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holiday

:: 2006 11 January :: 10.08pm
:: Music: Death Cab For Cutie- Soul Meets Body

What did I ever do to deserve this...?
I'm sick of feeling this way.
I don't want my feelings anymore.

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holiday

:: 2006 10 January :: 11.47pm

I absolutely am in love with this song.
I cannot guess what we'll discover
We turn the dirt with our palms cupped like shovels
But I know our filthy hand can wash one another’s
And not one speck will remain

I do believe it’s true
That there are roads left in both of our shoes
If the silence takes you
Then I hope it takes me too
So brown eyes I hold you near
Cause you’re the only song I want to hear
A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere

Where soul meets body

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holiday

:: 2006 10 January :: 10.54pm

As for work, work is GREAT. I missed it so much. I think that was part of my mooood.
It feels good to be back.
We did a party tonight, in-house, for 120 and i now have delicious chocolate cake in hand...haha. Maybe it'll help cure the saddies. :-P
Nah.
I got to drive the Trailblazer to work and it was soooo relaxing and nice.
Work/School are actually going somewhere and I feel good about it. I feel GREAT about it.
I'm going to a special dinner at CC for our ACF members. My boss is getting voted Chef of the Year and I am taking my aunt. Tickets are $65 though. Ehhh... It'll be fun and it's something I feel I need to do.
I'm going to probably go to bed soon. The earliest I've gone to bed in probably 2 1/2 weeks.

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holiday

:: 2006 10 January :: 10.49pm

Ugh. Why is it so awful. Just put on your clomping boots and jump all over my heart. And to think I had a good feeling going. Thanks for ruining it. Thank you.

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holiday

:: 2006 9 January :: 10.09pm

I felt so much love from you tonight...

and so much hurt.

I love you.

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holiday

:: 2006 9 January :: 12.30pm

Eh. Whatever.
I just made a huge step, and even though it hurts, it feels great to know that I'm growing.
As for you, you're cryptic.
I actually care about this. I'm actually making an effort and learning how to fix it. You can jump on anytime now... Talk to me maybe?
Believe me, I'm sick of it too. But don't exaggerate. We have our really good times too. I can't imagine life without you. But we don't need to be like this. We can be fine.
This is all going to be great. :-)

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holiday

:: 2006 8 January :: 8.24pm

ohhhhhhhh this week will be fun/interesting!!!
I'm really excited. I'll post more later...

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holiday

:: 2006 4 January :: 11.14pm

Class schedule starting next week:

CA 102 Intro to Hospitality cred 2
7:30-8:30am M,W 1/16-5/04

PS 110 Survey of Am. Government cred 3
3:15-4:45pm T,Th 1/12-5/04

CA 115 Table Service cred 5
8:50-1:50 M,T,W,Th,F 3/02-5/04

CA 160 Ice Carving cred 2
4:30-8:30 M 3/13-4/24


Classes I've got done already:
First Aid credits----1
Menu Planning/ Nutrition 3
Bakery/Deli Operations 5
Business English 3

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holiday

:: 2006 4 January :: 10.57pm
:: Music: Far- In Two Again

OHHHHHHH

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

I had a bad feeling at first, but we talked and hugged and kissed and everything was always fine.
Char and I went skateboarding at the park today. It was SUPER fun. I fell a couple times. hahaha. I landed on my whole left side. lol.
Then we just had a lot of fun today. I love him.
So much.
Tomorrow I'm supposed to go to Seoul Garden w/my Aunt Linda then pick up my check at work then Charlie's. But the weather...ugh.
It HAD to snow again.

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holiday

:: 2006 1 January :: 11.14pm

blah blah blah
got some news
blah blah blah

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holiday

:: 2006 1 January :: 5.22pm

Hmm...Where was I last New Year's Eve?
Working at Latitudes, ducking from crazy drunks in the bar.
Hanging out w/Charlie, at the hotel. Eating ice cream.
hahaha.
Getting a new job! That was 3 jobs ago!!!! Holy crap.
It's gonna be a good year. I can feel lots of changes. Ah it's great!
I miss Applause right now, I kind of want to work. Is that sad?

"You make my heart feel really good!" <3 <3 haha

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holiday

:: 2006 1 January :: 2.34pm

oh... happy new years.
oh baby
last night was awesome.

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holiday

:: 2005 30 December :: 2.09pm

We were talking wedding ideas. YAY. It's just a grand feeling. My mom is excited. We were talking about her wedding and stuff and what we're going to do in Char's and mine. We have to reserve the place of the reception in a few months, and we don't even know where it's going to be! haha.
In other news, dad and mum went to look at the new corvette z-06 today! Ours is coming in a couple months. Canary yellow! Woohhhh!
It's got a display that shows up on the windshield that shows your speed and how many g's you pulled. And a navigation screen, bose system, and dvd player. We don't need a dvd player though...that's stupid. I'm excited!

