pretending to study for tests.... And the downright NOT studying for tests.... I forgot. I forgot what school is all about.
I forgot what it meant to cry.... I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy.... And that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart.... I forgot that you just can't forget the past in fear of the future.... I forgot that you can't control falling in love.... And that you can't make yourself fall in love.... I learned that I can love.... I learned that it's okay to mess up.... And it's okay to ask for help.... And it's okay to feel like crap.... I learned its okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day.... Because that's how you know who your true friends are. I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just can't have. I learned that the greatest things about high school isn't the CrAzY parties or the DRiNkInG or the hook-ups....It's the friendships, which means taking chances.... I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about.... I learned that letters from friends are the most important thing; And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better. But basically, I just learned that my friends.... Both o l d and n e w.... Are the most important people to me in the world. And without them, I wouldn't be who I am today. So this is a thank yOu to all of my friends.... For always being there and I love you.
<333
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2004 9 November :: 7.15pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: iris by goo-goo dolls
and i give up forever to touch you...
today was ok. did absolutely nothing in any of my classes. two out of four had subs in. i lost my ducky at lunch but found it thankfully. fucking sprinted to see piercing boy but missed him, damn! lol. after school chilled with allie camila sum kid and jeremy. then went home. started to study and niki and nicole came on my driveway (where i was reading) and we laid around. nicole was being VERY PSYCHO. lol. she tried to kill me on the chair and i got her wet ahaha. then we walked to wendys and i only have 7 out of 9 lives left since im a fucking klutz. lol!! and niki's crotch cracks. ahahahahaha. it was funn. we talked about how gay we were when we were freshmen. then we all went home and i jus finished having a fucking spaz since my printer wont work and i had to print out spanish hw. so IMed like evry1 and no one had a printer...gah wtf? haha but then the love of my life, ALLIE did it for me. I LOVE YOU!!. haha now i gotta go study for a bout a bazillion other things shitttt i have english hw i forgot about. god damn it...
-suck my ballllls bitch!- (lol niki n' nicole)
<33-janelle
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2004 8 November :: 10.05pm
today was fine. talked about eggs this morning that was entertaining. 2nd hr was ok. did gay shit. cant even remember what. all i know is i got a 100 and a 95 on my fucking 28 page reading log for POFL. yay! spanish was ok. took two fucking pop quizzes. did ok on them. have a paper to write in spanish by thrusday. blahhh. lunch was fine. stalked piercing boy (damn hes hott) and saw brown man (also hott) get in a fight. history was gay. took the DBQ from hell. i thought i did good but was completely off base. grrr. algebra was ok. i get what were doing, well except the stuff that i fell asleep during. lol. after school took jeremy and danny home. aww he lives in my old neighborhood. hehe. then hung out with nicole niki and gustavo. wasnt the best time ever thats for sure. went home then went with camila to party city and publix. ahahahah he beat the shit outta julian. at publix i talked to eric from pe last year and ran into owen. aww hes so adorable i love him. he hugged me and he smelt good and ithought it was axe, but he told me it was marijuana...hmmm? but yeah. went home did hw and talked to ppl online. im gunna go now tho cuz fresh prince of bel-air is on and thats my favorite show.!!
-later hoes-
<33-janellle
Ps- i saw it again. it makes me really upset. i hope they both die...
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2004 7 November :: 10.39pm
omgggg. i jus watched the best episode of viva la bam ever made. johnny knoxville is beyond orgasmic. i love him!!!
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anywho, this weekend was fun. friday football game (already updated bout that).
saturday: did nothing then sams mom piked us up and we went to jaryds where we hung out with him nick and his sister. it was fun. then i stole jaryds jacket and im NEVER giving it back. haahaha. then sam's friend justin piked us up in his car and took us to dairy queen where we got two blizzards for 32 cents. yes thats right u heard me. 32 cents. its cuz we know G. hahaha. then justin dropped us off at shadowood where me and sam chilled until every1's movie got out. we begged ppl for money to buy this magazine w/ ryan cabrera shit in it and to win a pony for sam. haha we bought happy meals and got coooool monkey straws and bendy incredible toys. then mom piked us up and we piked up jeremy and max and hung out at my house. drama of course not getting into it right now. but then maria and amanda showed up, sam left and i had to go inside. but yeah.
sunday: did nothing. went to store with mommy. got nothing. hmpf. did hw at camilas and got her and jaryd to go back out. hahaha. but yeah. im gunna go to sleep.
-later skater-
<33-janelle
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2004 7 November :: 3.37pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: juliana theory - if i told you this was killing me , would you stop ?
if it makes you feel good , do it .
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2004 7 November :: 10.03am
-- Im s h a t t e r e d like [[broken glass]] upon ur feet. You watch me bleed. As if u *{ dont care }* at all.
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2004 6 November :: 11.39pm
im in sucha a horrible mood right now. im so fucking pissed and upset im like almost literally in tears. im so fucking sick of my so-called "friends" treating me like shit. like tonight for example...who the fuck does something that rude? def. not sumone i wuld call my friends. he says such horrible things that it makes me so upset. i cant take this bullshit from anyone anymore. i have tons and tons of friends and alot of them i see on a daily basis and would call my "good friends". but i've def. cut ppl off that list who should have never ever been on it. there are literally 7 people in my life that i can trust and who actually are nice and care and arent assholes. camila, sam, niki, nicole, allie, chris and johnny--i fucking love u guys to death you guys are like my best friends. but like im so sick of my "friends" pissing me off and making me cry. yeah u heard me, cry cuz u lil fuckers push me to the edge. gahhh. fuckkk.
