fly defiant

fly defiant

:: 2016 7 September :: 4.41am

Can't sleep.
Awake at 4am. Mind got rolling on the idea of what I would tell people and do differently if I went back through my own timeline. Probably 4th grade is when I would start. I would tell my parents about the life events, the tragedies in the world, the stocks to buy. I would warn my friends of the dangers coming to them. I would avoid certain people and embrace others ahead of when I actually met them. I would tell Skyler and Jed not to kill himselves. I would tell Mike and my brother to get their health in order. I would gain more education, go to a better school, live a healthier life with more experiences. I wish.

und was sagst du dazu?

godessalthena

:: 2016 5 September :: 11.13pm

splurged on some new clothing today. torrid was having a buy one get one free clearance so I stocked up. a lil reward for paying off my car! I deserve it!

I just hope it all fits. the shitty thing is no returns... but let's be honest I'm too fucking lazy to go into a store.

I have some Blazers that never get worn.. I want to start wearing them more often just because. I'll dress up on Tuesdays, since men have tie Tuesday.

and maybe I'll get some new lipstick too...

und was sagst du dazu?

goodbye

:: 2016 2 September :: 8.40am

Shame is a useless emotion. It doesn't make us humble, it creates guilt. And I refuse to entertain it any longer. A healthy level of shamelessness is exactly what I need.

und was sagst du dazu?

godessalthena

:: 2016 31 August :: 9.07pm

maybe I really am just not ready

I fucking hate that motherfucker. I hate who I've become. who he trained me to be. I am so weak. still a slave to those putrid habits.

I am broken indefinitely. with broken strings it's hard to fix oneself.

und was sagst du dazu?

goodbye

:: 2016 31 August :: 2.09pm

Bye, Felicia.

und was sagst du dazu?

godessalthena

:: 2016 30 August :: 8.05am

reasons I hate work:

- nothing ever works
- offshore processing
- NOTHING EVER WORKS
- OFFSHORE PROCESSING

und was sagst du dazu?

goodbye

:: 2016 28 August :: 8.19pm

https://38.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m32jiuPYS41qhigt0o1_500.gif

und was sagst du dazu?

godessalthena

:: 2016 28 August :: 10.27am

oh my god I am tired

und was sagst du dazu?

godessalthena

:: 2016 25 August :: 10.08pm

off to the tri cities for another Mexican birthday celebration and the taco guy

he makes the most delicious tacos, and to watch him prepare them is a treat

camping out in the back yard in a tent

it's going to be how you say

el mejor

und was sagst du dazu?

godessalthena

:: 2016 24 August :: 12.51pm

I never have been

And I never will be

good enough

und was sagst du dazu?

godessalthena

:: 2016 22 August :: 9.52am

probably the best thing growing my hair out has going for me:

EPIC HEAD BANGING

und was sagst du dazu?

godessalthena

:: 2016 20 August :: 3.28pm

he's sawing adorable logs on the couch next to me

I gently touch his butt

he wiggles and makes the cutest sleep chuckle

I could die so cute

und was sagst du dazu?

godessalthena

:: 2016 19 August :: 9.30am

so some good news after the terrible horrible no good very bad day yesterday...

I PAID OFF MY CAR NOTE

now to just get the title and she's mine ALL MIIIIIIINE

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godessalthena

:: 2016 18 August :: 11.42am

I live fat ugly and stupid
I'll die old alone and unloved

I try so hard to be seen
but I've never been more invisible

und was sagst du dazu?

goodbye

:: 2016 17 August :: 9.52pm

http://www.theonion.com/article/i-cant-do-anymore-think-320-million-americans-quie-53534

Every single day of the last 3 and a half years of my life.

und was sagst du dazu?