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godessalthena

:: 2016 8 March :: 9.49pm

and just like that I feel the flutters slipping away.

my heart is heavy. nostalgia ripping me apart.

yearning for simpler days.

I miss the summers, when love was still so sweet and new. I miss feeling like the world might have some hope.

but there is no hope.

und was sagst du dazu?


godessalthena

:: 2016 6 March :: 8.50am

I'm tired of being warped..

und was sagst du dazu?


godessalthena

:: 2016 3 March :: 5.06pm

must not sabotage
must not sabotage

stop looking for reasons to say no
start saying yes
unless it's really a no, never feel guilty for saying no






it just seems too good to be true
I'm waiting for an axe to fall



but maybe it never will..?

when can I stop being cautious? am I even capable?

und was sagst du dazu?


godessalthena

:: 2016 2 March :: 6.45am

a promising first date makes me very excited.

now to decide if the second date should be today.. or some other day..

all I know is I said "not the first time we hang out" and he respected that!!

what is this gypsy magic

und was sagst du dazu?


godessalthena

:: 2016 28 February :: 7.55am

this train woke up on the wrong side of the tracks

now we are careening downhill at 200 km/hr just waiting to hop the rail and sail into a wooded oblivion

1 Nachricht | und was sagst du dazu?


godessalthena

:: 2016 27 February :: 3.29pm

sometimes I wish I could disappear.
swallow a pill and forget the past 20 years.
start over fresh with eyes that are new.
sick and tired of this twisted point of view.

und was sagst du dazu?


godessalthena

:: 2016 25 February :: 9.42pm

just know that I love you.

und was sagst du dazu?


godessalthena

:: 2016 23 February :: 5.17pm

"it blows to miss someone you hate"

I've been missing him for what feels like an eternity. I don't want to miss you anymore.

und was sagst du dazu?


godessalthena

:: 2016 20 February :: 7.31am

this weekend much fun what excitement


all credit cards at zero balance? roger roger
ready to tackle student loans? shoot to kill
possibly fixed my trunk issue on my own? I would like to thank my training as a technical support associate -- could taking out the battery and putting it back in fix the problem?? let's find out!
losing weight and feeling good about my curves? can I get a hallelujah amen!
dropping cymbalta like its a bad habit? work in progress... reimagining user personality matrix.. calibrating emotional interface regulators... rebooting mother drive (continuously)...


my boss's boss is pregnant, she is due March 25. her baby is named Cole. we measured her belly and all guessed the due date, and then our business analyst sent out pictures of 6 babies and we had to guess which manager started as the babies. it was pretty adorkable. then people brought in their babies the day after. so many babies. and everyone is pregnant. it's making me feel more and more insecure about my lack of children.

1 Nachricht | und was sagst du dazu?


godessalthena

:: 2016 16 February :: 6.08pm
:: Mood: hopeful

And everyday I wake, I tell myself a little harmless lie.....





The whole wide world is mine....

und was sagst du dazu?


godessalthena

:: 2016 12 February :: 10.46pm

why is it I always want to write in you when I'm drunk In a bar

und was sagst du dazu?


godessalthena

:: 2016 9 February :: 6.42am

the morning always comes way too soon..

und was sagst du dazu?


godessalthena

:: 2016 8 February :: 6.46am

saying goodbye to an old, very dear friend today.

sleep well baci, go well with your sister. go chase that big gopher in the sky.

we will miss your little skips, the song of your people, your skanky beard and your shivering bits. your cute waggy tail. your huge bat ears..

your time with us has been highly treasured. and we will remember you with warmth and happiness.

good bye.. little baci bean

und was sagst du dazu?


godessalthena

:: 2016 6 February :: 8.50pm

expressing my deep
inner thoughts...

clinging to a pole in a hurricane
climbing a sheer vertical cliff with no gear

I just need you to ask the right questions.

I honestly don't know how I feel 99% of the time. not saying anything makes it easier to change my mind about how I felt when a decision was made.

und was sagst du dazu?


godessalthena

:: 2016 4 February :: 7.50am

happy birthday to one of my absolutely favorite people!! ALEXZ YOU ROCK!!!! I'm so lucky to have you as my best friend <3 <3

und was sagst du dazu?

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