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2004 8 August :: 7.55pm
:: Mood: headache!
:: Music: True by: Ryan Cabrera <3!!
all my life i've waited, this is true...
today went to the mall with camila. we ran into allie and her friends gia, aileen, jillian and sum boys. they were weird (well the boys) the girls were cool. we jus walked around and stuff. we jerked off a flashlight. lol. and we sat in chairs that like attacked us. haha then us and sum stange boys were playing with these very large vibrators. lol fun stuff. then one of the boys (juan) stood in the window of crate and barrel and acted like a fake person and then when sumone walked bya nd looked he wuld make a face of sumthin. it was funny shit. oo and there was hot half naked firemen there too. hehe. oh we made up a way to find each other if we get lost, we hold up our middle finger and wave it while we scream their name. hip hip (insert middle finger here) hooray! lol.
now im downloading ashlee simpson and ryan cabrera songs. im like obsessed. ahaha.
<33-janelle
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2004 8 August :: 5.37pm
:: Mood: indifferent
:: Music: counting crows ft. vanessa carlton - big yellow taxi
it's like a silent retaliation . an answer to the questions you're yelling at me ... only you'll never hear it , just like you never hear my responses , whether they're said calmly or furiously or frustrated or beautiful and silent . so take this , plus the two from last night , and ignore them because you'll never understand . and forget that i sat and smiled even though you didn't call me down when the guests of honor arrived , and forget that i have barely left the house . notice , instead , that i'm watching television . ask me why the sudden change , although it's neither sudden nor a huge change ; if anything , a return to what used to be . describe to me my value in the fewest amount of words possible . encourage my artistic side . shoot down with filthy words my latest journals or visions of the future . dirty the purest thing i have with your selfish , inconsiderate , rude , unnecessary comments ... i can take it . just leave me the two things i have because it's all i need , and next time you see me comfortable on the couch , be sure to take into account everything i said today , if you ever do take the time to listen .
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2004 8 August :: 4.31am
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: norah jones - don't know why
when you called today , it made me so happy . you're all i see ... everything around you is a blur . you're all i can focus on .
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2004 8 August :: 12.34am
::15 RaNdOm FaVoRiTeS::
*1.playing in the rain
*2.ashlee simpson
*3.seeing old friends
*4.talking at camilas window at nite
*5.reading
*6.Boys!
*7.skater boys
*8.oreos and whipped cream
*9.palm trees
*10.snow
*11.talking online
*12.stars
*13.pink
*14.my big brother
*15.dying my hair
::14 FaVorItE fOoDs::
~1.easy mac
~2.corn dogs
~3.chicken fingers
~4.white rice
~5.strawberries
~6. thats all, im very picky
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::13 MoSt WatChEd SHoWs::
*1. real world
*2. boy meets world
*3. road rules
*4. ashlee simpson show
*5. dave the barbarian
*6. 7th heaven
*7. full house
*8. sister sister
*9. recess
*1o. newlyweds
*11. step by step
*12. jimmy neutron
*13. spongebob
::12 GoOd SoNgS iN yOuR oPiNiOn::
~1. maroon 5-she will be loved is #1 bitch!
~2. the killers-somebody told me
~3.jet-look what you've done
~4. american hi-fi-flavor of the week
~5. white stripes-seven nation army
~6. ashlee simpson-la la
~7. avril-my happy ending
~8. taking back sumday-cute without the e
~9. taking back sunday-you're so last summer
~10. switchfoot-dare you to move
~11. ryan cabrera-on the way down
~12. lonestar-im already there
::11 MeMoRiEs::
*1. woodlands
*2. lutherock
*3. national bball tourney in indiana
*4. when steph burped at wendys and the employee heard and said "oh dear god"
*5. me and scott breaking the stupid fence
*6. sneaking out of camilas house at nite
*7. sneaking boys in camilas room at nite
*8. when the couch flew up and smacked camila in the face
*9. spinning around and watching the stoplights change color with scott, camila, and gustavo the nite we snuck out
*10.getting to kno michael better
*11.all the cockroaches in camilas house
::10 ClOsE fREiNDs::
~1.hillary
~2.camila
~3.dilan
~4.kyrie
~5.jack/sophie
~6.bryan
~7.michael
~8.john
~9.alina
~10.steph
::9 tHiNGS yOu'rE lOoKiNg FoRwArD tO::
*1.my license!!
