:(
I dont understand it. i like oliver..alot..but he doesnt believe me that im over micah...hes right..micah has treated me like shit an i dont need him. everyones right. i mean its as if he WANTS me to like him. i dont know what to do to convince him!:(
Livin' my life in a slow hell
Different girl every night
At the hotel
I ain't seen the sunshine in
Three damn days
Been fuelin' up on cocaine and whiskey
Wish I had a good girl to miss me
Lord I wonder if I'll ever
Change my ways

I put your picture away
Sat down and cried today
I can't look at you
While I'm lying next to her
I put your picture away
Sat down and cried today
I can't look at you
While I'm lying next to her

I called you last night in the hotel
Everyone knows
But they won't tell
But their half-hearted smiles
Tell me somethin' just ain't right
I've been waitin' on you for a long time
Fuelin' up on heartaches and cheap wine
I ain't heard from you in three damn nights

I put your picture away
I wonder where you've been
I can't look at you
While I'm lyin' next to him
I put your picture away
I wonder where you've been
I can't look at you
While I'm lyin' next to him

I saw you yesterday with an old friend
It was the same ol' same
How have you been
Since you've been gone my worlds been
Dark and gray
You reminded me of brighter days
I hoped you were coming home to stay
I was headed to church
I was off to drink you away
I thought about you for a long time
Can't seem to get you off my mind
I can't understand why we're living life this way
I found your picture today
I swear I'll change my ways
I just called to say I want you
To come back home
I found your picture today
I swear I'll change my ways
I just called to say I want you
To come back home
I just called to say I love you
Come back home

god damnit
i try soooo hard...it doesnt work. in interac, on the bus, in the hallways, even on the phone..but still he shrugs it away...i dont understand.i try to impress him, andto hold his hand, and to flirt with him but no. no..i guess im not good enough for him or something. even ask edena dn ada they witnessed me trying..but if hes going to playhard to get..i will play right back..no more misses nice sabrina..this is it.
I was staring at the sky just looking for a star to pray on or wish on or something like that I was having a sweet fix of a day dream of a boy whose reality i knew was a hopeless to be had.....

I went crazy today looking for a star

Woohu
Last night and friday night were greatttt. i slept over kats house and we went to stevens and matts. it was alot of fun. :)... we just hung out and watched movies. also dawn and sam where there. But i have a secret to share...i like matt. teehee. and kat likes steven..i think? lol. :) but i have no chance.o well.. :( well im off to the beach..woohu! later <3 sabby

DONT TAKE ANY!!!!!
just some rhetorical questions to put a smile on your face :)

If a tree falls in the woods, and lands on a mime, does anyone care?

How come you press harder on a remote control when you know the battery is dead?

If the funeral procession is at night, do folks drive with their lights off?

If Barbie is so popular, why do you have to buy her friends?

Why is there an expiration date on sour cream?

Why do airlines call flights nonstop? Won't they all stop eventually?

Why is it that when you transport something by car, it's called a shipment, but when you transport something by ship, it's called cargo?

If God sneezes...what should you say?

Why do they report power outages on TV?

If the plural of tooth is teeth, why isn't the plural of booth beeth?

If you have an open mind why don't your brains fall out?

If a jogger runs a the speed of sound can he still hear his walkman?

What is the speed of dark?

Why is it, whether you sit up or sit down, the result is the same?

If quitters never win, and winners never quit, who came up with, "Quit while you're ahead"?

Why doesn't superglue stick to its container?

If you play a blank tape at full volume and have a mime for a neighbor, will he complain?

If you spend your day doing nothing, how do you know when you're done?

If you have a friend who works for the Psychic Friends Network, should you plan a surprise birthday party for them?

If love is blind, why is lingerie so popular?

When people lose weight, where does it go?

Just before someone gets nervous, do they experience cocoons in their stomach?

If a book about failures doesn't sell, is it a success?

Does anybody ever vanish with a trace?

If a chronic liar tells you he is a chronic liar do you believe him?

Could someone ever get addicted to counseling? If so, how could you treat them?

if a dog sweats through his tongue, why does he have armpits?

What is a free gift? Aren't all gifts free?

When you're sending someone styrofoam, what do you pack it in?

When sign makers go on strike, is anything written on their signs?

What happens if you get scared half to death twice?

If it's zero degrees outside today and it's supposed to be twice as cold tomorrow, how cold is it going to be?

If olive oil comes from olives, where does baby oil come from?
Why is the word abbreviate so long?

