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2018 11 March :: 9.26pm
I always feel out of place. I never feel like I fit in. It doesn't matter where I am or who I'm with. I'm always wearing a mask. I can't be myself ever. One thing or another comes up that makes it clear that I was never really welcome at all.
And almost everyone I open myself up to, at some point, stops caring.
I'll never be okay.
und was sagst du dazu?
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2018 11 March :: 12.49am
Loneliness should wear off... right? ...At some point?
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2018 9 March :: 7.05pm
:: Mood: disappointed
Sometimes the people closest to us are the ones who make us feel the most alone.
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godessalthena
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2018 9 March :: 9.39am
I got a good girl ear rub
First time I've been that good
And I was a Looney toon
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2018 8 March :: 8.39am
:: Music: Portugal. The man
You don't need sympathy
They got a pill for everything
Just take that dark cloud
Ring it out to wash em down
und was sagst du dazu?
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2018 8 March :: 12.19am
I have two little dogs. The smaller girl dog always humps the bigger boy dog's head when she gets excited. My dad came up with a new nick name for him: fuck face. I ask so does that make hers fucker?
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godessalthena
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2018 6 March :: 10.18pm
Shit is too hard sometimes
Other people are challenging
I don't like feeling like an asshole and I don't like making the people I love out to be them
It is PTSD I have been diagnosed with it by every doctor I've seen
I know bad things happened too you too, but your triggers aren't being in a relationship and men who look a certain way
Not that one person's trauma is worse than the others, I guess I just can simply say I'm doing the best I can, I do have a hard time communicating but that is also a two way street.
I said I wouldn't be easy. And I said it's ok to leave if it's too hard. I still say the same thing. I just also know I am a good kind hearted person and I do always try to do what's right and what's in everyone's best interest (even at the cost of myself). I just sometimes lose my mind and can't handle being a human being.
I am hoping a large part of the problems are from stress due to depression and winter and work. I need something new and exciting.
und was sagst du dazu?
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godessalthena
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2018 6 March :: 11.41am
Found an Xmas pic of you. You still look like a hideous monster.
I feel left behind.. not sure by who or what. I feel like I'm out of time,out of phase, shifting to the blue spectrum with high frequency panic electricity in my veins.
und was sagst du dazu?
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godessalthena
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2018 6 March :: 11.38am
0049. THE FCC STOLE MY WALLET AND KIDNAPPED MY SISTER
Unless my brain is foreign, I think most censorshipped radio's boring. And who claims that orange doesn't rhyme? I'm chilling right here with David Lawrence. It's Online Tonight, they wanna wind up fights for free speech, broadcast as far as they can reach. It's a swell day, let's see what they'll say when I'm dialed up live, Toronto to LA. But look what's come up with that Janet Jackson - FCC with $5,000 infractions. We got a plan of action.
FCC cracking down to burn Bubba the Love Sponge and also Howard Stern. Oh dear, man overboard at Clear Channel. What dorks and weird panel of analysts decides what to battle with? The whole thing's just a waste of time, and I hope I don't see anybody paying the fine. I'll fight this 'til I'm old and washed up, and I'm sure right beside me will be Lily Von Schtupp. What's up? Censorship? Not for long. Is someone gonna step to me and try to stop this song? It's cool to protect our children; I've got no qualms. So maybe the president should stop dropping bombs.
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2018 2 March :: 11.00pm
Every time I hang out with him, I regret it. Every. Time.
Ugh.
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godessalthena
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2018 2 March :: 5.43pm
My timing is so fucking wretched
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2018 2 March :: 8.24am
Anime was ruined for me by the community. So was rock/emo/pop punk music.
Why do people have to be such dicks?
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godessalthena
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2018 24 February :: 11.08am
After some tears and a few fits I got my files taxes
I just fucking hate all this fucking bullshit they take my money and I have to request they give it back to me in an overly complicated transaction.
Bleh.
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2018 23 February :: 10.17pm
I have fucking awesome friends.
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godessalthena
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2018 23 February :: 9.41am
White coffee is one of my favorite things
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