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:: 2004 6 August :: 12.40am
:: Music: Sealab 2021

Stinky
Ohhhhh crap

Oh crap Oh crap Oh crap Oh crap Oh crap Oh crap

Oh crap on a crap cracker

Safe!

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:: 2004 5 August :: 11.59pm
:: Mood: Depressed, annoyed, nervous, paranoid.. hopeful.
:: Music: TV

These things fuel my depression..
What would we be doing if we were alone in my room right now?

Post this in your journal to see what people want to do with you

Be truthful if you love me.

I haven't posted in a while, as you can draw from the last post's date.. I got home a few days ago from my crazy July trip, and I had fun.

We went through Canada, first, stopped in New York, drove to New Hampshire, saw some stuff, went back to New York, saw Niagara, went back through Canada to Michigan, met up with Grandpa, and here I am.

Yeah.. There's not much I can explain.. It screwed, 'cause most of the time we were outside. But I love spending time with my cousins and aunt and uncle. They were so accomodating to me, and there's really no way I could thank them.

Unfortunately, being outside so much made me much, much more paranoid. So much so, I couldn't even go out with out rushing, walking quickly, covering my ears.. And I'm paranoid here, the things have gotten to my head. Any minute buzzing noise it magnified greatly into my ears.

I hate it..

I can't help but almost feel I should make some short of bubble.. for when I go outside.. Some sort of security blanket..

This just shows you, my loved people, how weak minded and afraid I really am.

Thinking of my paranoia of bees fuels my depression.

I saw a commercial about vaccinations, and this got me thinking about doctors and needles and the smell of the cleaning sollution they dab on your arm..

Which made me extremely nervous, because I need some shots still..

Thinking of needles fuels my depression.

Do you see how weak minded I am? I can't even stand marching band. I had one day, just ONE day of marching band practice and automatically hated it. I can't put up with it.. It's just..

Augh.

I can't explain it.

My weakness fuels my depression.

Do you see? Do you see how stupid I am? I'm not trying to throw a fucking pity party for myself, but apparentally it's something I can't help.

On a lighter note, I can't wait to see all my friend. I love them so much.

They keep me going through all my fears, doubts, worries, and weaknesses..

And I could never, ever thank each and every one of them enough.

Thank you, each and every one of you, even if I haven't met you before, for pulling me through..

I love you all.

I promise.

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lovedlessthanmost

:: 2004 22 July :: 8.15pm

friends only.

comment to be added, plz.
if I don't like what you're doing, i'll un-friend you.

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:: 2004 22 July :: 11.46am
:: Mood: Excited
:: Music: Washer House Rock

ONE WEEK
Welp, I'm leaving today. I'm leaving to travel with Uncle Joe and Posse for a week, to many different places. Anyways, I'll tell you about yesterday.

:: Wednesday, July 21 ::

Got up, got dressed, and my heart went WHEEEEE 'cause it decided to rain. Thank goodness. I love rain up herr. I talked a bit to some people and then the boys went out to shoot off a rocket, then it started raining, so I went whee.

I scanned in three of my drawings, which can be seen Here

I don't think that'll work.. but try it T.T;;

Yeah, so..

Then we went to the movies, which was cool. We watched King Arthur, which was highly attractive to me. Jess was just spazzing out, but that's okay, 'cause she loves me.

After the movie, we came home annnnd... er.. I don't remember.. we did stuff and went to sleep, which was hard 'cause it was extremely hot in our room.

:: Today ::

We're leaving in 10 minutes T.T; To places unknown to me, but known to those who I ride with.

I was asked to a art school.. I feel special T.T;; Love love love love!

So yeah, I won't be able to talk to you for a week, and then I'll be on my way home *-* SO I'LL SEE YOU IN A WEEK!!!!!! 0.0

ONE MO' WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK!!!

Thank the bloody lords of everything, anything and home-baked potato bread! T.T

HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOME!

Can you tell I'm happy >.>;;

Anyways, I better jet. See you in A WEEK!!!!

Luvvles

"Uncle Joe.. Son of my grandparents.. Father of cousins three.. I think I shall partake in this perilous journey you call.. VACATION!"

Edit: "FEMININE VIBRATORS"

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:: 2004 20 July :: 10.37pm
:: Mood: Contented, amused, WHEE!
:: Music: None

Shopping Chic
Today was pretty cool ^-^ Much better than yesterday. Barely any bees and I got asked if I had any ciggarettes. WHEE! xD

So yeah, got up around nine 'cause I could barely sleep the night before. Ate some breakfast, had a shower, even put on make up ^-^ Eye stuff. I look good with eyeline *-* I really need to niz meh 'stache. And yes, if you didn't know, I have a moustache. DEAL WIT IT! >.<

Em: I'm not telling, you have to figue it out
Jade: figure
Em: Shut up
Jade: No way, I can't do that shit often.
Em: xD

Yeap, soo, I put make up on David, talked to my mommy, made a new sketch, and then we went to lunch at Pearl's.

