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2004 29 November :: 9.18pm
:: Music: green day
i walk a lonely road
"Boulevard Of Broken Dreams"
I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh-Ah
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone
Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everythings all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh-Ah
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah I walk alone, I walk a...
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone!
<33
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2004 28 November :: 1.02pm
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: nobodys home by: avril
i couldn't help her, i just watched her make the same mistakes again...
gah im so tired. i did most of my hw, half-assed tho. god im doing so horrible this quarter. im so busy the next couple of weeks ill be lucky if im alive for christmas..im bored tho and continuing to procrastinate. i HAVE to read the sound and the fury today. i jus cant get into the mood. :/ anyways, suzi and carlos are coming over for thanksgiving dinner today hahaha. yeah. i know its weird. its also my grandma's birthday today. so yeah. but i must go read now...gahhh.
-later lovers-
<33-janelle
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2004 28 November :: 11.02am
changed journal layout. i like it. i swear i am unhealthily obsessed with him. haha i had a dream about him last night, that i had to win this race thing in order for my cousin to give me her blanket that had ryans face on it. ooh yeah, and i pierced his nose. ahh. lol.
dont say it, i already know...
SHAME!!!
<33 14 daysss!! <33
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2004 27 November :: 10.28am
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: i dont want to be by gavin degraw
i dont wanna be anything other that what ive been trying to be lately...
yesterday me and camila took the bus to the mall. well we had to sprint to catch it. it was funny. got there met up with allison sam and seth. me and camila sat on santas lap. i dont really like him anymore. lol. then we met up with jaryd and his friend chris. then like we got split up so i took the bus home with jaryd and chris. then went to jaryds house and his mommy took us to the movies. we decided not to see a movie. so jus hung out with jaryd chris camila sam scott anthony ...i think thats it. we crossed the street and went to toys r us. people were being completely gay, but what else is new, so me and camila left and we ran into max. then me and her ran across the street and ate mcdonalds. then everyone followed us...grrr...and ooh yeah! saw alex(grandma fetish) at mcdonalds. we ate then hung out and camila left so i jus chilled with chris and sam. then went home. talked on the phone and went to sleep. so yeah yesterday was uber gayness. and im not really ddoing anything today so yeah. bye.
-later losers-
<33-janelle
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2004 26 November :: 11.11am
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: amore mancando <3
where would i be....
haha yesterday was...unique. went to bed really late and chris called and woke me up to tell me that ryan cabrera was gunna be in the macys thanksgiving day parade. thankss!!! <3. so i watched that then got ready and drove my family to suzi and carlos'. it was boring but whatvere. sum lady was talking to us about her life and drugs and shit. it was funnnnny. came home and chilled with sam and camila. then sam left and later i decided to sleep at camilas so i could see the miami airport since i had never seen it. so we went to sleep at like 12 and woke up at 3. drove an hour to miami and waited in customs for like 1 and a half hrs. it was funn. lol. came home at like 6 and fell asleep. now were getting ready to go to the mall. peace!
_laterrr_
<33-janelle
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2004 25 November :: 5.56pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: suzi and my mommy talking
blah blah blah...
okay. yesterday me and max talked for a long time and we decided to go back out. if anyone has a problem with this, all i have to say is, suck my dick.
=]
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2004 23 November :: 9.59pm
its funny-how u think someone is completely out of ur life and that theres no way u can become somewhat close to friends, when randomly they turn around and surprise you. i love that. yet, i know well enough to know that it wont last long...i hate that
i need a weekend to clear my head and my heart...
...gahhh. i did it again, or well, made it worse. whats wrong with me lately?? now im being uber hypocritical...
gosh i hate myself sumtimes. =/
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2004 23 November :: 8.20pm
"as we grow up, we learn that the one person that wasn't supposed to let us down...probably will. you will have your heart broken more than once and its harder every time. you'll break hearts so remember how it felt when yours was broken. you'll fight with your best friend. you'll blame a new love for things a old one did. you'll cry because time is passing so fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. so take to many pictures. laugh to much. love like you've never been hurt...because every 60 seconds you spend angry or upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back."
-<3-
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2004 23 November :: 3.35pm
:: Music: amore mancando <33
only you can touch my heart <3
today was blah.
-env: got seating chart now i dont sit next to hayley *tear* i sit next to allan. gah. lol
-psy: did basically nothing. talked to matt george and desiree about sex.
-lunch: didnt really do anything. saw the aerial view of piercing boy...::drools:: lol
-hist: watched a gory movie.
-chem: reviewed. wasnt too bad. test tomorrow.
-after school: talked to ppl then came home.
===im so busy this weekend!===
wednesday: school then hanging out with the olympic crew <333
thursday: TURKEY DAY!! going to suzi and carlos' for dinner...=/
friday: mite go to sum island thing with camila lol
saturday: ???actaully this day is free???
sunday: study for AP enviromental midterm
--but yeah. im in love....
hehehehe.
