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2004 10 July :: 2.18pm
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The intensity is settling down a little bit, but your mind is still buzzing with some leftover energy from the past week. You may be feeling angry or upset at the way things have gone down, but there is little you can do about it today, except keep your communication channels as open as possible. Phone calls, emails, social or business meetings -- whatever way you can. Be clear. Be inspired. And be direct.
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2004 10 July :: 1.23am
:: Mood: Quiet
:: Music: Five For Fighting- One More For Love
Yeah. So my cat's butt is infected. I hope she's ok. :-( I'm kinda worried.
I had this insane dream today the third time I slept. K? I'll tell you. It's long, so this time it's the main points. Ha.
Jill and two pple from my work were wondering around an old house with butcher knives. and they're pretending like they're action heroes. And they're trying to get me to play along, but I feel sick. So I faint and it feels like I'm about to pass out..and i wake up and I'm watching a movei trailer on my cell phone. Then I realize it's not my phone. but a portable DVD player. And the girl in the movie sends images of dead people to my head.
Then I'm in school and Phelan and I are talking and there's a kid kickign a box around on the catwalk...so I have to go up and tell him to stop. But when I get up there, it's really a balcony overlooking a garden and the kid throws the box at me head and laughs.
Then I'm sitting by the edge of the balcony and start to cry...because I've been sitting there so long and no one came to get me down after I had just helped this little kid get down before me.
So I start to watch a DVD and its about a girl whose parents died and she's explaining how it happened..she has all the scars of a fire..but no one is listening really. So she looks at me and tells me not to listen to others. They don't listen to you.
So I get on this teacup ride and ti starts to spin and a voice starts talking to me about the ride and connecting it to life. Then I think I'm not really on the ride, it's just the movie, so I don't get scared.
Then I go on another ride and the same thing happens, but I realize it's a real ride halfway through the guy's speech and I start to pass out again.
Ok. My dream. I think I'll try to talk at work tomorrow. I will. You can't stop me. I can do this. yeah? Ok. ::sigh:: Woo. Ok. Be strong patrice. :-\. Ks.
Saw Now and Then. Why can't life be more like movies. "we're friends forever...." I always thought ti was possible, but now I doubt myself. People change and they change what they expect out of friends. I hate change when you still live in the same place. It'd be alot easier if I picked up and moved right now. Then everything would change atleast, and back here would always seem to be the same.
I don't know. I'm very....---------...right now. Not happy, not sad. Just here. Wo. Welcome here.
Good bye.
-Patrice
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2004 9 July :: 12.21am
:: Mood: Pissed Off
Work...fucking...sucks!
I swore alot today. Thats how you know I'm mad. Work sucked. Shiity trainer who didn't do anything, then I got another dude who was nice, but I walked around like an idiont cuz he didnt tell me what to do when there was nothing to cleana nd I felt stupid and like an idiot and I didn't get a break and I got to leave at 9:30. Gr.
So I don't work tomorrow. Meaning I WILL get out of this house and I WILL have fun with people. Because I'm working Saturday-tuesday...then thursday. Woo. I get one day off. Fucking hell.
Ok, call me tomorrow, ok? I need to get out right now. My brains not liking me and I need to run away. Again. Yes I know. I can't handle things. I can't handle stress. Thanks for telling me. You fucking shit face.
So I made up a sogn at work today....
"I hate work..Oh yes I do...I ahte work...because work hates me. No onelikes me. I am ignored. Not that i mind much, its just a bore"
I sang it to myself as I wandered around trying to find shit to do.
Isn't it sad? School is the best thing that's happened to me all week. Well..one of the best. Tennis and some ceonversations rank high up there. But fucking hell. I need to get out of here.
I'm quitting before I say too much. Bye shit heads.
-Patrice
(the "you shit heads" and other comments were nto directed at you or anyone else. The last thing I need is controversy over this)
(By stating "you" above, I was refering to the general population, not making any kind of mean comment.)
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2004 8 July :: 5.20pm
I SURVIVED ONE DAY OF SUMMER SCHOOL!
Yeah. I survived. Not too bad. class wanted to kick my ass because I wrote too much on the overhead. Ha. Screw them. Fun times.