If 7-11 is open 24 hours a day, 365 days a year, why are there locks on the doors?
Why is lemon juice mostly artificial ingredients but dishwashing liquid contains real lemons?

Life is hard compared to what?

If an orange is orange, why isn't a lime called a green or a lemon called a yellow?

If you dive into a pool of dry ice, can you swim without getting wet?

If someone with multiple personalities threatens to kill herself, is it considered a hostage situation?

Who tows the tow trucks when they break down?

Why do we wash bath towels? Aren't we clean when we use them?

Why is it called a TV set when you only get one?

What is another word for thesaurus?

Do Lipton employees take coffee breaks?

If the Energizer Bunny attacks someone, is it charged with battery?

How do they get a deer to cross at that yellow road sign?

If soap is used to make you clean, why does it leave a scum?

Why do we play in recitals and recite in plays?

Ballerinas are always on their toes. Why don't they just get taller ballerinas?

Why do we have hot water heaters?

If someone has a mid-life crisis while playing hide and seek, does he automatically lose because he can't find himself?

If you try to fail, and succeed, which have you done?

Can fat people go skinny-dipping?

What hair color do they put on the driver's licenses of bald men?

Why do you need a driver's license to buy liquor when you can't drink and drive?

What is the probability that something will happen according to the odds?

If vegetarians eat vegetables, what do humanitarians eat?

You can't have everything. Where would you put it?

How much deeper would the ocean be if sponges didn't grow in it?

Why are builders afraid to have a 13th floor but book publishers aren't afraid to have a Chapter 11?

Why isn't there mouse-flavored cat food?

What did we do before the Law of Gravity was passed?

How is it possible to have a civil war?

Why is there an eject button on the VCR remote? Don't you have to get up to get to the tape?

Why are the cabs from the Yellow Cab Company painted orange?

Why is a person who plays the piano called a pianist, but a person who drives a race car not called a racist?

Why do we drive on parkways but park on driveways?


Why do they call it disposable douche? Is there a kind of douche you keep after using?

If a turtle doesn't have a shell, is he homeless or naked?

Heres what happened.:(
Could you imagine being lied to by the one person you¡K.love? And on top of it, he doesn¡¦t tell you to your fucking face, your friend has to tell you! Its not so much being lied to its having a mean and cruel joke being played on you. A joke that will haunt you forever! Something that will never leave your side. You will just want to roll up and die.

Picture this..
April fools. You¡¦re happy and you can¡¦t wait until you play some jokes here and there on your friends, everything¡¦s going great. Then you remember the night before. When you spilled your heart and soul out to your one and true ¡§love¡¨ the one you don¡¦t stop thinking about and dreaming and hoping about. That¡¦ one. So your just finishing your last class when ¡§ding ding ding¡¨ The bell rings. And you¡¦re off to interact. Everything is going smoothly so far. Even though your friends are a little shaky, you¡¦ll live. As your walking with your friend, you realize you do not have a class to go in to for interact. In other words. You are screwed. So you see a classroom where EVERYONE is in, so you try to get in but you can¡¦t. Finally you do. As you walk in you see everyone and then your head stops turning and you see him. The one you were looking for and thinking about all day. You have fun and talk to all your friends. Then you go and sit somewhere alone. Nice and quit. Then your one and only love walks up and says they need to ask you something. The only thing that pops in your head is ¡§can this be the day¡¨ hmm. So you guys talk and your hanging out with each other friend around, when he drops the best line you¡¦ve ever heard anyone ask you ¡§will you go out with me¡¨ your heart races. You turn red, a wide ass smile creeps up your face, and you cannot think about anything but OMG! OMG! OMG!!!! Finally, he asked me. ƒº So you look at him and say, ¡§I hope this isn¡¦t a joke because I would feel stupid if I said yes and it was a joke. So he asks you again. And you just smile. Then as he turns around you say ok fine. Your not sure if he heard you or not, but you said it. So in your mind your like ¡§wow im going out with the guy iv been dreaming about. Dreams and wishes really do come true¡¨ And the rest of interact fly¡¦s by. You talk with each other and sit on his lap, by the time you know it ¡§good afternoon odyssey middle will all group 1 teachers please escort your students to their dismissal area¡¨ comes on, and you are just sitting there. The two of you laughing and having a good time. So you stand up, say by to each other and head off home. As your walking down the halls, everyone knows what happened. Your smile tells it all. Then next two days go by great. To your knowledge, you and him are going out. Like is aid to your knowledge. Then the next two days you are talking to your friend and you were saying, ¡§I hope he was serious when he asked me¡¨ and your friends like ¡§im sure he was¡¨ but then you hear ¡§ding ding ding¡¨ again. And you run out of the class to meet your loved one. As you walk out you see him and walk by. Your friend suddenly comes up to you and says ¡§it was a joke¡¨ and the words go through one ear and out the other. You can¡¦t believe it¡K.a joke. But why. Are the only words racing in your mind. Your smile turns around and you are furious. Your just feel like killing him. So you walk and you go into a classroom but after a while, you can¡¦t take it. So you walk out and go to another one. When you go in your friend tells you to meet your ¡§loved¡¨ one in the hall. You see him and your friend so you just walk back to class. He approaches you and simply says ¡§smile its ok don¡¦t be mad¡¨ and you just try and get away. He still says still be ok... Finally, he looks at you and puts his hands on your shoulders and says, ¡§You knew I was joking¡¨ and you get so mad you push him so hard that he almost falls to the floor. You¡¦re furious. S you walk back in the class everyone knows something happened. You just want to cry. So you¡¦re on your way out and everyone knows by now. Some way or another word gets around. So you go home and start to cry. Your family sees you this way and they just want to kill this kid. You just continue to cry and go to school the next day, as if nothing happened. When you see him you just want to punch him in the face, He pretends as if you are the bad person and hugs another girl right in front of you. Even thought he knows he doesn¡¦t like to. You just want to hit him even harder. Then he says bye to you a couple times and you smile and walk away. When you look at him, you just want to throw up. There is nothing there. Then you talk to him and he says sorry. But you know he doesn¡¦t mean it. So the next day you see
him and he ignores you. So your thinking what the fuck are you trying to ignore me or does it come natural. And you get mad! But you don¡¦t know who to react. So all you continue to think about is.. ¡§well since him and I will never go out, then ill go and meet ralisas friend Nathan and maybe ill go out with him if we like each other¡¨. I mean I always thought the natural thing to do was go out with someone id you like them and they like you back, but this year, with Micah, has proven me wrong. Very wrong. But no matter what happens and no matter what I do, I will always love him and I will never be able to get over him¡K.Never.
Later <3 :(