-only 18 days!!-
<33-janelle
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2004 22 November :: 7.37pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: amore mancando <33
you were my everything...
everythings so friggin complicated. like this month is emotional breakdown month. also try sumthin new month. everyone is doing diff things now:
nicole: smoking
camila: well i dunno lol
me and sam and brian: lying
me: ....well i dont wanna say cuz illget yelled at..
yeah i want it to stop but it doesnt seem to. everythings just getting progressively worse and im afraid "It" will happen again. gahhh.
- <3 -
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2004 22 November :: 6.57pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: wheres monday <33
i feel like everything things falling apart...
everything is gay. especially today. english was boooring. spanish took test did badd then read a story that i dont understand..blehh. lunch i was trying to study for my AP history test while having a mental/emotional breakdown cuz everyone was pissing me off. then saw PIERCING BOY. omg i havent seen that child in like a week. awwww <33 ahaha. im obsessed. took history test think i did alright.. algebra-got a 68 on my test i was sooo mad. gahh i hate that class. after school went to a pointless key club meeting then played hacky sack with martin, nick and damian and went home. chris called and told him i'd meet him at wendys so i walked with niki and nicole. ran into mike...ehh. then got there and max showed up and then seth and yeah it was gay. it truly was. came home ate dinner and now im talking to ppl cuz im bored and i have no hw. i think im gunna go clean my room. hahahahaha.
-later skater-
<3-janelle
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2004 21 November :: 3.17pm
como es que me puedes arrastrar por el suelo como si nada ? meterme el fucking cuchillo y sacarmelo y decirme , deberiamos seguir saliendo . FUCK YOU . yo te di todo lo que tenia . tu me metiste en la cabeza que tu no eras asi como los otros y yo te crei todas las fucking palabras de mierda y ahora te burlas en mi cara y me enseñas de muy mal forma que nunca , nunca , nunca deberia confiar tanto en otra persona . ojala que sigas buscando esa persona que me dijiste que habias encontrado en mi . ojala que la fucking encuentres man y aprendas que nadie mas en este mundo va a ser como fui yo contigo . no voy a estar esperando tu carro en mi casa y no voy a seguir chequiando si es el tuyo cada vez que oigo uno pasar . voy a borrar tus fucking correos y todas las fotos y quemar estas flores y este muñequito que se parece tanto a ti pero voy a lleverme este recuerdo para nunca mas acceptar a nadia como te accepte a ti . "ok" ? ya ? con eso estas satisfecho , no ? con decirme que me vas a destruir la vida y que no tenias la primera intencion de llamarme ? bueno entonces fuck you . nos vemos en una fiesta y ojala que estes con otra que baila mejor que yo y te entiende mejor que yo y te quiera mas que yo pero no lo creo posible . y bueno , que aprendas que tus palabras tienen sentido y si vas a salir con alguien con menos experienca que tu , estas responsable por las emociones de esa persona . no abuses . fuck you .
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2004 21 November :: 9.36am
:: Mood: shocked
:: Music: ohio is for lovers by: HH
my final breath is gone...
omggg. last yesterday was ummm....yeah indescribable. battle of the bands was okay. people were being gay. i saw dan berghman. lol. johnny nonni came. um yeah. justin and the fondue crew i thought were realllllly good. but they didnt win *tear*. they had the most people watching/cheering for them tho! we all ended up talking to the realllllllllly hot guy from the 2nd band (wheres monday) and wow. lol. hes like orgasmic hahahaha. then after it was over....the nightmare started.....
brian was taking us home instead of my mom or sams mom but me and sam both lied to our parents. but anyways we drove to the beach for a few minutes and then we took A1A cuz we didnt think the road went thru on palmetto and we decided to make a U-turn and go back and this fucking motorcycle comes outta nowhere and next thing u know you hear a crash and the guy is on the hood of the car. it was the scariest fukcing thing ever. me and sam were sooo afraid that we were gunna be in trouble but we didnt. thank god for mr. gonzalez and camila. <3333333. they came and piked us up. but i feel so00o0o0o0o0o0oo bad for brian. cuz hes the only one who got in trouble and it wasnt just his fault. and now hes grounded until like forever. ahh me and sam feel horrible.ifi wuldnt have insisted on going to the beach, it never wulda happened. gahhhh. then when i got home i decided to sleep over camilas to calm down since i was like hysterically crying. called chris and ppl. then yeah. but i feel soooo bad. i love u brian!! sorry. <3
-i am NEVER lying again!-
<3-janelle
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2004 21 November :: 6.11am
there's nothing left that can go wrong .
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2004 20 November :: 10.23am
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: ohio is for lovers
spare me jus three last words, i love you is all she heard...
OMMG!! me, sam, and camila are going to JINGLEBALL and guess whos gunna be there....
RYAN CABRERA!!!!!!
ahhhh im so excited im gunna like pee my pants. lol
<333
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