Jilland I have our own kitchen. Party and a half. French toast was good today. Mac and cheese better be good. ::fingers crossed.
Okie...off to work I go. Yum yum. Yes, I'm off to eat work. Haha. I need help.
-patrice
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2004 8 July :: 12.04pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: chevelle
im going swimming!!!!!!!!!
woo!
okie...recap of last couple days...
so the other day patrice slept over and in the morning when i was going to take her home (okie so it was four o'clock) hul and Q and stunkel came over... i walked with hul and Q and stunkel down the railroad across milwalkee and into the libertyville forest preserve...then from there we found the path and ended up on st. mary's and we walked down that to sixty and then to rivertree to visit buttface/trix/patrice...and then to best buy where i saw anthony and andy and mark (he lost loads of weight and got taller)...
upon arriving home nick called hul and met him at the corner...and then they came over...
well i promised Q id take him back to best buy so he could buy whatever he wanted...and then, again, upon arriving home, more people were there...
kyle, benton, jackie, sandy (who i asked to come get her ice cream) were all there.
i must remind you all i wanted was to take a warm bath with some national geografic story about the rest of the world being as wasteful as the US and then relax while watching a movie that i hadnt watched in a while.
but then i had to wait a few hours for everyone to leave.
and jen ended up sleeping over cuz she came home...
next day (i actually have no idea what order these go in...but yea)
then neil came home and so i went to see him right after my useless doctor appt. which only told me to go see a dentist cuz my ears/head have been doing a lot of hurting.
so neils...yea fun about an hour there...then i went to go pick up sandy and patrice so we could bake a cake at jens for mushroom...although the first ended up being for us...marble with chocolate frosting...
then sandy had to go home so i took her and met jen and patrice at the park later...then we decided to get frosting for mushrooms cake/ cupcakes....and went to get sandy (she had to make dinner for sus hermanos)
then, returning to jens, Q called needing rescueing from kurt and them...cuz they went miniture golfing and he didnt have any money...
so i took patrice with me and driving down milwalkee this car turned left in front of us and (yes, we had a green light) we thought "the next car isnt going to go" but it did and i almost killed us again...
no airbags=no good...but no accident=all okie!
then coming back i notice that my thermostat was all the way at hot and flashing...so after dropping off Q i turned off the car and trix and i sat in the car (doom doom doom de doom) and waited for the madre to pick us up to take trix home...
and what else but get yelled at...
oh well.
last night campy and jen and i went to jennas after sending mushroom his cupcakes
jen and i jumped in the cold water but they didnt ...
after that we came home and we went to pet stores cuz jen wants a frog but no luck...she bought more hamster stuff...
my bro's gonna give her his though...
his froggie died
oh and i saw a picture of an australian shepard who's five yrs old with green eyes and reddish fur whose owners moved to florida and she needs a home and shes perfect so shes coming to visit today or friday
yes...and today im going swimming..
and i love neil...endlessly...
i dont want to be away from him its horrible sitting in his van becasue all i want to do is hold his hand but i cant cuz hes too far away...
:)
okie swimmy time!
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2004 7 July :: 8.03pm
Heya. My wrist is shot right now. I'm too utta shape, lol.
Just got back from tennising with Hul. It was fun. Lol, I actually hit the ball sometimes. Then jackie came and I kind of stood there, lol. But it's okay. It was still fun.
I'm writing out postcards right now....so give me your address if you want one. I have three left, so first three addresses get one. Woo? Yay? Ok
Dinner soon. Poo. Okies. well Bye people.
-Patrice
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2004 7 July :: 12.32am
I don't feel much like talking right now. So if I'm dead right now, that's why. Probably no offense to you. Just don't feel like pissing off a whole billion more people. Who knows what I'm capable of?
I'm a bad person. I have the bad habit of ruining lives. So, my friends, I would back off before I kill you too.
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2004 6 July :: 2.16pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Happy Days Theme Song
Do you have a song that just makes your day? Yeah, Haven't watched Happy Days in forever and a half. On a stick. But the song..I heard it and was all...wooo! Plus I always thought Richard Cunningham was a cutie. So that's where my messed up judgement in guys comes from. Where dorky= cute and hot=not. Something like that.