Pearl's was attractive to me, and I got a few pictures. The food was good, and the atmosphere was well done. If you're even in Grand Rapids, go to Pearl's! ^-^

Yeap, then we went window-shopping and antique-browsing, it was pretty fun. After that, Gram dropped Jess, Dee, J, and I at the mall. Sexy sexy!

So's we get to the arcade, savvy? And bloody majiggers! THEY HAD DDR! So of course, I had to get a fix ^-^

Christopher (not Jade's spazzy ex): You're like a sexy cute doll
Em: Like.. A blow up doll?

Jess and I DDRed, then we disappeared to other places.

In Hot Topic, Jess got her Foamy shirt, which was killer.

We went to some other stores..

In K.B. Toys, some one set up a dog and a bear, going at it doggy style xD We pressed a bunch of buttons, set a rack of frogs jiggling, ran from it screaming "FROG ORGY!" Then we played catch with a squishy ball.

We disappeared to Simons, and I learnt they sell FEMININE VIBRATORS there. o.o; Thought I should be spicy and add bold text ^-^

Em: It actually mighta been enjoyable.. if it wasn't a 3 year old girl x.x;
Keith: Well hey, if you ever need to find out if it woulda been, just give me a ring

We went back to Hot Topic, and I got the sexye Slytherin shirt, because I am attractive like that.

We went back to the gaming place to get some more DDR, but J had to go to the bathroom. So I took him, and waited. He comes out a few minutes later, he coming out of the girl's bathroom lane, yanno?

And I was like "J.. were you just in the girls' bathroom?"

He looked back and was like "..."

Of course, I laughed, and he threatened my life if I told anyone.

Oops, it slipped.

Fancy that ^.~

Anyways, we went back to the gaming area and snagged some sexye DDR. It was crazy, some boys asked Dee, Jess, and I if we had any ciggarettes. Too bad I didn't get any bubble gum ones, I coulda offered some of them. ^-^

Anyways, we went home, and I hopped on the computer for a smidge. FINALLY talked to Jadie and Keith, whom I've missed like a pants! I've talked to Jenn a bit this week, the lovey.

Meh.. I think I'mma end this post.

Lovely filling you in ^-^

BAI! ~luvvles luvvles luvvles~

~singing 'I didn't mean to pop yer cherry, gurlllll..'~ >.>!

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:: 2004 19 July :: 2.27pm
:: Mood: Distressed, drained, strained, pained, scared, bla
:: Music: Buzzing.. neeeeeh

The Great Chase
Meh... Still trying to cool off from what happened. Lemme explain it in EM-O-VISION! .. And it's not pretty.

Okay, so Jess, Dee, and I ride our bikes, right? We ride to Faye's, say hi, look around, and are on our way. The ride through the gravel path was fine, but when we get out of that, onto the paved stuff, I knew from the start something bad was ganna happen.

We rode into the thing acrost the street and swerved about. I felt something on the back of my head, in-between my pigtails, so I scratch at it. We rode a bit more, and I get another itch, so I scratch at it!

It itches again, so I put my fingers around it and pull, and GUESS WHAT THE HELL IT WAS!!!!!

If you guessed something other than bee, you are stupid.

I high-tailed it right out of there!

There're a lot of hills, and the pedals of my bike would pretty much pedal themselves. I'd try to go faster, but my foot slipped off! It got caught between the road and the pedal. It scraped up my heel, but I didn't find that 'til I got home.

The fucking thing was still chasing me, and by this time, I'm hyper-ventilating on a fucking bike. I'm still going, and the wasp circled me, so I tried to go even faster.

I almost toppled off my bike head first!

I didn't see the thing, later learning I was about a meter or 2 away x.X;;

So I turned around, trying to pedal EVEN FASTER!

Still going!

I was sobbing, screaming out I wasn't going to live, 'cause my heart was spasming, and I was gasping for breath.

I got closer and closer, growing weaker and weaker, and finally, FINALLY, I get home.

I dropped the bike, ran as fast as I could, which wasn't fast at all, took a few more steps, and collapsed.

I was sobbing on the floor, twitching and shaking, too weak to even sit up. My gramma came and cottled me a bit, my two cousins sitting, watching.

My hands are still shaking, and I still feel things in my hair, I hate it.

My ankle's kinda scratched up, and I only have one sock on, and my heart hurts.

I wanna go home. I wanna hide in my room. I wanna see my mom. I'm gonna fucking cry again! Maybe I should go be alone for a while, to stop twitching.

Well, there's my excitement, other than I hacked my hair off. If you want a chunk of Emily's lovely locks, leave a comment with your address. There's only one, so hurry! Also includes: A magnificent Ziploc(C)(TM)(C)(C)(TM) Bag(TM)(TM)(TM)(C)!!

