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Forever ♥

:: 2004 8 July :: 1.11am
:: Mood: uncomfortable
:: Music: Emerson Drive - Fishin' in the dark

..You and me goin' fishin' in the dark..
Hey everyone...today was intresting! Lotza fun!!! Cody n I were gonna go to Dairy Queen n then go to Church but he came to my house n told me that Church was a business meeting (so we didn't go) well we got halfway down the road n he asked if I wanted Jenn to go with us cuz I was all sad there wasn't gonna be no church n I couldn't see Jenn n I misses her =( and so we called and Tabi ended up bein there also...they didn't think they were gonna get 2 go but they ended up goin ne wayz lol...well we went to the Dairy Queen in Gallipolis and then went to Wal-Mart to be retarded and then we went on like 10 different back roads...and a field..............FULL OF COWS! It was pretty much scary! lol I had no clue where we were...Cody stopped and Jenn picked up a lysol can somewhere along the way cuz I was like OMG Cody stop I want that can...but Jenn threw it and we drove on haha! yeah we were gonna go out more roads but poor Tabi got sick so we took her and Jenn home and then I got home around 9:45. We sooo needa do that again =) I think we're all gonna go out again n go bowling Friday. Wooohu! Tommorow I think I may see if Cody wants to come over n swim unless theres somethin else I gotta do or the pool or weather isn't warm I may jus save that for another dat in the week...I dunno....hehehehe! Yea jus a bit ago I was readin old journal entrys and u know what? Why did I ever allow myself to be upset all the time over Luke when Cody was right there the whole time watchin it n still liked me. BLAH! and why did I get such bad grades over him and bein upset all the times...seriously! When I was with him I had like all C's and when I was in school and with Cody I had all A's and B's. That's really depressing! I know next year i'm gonna try my hardest so I can prove to myself that i'm not stupid...and it made mom and dad so happy when I brought home that 3.8 report card and I would love to see them that happy with my last *8* report cards. It'd be awesome! I'm kinda lookin forward to football season...not school all that much! Actually this summer has been pretty good, even thought I haven't spent much of it with some other friends that I would like to such as Jenn, Ben, Sarah, Em, Kim...I guess I just miss them a little and it seems like school is the only thing that's gonna cure that. Ehhh!!! I see Tabi every now and then and Cody like every other day. Aw. Cody I love youuuu. Just thought i'd add that in there. HAHA. I can't wait til the fair it's gonna be so much fun (AND i'll get to be with friends!) Jimmy Wayne...Billy Currington...& others! AHH and the fresh smell of dirty animals and their poop! haha, that sounds gross but when I go by a farm or sumthin I think of the fair...I guess it's really not that far away! And the Kenny Chesney concert is in like 2 weeks...It's also gonna be awesome. We got our tickets and they are Lower Level, Row N. Me n Codez gonna have a blast. There is sooo much to look forward to =) Ahhh...Well i'm gonna go but i'm gonna post this entry from awhile back that I found that is mostly for Jenn and Tabi to look at. I don't wanna make you all sad, cuz it made me sad but I started thinkin bout school and stuff earlier n I jus thought ya'll would like to see TTYL...XOXO

2003 6 November :: 3.46 pm
:: Mood: sad
Today was REALLY depressing. It was dark and rainy! and the worst of all, sumthin I cried and moped around about all day. Mr.Lambert is leavin sumtime next week to go to Iraq to fight in the war for 18 months or so. He is the most awesome teacher. I don't know what i'm gonna do without him there, he picked on me and made me mad every day, but for some reason I still liked him and his class. When he told us that he got his call today, me and Bobbi just started cryin and he was like girls why are you crying? and we were like OMG cuz we don't want u to leave! and like before we left for lunch we were talking about who the sub was gonna be while we were gone n he was like...."I don't know who the sub will be but no one will take care of you all like I do, and i'm gonna miss you all." and we just like all broke down. That makes me think back to the times when I was upset over Luke when I came back from lunch and he would always say sumthin funny about Luke and joke around with me and make me feel better and he would tell me some of him and Luke's fishing storys and stuff how Luke goes over to his house all the time cause Luke's cousin Aimee is married to Mr.Lamberts other son :( Another day I was really sick and he was worried about me and stuff...and another day Bobbi was crying and he brought her tissues and asked if she was gonna be okay...there's been way more times than that but that's just some that have really made me realize that he cares about us. Something else that hurts is today when he was checkin my timeline he was like, "Shama, who's gonna pick on you when i'm gone?" and I was like "I don't know i'm gonna miss you though I don't want you to leave." and he said "why? I pick on you every day you all seem like you hate me." I think he knows we don't but it feels weired to think he might think we do when actually he's one of our fav. teachers. His son is graduating in the Spring and he isn't even going to be here to see it. That's like the most depressing thing...my gosh I could never go through anything like that. I hope I can make it in that class without him teachin me. He is one of the best teachers in the world I can like always understand what he means n stuff...it's just all gonna be weired from now on, with that class an all. He is allowed to retire in December so he doesn't even know if he will be back to teach here anymore. It's so odd though. When he makes it back, most of us will be seniors, unless by some chance he gets back sooner (which I hope.) But yea i'm gonna change the subject cause I don't wanna cry anymore :( We love you Mr.Lambert! Good Luck!...