Haha. Woo am I just woo. I wish I had a tread mill...if that's how you spell it. Because I wantt o run, but I hate doing it outside. HATE IT. So yes. Because..I'm not happy with the me anymore. And I think working out will help, you know? So yeah.
I'm gonna go steal some cookie dough...yeah, talkign about working out then scarfign down cookie dough. I'm a genius.
Bye bye.
-Patrice
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2004 5 July :: 5.49pm
So. You poos. Not updating journals. I need some entertainment before I go to hell. Lol.
Last night was fun. Made cake, ate lotsa food, took a walk(saw my manager dude...free-key), watched Fireworks, got hit in the eye with ashes(ow), went back to the moore's, sat around, made s'mores, sat, talked, and slept. Hm. Yes. Par-tay.
Now I have to go get ready to work. :-P I'm gonna go...die or something now. Not really, but blah. Poo. Shit. Crap. I need to get dressed. In work clothes. Don't worry, I'm not naked. That's be nasty. I need to work on my sentences. "That's be nasty" Yeah-huh...good job Patrice.
I'm going insane dude. Not insane. Just...::sigh:: Ha. That makes no sense what so ever. You know what? I don't fucking care. Ha. You poo.
Okay. Bye bye.
-Patrice
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2004 4 July :: 3.02am
What You Don't/ Might Not Know. #'s 41-63
This is as much thinking as I could handle. Enjoy.
41. My middle name is Elaina, which is the spanish name for Helen, which is my great-aunt's name.
42. My halloween costumes have included a cheerleader, Belle, Cleopatra, Princess Leia, Batman/woman dealie, a 50's poddle skirt lady, a hobbit, and a goose.
43. When I'm super-pissed off I bake. Alot.
44. I've seen every episode of Little House On The Prairie.
45. My grandpa helped liberate a Nazi concentration camp. ( not really about me, but I figure you wouldn't know that)
46. My cat loves potatoes.
47. I still sleep with stuffed animals. ::shame::
48. My first TV crush was on DJ's boyfriend from Full House, Steve.
49. When I was in 2nd grade, my friends cousin threw a rock at my head and I almost passed out. Big goose egg. Not fun.
50. When I told my friends I was moving from Colorado, I said I was happy because I would get a horse (which I never got...my parents lied. Butts) and then they yelled at me and said that I wasn't a real friend because I'd rather get a horse then stay with friends. So from that point on, moving sucked.
51. My cousin and I walked around talking in pig latin was we called Amanda a "esbian-lay" and she started crying and wouldn't talk to us.
52. There's a art of me that loves sappy romantic movies. Yep, damn that romantic side of me. I like to keep her locked up though.
53. I was never really girly. When I was little, I wanted my room blue but cried when I realized blue was a "boy color".
54. The farhterst I've riden a bike in a day is either 18ish miles. or was it 36? Hmm.. Goli might know. she was there I think. Good old XC days.
55. I lost 15 pounds in one summer by running and eating healthy. Ha. I sound like an ad for dieting.
56. I cant sleep after watching Unsolved Mysteries or CSI
57. I've seen my mom get arrested once and dragged out of the house once so she could be taken to the mental hospital. Not a fun sight to see. It's hard on a kid when they hear their mom scream about how life is worthless and how the kids are what caused her to go crazy and because of us, she wants to die... as she's being dragged out in hand cuffs.
58. I've walked in on my parents doing...that..once. They still don't know though. ::shudder::
59. When my mom got a day pass from the hospital for x-mas, the first thing my brother said was " Patrice said you're a selfish bitch and that she hates you... I read it in her journal..." Thanks dude. Xmas wasn't real fun that year.
60. I started using the word Dude because my icon would react funnily to it. Now I can't stop using it. It's fun.Dude!!
61. I want a ferret. ::pouts::
62. I want to travel the world one day. Not in one day, just in my life sometime. You know?
63. If there is life after death, I want it to be like Lovely Bones. Read it. It's amazing. A whole book about heaven and I don't think they mentioned God once. I don't know. Good stuff.