Luvvles T.T;;

"You're cute, but not THAT cute"

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:: 2004 18 July :: 11.03am
:: Mood: Ehhh
:: Music: Voices

Not much
-- I.. -

- I am: one
-- I think: that this world is crazier than mine
- I know: that pants can talk
-- I have: long fingernails
- I wish: I was home
-- I hate: those who think they're better
- I miss: my posse
-- I fear: the dark
- I feel: empty
-- I hear: voices and keys
- I wonder: about many things
-- I regret: hurting.. someone
- I love: him
-- I care: too much for my own good
- I am not: who I was and will be
-- I cry: when I admit it'll never be the same
- I do not: like wet hair
-- I never: wish I left home
- I confuse: just about everyone

Blah, still in Michigan.. I wish we had gone home. I didn't want to miss Kimmie's Baby Shower T.T And I didn't want to miss so much UTurn, or the posser, or being close.

I want to see Laura, and Jade, and Jenn, and Keith, and Erik.. and Mom and Dad.. And Shmoe-shmoe! T.T;;;;;;;

I miss my bloody cat, and she doesn't fancy me too much.. god, it's gonna be Hell when I get home. There's the marching-preparel camp the week before school.. which is going to be grody Hell in bee-topia. o.0;

I'll be a late starter to THAT, even! Bloody! >.<;; I might have to sign up again with UTurn, 'cause they're crazy and stuff.. fudgle pants!

Yesterday... my other little cousins got here, and everyone, except Nick and I, went to church. It was loooovely 'sitting for Nick..

Other than I was bloody fondled by a 3-year old girl.

<.<;;;;;;;;;;;

And I noticed something..

Family gatherings is the only time you can legally see nude children o.0;;

>.>;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;

That was an odd statement, right?

Yeah.

Anyways, I'mma shut up now.. my shirt's wet from my hair.

Luvvles

Kathy: .. and boys can't be princesses.
Em: Sure they can!

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:: 2004 17 July :: 11.08am
:: Mood: Happeh? ^-^;
:: Music: The sounds of the Washing Machine -- Gramma's House Rock

My Week of Stuff
HEY! Guess what? I'm aliiiiive! xD Yeah, I got to Gramma Em's last night and they have a rather steady, cock-sure connection.

If you know what I mean.

Anywayssss.. Where was I? Umn.. Today's Saturday.. we left on.. Monday. So I'll go back to Monday.

:: Monday, July 12 ::

All was well, and we got up. We packed slowly to leave, and finally, we did. The car ride was good, though I kept thinking I'd get squashed by all the stuff in the back next to me.

We stopped short in town to get some ice cream, which was GEWD! And then our journey continued, through the woods, to grandmother's house we go.

So's we get there, and there's a quick spurt of rain. We're chased into our house by the weather, and a little dog named Skeeter. Skeeter belonged to the neighbours, whom we leaving the next day, to my despair.

They'd been there a couple of weeks, and had a 14 year old daughter whom was bored as pants! Blargh, oh well. So we cart all our stuff inside and went to our respective places. Gram and Gramp got their usual room, the boys got upstairs, and I got the room across from gram and gramp, which has the hand-made bunk bed.

It's pretty cool, but it was kinda creepin', 'cause the one on top was slanting downwards, yanno?

I got ahold of the piano, and tapped away at it. It's old, and out of tune. The keys stick, and make my fingers hurt at times, but that's okay, 'cause I'm not too shabby at that old piano.

What'd I do all day.. er.. I can hardly remember.. I have short-term memory loss from.. er... what was the cause again?

<.<;

Anyways, we were there all day, I think it was either cloudy or storming, but yeah. Mi grandma and I went out that night, went into town.

There was some crazy fog all over the place, man. There was this one patch, we didn't even see it coming, but when we got in the middle of it, we couldn't see ONE damn THING! And I'm not even kidding, you could NOT see through this stuff. We crept out slowly, 'cause we didn't want any crashes, but continud on our way.

We stopped at the movie rental store, picking out Secondhand Lions and Robin Hood: Men in Tights.

Robin Hood: Men in Tights is the best movie ever. They have the clean version on sometimes on ABC Family, but otherwise, you'll want the actual one, 'cause the clean version cuts quite a bit of the good stuff out.

So yeah, Secondhand Lions wasn't too shabby, but gram and gramp couldn't stay awake for it. We went asleep again, and I freaked out silently in the crazy quiet.

But yeah, so, we went to sleep, and let me tell you..

You are blind as a bat in that dark!

I couldn't tell if my eyes were open or not! It was so black, I thought I was staring at the back of my eyelids each time I blinked!

Not to mention how quiet it is, it's crazy quiet.. That type of quiet that makes people go insane, because the smallest sound is magnified by 1 million! I thought I heard some one standing in my door way, rasping away, but found it was my grampa's BREATHING acrost the hall!

AND IT WAS IN MY DOOR WAY! >.<

Gawd, that's just.. the bad quiet..

Anyways, let's move on.

:: Tuesday July 13 ::

By this time, I had found the "Teach Yourself Piano" book and was working dilligently. We had to go into town again, but that's not the point.

That movie rental place kinda screwed 'cause the movies had to be back by 8 pm the next day, but that gave Gram and I an excuse to run away for about half an hour. So I worked at the piano, rewound the tapes, and we were off.

We get the Floydean's (the movie place), return the movies, and hunt for new ones. This time, we picked out.. err.. Hallow's End, which SUCKED times SEVEN, annnd.. umn.. I don't remember, but it was better than Hollow's End.

