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i WATCHED THE WALLS AROUND ME CRUMBLE, BUT iT'S NOT LiKE i WONT BUiLD THEM UP AGAiN. SO HERE'S YOUR LAST CHANCE FOR REDEMPTiON, SO TAKE iT WHiLE iT LASTS BECAUSE iT WiLL END. AND MY TEARS ARE TURNiNG iNTO TiME i'VE WASTED TRYiNG TO FiND A REASON FOR GOODBYE. i WONT BE THE ONE TO CHASE YOU, BUT AT THE SAME TiME YOU'RE THE HEART THAT i CALL HOME. i'M ALWAYS STUCK WiTH THESE EMOTiONS AND THE MORE i TRY TO FEEL, THE LESS i'M WHOLE. MY TEARS ARE TURNiNG iNTO TiME i'VE WASTED TRYiNG TO FiND A REASON FOR GOODBYE. i CAN'T LiVE WiTHOUT YOU, CAN'T BREATHE WiTHOUT YOU, i DREAM ABOUT YOU. HONESTLY TELL ME THAT iT'S OVER BECAUSE iF THE WORLD iS SPiNNiNG AND i'M STiLL LiViNG, iT WONT BE RiGHT iF WE'RE NOT iN iT TOGETHER. TELL ME THAT iT'S OVER AND i'LL BE THE FiRST TO GO. DON'T LET ME BE THE LAST TO KNOW. TELL ME THAT iT'S OVER. HONESTLY, TELL ME THAT iT'S OVER. TELL ME THAT iT'S OVER NO MOMENT WiLL BE MORE TRUE THAN THE MOMENT i LOOK AT YOU. AND THAT iS ALL i'M PRAYiNG, THAT SOMEDAY YOU WILL UNDERSTAND. AND THAT iS ALL i'M PRAYiNG, THAT SOMEDAY i WiLL UNDERSTAND.

 

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:: 2005 1 August :: 7.18 pm
:: Mood: whatever

my dear passport
I went and took care of my passport today. let me just say: there was a lot of unnecessary waiting for no reason going on.

so I got up at 9, which was rather surprising considering I went to bed at nearly 3. anyways, I got up, took a shower, washed my hair. by 10 I was on my way to cvs to see about getting a photo for the passport. I get there and they tell me they can take the photo there. he's getting the camera ready and then the battery dies. they get new batteries, take the picture. then the printing of the receipt. there wasn't any paper to print the receipt. but that didn't take long at all.

I go back home for a brief minute to get all the papers. I'm on my way downtown to the post office. I finally find a parking spot and quarters. I only had four quarters. four quarters gives you two hours of parking. I was hoping it would last. I go into the post office. I'm standing in line for like 20mins maybe. it was a slow moving line, but not too terribly slow. then I get to the front of the line and I'm told I need to get into another line: the passport office line. I get in that line. I'm the second person in line. we're standing there for like 10-15mins with no movement. out of the three windows open, none of them were calling us to one. finally one of the windows without the sign that states "passport office" above, which is the window we were practically standing in front of, starts calling us over there. the kind gentleman tells me I have an unusable document that cannot be used as my birth certificate. I then have to walk three blocks to get a copy of my birth certificate. walk three blocks back, get back in line which is now longer. then the line seriously didn't move for like the longest time. the whole time I'm about to get irritated. I'm not one to complain, but 95% of the time was unnecessary. I made it back to the car with 11 minutes to spare on the parking meter. everything is taken care of now. which is a relief.

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:: 2005 21 July :: 8.59 pm
:: Mood: peaceful

want; no, better make that need
I really really really want an iPod mini, a pink one to be more specific. the more I think about it and see them, the more I want it. right now I don't even have the money to be thinking of getting one. I've finished paying over the $586. now I need money to get a passport, which from what I hear, they ain't cheap. we'll see what happens...

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:: 2005 12 July :: 3.50 am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: coldplay

my life
I've grown into a slump. a slump that is depressing. honestly, I don't know why it's depressing. maybe it's depressing because I'm not happy with myself at this moment of it. my job royally sucks my will to live. I used to be okie with hanging out by myself. I didn't care if I didn't go out that evening, although it would be nice, I didn't care if I ended up staying at home. now, I wouldn't say it has changed, but I guess I wish I did go out more. it just seems as though everything is changing. probably because everything is changing. I haven't been eating as much lately. I have been eating, I'm cutting back on eating junk food, which is a lot. I've been eating more fruits such as cantelope and watermelon. I am eating watermelon right now. I've been getting back into the habit of doing crunches, more and more regularly. I felt like having a good cry tonite. but did I? no. I was somewhat stressed after getting off work. my parents didn't drop off a car. it was my dad's birthday yesterday. there was a little cookout going on. I called my parents to come pick me up and took my dad thirty minutes to come get me. it doesn't take thirty minutes to go from the house to my job. I got a little teary eyed while waiting. by the time I got home, my parents said I looked as though I was about to cry. which I wanted to, but couldn't. I told them I was only tired. I haven't gotten much sleep these past few nites. now don't get me wrong, it's not because I've been down. it's because I was out all nite saturday and sunday I just wasn't tired. my eyes hurt because of a combination of a lack of sleep and the tears from just a few minutes ago. I have nearly 800 songs in iTunes and nothing to listen to. I want to thank sirus for coldplay. now I have something to listen to.

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