-whatever-
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2004 5 November :: 11.25pm
:: Mood: jumpy
Tonight was a BLAST!! after seeing sumthing at school that really pissed me off, i went home and around 6 sam aka samizzle came over and we drew on our shirts! they are so hott!! hahah. then me her and camizzle went to the Football Game. got there ppl were being quite gay. then after getting lost in the parking lot with the buses...JOHNNY showed up. we chilled the whole time. it was lots of fun. we established the fact that i am incredibly jumpy and i need to chill the fuck out. lololol. but yeah. i definately had fun. i def. love him soooo much. <33 hahahaha yeah anyways i met dan's most recent ex-gf. funny how he cheated on her too...hmm sum guys jus never learn! lol stayed and wacthed band again cuz they rock my socks. gimme a B-A-N-D!!! lol good times. but yeah....definately had lots of fun tonight. met new ppl (clifford and other ppl dont remember names lol) and i kissed ANTHONY's ass!!! LMAO. it was hilarious. but yeah it was funnnnnn. cant wait to hang out with johnny and all them again!!! woot. but yeah. im out. i def. accomplished what i wanted to do hahaha. thanks johnny. lol ur a great boyfriend. lol!!!! hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha =]
-later loverss-
<33-janelle
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2004 5 November :: 4.23pm
:: Mood: angry
all i have to say is:
Die motherfucker, die ..
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2004 4 November :: 6.35pm
im so over it.
i cant believe i was ever so pathetic and smitten. and i really cant believe i told him that i [L-worded] him. hahaha. but yeah. im kinda glad all that drama shit happened. def was a needed wake up call on my half.
<333
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2004 4 November :: 6.22pm
wanna feel the warm breeze, sleep under a palm tree...
omg. today was like...not fun. english was boring. omg the coordination test was sooo damn easy. gosh. spanish was ok. test was alright think i did good. we read another story and omfg i dont get it at all!!! grrr. lunch chris and sahar were skipping...tisk tisk. but it was gay cuz gusto was pissing me off he through my fucking soda in the garbage and got a lollipop in my fucking hairr!!! grrr. history was going soooo well i was awake and paying attention until the last like 11 minuites. i ended up fucking falling into a deep sleep until the bell rang. WTF ive fallen asleep in there everyday now for like the whole week. I NEED TO STAY AWAKE cuz im failing tht class right now. gahhh algebra took a test easier than eating cheese. after school took jeremy home and gusto and allie and camila. then met up with nicole and walked with her to jds then to wendys where we met up with gusto and chris. then max came anc other ppl including hot ass JOSH. lol. ommmmgg. but yeah. then saw amanda and maria up there. then walked to my house to get chris' bike with him max nicole amanda and maria. then got max water cuz hes a fuckin neanderthal and he fucking dumped it on me. douche bag. lol. then i walked nicole home and accidently almost killed chris (oops sorry) hahaha. then went home.
OMMMGGG. tomorrow night... foot ball game!!! im excited. they're always so much fun. annnd johnny nonni's prolly gunna come so we can hang out! <3...man i havent seen that kid in ages!! but yeah. im gunna go, peace fuckers.
-laterrr loverss-
<33-janelle
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2004 3 November :: 8.54pm
today after school rocked. me and allie say in the parking lot in the yellow lines and played GO FISH while listening to the drummer ppl in band play. it was greaat. and camila oculdnt find us so she had the office call me over the LOUDSPEAKER omggg that was friggin hilarious.!! yeah and we tried chilling with sum of the band ppl in their "sacred band hallway thing" but they jus dont appreciate our support..LMAO allie!! food is everything to them, dear lord!!! hahahah. omg yeah. im a d0rk.
-later suckers-
<3-janelle
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2004 2 November :: 9.26pm
:: Mood: hurt
i was right.
however, jus this once, i wish i had been wrong...
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2004 2 November :: 3.52pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: 1985 by bowling for soup
what happened to her plan?
omg. i had a horrible day. i think im gettin deathly ill. it sucks. me and camila got our homecoming/halloween pics developed last nite. haha i stole a sexy Ryan Cabrera Poster from a magazine. and we got harrased by these stupid black dudes who were calling us Shawty lol!!!
today in first hr we did like nothing. 3rd hr i took a test and slept then talked to matt george val and desiree. lunch-stalked piercing boy again. OMFG OMFG. his name is gustavo LOLOL. ahhhh! hes so damn sexy i'd do him in a heartbeat. =] 5th hr-took notes for 10 minutes then slept the rest of the period, drooled on my arm excessively and made my left arm fall asleep. so i missed alllll the notes and i have to copy them from my lover janis. <3. chem was alright, we took a quiz i got a B. yay. lol. then did a lab with dana<3. i havent talked to her in a while. we had a nice chat about ex-bfs and how retarded guys are. lol. after school i was walking and i look to my right and BAM! theres Justin Kantz..AKA piercing justin. aww he goes to our school now. lol. then went out front and was a lil annoyed with everything and i was gunna walk home by myself since everyone had their damn panties in a bunch and jus had to go home right away. so after they left i called my mom and she was home and she piked me up. before she came i watched a movie with jeremy and nick cuz jeremy is a cool rich brown man witha portable dvd player. lol. now im gunna go do...sumthin.
-later loverss-
<33-janelle
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