You see, this movie actually had a great plot, and the scary stuff was rather real-looking, they just strayed from their path.

You see, it's about this frat who always holds a haunted house on Halloween, and their haunted houses are always the manical shiz. They even have a donater of decorations, named Pumpkin Jack. He's all cool and halloween-ee and what not, but this year he leaves a book of the Devil with the kids.

The one evil witchee chick gets ahold of it, puts a spell on the haunted house so everyone's turned into what they dressed up as, you know? Sounds cool, right? You know, they're all killing people and what not, see, that would be cool.

But closer to the beginning, they TOTALLY strayed from the path of the GOOD movie and made it a STUPID one by having all the teenies being SEX CRAZED LOONIES! >.<

Though.. that's how teens really are, you didn't need to put it.

ANYWAYS, what REALLY killed the movie was the LESBIAN SEX SCENE! >.<;;;;;;;;; I was watching this with my LITTLE BROTHERS, and thank god Dave new to fast-forward. God..

>.<;;;

That pissed me off.

They'll be.. hearing from something.. or other.

Anyways, Gram and I went to the store, disreguarding the severe storm warning, and when we get out.. BOOM! CRASH! RAIN! >.>;;

But yeah, we ran to the car, got totally SOAKED anyways, but went home laughing.

We watched the movie that I can't name 'cause I don't remember, and went to sleep.

:: Wednesday July 14 ::

HA! Got pretty good at the piano, and stuff like that. I played Rum with my granparents, my little brothers being either outside, or with their gameboys. They're addicting, but not THAT much.

We talked to my mom a few times whilst at the cabin, but each time, reception was bad. Gram doesn't have a land line, so we were using her cellular device. Yeap, sooo..

We went to the movie store, this time, Dave came, well, everybody came, but only Dave, gram, and I went in. We returned and picked out Beverly Hills Ninja, and The Robin Hood Gang, then went to the Elk park.

It was pretty cool, this large encasement of elk, deer, lambs, and what not. After that, we stopped by Alpenfest, which was pretty splendiferous.

The boys bought their little gun-thingies, and I got a awesome bracelet. Too cool, was it. Well, it still is. I'm not wearing it at the moment, but I know where it is, and yeah, okay.

After that, we stopped by a restuarant, just barely getting in 'cause the flipped the sign right as we got out of the car. We did get in, fortunately, and the food was GOOD. I mean, GOOD. So good, we had to get some dessert! Which we didn't finish, but took home.

We went to pay, and learned they DIDN'T TAKE CREDIT CARDSSS! o.o;;;;;;;;

You can tell where this is going, right?

Too bad.

Grampa had to go out.. and.. GET HIS CHECK BOOK! AHHH! Which was in... THE CARRRR! WHAHHAHH!

<.<;;;;;;;

Yeah, soo, we payed, and went home. Watched Beverly Hills Ninja, giggled, went to bed.

:: Thursday July 15 ::

Got up, called dad, sang happy birthday. He didn't pick up, so we left it as a message. I'm sure it was just splendiferous ~rolls her eyes~

Blah. Anyways, we went in, watched The Robin Hood Gang. It was cute, about 2 boys and a bank robber, of course. The boys find the money, spend it on stuff, give the stuff to people, and end up giving the rest of the money to this one outrageously, almost evicted family so their daughter can have heart surgery.

The robber finds the boys, threatens their lives, gets his ass kicked, and there you go. So hum-bo to them.

I made choco-chip cookies, went crazy, and poked two holes in either side of the egg; blew the yolk out, made the cookies, painted the egg, and FWOOH!

Painted egg shell!

I left it at the cabin, so it could be all cool on the shelf.

The cookies were gone quickly, only because they were GOOD, and stuff like that....

We went to Floydean's and returned, then picked up The Fifth Element.

THAT, my friends, was a pretty good movie! I'm not all up and stuff for action, but that one was cool. You'd have to see it to get it, but Lelu was KICK ASS, MAN!

Yeap, so, after that, we got all packed up and went to sleep.

:: Friday July 16 ::

We left maybe around 1 to embark on the journey to Grammly's. We got there about 3, and Gram and Gramp hung out for a while, drank some coffee, and were on their way.

I slowly edged to the computer to get my fix (I'm like the crack-addict breaking out of rehab or something o.0;) and soon was enraveled in a Cowboy Bebop RP on Yahpp (What can I say? ^-^;)

But yeah, we had dinner, watched a movie, though I stole a shower whilst they movied. Thank god for showers. I hadn't had one since we'd left Gramma Sally's REAL house, so it was like.. what? 4? 5 days?

I didn't smell bad, I just felt kinda grody. Ew.

I caught the Middle-to-End of Sinbad, coming in on the Siren part. That part's awesome. I love the music.

After that, we went to bed. It took a while, but we finally fell asleep.

:: Today, the 17 ::

And HERE I AM! Whewwww! Donche love me?

Well, I think I'm gonna internet somewhere else. If you got Yahoo, IM me at miho_grand_evil, see ya!

