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FRIENDS:
Best:
*Girls: jess, dani, sammie, beans
*Guys: gunnie, andy, roman, justin b
You\'ve Known the Longest: jess!
You\'ve known the least longest: um... beans ? well i knew her, but i wasnt friends with her
You can tell anything to: i can tell a lot of people almost everything, but i can tell jess anything.
Lives farthest away: my penpal in Japan
Lives closest: danielle hansing
Weirdest: jess, dani, beans, samm
Funniest: see above. but all my friends are hilarious
Shyest: sometimes jess, otherwise erika.
Quietest: erika
Smartest: andy? gunnie? spud? dunno
Coolest: everyone
Flirtiest: SAMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cutest: heh
Prettiest: all of \'em.
Tallest: Mitch!
Shortest: danielle and denee\' or sammie
Most outgoing: probably dani.
Most hyper: samm and jess ...wait, and dani.
Most charming: um charming? haha probably roman.. and justin. their hair is charming. :)
Most friendly: dani, taryn and roman
Most caring: jess and dani
Most sensitive: dani
Most Popular: jess
Most creative: jess and beans
Most annoying: some of my friends get annoying..but in a good way. like...funny annoying.
Most \"off and on\": an off and on friend? um... ???
Most TRULY unique: probably gunnie and beans.
Most Pampered: Dani
Most kissable: ?>
Most confusing: hmm... angeeh and spud
Always there for you: jess, dani, samm, andy....a lot of people.
Always makes you laugh: jess .. well, everyone really.
Always has something clever to say: beans and spud
Always makes you really think: angeeh, taryn, justin, and josh.
Always brightens your day: oh gosh. all of them.
Most daring: josh ? and joslyn
Most outrageous: dani, samm
Most blonde at heart: Jess :)
Best Hair: Jess, Ang, JUSTIN AND ROMAN!!!!
Best Eyes: sammie and josh
Best Smile: umm.. i dunno probaly josh
Most likely to become famous: kevin, robby, dusty
Most likely to star in a \"got milk ad\": gunnie
Most likely to become a Hollywood actress: ?
Most likely to become a writer: i\'m not sure
Most likely to go to Harvard: ?
Most likely to end up flipping burgers at the local fast food restaurant: ME!
most likely to become a celebrity athlete: andy or jess probably.
First to get married: jess or taryn
Last to get married: danielle
The one who will probably never get married: um...... i think all of my friends will
The casanova: ?
The player: um... sammie?
One who\'ll have the most kids: sammie
One who\'ll have the least: beans
One who\'ll be your maid of honor: jess
One who\'ll be your best man: thats the guy\'s choice
One whose like the sister god forgot to give you: jess and dani
One whose like the brother god forgot to give you: gunnie

and so

blesh. i want to be able to play piano like him. =)

ummmm today sucked. like i knew it would. whatever. coming home turned out better to be what i thought it would be. thats good... i'm supposed to be at dano's in a half an hour.... yeah i'll get there.


its so crazy. the way moods change. i dont know.

bye for now.

you suck. you suck. you suck. you suck.
GENERAL INFO
Time: 11:04 PM
Birth Date: 3-8-88
Name on Birth Certificate: Jessica Michele Wilde
Age:14
College: nooooo
Location: My basement.
Email :
Color of Eyes:blue
Hair: brown
Fantasy Height: like...4 inches taller
Shoe Size: 7-ish
Brothers/Sisters: yeah
Bedtime: now

--HAVE YOU EVER--
Ever been so drunk you blacked out: only every day!
Put a body part on fire for amusement: nooo
Been in a car accident:nooo
Been hurt emotionally:every day
Kept a secret from everyone: every day
Had an imaginary friend: nooo
Wanted to hook up with a friend:um..i guess?
Cried during a movie:yes
Had a crush on a teacher:yes
Ever thought an animated character was hot? hahahahaha! oh man i forgot about that.
Had a New Kids On The Block tape:I was too young
Cut your hair: yes

FAVORITES--
Shampoo: salon selectives stuff
Color: baby blue
Day/Night: probably night
Summer/Winter:summer
Lace or satin: ....
Cartoon characters: ?
Food: caaant thinnnk..um. mashed potatoes and gummi worms
Advertisement: i dont kknow
Movie: Moulin Rouge and Josie and the Pussycats
Ice Cream: cookie dough. yum
Subject: band

