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2000 10 March :: 3.42pm
:: Music: the aquabats!
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What do i have to say? too much. and its all pointless.
this is such an entertaining cd. hehe. ok. the all district music is a lot harder than i thought it would be. fuck making it. i'll atleast try out....
everybody seems to have sombody now, or is in a relationship with their bf or gf. im all lonely, and its all making me sick. i guess its cuz im just jealous. its understandable tho; im sure people were jealous of me back in november and such...... still... lonely...
bah, enough of that. im thinking i should just give up on the idea of having or being in a ska band. i've got 3 songs without lyrics written, as well as 2 modified cover s. its like ive got mucis but noone to play it. sad
school is really bumming me out. i soo can't wait till spring break. hopefully there'll be ride-able waves. the ocean's been decently flat these past two weeks. i promised myself i'd get my permit over break too. im turning 17 in exactly a month and its pretty pathetic that i can't drive.
it seems like all i ever do is waste my time sitting here staring at this fucking screen. why do i waste my time online? fucking woohu. and fucking aim.
STUPID INTERNET
no one ever talks to me, so whats the point. im giving up using the computer for probably the next two weeks or so. its for the best. maybe i'll acomplish something. if anyone wants to reach me, not like ppl talk to me anyways. i feel all isolated from all my friends from atl. i miss you guys. well, back to reaching me, here it is:
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A.J.
<3
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2003 8 March :: 2.50am
what an excellent night <3
Jenns party: fun stuff, <3 my girls! + Brian came w/me sooo it was that much more wonderfulness <3<3
The whole enitre night was wonderful, thank you.
<3<3<3<3<3
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PICS FROM THE NIGHT!!
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2003 6 March :: 11.54pm
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Kudos to alllll the thespians!! you guys were great!!!
Jenn Ds bday in 7min weeeee!!!!
<3 for all...
<3 for you...
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2003 5 March :: 9.13pm
:: Mood: euphoric <3
beach + Brian + kisses = Euphoria <3
...then again, anything + Brian would make me the happiest camper en el mundo!!!
<3<3<3<3<3
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2000 4 March :: 8.08pm
:: Mood: hopeful
my plan was just to give up on trying out for the district honor band this year. but today, i was suprised when we were handed a list of what parts in each piece we are required to play in the audition
i was under the impression that they just picked spots randomly. the spots they picked out are decently challenging, but im sure i can do it if i work at it this month. my goal isn't to make it, cuz i probably won't, but to sound good and play the parts well, not like whoa, but well...... surely better than fair. hahahah. take that atl.
much love<3
-A.J.
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2003 3 March :: 8.44pm
:: Mood: how quickly you fall from the top of the world...
:: Music: From Autumn to Ashes - Short Stories with Tragic Endings
i hate people. really.
Here you stand seething with guilt.
Silence only justifies this act of cowardice.
The look stapled on your face cries out for forgiveness,
the one thing that I cannot give you.
Did you ever see that one person
and the way they do these things
and it hurts so much it's like choking.. choking?
I can give you freedom from your guilt,
with a flick of my wrist onto yours.
I can give you peace of mind with a forced smile.
I can give you death with the look upon my face.
This is your freedom in a life of fallacy,
with no last kiss & no regrets;
you don't deserve good bye.
This is your freedom in a life of fallacy,
with no last kiss & no good bye.
Here you stand seething with guilt.
Silence only justifies this act of cowardice.
With a short story, the one you add to daily, you are the tragic loss.
No story book ending for this fairy tale of you.
Just the one composed with blood taken from your pen that you hold in your lifeless hand.
Cry for you. Shed tears. Mourn. Wish the end.
Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person,
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much it's like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
You let this one person come down on the most perfect moment.
And it breaks my heart to know the only reason you are here now is a reminder of what I'll never have..
I'll never have.. I'll never...
Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in..
standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in.
But this table for one has become bearable.
I now take comfort in this, and for this, I cherish you.
Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much it's like choking down the embers of a great place.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipidsky parting clouds.
And you let this one person come down.. come down. I cherish you.. I cherish you.
Just say that you would do the same for me..
just say you would do the same..
just say you would do the same for me.
For as much as I love Autumn,
I'm giving myself to Ashes...
why are people so merciless?
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2003 3 March :: 4.45pm
i am the luckiest girl in the world <3
heh thats how I have been feeling lately, just wonderful! (thanks to certain beary special persons :0P)
Well.. to clarify, I honestly have no idea whats going on... seems like everyone else knows more about me & my love life then i do lol but thats okay, things are really good now...
heh okay Drew, enough of my rant :0P
Atlantic band = worthless.
oOo. guess who sooo go their Used & Coheed tickets as well as TBS & FATA!!!!! envy me :0)
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2000 2 March :: 8.47pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: siamese dream
"I ain't no prophet, don't wanna cure no damn disease. But would you marry me anyway, if I was on my knees?"
haha, i went out and bought siamese dream today. i had the mp3s, but im a cd whore. yay!
