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2016 21 September :: 9.17pm
a lil drunk
feelin pretty grood
not worried about too much besides my internet being a fucking bastard
y u no netflix & chill, vizio?
going to portugal. the man in november. bought everyone tickets for their birthdays. i love me some scorpios man.
what da fuq for halloween doe.. dayman and nightman? harambe and a banana? the fox and the little princess?
i don't know man. i just don't know.
und was sagst du dazu?
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godessalthena
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2016 16 September :: 2.11pm
gotta take a picture.
but first gotta find the damn thing.
still haven't unpacked from my move a year ago.
und was sagst du dazu?
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goodbye
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2016 16 September :: 1.56pm
I never didn't care.
I need to be alot nicer than I have been. I haven't been thinking about how this will affect others or myself at all. My dumb mouth.
und was sagst du dazu?
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godessalthena
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2016 14 September :: 8.07pm
I don't like the way I'm feeling right now
my stomach sinking
all the blood rushing to my trunk
I just feel so frustrated that you won't talk time about anything.
und was sagst du dazu?
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godessalthena
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2016 13 September :: 12.04pm
this dead heart of mine is a heavy burden to carry.
I used to think maybe I wasn't meant to carry it alone
but every day that passes it seems more and more like a fact
I am not made to be happy. I am not made to love.
I am not made for anything. I am a tamed animal that's been left alone to waste away.
this hollowness I feel grows more every day. temporarily am I filled, but only to have it slip out of my cracked base.
i watch the wind through the trees and feel the brisk autumn air against my exposed flesh.
I feel nothing but meaningless inside.
und was sagst du dazu?
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godessalthena
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2016 13 September :: 7.52am
disappointment
why can't you be a little more responsible?
or why am I such a responsible old windbag?
und was sagst du dazu?
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2016 12 September :: 11.38pm
The storm is far from passing. The rain beats down. The wind howls. The cold bites at exposed skin. The elements are unforgiving. My poncho blew away a long time ago.
All time low isn't just a band's name.
und was sagst du dazu?
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godessalthena
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2016 8 September :: 10.05pm
I can make it if I tired
I closed my eyes I kept on swimming
und was sagst du dazu?
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goodbye
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2016 7 September :: 8.11pm
Kayla said that I was her best friend and could be her Maid of Honor.
I can't believe someone liked me that much to seek out a friendship with me and cultivate it. I feel so special.
und was sagst du dazu?
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2016 7 September :: 4.41am
Can't sleep.
Awake at 4am. Mind got rolling on the idea of what I would tell people and do differently if I went back through my own timeline. Probably 4th grade is when I would start. I would tell my parents about the life events, the tragedies in the world, the stocks to buy. I would warn my friends of the dangers coming to them. I would avoid certain people and embrace others ahead of when I actually met them. I would tell Skyler and Jed not to kill himselves. I would tell Mike and my brother to get their health in order. I would gain more education, go to a better school, live a healthier life with more experiences. I wish.
und was sagst du dazu?
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godessalthena
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2016 5 September :: 11.13pm
splurged on some new clothing today. torrid was having a buy one get one free clearance so I stocked up. a lil reward for paying off my car! I deserve it!
I just hope it all fits. the shitty thing is no returns... but let's be honest I'm too fucking lazy to go into a store.
I have some Blazers that never get worn.. I want to start wearing them more often just because. I'll dress up on Tuesdays, since men have tie Tuesday.
and maybe I'll get some new lipstick too...
und was sagst du dazu?
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2016 2 September :: 8.40am
Shame is a useless emotion. It doesn't make us humble, it creates guilt. And I refuse to entertain it any longer. A healthy level of shamelessness is exactly what I need.
und was sagst du dazu?
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godessalthena
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2016 31 August :: 9.07pm
maybe I really am just not ready
I fucking hate that motherfucker. I hate who I've become. who he trained me to be. I am so weak. still a slave to those putrid habits.
I am broken indefinitely. with broken strings it's hard to fix oneself.
und was sagst du dazu?
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goodbye
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2016 31 August :: 2.09pm
Bye, Felicia.
und was sagst du dazu?
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godessalthena
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2016 30 August :: 8.05am
reasons I hate work:
- nothing ever works
- offshore processing
- NOTHING EVER WORKS
- OFFSHORE PROCESSING
und was sagst du dazu?
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