--RIGHT NOW--
>Wearing: pajamas and a blanket
Drinking: nada
Thinking about: my eyes hurt and i should go to bed and my dad is going to come downstairs any minute and ground me and i dont want to go to school and i hate school. yeah, thats all.
Listening to: ben folds - still fightin it. playing in my room...
Talking to: myself
Watching: the computer
>*--WITHIN THE LAST 24 HOURS--
Cried: yeah
Worn a skirt:yes actually.
Met someone new:yes that Hans kid.
Cleaned your room:yes
Done laundry:no
Drove a car:no
>
--DO YOU BELIEVE IN--
Yourself: suuuure
Santa Claus: yes
Tooth Fairy: nooooo
Angels: yes
Ghosts: i'm not sure
UFO's: not really
Jesus Christ: yes

--FRIENDS AND LIFE--
Like anyone?: no. i hate everyone. evvverrryoneee.
Who's the loudest?: Dano.
Who's the weirdest?: everyone.
Who do you go to for advice? geez. everyone
Who do you think about most when you're not online?: YOU!
Who do you cry with?: myself? jess? dani?
When did you last cry?: uh..like 10 minutes ago. bllllleeeh
What's the best feeling in the world?: heck if i know
Worst Feeling?: there are too many


Time: to go to bed. or go eat something maybe. .....i'm scared to go upstairs.

I'm comin' home baby! You're the tops! Give it to me now!


yeah yeah. what do i think of that. i still haven't figured it out. the only one. the ONLY one who noticed. thats okay though. he believed me.

i need to figure stuff out. and quick. the funny thing is; i dont want to. i dont want to try to strain my mind for a solution to my problem. but i need one.

or do I. maybe i'm just making it into a bigger problem than it is. rrrrrrr... i wish i hadnt said anything. why did i have to let my melodramatic side of myself run away with ..... myself.

grrr. stupid stupid stupid jess. grrr. stupid.

SHADOW!!!


bleeeeh. Today was pretty uneventful. I dont know. Mr Robuck pisses me off because he won't let me play for solo ensemble just because I don't take lessons for piano anymore. Urrg. I wanted to do it really bad. I took lessons for 5 years. I think that's enough.

brr. i'm cold.

I've decided I want to learn how to play the harp. mmhmm thats right. Don't ask me why. I just want to. I want to learn how to play the harp and guitar. But more so harp. I think.

well. thats enough rambling for now. i need to go study for my science test and watch my BEN FOLDS DVD!!!!! WOOH!!! I need to prioritize. Which is more important? I ask you. Test? DVD?

everybody knows...... it sucks to grow up. lalalaalala. =)

OOH!

klonkjbkjb

*sigh* i love this music. I bought the Ben Folds Live CD today. But I accidently bought the edited one so I have all the stupid "beeeeeps" in it. Oh well. Dani I promise I will how to play that little solo piano part and you will be the first to hear it. ok?

Yeah. So today Jess and I went to this Haunted Barn thing with my church and it was just like a haunted house thingie. It was so awesome. I laughed and screamed so much! Jess even fell over once, when one of the guys jumped out. It was a bummer that I didn't get to see Robbie. But I think he was one of the guys with a mask on... I think I recognized his voice. But I guess I was kind of expecting to hear more than his voice...ya know, be able to talk to him. =( Yeah, well it was fun anyway. And the guy with chain saw kept following me, even into the next room. I was freaking out. lol. It was hilarious.

bleeeeeeeh. i want to go to sleep in my flannel sheets and not get up until 10:00 am.

my feet are cold.

goodbye.

WOOOO HAHAHAHAHA


YAY! Dani and I might go to a Ben Folds concert!!! WOO HOOO!!!!!

:) I've decided I'm going to marry Ben Folds. (after Edgar and I get a divorce...after we marry ....on Monday)

DANCE!!!! =) NOW!!!!!

LOOK! A Happy Entry!