*2.getting a car
*3.going to wis for the holidays
*4.going to spain with camila
*5.my 17th bday
*6.college
*7. spring break
*8.med school
*9.school being over
::8 tHiNGs YoU wEaR dAiLy::
~1.bra
~2.underwear
~3.pants possibly a skirt
~4.tank top or shirt
~5.my star sweatband
~6.earring
~7.my key necklace
~8. black eyeliner
::7 tHiNGs THAt AnNoY yOu::
*1.preps
*2.ghetto pimp ass people
*3.conceited bitches
*4.people who dont listen to me even when i dont say anything at all
*5.people who judge other ppl
*6.romantic people
*7.posers
::6 tHiNgS yOu ToUcH eVeRYdAy::
~1.my face
~2.my hair
~3.the keyboard
~4.door knob
~5.phone
~6.tv remote
::5 MoViEs YoU cOuLd WaTcH oVeR anD oVeR::
*1.the notebook
*2.remember the titans
*3.pearl harbor
*4.def, not spiderman
*5. armagedeon (sp?)
::4 fAvOrItE cHiLdHoOd ToYs::
~1.my little pony
~2.care bears
~3.barbies
~4.legos
::3 pEoPlE yOu LaSt HuGgEd::
*1.bryan
*2.diego
*3.kyrie
::2 of my favorite role models::
~1.my mom
~2.nobodie else
1 pErSoN i CoUlD spENd THe ReSt Of wItH
*1. hmm i mite have an idea, but yeah...not sure.
wow now, wasnt that fun?
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2004 8 August :: 12.11am
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: guess. she will be loved duhh!!
its so hard to say goodbye...
wow im beat. jus got home from anba's 16th birthday party. it was fun. it was a dance party like kia's. dilan, kyrie, jack, shreya, bryan, onan, diego, brad, leah, debra, amanda, melissa, kia, and stehpanie. sum scary black guys who were dj-ing were there. one i swear to god looked jus like LUDACRIS. lol. omg and one of them (the scariest looking one i mite add) asked jack to dance and she said no cuz she didnt kno how, then he came up behind dilan and started dancing with her and she got away and then he came up behind ME and i was like wtf dont touch me but he wuldnt leave. finally i got away after bryan made fun of me. ahhh. damn black ppl. grrrr. anyways it was lots of fun. onan gave a speech for anna and he started crying. it was sooo cute. awww. lol. but yeah it was great to see all my friends from OH. and they all are staying there too. oh poo.
dear god im going to miss them.
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2004 7 August :: 12.17am
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: she will be loved of course!
i've had you so many times, but somehow i want more...
daddy and kim opened a new office and they are doing very well so soon money wont be so tight around here and this is whats gunna happen (yay):
--gunna go up to wis. during xmas break!!! yay! SNOW!!!
--gunna get to go to wis every year at least once (so summer too)
--mayb ill get to go with camila to spain or uruguay. that wuld be kick ass awesome!
--gunna get me a car before senior year! ahhh! w00t w00t!!
--and we'll move.
^^dont kno if the last one is so great but the rest are! yay! go daddy!
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2004 7 August :: 12.07am
:: Mood: giggly
:: Music: Jack and Diane by: John Mellencamp
.rock on...
My Trip:
(well a jist of it. too much to write)
-these are jus sum of the highlights of my trip instead of bothering u all with the boring details.
--got there and was bout to murder sara (so was everyone else)
--bonded with michael while playing bball
--had a carpool party
-- ^ wasnt much fun
--went to hills for 5 days.
--went bowling with scott, hill, mike and our moms. haha
--i had dinner with the "beverly hillbillies" LOL
--my favorite color is polka dot
--got pulled over by the cops at 2 am after eating at dennys
--went shopping at mayfair!!