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sweetiepie2006

:: 2004 7 July :: 9.40pm

Hey Guys! I got back from up around Columbus Saturday evening. That night we all went to the Regatta at like 8...the Elvis impersonator person was good...he sounded just like him... but other than that...it sucked. I hated the fireworks. They lasted for like 5 minutes, and they didn't start going off 'til like a hour after they were supposed to. Neways...I wanted to go to good ole' Gallipolis to see the fireworks the next night but oh no...I couldn't go. But Yeah.. Tabi came over this morning like before 10, and we worked on my stupid English class for awhile... and then we watched my video tape of all the great songs I record off of the tv. Later on Shama and Cody called me from the end of Jerry's Run asking me if I wanted to go to Dairy Queen with them...at first I wasn't allowed but then I ended up being able to go... They came here to my house and picked me up at about 6, then we went to the Dairy Queen in Gallipolis, then we went to Krodel Park...I have no idea why...I guess Cody wanted to chase the ducks...lol... Then we drove out a lot of different back roads, it was fun. We ended up going thru a big field with cows all in it...we screamed really really loud...it was great. Then we stopped in the middle of the road and I got out and picked up a Lysol can...haha... we were gonna keep driving out back roads but Tabi got sick so we came back here at about 9 sumthin...but yeah it was great, and here I am now...bored...lol...Tabi's asleep cuz shes sick...so yeah....tears! But oh well...I'ma go...bye bye!!

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shama06

:: 2004 5 July :: 4.40pm

-This is on the 100 greatest love songs right now and I lovez it so I thought i'd put it on here......

-It was no accident me finding you
Someone had a hand in it
Long before we ever knew
Now I just can't believe you're in my life
Heaven's smilin' down on me
As I look at you tonight.
-I tip my hat to the keeper of the stars
He sure knew what he was doin'
When he joined these two hearts
I hold everything
When I hold you in my arms
I've got all I'll ever need
Thanks to the keeper of the stars.
-Soft moonlight on your face oh how you shine
It takes my breath away
Just to look into your eyes
I know I don't deserve a treasure like you
There really are no words
To show my gratitude.
-I tip my hat to the keeper of the stars
He sure knew what he was doin'
When he joined these two hearts
I hold everything
When I hold you in my arms
I've got all I'll ever need
Thanks to the keeper of the stars.
-It was no accident me finding you.
Someone had a hand in it
Long before we ever knew.

-This is one of my favorite songs rite now...it's great! Verrry sad.

-She put him out like the burnin' end of a midnight cigarette
She broke his heart he spent his whole life tryin' to forget
We watched him drink his pain away a little at a time
But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind
Until the night
-He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away her memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength he had to get up off his knees
We found him with his face down in the pillow
With a note that said I'll love her till I die
And when we buried him beneath the willow
The angels sang a whiskey lullaby
La la la la la la la la la la la la la la.
-The rumors flew but nobody knew how much she blamed herself
For years and years she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath
She finally drank her pain away a little at a time
But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind
Until the night
-She put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away his memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength she had to get up off her knees
We found her with her face down in the pillow
Clinging to his picture for dear life
We laid her next to him beneath the willow
While the angels sang a whiskey lullaby
La la la la la la la la la la la la la la.