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i dont understand
why do oliver and i fight. i dont understand it. he says simething that gets me mad so i say something back and we bitch at each other for god only knows how long. even when we are on the phone. we will have a nice conversation and laugh together but once he calls someone else he ells themn how hot they are and that he loves them and becomes a totally different person. then he calls me a liar and shit soi just hang up. i dont need to sit there and waste my time listening him trash me and say i love you" to another girl while on the phone with me, thats bullshit. but after we are done fightinh we say sorry and then talk normally and start another fight maybe 1 or 2 days later! i dont fuvking understand. and frankly i dont care anymore. because if he is going to have this shity little cocky attitude, then he can not talk to me. becaus ehimcontinueing to have that attitude makes me like him even less, even if he likes me the same.

i dont know.
i dont know, this feeling is very odd. i feel unsafe and uneasy. i cant explain the feeling, i have chills going through my body. i think i am scared, but i dont know what about. its a horrible feeling. maybe i am scared something will happen to me. maybe someting will happen to my heart. no i hope i prey not. iv had enough heart break. please no more. i dont understand. i hate this. i want to feel safe and i want to be ble to not be scared. life. maybe thats it? but i dont think so. these past few days micah and i have been getting very close.i am really happy about that. but maybe im scared somehting will happen. i hope only good not bad. maybe its the ataris song. i dont know. katherine brought up a good point, i am sad at the strangest moments. and shedoesnt think its part of the pre teen life. i dont uderstand it though. maybe i need to sleep. these are the words. you tell me "Here in this diary,
I write you visions of my summer.
It was the best I ever had.
There were choruses and sing-alongs,
and not a spoken feeling.
I'm knowing that right now is all that matters.
All the nights we stayed up talking
and listening to 80's songs;
quoting lines from all those movies that we love.
It still brings a smile to my face.
I guess when it comes down to it...

Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up:
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that matters
is just following your heart
and eventually you'll finally get it right.

Breaking into hotel swimming pools,
and wreaking havoc on our world.
Hanging out at truck stops just to pass the time.
The black top's singing me to sleep.
Lighting fireworks in parking lots,
illuminate the blackest nights.
Cherry cokes under this moonlight summer sky.
2015 Riverside, it's time to say, "goodbye."
Get on the bus, it's time to go.

Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up:
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that matters
is just following your heart,
and eventually you'll finally get it right."

maybe its the song i dont know. i hope so, i dont want to be to different the anyone else. i dont want ot be to grown up, i want to be a kid!