So I'm in a better mood. I went babysitting and it was pretty fun. It was for my cousins Lacy, Erica, Kirsten and Hannah. They all are so cute. Kirsten is 10, Lacy will be 8 in two days , Erica and Hannah are both 5 I think. I don't get to see Kirsten and Hannah a lot because they live in Wisconsin and I don't get to see any of them as much as I'd like to. But I love them all so much. We had fun. We made Kool-Aid and watched Beauty and the Beast =) And Hannah and I played the game "Trouble" which I have not played in so long. It was fun and I got away for a while.

OH!!!!! AND! My grandma (she lives right next to my aunt which is where I was babysitting..my parents and my two aunts and uncles and grandparents all went out to dinner) My grandma bought me a coat! It was a Christmas present but I was telling her about how I lost both of my coats and one of them someone probably stole so she was like "Jessa, I have an early Christmas present for you, and tell me if you like it" So she gave me it and I was so happy =) And now I don't have to freeze my butt off! Yay!

Yeah, and the other good thing that happened tonight, oh! besides getting 10 bucks! Is that my dad drove me home and my mom stayed at my grandparents house for a while (shes still there) so she could talk with everybody some more and my dad and I were talking and I think he really understands me ...well, ya know, better than my mom. He understands how I want to be able to go and do stuff, but he told me that I will have to time to do stuff so don't worry about it so much right now. Yeah.... and we just talked about other stuff too and it was nice. =) I'm happy to have a dad. And I want to get along with him. You know, I usually wish my dad was more involved with my life...and I usually wish my mom wasnt so involved with my life. I think there is supposed to be some kind of balance in there...

hmm. Well, I am so thankful that I get to SLEEP IN tomorrow. yay!! SLEEEEEEP!!! Yeah, so I guess I'll go now! Bye bye =)

i was spinning free, woah oh oh

yes. once again she has put me in a bad mood. Today wasn't such a bad day until I got home. Like always. *sigh* I'm so sick of her judging everyone. She thinks she knows everyone and who they are. Guess what, she doesn't . So she can shut up and stop telling me who she likes and who she doesnt cause I don't esspecially CARE. My gosh. Just because she thinks so and so is a good kid doesnt mean I'm going to be their best friend. And just because she thinks so and so is the sweetest guy in the world doesn't mean I'm going to DATE THEM. I pick my own freaking friends and BOYFRIENDS. UGH. Why doesn't she know when to lay off? I think I'm actually getting along better with my dad. Maybe it's because I barely see him. I dont know. Last night he gave me a hug and I was just like...aww.. I relized I haven't hugged my dad in so long. And then like 15 minutes ago he called and he's like "how are you" and i'm like "not the greatest" and he's like "why not" and i said "cause mom is bugging the crap out of me." and he said "your mom? no never. why?" and I said "cause she judges all of my friends and she doesnt even know them. blah blah blah" and he said "well i dont judge your friends. do i?" and I said "No." and he said "well you know you can always talk to me" or something like that. hmph. and then he started talking about me wanting a boyfriend or something...and then i started crying and i have no clue why. ummm yeah. whatever. bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeh. and now i have to go babysit and I am NOT in the mood anymore. thanks to her. urg.

So, after all that. Three positive things about my day....
We started watching Forrest Gump in math hahahha.
We didn't have to play in band.
I got hugged. Hey, more than once even! That always cheers me up.

urg. get away from me. now.

UGGHGHDKJASDLGKJ

she's trying to prove a point.

by being a JERK!!!!!!

!@#%!(*^*!#$)^(*

yeah, stumble till you crawl. sinking into sweet uncertainty.

yes. ::: Honesty is the best policy.

Remember that.
Ha
Ha
Ha

Shit, I hate it. I've ran out of frusterated words to use. How about: CREASDKJTEIASHrrrr >:-@

oh. my. gosh.

Jess says:
ugh i cant stand you, you are so negative all of the time. Why can't you just accept other people?
----------------------- grrrrr..

"There will always be those phony people in the world, and if thats who you want to listen to, enjoy, life will come and slap you in the face and you will wonder what happend" .....

Ugh. shut up. Uggggh

are you listening? woah oh oh.... sing it back. woah oh oh..


"-I guess you dont see what eveyone else does, but that cant be helped, but maybe youre shutting out possibilities because of ...I dont know "

rarrrrr. grr. hmph.