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2016 2 August :: 7.30pm
between Thursday and Sunday I drove 1200 miles. that is the longest I've driven in such a short period of time.
I definitely could never be a truck driver. too much.
but I will say, the trip was totally worth it. I love the ocean. and the beach. how very small it makes you feel.
and some of those twisty roads were super fun. I would love to be a rally car driver.
und was sagst du dazu?
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2016 30 July :: 4.30pm
I just wanna be home in my own bed with my own puppies. I am so over driving.
und was sagst du dazu?
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2016 29 July :: 6.08am
It is such a mysterious place, the land of tears...
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goodbye
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2016 27 July :: 10.17pm
I'm alive. I'm okay. You haven't beat me. I feel good, all be it tired.
Just gonna be myself for as long as I can.
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2016 27 July :: 7.33am
final day of the elimination diet/cleanse. I have learned a few things:
1 I will never be vegan
2 I am not allergic to foods
3 I feel bad no matter what I eat
4 vegans are crazy
tonight I will be in Leavenworth with my Emily! tomorrow... THE OCEAN
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2016 25 July :: 10.13pm
Maybe having faith in people is okay. Maybe I should believe that things will turn out well.
Somewhere along the way I lost sight of what really matters. Love and positivity and hope.
Life is beautiful and people can try and ruin it but despite their trying, they can't change that.
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2016 25 July :: 8.23pm
so close to the end, 2 more days left.
today I had a big juicy rib eye, rare. I feel full for the first time in 5 days and it's nice.
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2016 21 July :: 2.41pm
day 1 of elimination diet: fucking shitty as fuck
I might die.
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2016 20 July :: 7.36am
today's the big day.
things will work out. he's a great salesman.
I have to ask Zoe for baby tokes back and the thought makes my tummy wrench. I hope she isn't mean to me.
bleh
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2016 18 July :: 5.35am
I want to grab you, shake you violently and scream at you
you are good enough
you are incredibly skilled
THE ONLY THING HOLDING YOU BACK IS YOURSELF
stop crying over the way things have been
start making things be what you want them to be
YOU are the one driving
YOU are in control of how you react to the shit show that is life
YOU have to stand up and walk
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2016 15 July :: 7.31am
we can get better cause we're not dead yet.
but what if there's no better and this is the best it'll ever be.
I have a good job, a man, food, entertainment, nature.. so why do I still feel this void inside of me.
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2016 14 July :: 7.30am
so... what happens next?
write your own story. you're the heroine, you're the winner. write history.
und was sagst du dazu?
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2016 13 July :: 10.26pm
This evening I felt a strong longing for who I was back in high school. I always felt myself when I dressed in black and had zippers and eyeliner and wasn't just like all the sheep around me. I find myself listening to my favorite bands from back then, yearning to be back with my friends at the LAN or the mall, playing video games, wearing Tripp, not giving any fucks...
Maybe I should try dressing like that once more and see how I feel. I could find something at Hot Topic for sure... may take some navigating around all the fandom now-a-days but hopefully... hopefully...
Plus, I still have 1 dress left that may still fit me in my closet in Spokane. I'll have to check it out and do the whole thing - the clothes, the makeup, the accessories, the playlist... and then maybe go on a DDR excersion. Yes?
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2016 8 July :: 4.57pm
oh god come quickly I can feel the earth beneath my feet
I'm feeling badly, it's not an attempt at decency
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2016 5 July :: 9.00pm
"Non, je ne suis la belette de personne."
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