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holiday

:: 2005 28 December :: 8.21pm

Chillin' w/my boyyyyyyy. haha
I love Charlie
<3 hehe
I love CHARLIEEEEEE
<3 hehe
maybe i just wrote a song...
HEHE

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holiday

:: 2005 28 December :: 8.21pm

Sararrrrr this is for you!
Your French Name is:

Agnès Vaillant

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holiday

:: 2005 24 December :: 1.05am

I am so tired. Tonight we had an in-house wedding, 325 people. Then I got to see Charlie <3 That made my day. Oooo Almost Christmas!

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holiday

:: 2005 21 December :: 10.03pm

Oh man I love my job.
I absolutely love where I work! It's so exciting and awesome. I never thought I'd find a job I'd love so much. I'm always learning something new. And I'm usually always traveling. I feel like I'm going somewhere. I probably sound dumb but I don't care. This is what happened today:
I was sent on a party for 14 w/Jackie and Wendy. We went to Alticor in GR. (They are the world headquarters for Amway and Quixstar). We thought it was only a board meeting but it was a Christmas party. When we got there we were sent to the Main office. It said "World Headquarters" on the door. And everything inside was SOOOOO nice. Holy crap. So we got all our stuff and went into the elevator. Inside there were buttons for the 1st and 2nd floor, and we need a special code for the 3rd floor. It was the executive board room. We got to work in a little kitchen and the whole floor was extravagant. Everything was nice. The board room looked really cool. And guess who showed up!? Mr. DeVos and Mr. VanAndel!!! They told us "Wonderful job on the luncheon!" and they said thank you a lot. They were pleased. It was really cool.
Applause caters to their houses too. And oh man, is it awesome. I guess they've done a party there before w/9 staff and everyone got $100 tips. Another guy I work with did a party last week and left w/ a $200 tip.
I probably sound like a dork but it's okay. I just am really excited to be where I am right now.
Anyway, not a whole lot happening besides doin' parties at work and hangin' out with Char. I still need to wrap all the Christmas presents! It came so fast this year.

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holiday

:: 2005 18 December :: 11.22am

A tribute, to my dad!
Holy crap I love my dad!!!

"I think...every 100 staples I pull out, I get one sip of beer!..........

I'm gonna be fallen down drunk by the end of the day!"

"Chestnuts roasting on an open fire..." (continues to sing)

Yeah, they're being loud and my dad is hilaryous. Carpet is a hassle.

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holiday

:: 2005 18 December :: 11.12am

It's been a really crazy week. I got in an accident on Wednesday night, that was scary. I had to sit in the back of a state's car. We're replacing our carpet right now. It's a major hassle. hahaha. I worked on Thursday. A party at Fredrick Meijer for 300. Plated salads and desserts. It was fun. Except I had to drive back to Applause to grab something and the weather was bad, and it was the night after the accident so I was scared. Friday I went to Char's work's Christmas party. It was fun! We ate then went bowling. Last night Char and I made cookies and watched March of the Penguins and stuff. We're getting closer to being finished decorating our tree. Eh I better go help.

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holiday

:: 2005 18 December :: 11.12am

Hahaha. Oh no.
To get in the Christmas spirit!
Your Christmas Stocking Will Be Filled With Little Wrapped Presents

You've made Santa a very happy fellow this year.
Don't worry - what happens at the North Pole stays at the North Pole!

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holiday

:: 2005 13 December :: 3.41pm

Oh my! I am so excited. I just had a really good idea. I'm hanging out w/Becca after class tonight. I am going to get something stupendous. I just finished my menu project and it was kind of nerve-racking. I really am excited about getting a new phone. Even though I don't need one. And I just got one a little while ago... Maybe I won't get a new phone. I'll have to look at Randi's a little more. I'm gonna see my boy tomorrow! YAY!
AND
I saw JENNA!!! hehehe :-)
Some guy is playing Usher on his phone down the hall...... uhhhh.
Well I'm gonna go get some subway because I'm just standin here in the hall. I have my Bus. Eng. Final tonight!!!!! AHHH

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holiday

:: 2005 12 December :: 10.53pm

Forget it then.
Just forget it.
You liar.

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holiday

:: 2005 9 December :: 10.06am
:: Music: Bright Eyes- Gold Mine Gutted

You were a stroke of luck
You were a gold mine that gutted us

I got out of work at midnight last night. So tired. After class I drove to Bethany Christian Center's National Office and waited for everyone to show up w/the truck and van. Then we unloaded and got plating on the salads and desserts and entrees. There were 100 people there. We had to wait for their presentation to be done til we could clean up and leave. So we got out of there around 9:30. Then we went back to Applause and unloaded 5 trucks and cleaned cambros and all that other stuff. I fell outside on the ice. I was just too pissed off to care. There were 12 parties yesterday. That's insane! My friends went to Fredrick Meijer Gardens for a St. Mary's party where they had 7 chef attended stations! Holy crap.
I signed up for more classes. Here's what I'm taking so far:
-Table Service
-Ice Carving
-Survey of American Government
Who knows if they'll stay. I'm keeping Ice Carving though!!! YEAH! Chainsaw! hahaha.
I go to the doctor next week. whoop whoop. not.
I have to work today at 2.