--went to hillarys cottage in hancock witha population of 463 people lol
--hillarys grandma hit her head and had to be taken to the emergency room while we sat at home eating oreos and whipped cream
--talked to 28 year old men in chatrooms with the sn reddi_whip and found out sum things we didnt need to kno....eww
--slept over michaels and watched cheaper by the dozen and legally blonde and stuff...
--saw ted (ew) and al and jim (gay guys)
--car broke down on the way to dinner with aunt carol and ppls
--went mini golfing with my family and michaels family
-- ^ i won! w00t w00t!
--then i left milwaukee to go to peshtigo *tear*
--went to grandmas lil town of 3,537 ppl.
--did like nothing.
--saw deer cross the road. pretty cool
--ooooo! and saw bats!!
--saw little steve (my big bro) his wife and kids
--went out to dinner lots.
--went fishing...haha me fishin? yeah i kno funny isnt it?
--i drove and SUV for the first time
--went to the "mall" which consists of a walmart, jc penneys, dollar store, a book store, foot locker, claries and sum other random shoe store. wow. what a selection!
--went out to dinner with kim....COMPLETE DISASTER.
-- ^ hes a fag. he thinks hes funny. he told the waitress that i was a lesbian and wanted to go out with her. wtf?!?!
--ooo i bought clothes at kohls. w00t w00t! i <3 that place
--little steve kept picking on me by telling me i had a spider on me and by picking up this HUGE ASS DADDY LONG LEGS and trying to actually put it on me! i locked him outside. lol
--i tried to be "one of the guys" but it didnt work. grrness. im always gunna be the stupid girl.
--meghan gave me her flower bracelet. i <3 u!
--left for home after stopping in green bay and saying by to my big bro <33
--drove 4 1/2 hrs to airport in chicago
--sat on airplane for 3 hrs
--got home at 11:45 pm
and yes. thats basically my trip. it twas fun. i learned sum new things bout old friends and what not.
oh yeah, and michael is convinced that im AVRIL and that hill is HILARY DUFF. erghh. lol
omg i had a bazillion ppl ask me why i had a key around my neck (cuz its on my necklace cuz i like it and its different) and i was about to strangle the next person who asked me. random ppl at stores and such wuld ask me. god people. fuck off!!
but overall, trip = fun times
<33-janelle
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2004 6 August :: 11.59pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: youre the only one by:maria mena
i guess theres jus a part of me that likes to bring you down...
today was fun. woke up did stuff. got ready. went ovr to alinas. then steph was so hungry that she was about to eat my elbow so we took her to wendys and she ate. we saw iain and cate there too. ehh. then we decided to go to the new park instead of going home. there rilly wasnt anyone there. so we pee-d and then ran around the hockey rink and sung like losers. ha we were climbing on the hockey goals. fun stuff. then we went to play on the soccer nets and we fell and got stuck so we jus laid in the nets for a while. then sum guys liked alina. ha but her name was jessica. lol! then xtina piked us up and we went home. later at nite me and steph went to the park and saw a dude that had hair like a girl and then we tried to play manhunt with iain and cate but it didnt work out. damn and tonite was the last summer block party too. grrrrness. then went home around 10:30 and then went with daddy to get pepsi and cigarettes. i drove home. in the dark. twas funness.
<33-janelle
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2004 5 August :: 11.20pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: she will be loved by maroon 5
i kno that goodbye means nothing at all...
ok ive stayed quiet about this for long enuff. i haveta say sumthin and i dont care who the hell it offends and what u people think. so fuck off.
*ive been home from vacation for less then 48 hours and i feel that my friends have all deserted me. (well sum of the skaters and well, camila). who the hell tells one of their best friends that "it was lots of fun without u, no offense". wtf. how rude is that? and they all "bonded" and shit, and yeah i knew that they'd all hang out and i have nooooo problem whatsoever bout it, but the thing is i dont care to kno all about it. cuz i was pissed enuff that i had to leave for 2 weeks and yeah. i feel like everyones all buddy-buddy with each other and thats theres no room for me anymore. people have been all secretive around me and [sumone]-who will remain nameless cuz i dont feel like arguing with him cuz he thinks he knows fucking everything-keeps trying to get me to leave situations and like when plans for things come up, im never in them. well until sumone rememebrs ha. its jus gay. [i dont mean for this to be a total bashing at my friend or for this to start a fight i jus think it needs to be said]- one of my best friends, no offense, tries rilly hard to fit in. even if it means consenting to doing "things" that she wuldnt normally do jus so they dont make fun of her for chickening out or being scared. this is start to show as her being "easy". not good. also, no offense, but after listening to that phone converstation last nite, shes a hypocrite. she gets extremely upset when people talk bout her behind her back and when shes not allowed on the phone with certain people. when in turn, she does that same thing to me. hmmm.... jus thought u shuld kno how i felt. dont be mad, im jus trying to get my point across since i feel like u never rilly listen to me when i talk to u.