Luvvles ^.~

"And why should the people listen to you?"
"Because, unlike other Robin Hoods, I can speak with an English accent."
"Oooh!"

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:: 2004 12 July :: 1.42pm
:: Mood: Contented ^-^
:: Music: Talking

Another update before I'm gonnnne! ^-^;;;
Howdy, all. Wellll, yanno, I last update Friday, so.. we'll talk about Saturday.

:: Saturday, July 10 ::

Didn't get up too early, and I had to awake quickly, for we were going to see a movie with my fair Uncle Rob. We learned there was going to be a child trade off between Rob and my g-parentals, so the boys and I formulated a plan to sneak out the back of the car so our little cousins wouldn't see us. 'Cause if they did, they'd start crying and be a handful for poor gramma and grandpa. So we snuck, and tucked, and ran, and waited at the 'plex for Rob. We got our tickets to Dodgeball, a jumbo popcorn, 4 sodas, and went on our way to the movie. We mised like.. the first 2 minutes, but it was nothing horrible.

So's we sat there for the duration, and had our laughs. Dodgeball in all was a pretty good movie.. But the ending could of been WAY better. I won't spoil it for you, but whoever companies produced it must be kind of loosing their 'good-ending touch'. Ah, well, what can you do?

After the movie, Rob drove us to Gramma's, in which we hung out for a while 'til the girls went home for a nap. These darling girls, I love them to death. The twins, who arrre... 2? Maybe 3, and their little sister, who's 1. They're just the most adorable little things, all you can do is love the dolls ^-^;

Moving on, the boys and grandpa left to go to their house an hour or so later.. annnd...Gramma was out at her jobly thing. So I was home alone for a goos 3 or 4 hours! In which I watched, well, listened to 3 different movies, becauuuuse.. I was back here at the computer, 'cause it let me be on AIM, thank gosh.

Then, the compu kicked me off (Sorry to you if you were talking to me and I wasn't answering! It probably said I was still online, but I really wasn't, and I loooove you! T.T)

They came back, watched another movie, and off to bed.

:: Sunday, July 11 ::

Haa, another fiiiiine day, or whatever. The g-parentals were off at church, sooo.. I kinda just hung out around here in my po-jamas. Nothing really happened. We made spaghetti fixings and skittered off to Rob's for our little girls. Spaghetti was good..

Blah, I've eaten beef THREE times this trip! That's horrible! The first time it was a hamburger, 'cause aunt Kath didn't know I try to stay off beef.. the second... what was the second... err... a beef-n-bean burrito. Yeah. Oops. And then I had a meatball last night.. x.X;;;;;; I'm so bad. I'm sorry cows of the dairy lannnnnd! T.T

We caught some fireflies (definately cool) and watched HP 1. I brushed out the little girlies' hairs and gave 'em ponytails, cuteness. Yeap, it were good. Then we went home and started a rip-roaring game of Monopoly! whilst watching Big Fat Liar. Another pretty good flic.. Then I went to bed around midnight. Started my last library book... Mannn, I'll be outta books soon. T.T

:: Monday, July 12 ::

Got up, finished packing, took a shower, got dressed ate a doughnut. There it is in short for you! I'm leaving today for the cabin, so I probably won't update 'til the end of this week, maybe the beginning of next week. No connection up there.. I think there's a phone. Hopefully.. I wanna talk to my mom still.. When's daddy's birthday again? Errr... Wednesday...? I'll have to ask her, 'cause I wanna call and have the boys and I sing happy birthday to him..

I'm not EXTREMELY happy.. I mean, I don't have steady net, I'm many hours and miles away from my friends, my family.. I couldn't be there in a snap if something happened.. I mean, I'm missing my dad's birthday! And the first two meetings of my 'band camp', which will prepare me for marching band...

Augh..

Did my grandpa just say shit?

XDD

Funny.

Welp, I'mma go! JJ's reading over my shoulder.

Luvvles ^-^;

"Well, I guess I'mma go out side if I'm not even gonna get any wine..."

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:: 2004 9 July :: 3.34pm
:: Mood: Happy ^-^
:: Music: Birds singing o.o;

I'm in Michigan!
You heard correctly, I, the great Emilina, am in Michigan, many miles and hours from my home. And let me tell you.

IT'S TOO FUCKING COLD TO BE SUMMER!

I swear! It's like.. 71 degrees inside the house, 80 outside, I'm sitting here in a sweater and slippers! Bloody hell! But anyways, it's been a while since I posted.

Let's do a MAJOR recap

:: Sunday, July 4 ::

Jade had slept over the night before, we had done a big camera shoot thing the night she slept over all outside and what not. We dropped her off around 10:30 at her house and I went back home to embark on the tiring journey of staying up all night so that I wouldn't have to wake up at 6 the next morning to start on the long car ride to Michigan.

:: Monday, July 5 ::

Yeap, everyone in my house (which is about 9 people) were up (except for G) and buzzing. We were tired, but pretty ready to go.. We said our good byes, and as we started out of Woodfield (my little brothers, my Galea granparents, and I) I promise you, I cried into my special pillow. I missed my parents already..