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holiday

:: 2005 7 December :: 11.27pm
:: Music: Beck- New Pollution

I've been secretly falling apart
I can't get Aqualung "Strange and Beautiful" out of my head. I was sleeping at Char's and singing "I put a spell on you, you fall asleep"
or something like that. It just wouldn't stop...
Anyway...
I love that aqualung song.
ANYWAY...
hahaha. I have sooo many projects and I just am really busy. Work has been crazy. Tomorrow right after class I have to go to Bethany Christian Services for a banquet or something. I have no idea how to get there...we'll see how that goes. It's fun though. Very hard work but rewarding. :-) Crazy. This is the first job that I actually enjoy. YAAY! I go to the doctor next week. hmmmmmmmmmmm hehehe.
I'm tired and just ranting and raving.
Well, that's about it i think....

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holiday

:: 2005 6 December :: 12.05am

Oh yeah. I forgot. My job is pretty awesome. I found out some stuff tonight. I don't watch harry potter but I guess we did a huge banquet for some people involved w/it and for all of you who do watch it, harry potter 5 comes out in june 2007 i think. you may have already known that. whatever. And, this girl i work w/went to the bishop of GR's house tonight. She goes there every week because we do a party for him every week. Theres some interesting stuff about that. I think it's cool.

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holiday

:: 2005 5 December :: 11.49pm

AHHHH
Work went well today. I'll post a pic of some stuff we make. Sometime. Sometime soon. I need to go to sleep. I barely did any homework lately because work has been so busy. Here are some platters that were done today. Jose did the awesome salmon platter and I worked on the little olive one. Which wasn't that hard but still fun. I did a ton of dessert trays yesterday. One was for 450.

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holiday

:: 2005 4 December :: 11.24pm

Hmm...Let's see...
Not going to class tomorrow. Weekend has been going crazy fast.
Friday after class I worked all night. Spent the night at Char's.
Saturday I worked from 2-midnight. Went to Fredrick Meijer Gardens and did a banquet for 180 there. Went back to Applause to unload trucks and such. After work I went to Char's and we ate a little food and I got home around 1:30. Then I went to bed around 2. Got up for work this morning around 6:30am. Worked all day till 3. Went to Charlie's and hung out. And now I'm back home. I am not going to class tomorrow because I need to try to do stuff for finals. I have to work tomorrow and I probably won't be getting out until late, there are at least 7 parties going on. Ugh. It's okay though. Not getting enough sleep is not okay though. Hmmm.
Well Charlie and I have some news but I'm not supposed to say anything yet. Until . .. Nevermind I said too much! Oh well.
Pepsi is good.

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holiday

:: 2005 1 December :: 11.38pm

Oh my gosh. Today was so crappy! I was freaking out about getting our project done. We finally finished it but were late for class. OH WELL. I was goin' crazy. Just a crappy crappy day.
I saw Jenna! haha :-) That was cool!
I hung out with the girls last night after work. So tired but we talked a lot and it was nice. I hung out w/Charlie today and that was really nice too. We went to Panera and stuff.
I think it's really happening this time, NO F'ing joke. For real.
Anyway, g'night!

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holiday

:: 2005 30 November :: 11.41pm

Work was interesting today. After class I went to Applause and we had a huge party for like 390 or something. Fun fun. I made 900 bread-rounds and some bruscetta. I'm so good. Haha. I was just really enjoying how awesome it feels to work hard. Sometimes. haha. But I mean, first semester is almost done, and I love my class. The difference between other classes and culinary classes is you form a family. We're so close. And it's almost done. We've always got each other's backs. It's cool. I sound like a dork though I'm sure. But I love it. And today, it was nice getting all that food out and getting complements and knowing you did well. Even though I burned the fuck out of my arm. It hurts. Bad. It's not a huge burn though. But anyway, works going to be super busy the next few weeks.
As for other things, still have no clue. Wish I knew. I don't want to just assume it's not happenin'... But I've been havin' addictions to cola. Which is strange, I haven't drank pop in a while, and now all I want is diet pepsi.
eHHHHHH
g'night.

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holiday

:: 2005 29 November :: 12.22am

I definitely should be asleep right now. But no. I got some really yummy shampoo last night with Becca now my hair smells wonderful! I love Biolage. mmm. Sorry...
Anyway, trying to get classes at cc sucks so bad. grrr. So many annoying customers today. "Can I have a kaiser roll, just a kaiser roll."
Me thinking : WE DON'T SELL THOSE JUST ORDER FOOD DAMMIT
"You're out of a lot of stuff. Grr. Well. WHINE WHINE WHINE"
Me thinking: Yeah, you came a half hour before we close. Get over it. We're a class, we're learning.
"Can we split the payment on two cards"
Me thinking: GO DIE!!!!
Ha j/k
But seriously, ANNOYING. Oh yeah, it was funny. A couple guys walked in and they go: "We'd like 2 double cheeseburgers"
Me: "Dubble Cheeeese buurgers???" (confused look)
Them: "Oh, we're not in McDonalds! hahaha"
I made the most out of all three registers though, that was cool. $429
Holy crap I have to get to sleep.

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