Today I will be strong because I know that you are there for me...
Happier. Yes, happier then yesterday which is a definate +. My poor poor Stephy (Stephy not Stephi hehe) Alan skipped today & left her all alone :0( I felt bad and she was sad :0( x 2 = :0(:0( On a happier note, I saw Josh today lots of times! hehe Hes entirely too tall, I think he needs to shrink a few inches (and by a few i mean like 8 lol) Butttttt it makes me happy to see him lots and lots. Unfortunately he will be leaving tomorrow during 5th period which means he won't be in Spanish :0( Hes going to something that I SHOULD be going to.... grrrr I guess I can kinda justify it cuz I don't think my mom would let me go anyways, AP testing starts Monday ::yikes!:: Blah. So as sad as I am that hes leaving me for the weekend I'm also kind of relieved, maybe then I'll get some studying done.. Okay, enough about this menacing topic... oOo Sara <3's Hooshie!!!!hehe

Sad. Not the kind of sad that makes you cry and scream inside but a deeper, heavier sad. One that tugs on your heart so hard that you don't even know how to let go anymore. Only now have I realized how much I have yearned the feeling of being needed, to have someone to need. I think that there is a bright future ahead, time. Time to unravel the mysteries of the universe, of eachother. Eventually you will be able to see my wounded heart and soul and understand.

What could make me happier :0)
hehe excuse my ecstaticness :0) just beary beary happy right now... always feels good to be liked right? well I feel good!

Continuation @ 11:07pm Hehe, it even gets better when the feeling doesn't wear away hours later... I am very much neglecting my evil homework to write this entry but I think it's appropriate, who can concentrate on homework when the bestest guy in the world likes em? hehe (well i'm not too sure bout the bestest now :0) buttt we'll see hehe) I went to the Jazz & percussion concert tonight. The Jazz band was kinda sucky but the percussion was INCREDIBLE! they were SOOOO good! I was totally impressed. Ross's solo was sooooooooooo good, we all went crazy 4 it hehe The marching aspects were really good also, I realy liked the Led Zepplin theme, it was really good & Kevy did an awsome sax solo :0) We went to Doc's after & then we went home. That leaves me here, homework not done and still haven't studied for that Espanol test... oh well.. can't wait for Spanish 2morrow :0) YaY!

Look at what Stephi taught me!!!

Wow, it moves!!

Josh wants to know how to do the movie thingy too but hes too busy anally raping Richard right now to learn hehe <3

Regardless, today was boring, not enough sleep. There was a cat fight today, it was funny. 2 white gurls goin at it hehe we were hanging out by "the tree" and all of the sudden all of the black kids start making all this noise it was funny. This morning I was talking to Jason you see, this kid DOESN'T TALK!!! hes cute though and hes a nice kid although i don't want to know what stephi knows...... blah.. well other Stephy's goin out w/Alan yay! and Whitney's goin out w/Tom :0) yay for all of them! Me, i'm going out with Josh although he has been cheating one me with Richard for the last 183 years we have been going out :0( hehe you're right Josh, i'm obsessed.

weeeeee!!!

lost in thought..
Today coming home from orchestra, Tal, Eva, Thomas and I were engaged in a very interesting conversation. An IB thing most definately lol Anyways.. we were discussing ignorance and the poem "Much Madness is divinest Sense."
The poem:

Much Madness is divinest Sense-
To a discerning Eye-
Much Sense- the starkest Madness-
'Tis the Majority
In this, as All, prevail-
Assent-and you are sane-
Demus-you're straightway dangerous-
And handled with a Chain-
~Emily Dickinson

Anyways, the poem states a paradoxical proposition, insanity or craziness is the good sense and the good sense is insanity. Therefore the "bad" sense is sanity. This poem alone inspired me to tear absolutely everything philosophical apart this past month. I have begun to question many different things. Two topics that I especially focused on were Ignorance, and norm. In a world full of ignorant people, are you, the less ignorant the one who is focused on as ignorant? (Gives you something to think about huh?) Hehe I bet Ms.Zappolo is going to love us next year :) TOK here we come!! haha With all seriousness though, think about it, you may find that it opens new horizons.

"The biggest Set back to the Anti-racist and Anti-Facist movement is that even we still have trouble sometimes seeing beyond color" - SNM(Silenced No More)

the coolest thing!
I have seriously discovered the coolest thing in the world! www.habbohotel.com go there and download the hotel & you can make a habbo! It's just like Sim City cept you can actually talk to real people. You can make your person look however you want and go all over this virtual hotel, theres even a love shack! haha you can lie on the beds or watch tv or even dance, its really cool! In the case that you do go and download it, add me as a friend, my name is : XplanatorEVivi If you go in2 a room looking for me i have a black pony tail & a pink sweater & blue skirt w/light pink shoes i think... Dre came and made a person, it looks just like him w/the fro and all :0) we were laying in bed together in the love shack :0) Jenn also joined and made her person a slut in this little red midriff hehe there was some guy stalking her, following her around EVERYWHERE! Then Kevin came in.. that must have been the funniest thing, first of all his name was Kevy - Wevy second of all he was in like a tux w/a green mohawk very cool kevy :0)