When we stopped at Cracker Barrel, I wandered in with my lovely cow slippers, "Parenting Matters" t-shirt, and blue-and-green plaid boxers. That's Emily for you, high-fashion where ever she may be. I had fried shrimp for brunch (s'good) and we were on our way again.

Though in the Cracker Barrel shop, we found a mini-accordian (XDDD) and I SWEAR if I had money, I'd buy that thing! It was AWESOME! XDDD

So yeah, I got the back seat this time. Good for sleeping, ya. I read a magazine, an ENTIRE library book, drew 3 or 4 pictures and fell asleep upside down. And that's not even metaphorical. The pillow was on the floor, my head was INSIDE the pillow, and my feet were up on the window. It was pretty funny when I thought about it.

So yeah, we got to our hotel in.. umn.. Virginia, I think. So we set up camp and went out to dinner. The food was AWESOME! Super good Itallian, but it took FOREVER to get there. But the taste was good ^-^

We went back to the hotel room, took our showers, I colored some pictures, and we went to sleep.

:: Tuesday, July 6 ::

Blah, another day in the car. It wasn't too bad, none of the car trip was. David almost threw up 'cause he didn't eat much of a breakfast, but none of us were phased. Excpet for the few minutes J and I held our hands over our ears, waiting to hear David gag, cough, and something to hit and weigh down theplastic bag he had at the ready.

Nast times 7 o.0;

But what can you do?

When we got on our way again from the McDonald's we stopped at, I started a game on J's Harvest Moon thingie for GBA. You pretty much own a farm... and... you do stuff.. and earn money, and J is so estatic about buying his cows. But yeah, besides the point, that was. I started another book in that car ride, but I haven't finished it.

We got to Aunt Kathy's and the boys disappeared in a snap. I stayed around in the kitchen. coloring and what not, finding that the pen half of my eraser actually works on pen smears. Awesome. We ate dinner, found Alex would be on with us on the short car ride to grandparent King's the next day and we watched a movie.

It was pretty amusing, based on 8th graders (oh how I could relate) and the two boys both like the girl, but that was just part of the thickening plot 'cause the girl had to tell both of them that she liked them so they'd help her.. and stuff.. So yeah.

In the end, she had to choose, but she didn't.

Though I still think the one kid was pretty hot..

<.<; Odd. Why didn't she pick him?

Anyways, we went to bed. I got Nikola's room, but couldn't fall asleep right away because she has a few of those like.. child-height dolls.. and.. yeah, I was freakin' out. Though I finally got to sleep.

:: Wednesday, July 7 ::

We got up around 10 and hustled into the car.. This is one of those many times I notice my little cousins don't like me as much as David. Because he was at LEAST said good bye to.. ._.;;

I am so unloved.

The car ride was about a half an hour long, though I barely noticed. I felt pretty gross. When we got to the Granparents' house, we pretty much disappeared. David yammered on about wanting to see the girls and what not.

God, that boy needs some type of sedative we can administer without him knowing..

<.<;

Like a chill-button.

But yeah, the little girls came over. A pair of identical twins and their little sister. All girls. Plenty of fun. Atleast this time, we were each equally loved T.T Yeah, sooo... They went home.

Emily went outside! Yeeey! The boys and I did so in the front yard, went in to eat, then skittered over to the park that isn't too far away.

Plenty of fun..

Then we went home, watched "The Black Knight" and went to bed.

I slept upstairs, JJ appearing not too long after to sleep up there, too o.0;; He must think I'm a mothering figure or something, but whatever.

:: Thursday, July 8 ::

We got up around 10 or something, got dressed, and Grampa took us over to Aunt Kelly to see the little'uns. Gawds, they're cuties ^-^ But you gotta watch out for the smallest one, she'll bowl you right over!

But yeah, we stayed there pretty much all day and learned that on Saturday, we're going to the movies. Whoopa!

On the way home, we picked up some rentals, two horror movies, two family ones, though me and the boys are really the only ones who watched them through. Grandma attempted on "Cop and a 1/2", but she fell asleep. We then watched "Big Fat Liar". Tres amusant. Then we fell asleep, JJ sleeping upstairs with me again.

:: Friday, July 9 ::

Didn't get up too early, being awaken by dear Dave, who ordered that I get up or I didn't get to watch "Urban Legends: Final Cut" with them. Which I wanted to watch because I picked it out o.0;;; So I got up.

That's a super movie! After, we watched "Cop and a 1/2" again before we wandered off to do other things. I drew a couple more pictures and tinkered with some clay, and talked to my mommy, and helped assemble the birthday cake for the "party" we're throwing 'cause Gramma missed the boys' birthdays. Ha cha cha.

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And here I am. This entry took about.. an hour, I think. But I did recount on like.. a week, didn't I?

Who knows. o.o;

I'm kinda tired, and I miss Florida.. And everyone.. And my mommy.. And everyone.. And my good, fast, internet connection ._.;;

I have no hope. T.T;;;;;

Anyways, I better go. Don't want to be riding up Gramma's phone bill. I lub her, I do.

