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Toki

:: 2004 20 July :: 1.44am
:: Mood: pessimistic

I wish that people from work would read this. I want people to know that I'm not boring-sad-crazy me. Lately I've been slowly becoming less able to pretend to be happy. And less able to just relax. And I'm sorry for that.

I'm not a bitchy person. Really. I promise. I'm just tired.

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mudpiegrl

:: 2004 19 July :: 2.31pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: 106.7 ::drip, drip:: the fish

so senior picutres today...i think i spend less time getting ready for dances...lol

so ill finish about the concert later...but check it out tnt...




went to the Renaissance Faire yesterday with Q, Stunkel and Q's family.

twas a party...better had i had money but still good

oh look...now am listneing to chevelle

:)

adios

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Toki

:: 2004 19 July :: 12.56am
:: Mood: Undecided

Somebody. Please. I dont know anymore. I can't do this. I want to quit, can I quit? Please?

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Anytngbtordinary

:: 2004 18 July :: 10.14pm
:: Music: I Hate Everything About You... not sure of the group..oh well

That had to be the best time ive had in a while. Last night was fun, stalking people with Meghan...until creepy guys hit on us... also making cookies for Hul...until he ditched us but it wasnt his fault and he kept apologizing. The Cookie time was awesome, i havent had that good of a conversation with someone in months...but it ended when we smelled burning cookies...
Today...was really great... hanging out with Hul a whole bunch walked to stone fence farm park?? Why the hell is it called farm park? We couldnt figure that out. Then i went to Melanie's party which was really fun. I'm so glad i went..i wish i was still there. We watched I love the 90's for a long time... I miss the 90s...esspecially 97. ::Sigh:: Can I go back?

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Toki

:: 2004 18 July :: 6.41pm

I REALLY need to learn how to drive. Badly. Not drive badly. but the need is bad. Never mind. I'm of to work. Bye.

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Toki

:: 2004 18 July :: 6.08pm
:: Mood: crappy

I'm a very crappy person. Just so you all know. This is probably another entry where I shouldn't say exactly what I think. Because no one really cares anyways. But as soon as you write something controversial...Boom. Drama. Crap. Fun.

So yesterday was fun. I was out almost all day. And honestly I needed that. We went to see I, Robot. Insanity. I never have seen a movie there since I started working. Then I was flipping out. Too much energy. That's what happens when you have A) No school at 7am and B) No work until 10:45. It was uber-cool.

After we journeyed to Culver's where The Kim and I shared a burger and fries. Then we shared ice cream with the Jillian. Haha. "what flavor do you want?" "There's flavors?!"

So we proceeded to remain outside of Culver's for about another 2 hours. We talked. Boys talked. We talked together. Before moving ourselves to Jill's place. Where we saw two "puppies"...even though they were BEASTS. So then the Kim went home and we were joined by Hul-ay.

Then off to VH celebration, which I actually went to. Uber sweet. I have to go. Eventhough it can be boring. Or else I die. It's the way it goes.

The walk over there was kinda ehh..I don't know. I wasn't too happy at alot of times when we were there. Which was bad. BUt I don't know. We're all allowed to have bad moods. I don't know. I can't really explain why here. Refer to first paragraph for more information. And no, it's just not one person. ok?

So yeah. We stood around at the thing for a while. It got better. Circles suck though. You're in one. Then two seconds later, they close you out of conversation and circle. so you have to fine someone else who was un-circleized. Party. Not really.

Well. Good times after that atleast. Jill and I went to the Ash-A-Lee's. Where we slept. The pants was there for a bit. But he's not a girl, thus he had to leave.

We watched lotsa I Love The 90's and Degrassi. And then parts of the movie that I can't spell even though I've tried for five minutes. It was..wow. We decided it wasn't a 4am movie and flicked it off. Then we discovered...bum bum bum...aol radio. Hehe. Had VH style rave there. It was good though. At Ashley's house. Because it was just realxing good time fun. No drama. Woo hoo.

Then after chatting about aliens abducting us and writing poetry about it. I passed out. Then woke up. and passed out again. The woke up again and went home.

Where I proceeded to explode on my family for everything that made me angry at VH celebration thing. Which is uber bad, I know. But someone told me that if I hold my anger in, I'll be an explosive angry little person. Which is oh so true.

So to avoid more human contact, I slept. For 4 hours. Then I took a shower. And I'm here now. Going to work soon. Working concessions. Woo popcorn.
-Patrice


PS- I hate the world somedays. I hate hating things. But I do sometimes. I have to think about my own sanity. Right? That's a good thing. But what's good for me? I really don't know right now. I wish someone could tell me.

DOOM DOOM DOOM DI DOOM DI DOOOM!
::bows::

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Anytngbtordinary

:: 2004 18 July :: 3.38am

I hate change.

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toki

:: 2004 17 July :: 11.10pm
:: Mood: Relieved.

Work is getting better. It's not hellish. I'm starting to kind of talk to people. Which is hard for me, dudes. Which most of you know.

So yeah. I saw Sandy and Goli and Wender-Pants and Jill and Chris and Jorie and Nick and Jackie and Benton and Lisa and probably more people. That's all i really saw saw. Yeah. It was cool.

[Edit:12:26]

Don't feel so peppy anymore. Deleted most of this. Does really matter anyways? Not really. Nothing does. Good bye.

~Patrice

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toki

:: 2004 16 July :: 7.08am
:: Mood: Alive

Don't worry guys. I didn't go online last night, but I am still alive. Ha. I knew you were freaking out. Not really.