-Stole this from someone elses journal...I hope they don't mind =)
.x.SuRvEy.x.
1. Friends call you: Shama? lol...Jenn calls me Sharmers, Luke and Ben call me Shamane...Cody calls me Shamarie (real name) sumtimes
2. What's the name you once wished you'd rather have?: LoTz...Kelli, Jamie - lotz more
3. What is/are the ugliest name(s) you can think of?: Maurice, Fred, ahh therez others
4. What would you name these if you had them as pets?
a. turtle: Speedy
b. goose: Beauty..lmbo
c. parrot: Polly
d. a hot boy: Cody
5. If there was a song about you, what would it be called?: Crazy girl or somethin on the lines of that
6. What would you name your kids?: Ahh I dunno I like Nick. Andrew. Hailey....and lots more but I dunno what whoever i'm married to would think
7. What would you name a ship you built?: Love Boat...lol
8. If you wrote a book, what would it be called?: heck I duno
.x.Have you ever.x.
9. Thrown up in public?: I think so
10. Eaten or drank anything spoiled?: yeaa milk & hard tah tell what else lol
11. Had a rip in your pants you didn't know about? yeah many times but it was in gym class and at home...with like pajama pants
12. Tripped while checking someone out?: LmBo!! Well I wasn't really checkin em out but at the beach there was this truck playin When the sun goes down and i looked back at it to see if there was ppl in the back and i tripped...everyone thought I was checkin em out...but NO. lol
13. Had to pay for something you broke?: lol naw I jus walked away
14. Nearly drowned?: nope I took swimming lessons with Sarah, Stacy, Tabi n Summer & a few others when I was like 7 or 8
15. Passed out?: I used to have black outs like last year all the time still do every now n then
16. Had a crush on somebody: um no, never
17. Been stuck in the rain?: yehp!!
18. Been attacked by an animal?: lol Cody's dog Fancy...hahaha...j/k
19. Caught people having sex?: Naw...lol
20. Fallen asleep while driving?: No and I hope I never do
21. Felt attracted to someone of the same sex?: Umm...can't say I have! lol
22. Actually slipped on a banana peel?: Not that I can remember
23. Made a wish that came true?: Yep
.x.Complete The Sentence.x.
24. I once had a dream: that I took over Baskin Robbins...YUM!
25. I'm only racist towards: big drunken potheads, liars, whores!
26. I don't even know why I'm: not doing somethin more productive
27. I'd give anything to have sex with: Brad Mates (singer)........LMBO
28. Nothing sucks more than having to: make up an excuse, drive really far away or get up early
29. If I had six bucks I�d buy: Somethin in bath & body works
30. It's hot. I should take off my: Clothes...lol
31. It's always more fun if you: laugh
32. You can't eat steak without: Country Bob sauce...it's great =)
33. You better shut up before I: beat you down
34. I really like you and everything but: If you don't shut up i'm gonna beat you down
.x.What would you do if.x.
35. A dirty old guy at the airport slaps your ass?: I would knock the sh*t outta him
36. Somebody was about to steal your car?: Call the cops
37. You wake up with a billion spiders crawling all over you and your bed?: I would probably die of shock becuz they are like one of my worst fears
38. You one day find out that your lover is cheating on you with your best friend?: I would cry, beat the crap out of them both and then move far, far away
39. The person you just kissed tells you they have oral herpes?: lol that's kinda gross...
40. You have three wishes? 1. people weren't so mean 2. The stupid war would end and our soldiers could all come home to their families 3.All my friends and family were as happy as they could be for most of the resta their lives
41. The government allowed you to choose one thing to be made illegal and one thing to be legalized?: legal - hmm maybe something to do with age for marriage and illegal - smoking...blah it is so freakin nasty
42. Britney Spears was at your front door asking for jumper cables?: I would go get them for her and help her out
43. You had a time machine?: I would go back and change "certian things" i've done in the past and then come back
44. FOX gave you a half hour show to do whatever you wanted?: It'd be like American Idol...sorta
45. Would you rather find the cure for cancer or the cure for AIDS?: Cancer cause it is more important to cure than AIDS cuz so many ppl wouldnt have it if people actually cared n didn't have unprotected sex and other crap
46. Would you rather have the power to fly, or the power to teleport?: teleport
47. Would you rather have the power to see the future, or the power to record your dreams?: record dreams cause seein the future would kinda be scary
48. Would you rather be really skinny, or really fat?: skinny
49. Would you rather be lost in a forest, or stuck in a box?: A box, i'd chew my way out or sumthin lol
50. Would you rather be in a drama movie, or a comedy?: Hmm...I dunno really
51. Would you rather be in a hip hop video or a rock video?: rock
52. Would you rather have your birthday on Christmas Day, or on February 29th?: Feb.29 cuz i'd get more presents lol...
53. Would you rather live in the sewer, or in Afghanistan?: That's a toughy, probably a sewer and i'd only go there when I had to...cause yea if i lived in Afganistan, I probably wouldn't be alive right now!
54. Would you rather be in a mental institution or in a penitentiary?: penitentiary
55. Would you rather snow board or hang glide: snow board
56. Would you rather be a ninja or a pirate?: Prob a pirate cuz they are all on the ocean an stuff
.x.What's the first thing that comes to your mind when you read the following words?.x.
a. Courage: someone strong
b. Driver: Dale Jr.
c. Yoga: peace of mind
d. Bakery: cakes and stuff
e. Roach: YUCK
f. Mushroom: Good in salads
g. Sprung: a spring ina pen lol
h. Exotic: sexxxxi! lol
i. Pythagorean: Theorum
.x.Miscellaneous.x.
57. Would u ever date a person of ur same sex?: That's gross...NO!
58. List 3 words that are clues to identifying a person you are currently interested in: cute, sweet, polite
59. Reveal a secret about you that nobody knows of: do u mean would I, or have I???
60. Were you too scared to do it?: WtF?
61. Who or what is your worst enemy?: My aunts ex...grr and a couple other chiks...lol
62. Who is the last person you kicked: probably Cody...kickin his butt
63. If you had to be a chess piece, which piece would you be?: I don't know anything about chess cept it's a checkered board and theres lil black n white horses
64. Name three people you know whose names begin with the first letter of your last name: Well Cody's first name is William but other than that I can't really think of ne 1 with W as a first name
65.Where would u rather want to live-land,air,water?: land

-Kim...I just read your journal and you better not switch schools...we all lovez u you're awesome and we'd be so sad if you left...

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