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i WATCHED THE WALLS AROUND ME CRUMBLE, BUT iT'S NOT LiKE i WONT BUiLD THEM UP AGAiN. SO HERE'S YOUR LAST CHANCE FOR REDEMPTiON, SO TAKE iT WHiLE iT LASTS BECAUSE iT WiLL END. AND MY TEARS ARE TURNiNG iNTO TiME i'VE WASTED TRYiNG TO FiND A REASON FOR GOODBYE. i WONT BE THE ONE TO CHASE YOU, BUT AT THE SAME TiME YOU'RE THE HEART THAT i CALL HOME. i'M ALWAYS STUCK WiTH THESE EMOTiONS AND THE MORE i TRY TO FEEL, THE LESS i'M WHOLE. MY TEARS ARE TURNiNG iNTO TiME i'VE WASTED TRYiNG TO FiND A REASON FOR GOODBYE. i CAN'T LiVE WiTHOUT YOU, CAN'T BREATHE WiTHOUT YOU, i DREAM ABOUT YOU. HONESTLY TELL ME THAT iT'S OVER BECAUSE iF THE WORLD iS SPiNNiNG AND i'M STiLL LiViNG, iT WONT BE RiGHT iF WE'RE NOT iN iT TOGETHER. TELL ME THAT iT'S OVER AND i'LL BE THE FiRST TO GO. DON'T LET ME BE THE LAST TO KNOW. TELL ME THAT iT'S OVER. HONESTLY, TELL ME THAT iT'S OVER. TELL ME THAT iT'S OVER NO MOMENT WiLL BE MORE TRUE THAN THE MOMENT i LOOK AT YOU. AND THAT iS ALL i'M PRAYiNG, THAT SOMEDAY YOU WILL UNDERSTAND. AND THAT iS ALL i'M PRAYiNG, THAT SOMEDAY i WiLL UNDERSTAND.

 

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LindseyEthatsMe

:: 2004 22 March :: 4.37pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: Bitter Sweet Symphony

this poem is for james hixon.....died 3/13/04
::Tear Stained Satin::

put the rose on the casket
but the flowers
won't heal the pain
gather together
by the empty presence
but in this goodbye
the words are lost in vain
they all wore black
and i swore i would scream
but nothing came out
just tears
the thought of your face
your hands so pale
against the satin
that will never be seen
the sweeping melodies
and floating notes
they played for you
but you'll never hear
don't leave me now
please not now
why a farewell so soon
i'm not ready
and neither are you
to carry this burden
when they bury you




the saddest part i believe was that you'll never know how many people came to your funeral....im sorry james but i couldnt stand to look at you in that casket like that...i had to break down crying- i didn't mean to make a scene- and i know you would've told me not to cry....

play me a melody on the piano


LindseyEthatsMe

:: 2004 19 February :: 7.41am
:: Mood: confused

hmmm thoughts i\'ve never gotten to say out loud (im really screaming them in my head)
i cant help but seem to think
that in a way-
you've taken advantage of me.
a lot.
you liked me for so long
and then got me wrapped around
your finger and now-
act like you don't care.
this is funny.
not really but its the story i tell
myself everyday
to make me feel better.
about you.
and about me.
i know you care.
or at least you say you do.
it's so hard to convince myself
of that because you
treat me so differently
than any other guy
ever did.
i dont know if im upset.
mad.
or just scared.
that i'll lose the only guy
i've ever truly fallen
in love with.

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lindseyethatsme

:: 2004 11 February :: 3.12pm
:: Mood: sick and sad

:: Songs That Kill ::

vision is blurred

and attempts are of

no avail

I believe

I hate you now

More than ever

And this cold only

Makes it worse



Don稚 try to break

The silence

For the silence

Breaks us

I say we should

Leave it

that way



Say something

Quick

To ease your anger

Whatever-

I知 sick of

Your immature

Insecure games

You play



I can love so

Well but with

You I hate

Better

Block me out

But I知 forever

Floating here



If my life lasted

From silence

You would sing forever

Feeling high

From your hatred

Of the one I love



So go on

And shout your sentences

I値l fade away

and You won稚 mind


But once I知 dead

From your hateful

Words

I値l haunt you with

Tears and

Empty presence


You don稚 feel

For me or my tears

But one day you値l

Choke on the

Song that caused it

The song that I値l scream

In your face

play me a melody on the piano

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