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2004 12 August :: 1.24pm
:: Mood: annoyed
I really think the oral surgeons just try to piss me off...
Woke up at 4:30 this morning, unable to get back to sleep because of throbbing pain. Took 1 painkiller, read magazines (compliments of Ali!) for an hour, no better. Took another painkiller, finally fell asleep.
Was awoken at 9:00 to take first pill of the day "with food," but seeing as I'd eaten with the painkillers and wasn't hungry, I didn't eat much. Went back to sleep.
Was awoken again at 10:00 for second pill, then told that I had to begin using hot packs for 5-7 minutes while moving my jaw around 3 times a day.
So here I am, it's only 1:30 in the afternoon, and I've taken 4 pills, used a hot pack for 5 minutes while moving my jaw, (which is REALLY ANNOYING) brushed my teeth and used the oral rinse, AND squirted the oral rinse through the little thing all in my mouth.
DOESN'T THIS SEEM A LITTLE UNNECCESSARY?! It's not like they took out a vital organ, for gosh sakes!
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2004 11 August :: 10.38pm
:: Mood: accomplished
Today
So, day after surgery. Woke up with feeling in my mouth!! YESSSS! That was very encouraging! Had to take a painkiller in the morning, but it lasted all day so I'm not in much pain. I can see a stitch haning out of one side of my mouth though, and it's kind of annoying. Whatever, it's supposed to dissolve anyway. Trying to remember to take like 3 different pills at various hours in the day is kinda annoying, though. :-/
Today Ali visited me and brought me Jamba Juice! Yay! Then we looked through like a million photos of me as a baby through 6th grade. It was muchos fun! Then we sorted through them, picked the best ones, and cut them out to fit on 2 of my bulleton boards! Room decoration, yay! I also did some cleaning and FOUND MY WICKED CD!!! WHOOO!!
Oh, and I never updated about spending Monday with Ali and Danielle Lee. That was fun too! It was weird to see Danielle after so long (6th grade) but she was really nice and easy to talk to even after all that time.
BAND CAMP IN 4 DAYS!! AHHHH!!
Still need to finish/edit my english essay, finish the history reading, possibly finish notes for A Yellow Raft In Blue Water, and write the history assigments. I DID get some stuff done today, though!
Nighty night!
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2004 11 August :: 3.54pm
:: Mood: pensive
:: Music: piano jazz CD
to continue or not to continue...
Hey guys! I am thinking about discontinuing this weblog except for replying and maybe the occasional entry. I am not very good about updating nor are my updates very entertaining. Plus, I don't want to deal with all the journal drama and having unwanted people reading it. Sorry guys!
Live well. Laugh often. Love much.
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2004 10 August :: 8.25pm
great...
Now I have a headache, my neck is stuff, my mouth is numb, AND I feel like I want to throw up.
Ugh. HOW COME OTHER PEOPLE WHO JUST HAD THEIR WISDOM TEETH OUT DON'T FEEL CRAPPY?!
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2004 10 August :: 4.47pm
1 Announcement, 1 Thought, and 1 Question
Announcement:
I have a new e-mail address: horseeyoregal@comcast.net
Thought:
I've been asked if I wanted to hang out with 4 different guys this summer. How many have actually happened? None. Why can't people follow through with what they're asking?!
Question:
How do you know when a question like "do you want to hang out sometime?" is an invitation for a date or just for a friends type of thing?
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2004 10 August :: 1.39pm
:: Mood: groggy
Wisdom Teeth (which are now nonexistant in my case)
Just got my wisdom teeth out about 2 hours ago. It was fairly painless (except that apparently I have small veins so they had to put the IV in a part of my arm that wasn't numb...not too bad, though. I have no reccollection whatsoever of falling asleep. Strange and kind of amusing. So anyway, I'm fine besides the fact that I can't talk because of the mounds of gauze in my mouth and I can't feel my face or toungue. Feel free to visit me tomorrow if you want!
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2004 9 August :: 9.58pm
:: Mood: discontent
:: Music: Oklahoma-People Will Say We're In Love
Hmmmm...
I still need to do some summer homework. I should do that.
