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2004 15 January :: 6.00pm
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: Cake - I will survive
not i, i WILL survive...do do do...
yeah i'm kinda dorky right now as if you couldn't read my mood...*oi*...well i'm a ball of mixed emotions right now...i'm all happy-go-lucky cuz i think (& hope) that joey & i are over the scariest part of the engagement...so we're good...& lina & i are good now...somehow i feel like ben & i aren't on good terms much anymore, but i dunno...
i'm kinda mad though for a few reasons: danny (no really, tell me what's new), mr. rodgers, & myself...danny, cuz he's him...no actually we argued bout something today & it just felt like he was holding a grudge over me so yeah...mr. rodgers, well let's just make it damn clear that as long as my dad lets me i'm dropping his class...i don't need to stress out there...myself, cuz i'm lazy & still need to do my fking laundry...lol...
i've been filling out apps for scholarships today, so that's coo...it's cold right now...damn that sux...hopefully joey & i get to see either chasing liberty or big fish tomorrow...i've already seen big fish, & i really recomend it...i didn't think i'd like it, but it was so fking great...WOW...anyways...
i was thinking bout this a few days ago...i need to start playing guitar again...let my anger out there...& i need to write more songs...hmm...
that reminds me, jorge is gonna move to mexicali, which is coo...but he still wants to keep the band going (or starting actually)...& he want's us to practice there, which i'm not really for...i dunno why, but i'm sure we'll figure something out for that...well i think i gtg & eat...but i'll be back later...i usually am...talk later...
i love you joey ;)
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2004 15 January :: 7.22am
:: Mood: content
the first thoughts of the day, i guess...
i just woke up like 15 mins ago...my back really hurts whenever i get up now...i still haven't made my bed, done my homework, & done my laundry...i'm not sure if it's cuz joey or denisse has been here this week, or the computer usage, or maybe i'm just that fking lazy...speaking of which...
I'M SO SERIOUS MY CLOSET REALLY DOES KICK ASS!!!
so anyways...
well i should be going...i need my shower...*ugh*...i just don't feel like going to school, or making the effort of beautifying myself today...whatever...talk later...I LOVE YOU JOEY!!!
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2004 14 January :: 11.33pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Cake - I will survive
a long night...
well it was an alrighty night...got like one of the last chairs for honor band...got to see joey a lot today...my closet rocks now!!! ;) ...anyways, so yeah i'm just really tired...i'm downloading music right now & i'm hella sleepy...thank god we go in reg time for band tomorrow...i dont' find it an "honor" in being in honor band now, but whatever...i had the worst feeling this week...i wanted to tell joey something bad (not like a break up), but things have changed for the better & i'm not that scared of things anymore so i decided not to tell him that thing...whatever if you really want to know then comment or email me later...
dude, my closet seriously kicks ass...'dear mr. garvy'...SWAT-AH!...anyways, i recomend the secretary to all you freaks out there...ending kinda sucked but it's fking funny as hell dude, at least in my point of view...
talk later...i'ma sleepy head right now...i love you joey...
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2004 12 January :: 9.49pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Sarah Mclaughlin - Fallen
*oi*
You're Almost Ready to Get Married, But Not Quite
No doubt that you've warmed up to the idea of marriage and life long love
You just aren't quite ready to follow up with your desires, yet.
You may be a bit young, or a bit commitment phobic… give it time.
Concentrate on guys who you can imagine being with next year. Forever can wait.
Are You Ready for Marriage? Take This Quiz :-)
Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.
yeah that's all i really need to hear right now...
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2004 12 January :: 6.24pm
:: Mood: FUCKING ANGRY
WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR GODDAMN PROBLEM?!
DAMNIT...i'm sorry but i'm tired of this shit...i didnt' want to name names, but fuck...
lina what the fuck is your problem...i know you want joey to not hurt & for me not to lie but shit when i fucking tell you the truth you fucking single me out & say what you think is true to joey then he comes up to me & makes me feel like shit w/ "the truth" which isn't the truth...fucking get off my case damnit!...you dont' fucking understand shit man...GOD!
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2004 11 January :: 11.04pm
:: Mood: scared
:: Music: watching the secretary
i'm losing him, i know it...
my day was alright i guess...lot's of driving...i got to watch BIG FISH today...it was way better than i actually expected it...joey called me in the middle of the movie to tell me he got home from san diego...i called him back after the movie & didn't sound like he wanted to talk to me...
lately i feel like i'm screwing up so badly...i feel like maybe i'm not the one for him anymore...maybe he's finally realized i'm too screwed up for him...
on my way home tonight i wondered to myself if i really want to get married in general...i don't want to screw up like my parents did...i don't want to screw up our relationship (though i feel like i've done that to begin with)...i feel like maybe he's falling out of love with me...
if he is...then, well...he's better off maybe...as for me...well.........
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2004 11 January :: 5.50pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: starting to watch "the secretary"...
another day passing...
My #1 result for the SelectSmart.com selector, Which Character from Rocko's Modern Life are You?, is Bev Bighead
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2004 11 January :: 5.32pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: the tv
cool beans!
You are eyeliner! Eye liner defines the look and
draws attention to your nice eyes. You like to
get attention and you deserve it but soemtimes
that doesnt happen. You know what you want and
you dont give up till you get it.
What Make-Up Product Are You?
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2004 11 January :: 5.14am
:: Mood: sleepy
 I am Justice
Justice is a signal to do what needs to be done. A time comes when responsibilities must be accepted, and accounts settled. The past will continue to haunt you if you do not recognize your mistakes and make amends for them. You will need to weigh matters carefully and perhaps make important decisions about your future course. For a full description of your card and other goodies, please visit LearnTarot.com
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