Yeah, summer school...we made cinnamin rolls. Yuuuum. Then Jill took me home. Then came back. Then we visted the Pants and annoyed him until I had to go run to work.

Work was hell. I did get to go home a half hour early. So I went home, scarfed down food and decided to maybe get some sleep.

Now its 7:11 and I have to find pants to wear to schoool. The Jillian will be here soon. Ks? ks. Bye.
-Patrice.

PS- I wanna comment on people's journals. But Im too lazy. so just on big HII! To everyone.

Oh, and I want to go to VH thing. :-( I only have saturday off though. Poo. I know. Ah well. Ok I'm done. Adios.

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mudpiegrl

:: 2004 15 July :: 12.28pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: 106.7 ::drip, drip:: The Fish

holy awesome concert
so last night was the concert and it was awesome...

incubus always is!!!!!!!!

there was a like ten minute drum solo featureing brandon on bongos and i think his name is ben (new bassist) and of course jose. and after they came back out i agree with the kids we met at denny's (that'll be later) but it was kinda disappointing.

of course the lights were awesome, and they played a different version of drive which was awesome...and they played "pistola" and then a whole mess of morning view and then some science!!! woo science...not enough make yourself tho...it was sad!!!

i wish a few more from

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toki

:: 2004 15 July :: 12.26am
:: Mood: None
:: Music: None

Strike and Spare..:-)
Well. I'm gonna give you a brief overview of the day. Without sharing any feelings. I might just start exploding. Ok?

So I went to school. Picked stocks opposite of Jills. We're competing. She earned more money then I did.

I went home next. Sat around, missed Johhny Depp A-Z. Jackie came and picked me up. I wrapped Q's present in the car.

We got to Q's house, we called him, he told us his house number. We went inside. Pirates was going on. I ate cauliflower and sat there. Then Q gave us cake. And lotsa lotsa good food. (BTW..HAPPY BIRTHDAY Q! Hope you had fun..)

Then Wender called me about bowling. I asked Jackie if she wanted to go. She said "maybe". Then she left. Corey showed up. Reid and Q and Corey were watching the Rocky Horror Picture Show. Sandy and I just kinda sat.

We went to get Sandy's car. We drove to Jackie's, she went with Corey. We drove to Q's. Got Q and Reid. Drove too far down 45. Had to call Wender to help us.

We got to the bowling place, Sandy and I joined the first game. Because we had to leave early. We bowled. I sucked. Everyone else did good. Second time around, I got a spare and a strike. (One moment of reaction..WOOO! NEVER GOTTEN A STRIKE BEFORE!)

Went home. Talked to Sandy in the car. Found out Bush's amendment to the constitution regarding gay marriages was rejected. (More YAY!..No, I'm not gay. I just think that taking away a basic freedom like who to marry is against what this country was built on)

So I'm home now. Writing all this. School tmorrow. Then work at 5:45. Till 10:45. It's a shorter day.

Ok bye.
-Patrice

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toki

:: 2004 13 July :: 12.28am
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Don't Let The Sun Go Down On Me

Just Another Day.
Just another fun filled day of school and work. Ate lunch with people. Then was home for about 20 minutes, went to work.

Then on break I stopped by Petsmart and pet the cats and hung out with the fish. Good times.

Was $12 under. I feel stupid. I hate working sometimes. Oh well. It's life.

-patrice

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toki

:: 2004 11 July :: 3.26pm

I don't feel good. I feel sick right now. I have to go to work soon.

I ate way too much for lunch. I thought I was more hungry I guess. Blech.

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toki

:: 2004 11 July :: 2.33am
:: Mood: Crushed
:: Music: Yawn

Yawn
Yes, I'm updating. I've been away from woohu for less then 24 hours. I almost died. ::sigh::

There's nothing to look forward to anymore. Just another endless routine to fall into. School...shower..work..online..sleep...and repeat.

It makes me..not too happy. I'm sick of routine. I'm sick of the same thing. I'm sick of not being able to wake up actually wanting to start the day. I'm sick of just wanting to sleep and never leave my bed.

I'm sick of being happy one minute then talking about something or just getting lost in my thoughts and not being able to smile for a long time. I want to be happy. As cliche as that sounds. I want something to smile about.

AND I HATE NOT BEING IN CONTROL OF MY OWN LIFE!

Fucking hell. Super heroes should exist. It would be nice. Oh no, I'm hurt. Don't worry, I'll save you! Thanks... You're welcome. Now go live your life. ;-)

I feel small right now. Alot smaller then 4'11".

If only I could fly. Then I could go awy whenever I needed too. I would still be thinking these bad thoughts, I would just be too busy flying over everything to really care either way.

Everything would look small from up there. I would feel bigger maybe.

I'm really not mad at anyone right now. I blame no one. I blame me. I hate myself. I can't look inthe mirrow without wanting to break it. I can't think about me without wanting to just run awau..but I l realize you can't escape from yourself.

The only way is to just forget. Forget about what's really on your mind and what's really bugging you. make up pitiful excuses. Laugh at the stupid things. What else is there to smile about?

Don't hate me. ok? I do enough hating of the self to cover the world over.

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mudpiegrl

:: 2004 10 July :: 7.17pm
:: Mood: hot
:: Music: 94.7 zone

hello

i live in a sauna

enter the sauna

you may not return from the sauna

but the sauna has a fan

and three windows





VISIT THE SAUNA!!!

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