Nicole and I hung out today. We looked at prom dresses online and laughed a lot. Twas fun! Then we went to the movies, planning to see A Cinderella Story and laugh at Hillary Duff, but changed our mind and saw De-Lovely. It was very long and depressing. *sigh*
I might end up getting to be in leadership staff after all, but it'll be kinda crazy if I do. I'd have to change my schedule and not do jazz dance. (I'd have to take Symphonic Band, which is something I'd REEEALLLY like to do anyway.) Then I'd have to take a semester of PE my junior year, but whatever. I'd also be up and moving the day after I get my wisdom teeth out (which might not make the doctor guy very happy) but it's not like I'd sit in one place all day anyway! Hrmm... I'm not sure how this'll work out. I'm not sure which way I'd rather have it happen, actually. I guess we'll just see.
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2004 8 August :: 10.33pm
I'm Home!
Disneyland was fun. Well, as fun as it can be with only your father as a companion. It's really a lot more fun with friends.
I'm really glad to be home. First time I'll be home for over 48 hours in 7 weeks!
Marching band...maaaarching band... Since there's nothing left to look forward to before school starts besides marching band, I think I'll start obsessing over it. I might even practice the music! *Gasp* What a concept... There was some National American Band thing that performed in Disneyland...it was so funny. My dad got bored after like 5 minutes (they didn't really march, just danced and played pop songs) but I just stood there all content and thinking "now THESE are my kind of people!" There were only 3 girls. Hrm. No woodwinds besides sax though, so maybe that made a difference.
A Chorus Line was on tv tonight. It was okay. Why can't anyone ever sing in that show?!
Well, anyway, sorry for the random post. I'll write more sometime.
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2004 5 August :: 11.52pm
Disneyland
I'm leaving for Disneyland (via a long car ride with my Dad) tomorrow morning. I won't have a computer there, so no more posts until then. I'll be back Saturday night with gifts for people who deserve them. Haha.
In other news, my new cockatoo, Manukealani (heavenly white bird in Hawaiin) is arriving tomorrow evening!! I won't get to see him until Saturday, but yay anyway!
See you Saturday night at the earliest! Love you all! Leave a message/text on my cell if you need me!
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2004 4 August :: 11.01am
:: Mood: curious
The Bases
And I'm not talking about baseball. I'm talking as in guy/girl relationship stuff. Being the "experienced" one in my group of friends, (this is where everyone laughs becuase they all know I have little to no experience in the land of the male besides being close friends) I suppose I should know this. And I'm just curious.
This is what I found when I asked two different people online:
Person Number 1:
first base: kissing
second base: upper body
third base: lower body
home: sex
Person Number 2:
first base: making out
second base: anything with your hands
third base: oral sex
home: all the way
Comparing these two, I'd have made it to second in the former, and first in the latter. And hardly even that in the latter. I'm now considering kissing endeavors to only be truly experienced if both individuals had a mutual want for the kiss. If not, it doesn't really count. According to this, I haven't actually made out yet. And ya know what...I haven't REALLY had my first kiss, either! Yeah that sounds dumb, cause it's not like I've never kissed a guy/never been kissed, but really, it's never worked out that way.
Let's think about this. First kiss ever...now I suppose we both wanted to kiss each other. But seeing as we were in kindergarten...haha. I kissed 2 different guys at LAYCs...one becuase he was being sexy and I couldn't contain myself (though I didn't have a crush on him) and one to sort of break up. (That was just on the cheek, though.) Then there were the 2 that weren't mutual decisions.
So really, when you think about it, I've never had one of those classic first kisses.
That's kind of nice to think. I dunno, I just like that I still get to experience one of those bashful, tender, happy first kisses. Heehee!
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2004 3 August :: 5.44pm
:: Mood: pissed off
Grrr...
Some things really piss me off. Things that have to do with dedication. And that's all I'm going to say about that. I really have a need to rant about this though. It'd just be a really rude and pretentious rant, so I'm restraining myself.
Ohhh there's gonna be drama this year...
But I'm excited! To change the subject, I had an AWESOME conversation last night with Michelle! I love you, Michelle! Yay for staying up until 2:30am and feeling drunk! Heehee!
The diet has been going kerplunk down the toilet. First the rediculously rich chocolate cake (that I loved!) and then coffee cake for breakfast and then KFC for lunch. Now lasagna and meatball sandwiches for dinner! Eeek! It's not my fault! I don't have any say in what they give me to eat! Oh well...somehow it was possible to diet in Disneyland last time I was there, so maybe then...?