Vivi and Sara B. are now my two favorite people ever! too bad i wasnt there. fishing > publix. owned.
so i didnt get to go see mustard plug. that sucks the big one, but i wouldn't have wanted to go neways. i put sunblock on my face and arms, but stupid me, i forgot about my back. its all nice and burnt and painful. that would work so well in a pit.
my parents are making me sick. they're putting up all these really ugly paintings all around the house. it makes me sick.
ive run out of things to say. none of them are important tho.
time to go watch adult swim
athf=god
-A.J.
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2003 2 March :: 6.22pm
who wants to run away with me... anywhere, i don't care.
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2003 2 March :: 11.27am
resentment. confusion.hurt.
i wish i knew something... anything.
the.end.
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2000 28 February :: 7.45pm
:: Mood: damn good
:: Music: animosity! fuck yea!
subjects are worthless
i'm in a good mood, its strange.
i really really wanna go see mustard plug tomorrow, but i cant find a ride, or atleast someone that wants to go with me.
if anybody wants to go, call me on my cell tonite or tomorrow:
703-4691
sharif: you owe me a show and $7. we should go.
i feel really dumb right now. i guess i should.
-A.J.
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2003 27 February :: 7.46pm
today was soo wonderful...
the break down:
9:10 met at Megan's house (me, Ash, Megan, Brian, Paul, Sharif, Chris)
~went to the beach & met up w/Matt
~ Brian and I laid out while everyone else went in
~haha we're smart.. there was a blue/yellow flag due to man o war
~ everyone went to the Marriott to go in the pool but I didn't feel like going so Brian stayed with me.. it was nice, really.
~ everyone got kicked out so they came back
~ off to Docs but it was closed so went 2 Dunkin Donuts
~ Sharif went back to school & Matt disappeared
~ rest of us went back to Megans where Chris and Paul went back to school
~ Brian, Ash, Megan & I went to Veterans park where we swung on the midget swings & just chilled
~ they went back to school.. Ash and I decided to not go :0P ( i know we're bad...)
~ Ash & I drove to Deerfield beach where we ate at the Kahuna then went to IWS - no beach parking
~ went back to boca where we chilled at her clubhouse (its sooo nice!)
~ went in the pool and laid out & napped for an hour (vivis all tan!)
~ bumped into Mike and Betty
~ went back to Ashleys
and now i'm home & talking to Brian :0)
so yes, today was a very beautiful day <3
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2003 27 February :: 12.58am
today is going to be a beautiful day <3
(i really hope so anyways...)
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2000 26 February :: 10.58pm
:: Mood: gelatinous
:: Music: the ziggens
i went surfing on monday. realization: i suck. i don't know what happened. i used to be suchan awesome surfer, and now im just a worthless shortboarder. i was looking at a 7'10 at boca, but i don't have the money for it.
i hadto stay after to makeup a bio test today, and wow, i thought i totally bombed it, but i got an 88. HELL FUCK YEA! my highest test grade in bio was like barely even a c, so yea, take that ap! it was weird, when i was walking to go take the test, these group of kids stopped me, and this girl said she wanted my shirt (sublime shirt). i almost gave it to her, if she would give me hers, but they were all suprised i actually stopped and didnt ignore them, so she seemed kinda scared, and like ran away. yea, that was weird.
i never seem to have anything of substance to write in the journal
so the greatest line in history. in my ap us history class, all we ever do it try to get pascarella off topic and joke around and stuff. hes like not even 30, and usta go to river. so hes always telling us stories about him n his drunken buddies from college. so neways, he was lecturing on the 20's, and the kkk, so he was like saying about how they had the pointy hats and the white robe. so i say outloud "yea, like the pope." everybody was just like kinda shocked, and was all cracking up for a few mins. i dont say much in that class, so it was weird. fukky as hell tho. one of those 'ya hadto be there' things.
and in closing, i state that holy fuck im never gonna get this band started. i thought of a semi goodshitty name, but im not worried about that. so far i have 1 songs written without lyrics, i've got me on sax, vivi on trombone, sharif on bass, and i still need a guitarist, drummer, and singer/frontman. for all intensive purposes it is "my" ska band, cuz i wrote the songs, and i seem to be the only one who gives a fuck about it. oh well ::sigh::
till next time
-A.J.
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2003 26 February :: 8.06pm
URGENT MESSAGE!!!!
Date Sara B.!
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