LUVVLES! *-* T.T x.x;; <.

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:: 2004 26 June :: 4.54pm

The Name Game -- Who you are and what you call me!
Emily:You could be almost anyone, I guess o.0; People knows me.. like that.

Em-chan: Any random anime freak, you could be. This is my con alias. ^-^;

Em: Again, you could be anyone, but that would be more of the acquantance side.. For those who barely know me don't usually call me Em.. except for Chris x.X;

Doodle bug: That'd be my mommy.. How sad, eh? I guess it's okay. It doesn't really nerve me.

Emz: Most likely Jade, though it could be any of the posse.. Yanno?

Welll, I gotta go do some stuff. BAI! ^-^;

~Em-chan

"Well, I think we should throw these at them.."

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:: 2004 26 June :: 3.29pm
:: Mood: Happy ^-^
:: Music: People talking

The past few days
Blah, sorry I haven't been updating. I have to type from Jadie's 'cause my internet's being a total bizazitch. LOVE!

::Thursday::

Got up, went to Jade's. Oh yeah, I'm cool. First I was ordered about by the Dragon Lady (my mother) whilst talking to Jade.. I kinda left the phone on the couch fooor... umn.... 15 minutes? Besides the point, Kimmie is the Scary Bubble! Feeeear! It's almost baby-time for Kimmie. In August, she's apposed to gets teh baby out. She'll be all like "AHHHH!" In pain, happiness, and annoyance from more crying in the house. ^-^;; What can you do?

So yeahs, I went to Jade's.. And we were left alone for a good hour.. Sooo, we arranged to go to Erik's! So whilst we were to be getting ready to go, we were still on this bit of a laptop here. And when Erik rang the door bell, we both screamed. xD

Yees, soooo.. We went to Erik's!

And it were fun! For the half an hour we got to stay -_-;;;; Po-leeeease.. So me mam picked us up annnd.. we went to Emily's house, me and Jade. And decided that the next day, we'd see Erik again and.. we'd have 'crap-loads of fun' that we had missed out upon this day of... Er.. Thursday.. Yeah.

:: Friday ::

So's, my mom wakes us up at what.. 11? And she tells us we gotta clean mi room.. Mi casa, or some Spinglish shits of that sorts.. So I picked up the pound or 5 of dirty clothing about my room and bathroom.. Annd.. now it's in a dirt laundry bin. o.0; Fermating. Or something. My tummy just spoke. o.0;;;;;;;

So yeah.. we calls Rik, and he don't answer. And we callsded liiiiike.. 50 times, or something. How ever many it was, it was a lot... >.>; And yeah. So we called. He didn't answer, so we waited for a while, "cleaned", annnnd then we finally got a hold of a very tired Rik.

I didn't keep him on long, I could tell he needed to wake up, so's he told me he had a dentist appointment and he'd call us after. So's we waited...

And waited...

And DDRed..

And waited...

And DOA-ed...

And waited...

And watched Tomb Raider : 1..

And waited, well, actually, he called during Tomb Raider, so there was no more waiting o.0;

We called him back, and he got dropped off.. And soooo.. then... uh... He came over... And we watched Tomb Raider 2! xD We's gewd. Whilst watching, my little brothers left home, thank god.

Then Erik, Jade, mi grammly and grandpa, my mom, dad, 4 buisiness associates, my uncle, and I, went to P.F. Chang's. IT ARE GEWD! We sat at the bar first, annnd... I found a pen, and drew a charicature of this guy who worked there who looked like a pirate..

I drew him as a pirate o.0; I think he thought I was loony.. Which I was, or something. So we got to sit down, and we were eating, and Erik kept getting my attention whilst I was shoveling Street Noodles into my mouth, so I'd look funny, and he'd laugh at me, which made me laugh and almost gag on my noodles...

After our rather fattening dinner, the three of us DEMOLISHED a Wall of Chocolate, which was like.. a 5-layer chocolate cake. I swear, it was gone in 2 minutes flat. Erik ate a rather hearty portion, and he doesn't even like chocolate. That's how good it was. ^-^;

Oooooh wellll.. What can you do?

So we dropped Erik off around Midnight, that's when we left, and we went home. I STILL can't get an answer out of my mom if I can go with Jenn.. is it going to be tomorrow already!? I think it is! >.<

:: Saturday ::

Jade and I woke up around 1. Yes, she slept over again. We watched part of Monty Python and the Holy Grail. It was pretty stupid, not even laughing material 'cause it was so old.. Though I did like the French guy ^-^;;;; Mannnn.. I really need to get my internet back up at home.

So we stopped the Holy Grail, ate left-overs from last night, and got quickly ready to go back to Jade's.. Annnd.. Here I am!

Jade's washing clothing and showering, which I didn't get to do x.X;;

I need to shower. ._.;;;;;

Yeeeah.. Sooo.. current events.

-Grammly's Boot camp :Status: Still on. x.X
-Marching Band practice :Status: Dates set, in my possession.

Blah, I think I have to go. If I do, I really need to call Jenn. I think her thing, her shindig thing, is tomorrow already, at that's killer, 'cause planning and shit.