i dont give a shit if anyone thinks im being dramatic or whatever cuz you dont kno how this all feels and yeah. so fuck all you mother fuckers.
-later-
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2004 5 August :: 1.26am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: who cares
haha fuck u scott!
Auto response from almostsk8rpunk:
sprinklecheese32 (1:05:14 AM): we only watch porn on the tv silly
thanks for telling our porn secret to everyone!! LoL
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2004 4 August :: 9.35pm
:: Mood: icky
:: Music: my happy ending
all this time you were pretending...
im bak from my vacation in case anyone cares.
ill update bout the trip later.
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2004 27 July :: 9.47pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: joss stone - the chokin' kind
sometimes some things make you unsure about whether the little things tell everything or don't really tell anything at all ... and sometimes you just don't know which way you'd prefer it to be . lo mas dificil es estar peleando para quedarte donde estas y estar feliz con lo que ya tienes pero la gente que tienes te manda mas y mas lejos con cada dia y al mismo tiempo tienes el otro lado jalandote con toda fuerzo y mil llamadas pa' ya. y para que pelear si aya es mejor en todos los sentidos ? cuando estoy aqui me quiero irme y cuando estoy aya no quiero ni pensar en lo que me esta esperando aqui . las razones se quitan una por una y todas las aciones de ellos despruevan todo lo que estoy usando para convencerme que aqui hay algo con que quedarme ... por mi , lo tengo todo decidido , pero por ellos no ... pero al fin , por quien es que voy a vivir mi vida ?
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2004 19 July :: 8.43pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: she will be loved....again lol
i drove for miles and miles and wound up at your door....
ahhh! im gunna miss u all sooo much!! i <3 u all!! especially camila, alina, steph, scott, gustavo, xtina, dylan, tyler, alana and everyone else i see on a daily basis.
x0x0. see u guys in 2 weeks!!!
wow. im a loser. o well. :D
BYE YA'LL !!!
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2004 19 July :: 8.33pm
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: she will be loved ...of course
ok i lied...
this is one more entry before i go on vacation.
today was funness. i woke up at friggin 5:45 am!! i had to babysit tyler at 6. babysat till bout 7:45 then left. got paid 16 bucks tho. :D
then came home, showered, packed and got ready. then walked up to wendys with alina and steph and leah and met gustavo on the way.
then we went bak to camilas and he hung with tyler for a while. then it rained. so me and gustavo danced like dorks in the rain. then scott came over. we hung with tyler for a while...ugh! then we ditched him. hung at camilas for awhile then went to scotts house. we were walking and eating gummy bears and spitting them at each other. it had rained alot and there were PUDDLES! so i jumped in them. then i got ppl wet and eventually we were all soaking wet cuz dumass ryan brought out the hose. so we decided to jump in the pool. twas fun. almost drown like a thousand times. lol. then we went bak to camilas, got gustavo cell and ....*tear* said our goodbyes. so sad so sad. haha.
errrgh. gotta wake p early. see ya soon! <3 xo
<33-janelle
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2004 19 July :: 9.15am
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: she will be loved
look for the girl with the b r o k e n smile...
well this is my last journal entry for 2 weeks. tomorrow i leave at 5 in the friggin morning to go to WISCONSIN. w00t w00t! im excited. but i dont wanna leave either. im gunna miss u guys!! <33 id call ya'll or w.e but i cant. so i guess jus leave me comments and tell me how much u miss me....(u kno ur going to :P ) anyways,,,, ill update u on my trip when i get bak! <33
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