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2004 3 July :: 3.54pm
so my dad went and bought a M3...
its awesome!
only problem is
i know there'll be a fight t'night
anyone wanna do something?
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2004 3 July :: 1.11pm
:: Mood: Sleepy
Hi. So I don't have much to say. I just woke up. Don't feel like facing the world just yet. So I'm here. What happened yesterday? I'll tell you about it. I job-ized. Screwed up about 60 bazillion times. I have to stand on my tip toes to see over the counter. Par-tay.
I need a digital watch. Can't read the other kind and I need to know the time alot. So watch looking I will go. When I feel like it.
I like being sarcastic. You know..it's actually kinda fun. I'm not that good at it though.
I...I...don't know. lol. I'm in one of those moods where a million things are going through your head at once, but you can't control them at all. And you try for hours to write down what you're thinking, but you can't. I could just go for the general statement which seems to fit when things go wrong. "People suck" There. Happy now? I'll try to be more deep later. Until that time comes, accept my narrowmindedness. Woo big word.
I think I'm going to continue my 101 things you dont know about me list. I'm only on 40. Gasp. I know. But once again, there is so much that I've told people. Damn me. Ruining this whole game.
I kinda want school to start again. Except just the same as it was last year. Same people. I don't care if people say "Oh, I want people to leave, drama will be over. Less bad stuff to think about..." or "I want to leave..less of this drama...blah blah" I want things to stay how they are. Sure. There is bad shit, but I think it's overall pretty good right now. I don't know or care if you agree. Just what I think.
Shit! I still have to pick two classes. Shit shit shit. Um okies. To school website I go.
When does summer school start? I should look that up too. I kinda want it to start, it'll get me out of the house other then working. Ya know? I don't know. I'll feel like I'm doing something with my time and not just spending it sitting here and getting fat.
I want some cookie dough ice cream. The Kim has rubbed off on me. Damn her. ::shakes fist::
Ok...I don't think I should write anymore. I might say something I don't mean to say. So away I go. Good bye people. have fun.
-Patricia
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2004 2 July :: 3.18pm
:: Mood: Scared
So I'm working today. I know. I know. Everyone works. Goes through the first day of work without dying. But I'm a ver nervous little person. And yes. It's bad. I know I shouldnt be, but I can't help it. I took a shwoer today and accidently shampooed my hair twice. Then I was halfway through with "conditioner" when I realized it was soap. So I had to rewash my hair. Then I used shampoo as soap and had to rewash and it was just blah. And now my stomach is twisting in knots and I don't know what to do. I know I should eat. I'm work 5.5 hours....but I can't force myself to. I think I need to lose weight anyways. But not by not eating. And don't tell me I don't because I saw pictures of me in a swimsuit. and I don't like it. And that's that. Um..ok..sry..tangent.
Ok...I don't want to have a break. I wouldnt knwo what to do. I'm gonna die. Someone kill me, please?! Or put me in a coma. That'd work. Ok...so come over in the next 10 mins and hit me really hard on the head. It'll be fun I swear. Okay. I'm gonna die. now. I love you all. ::tear:: lOl
-Patrice
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2004 1 July :: 4.06pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Music.
Uncle Ben's
Uncle Ben is a good cook. He saves my life when all we have in the house is chips and left-over pizza. I don't know, recently I've been into real food. Meaning not pizza or that other greasy stuff. Cookies are okay though. Cookies are always ok.
So I have a billion things I COULD do today if I wanted ot be productive. I could practice bassoon, scrapbook, clean my room out downstairs for the carpet pple, do laundrey, exercise, cook, and on and on. I really want to do something productive, but I'm feeling very summerish tonight.
My mom's being a bitch and saying I can't go out today at all. Which sucks. Because I work both Friday and Saturday. I don't know, she couldjust be having one of her moments where she says something then ten minutes later " I didn't say that" :-D <~~ That's her. Hm. Yay bi-polarness! It makes life interesting.
It's freggin hot today. I think I'm going to explode. My insides are going to boil and then POP out they go. Par-tay. I hate that word, just so you know. Now I want to go swimming.