Ack..

Luvvles

~Em-chan

"Your mother is a hampster, and you father smells of elderberries."

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:: 2004 23 June :: 8.53am
:: Mood: Sleepy
:: Music: Silence

My weird anime-style dream in 'Cowboy Bebop'
I met Faye and Ed from Cowboy Bebop at Borders, and was talking to Faye about the series Chobits.. o.0 and from there, they took me back to the bebop. I kind of forgot what we did there, we were just like.. hanging out..

And then I tripped over Faye to sit on the other side of her, and I look down, and we're on a space ship, at a dock, like, in the ocean. And I was like "I could of fallen just then.. I hate to think about falling into the ocean because I could get cut up by all the barnacles or something." Which is fairly true.. ~shivers~

Faye nodded, and some one else started up the ship to take me home, where ever that was. Some how I fell into the water, this was the weird part. I was swimming around the dock, which wasn't much swimming, but I was seeing TONS of fish. Like, a lot of big fish, pirahna loooking fish, huge schools of tiny fish, and the sea horses! They were like, faint outlines of actually running horses that kind faded at the butts, but then there were these swirly, mollusc-like tail on them.

Then.. there were the two circling pools of HUGE, GIGANTINORMOUS giant squid. I steered clear of one, but bumped into another. It was looking at me when I felt something sink into my toes. It was like a bracelet or something, I didn't look 'cause I was goggling at the squid. So I hear Ed say,"Ed has to remember where she put that shiny thing for when she comes back." When I heard that, I thought she threw it into the ocean on accident or something.

So here I am, in some anime world, in an ocean, face-to-face with this extremely large squid, when Faye comes soaring in to my 'rescue' by hacking off most of the tenticles of the poor red squid.

She tells me to swim, which I do, and I can see that the squid is trying to stab her through with some type of weapon.. It was like a spear or something, but a bigger blade. I some how have, like, a butcher knife now, which I stabbed into the squid a few times while frantically trying to swim, still grasping that bracelet thing with my toes.

Faye starts to swim after me, screaming,"The button!" and I'm thinking,"What button?" then she gets ahead and jumps up onto the Bebop. I can just hear that huge, angry, half-tentacled squid barrelling after me, so I squeeze my eyes shut, my ears ringing a bit with some loud noise, and everything disappears..

And I woke up.

And then I had to up date my journal while this adventure was still fresh in my mind. So here I am, half asleep, updating my journal about my crazy dream.. at.. 9 am?!

I'm going back to bed... >.<

Good... er... morning. Don't let the squids bite.

<3

~Em-chan

"Shiny, pokey object of Doom!"

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:: 2004 23 June :: 1.15am
:: Mood: Depressed
:: Music: TV

Onions, oreos, and it'll never be the same.
y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: ~huggles~

LanaLuck22: :-D

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: I miss you..

LanaLuck22: u2!

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: I miss everybody.. I
hurt! ~sob~

LanaLuck22: me tooo

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Today's been really.. errr..

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Hmn..

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Emotional

LanaLuck22: oh why soi?

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: I've been talking to Rik more, thank goodness, I miss that child, and I was talking to Keith.. and my heart seems to be just.. hollow.

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: I want to cry so bad, but I feel I have no reason.

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: And my heart hurts.. I don't want to be alone, but I don't want to see anyone.

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: I hate these feelings, Lon

LanaLuck22: um..what are you upset about?

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: I don't know! That's the whole thing!

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Maybe.. it's 'cause I
know it's not going to be the same..

LanaLuck22: Em...can I show you harsh love right now?

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Yes.

LanaLuck22: HIGH SCHOOOL. ITs going to be the best 4 years of your life ,your a bubbly person, with a beautiful smile, u draw people to you like moths to a flame, and your right, it wont be the same its going to be fucking 6 X better, so cheer up, and get on with your life

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: o.o

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: I love you

LanaLuck22: i love you 2, so much for my
tough love! lol

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: ^-^

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: It was gewd for me

LanaLuck22: :-D

LanaLuck22: sorry gtgt bed, Ill ttyl!

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Bai

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Love you

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Thanks

LanaLuck22: np, love you2, gnight!

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Night

Heh.. what can you do.. ~sighs a bit~

I've been scribbling 'I Hate Me' all over my journals and diaries.. And I love him..

I do..

Good night.

~Em-chan

"Break my heart before I do."

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:: 2004 21 June :: 8.49pm
:: Mood: A bit downed
:: Music: TV

What love may be..
Love is when you stay up all night because you're waiting for them to call to say goodnight.

Love is when you want to know every thing about them, good or bad.

Love is when every song on the radio is about them.

Love is when you see something funny you want them there with you so you can see them smile.

Love is when you save all the conversations you've ever had with them.

Love is when they are sad, you cry for them, their pain is your own.

Love is when you are far, far apart, yet they are still always on your mind.

Love is when they've found someone else, you smile, and say "I'm happy for you" and you mean it, even though you still want to cry.

First love is something you will never forget.

Luvvles

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