I cant eat anymore. It's too hot. I think I'll go for some nice lemonade. So long.
-patrice
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2004 1 July :: 2.15am
101 Things You MIGHT Not Know About Me
#1-40
( I was bored. Forgive me. You don't have to read it. Have fun if you do though, dudes.)
1. My first house was in New Kensington, PA.
2. I was the second grandchild on the dad's side.
3. I was the fourth grandchild for the madre's.
4. I had a cat named Simba once who got attacked by coyotes in Colorado.
5. The first test I failed was my states and capitals in 5th grade.
6. I hated Curious George when I was little. And I mean HATED. I cried when I saw him.
7. I tried out for cheerleading when I was in 5th grade.
8. I hate sherbert ice cream
9. I used to think Jay walking was walkign around the street naked
10. I ate Crisco once thinking it was butter-tasting.
11. I was in love with Enrique Englasias(sp) for two months two summers ago. Haven't listened to him since.
12. I have linkin park in my head right now.
13. I've been reading Les Miserables..the unabridged version..since last summer. I get busy..stop reading..then have to go back and remember what happened, and I get lost and start 4 chapters back, and the cycle never ends.
14. I've never been to Canada.
15. I hate cotton candy tasting things. Cotton candy's good, the flavored lip gloss and gum..ew.
16. I like brussel sprouts. I always have.
17. When I was 7, I ate a whole thing of roasted garlic. You know? The entire huge thing. Yum. But smelly.
18. My cousin tried to kill me when we took a hike and tried to throw me over the edge of a mountain. He was kidding. I hope.
19. i've had three aol screen names in my life.
20. My first screen name was Kwelkat87
21. When I had very few friends, I would write notes to no one in paticular and pretend like I had people to give them to.
22. I've had a crush on a teacher before. No names mentioned. :-X
23. In Charleston, SC I smelled Gardenias and I fell in love with how they smelled. So I bought a ton of them and put them all in my room and woke up the next morning sneezing. I was allergic to them. Poo. I like them still.
24. I had purple cat curtains and purple walls with dark purple cat trim in NC. Then we had to paint it all white when we were moving :-(
25. After the hurricane, my friend and I were making mud mixtures and we ran inside to wash our hands forgetting all the water lines and electricity were down. So my mom made us walk around with muddy hands because we couldnt waste the water we had saved.
26. The day after the hurricane we found 1,990ish acorns on my driveway.
27. The only pet I've had that has died of old age(not running away or beign hit by cars) was my hamster.
28. My dog in NC, Pluto, got hit by a car. And the guy tried to sue us because he was an idiot and hit our dog and killed her. Idiot.
29. My sister killed her bunny when she was playing with her on the swing set and decided the bunny wanted to go down the slide...while she had a leash on..yeah. She hung her bunny. She locked herself in the closet because she thought she was going to hell. That story still makes me cry. Do you know how tramatizing that would be? "hey bunny, let's play! Bunny...bunny...Mommy, why isn't bunny moving?" ::tear::
30. I got a new bike for xmas once..but it had to stay in the house because of snow, but my godfather came over and I wanted him to see it, so I rode it down the stairs. Ow.
31. I watched every episode of The Waltons a few summers ago.
32. I am the president of the Elite Foamade Society of Vernon Hills
33. I put my face in a bucket of crabs and one bit a chuck of my nose off.
34. I cut my own hair off when I was little and the lady had to give me a mushroom cut.
35. I was almost going to be teh remote control in the OM skit we did, but the outfit was too tight and I got scared. So I became the director.
36. I still know all my lines from that play. "I'm warning you zachery syrus. you're gonna get a tv virius. stay away from that tv or your eyes will not be able to see.."
37. I still have a poem memorized from 5th grade...Nobody...by Emily Dickinson. " I am nobody/who are you?/Are you nobody too?/ Then there's two of us!/ Don't tell!/ They'd banish us, you know/ How dreary to be somebody/How public, like a bog/ To live our lives the live long day to some admiring bog.? ::bows:: The end gets fuzzy, but I'm proud.
38. I can't go to sleep in complete darkness or near a fully opened window.
39. I'm a poplar tree.
40. I've never been to California.
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