Oh, and Nicole, I'm just gonna say who I like in a private entry. I can't contain myself! I'll explain the clues too. :-)
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2004 3 August :: 10.24pm
Hello from San Diego!
Yup, I'm in San Diego! I pretty much have a free reign on the computer here, so I'll be online if I'm not at Sea World or something. I'm staying at my grandparents' house until Thursday morning. After Thursday I'll be in Disneyland with my dad until I get home, and won't have a computer there.
Anyway, the flight wasn't bad. I didn't even read my book. I spent the entire time thinking about someone...*grin* Oh, it's nice to have a crush on someone again...
My grandparents are so sweet! My grandad is really nice and sort of takes care of the house. My grandma's sick and stays home all day, but she's very sweet and sort of outspoken. She took me in the arms, looked me in the eye, and told me that I was beautiful when I first got here. Heehee. I like being called beautiful. And when we were making small talk while my dad and I ate cake (I wasn't going to have any but I got some anyway...ahhh dieting failure!) that was REALLY good, she said she got an e-mail from her other son, my dad's brother. (Lol, like her son WOULDN'T be my dad's brother...I'm such a geek!) Well anyway, my dad's brother is sort of...strange. He so "graciously" bought our family gas masks for Y2K. He's into random biblical prophesy and whatnot. Apparently there's "big news" coming. When my grandma heard this, she made a face like "yeah whatever you say, hon...yeah right!" and said something like "Okaaayy...he's a strange one." AND THIS WAS ABOUT HER OWN SON!! I thought it was hilarious.
Not much other news as of now. I just downloaded AIM on this computer so feel free to IM me!
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2004 2 August :: 3.33pm
:: Music: The Ghost of You And Me-BBMac (or whatever that song is called)
Out of town again and when I'll be back
Turns out I'm leaving today for San Diego. My mom thought it was tomorrow. Anyhoo, I'm leaving after my voice lesson which is in like half an hour. I'll be gone until Saturday evening, around 7, so maybe we can get together and go to a movie or something...I don't know who all is going to be in town.
Sunday and Monday I'll call various people (or later) about when we can hang out. I still have to write my english essay, read some of my history book, and write the 2 little history assignments, but I'll do that after I get my wisdom teeth removed.
About that: I had an appointment today with the surgeon. It all sounds very easy and painless but I have to be at home doing pretty much nothing for 4-5 days afterwards for recovery. This means I can't ride on Friday (*sob*) and I can't really hang out and DO things until Saturday. If you guys wanna come over just to hang out and watch tv or a movie or something, that'd be cool, but I can't go out until Saturday the 14th. :-(
So that's that. I'd really appreciate some company during those few days, though. I'll be bored. I can only read for like 3 hours at a time before I get stiff and antsy, and there isn't always something good to MTV. I'm thinking we can hang and talk and hot tub and play with my new cockatoo, though!
Voice lesson soon. YAYYYYYY!! I'll have my cell phone and probably be online in San Diego, so you can call/text/IM me. I won't be able to check my e-mail so yeah. See you Saturday evening!
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2004 2 August :: 11.34pm
:: Music: West Side Story-Somewhere (sung by Josh Groban and Charlotte Church. This is wrong!! AGE GAP! AHH!)
WEST SIDE STORY!!
I'M SCARRED FOR LIFE! NOOO!! I DIDN'T KNOW ANYONE DIED!! AHHH!!
But I am going to marry Nic Rouleau. That is, if he's not gay.
He has a sexier voice than Josh Groban. I'm not kidding. I get this high sort of feeling and I smile really huge and can't breathe. It's like...OH. MY. GOD. It's like WOW. Yeah. He's that good. But he's going to be a senior!! WAHH! Nicole and I will absolutely DIE when he graduates. The good news: PULSE (the a capella group he's in) is makinga cd!! YESSS!!! HIS VOICE!! FOREVER ON A CD!! WHOOOOOO!!!
Or if he could just hold me and sing to me every once and a while...that'd be nice too...
WHY CAN'T OTHER PEOPLE SING AS WELL AS HE CAN?? IT'S NOT FAIR! He's too gifted. If there were more of him, maybe I'd get to marry one. Darn.
So besides the fact that I LOVED West Side Story and don't blame people for being a certain race, (coughnicolecough) I had a GREAT day today!
I woke up unhappy after like 5 hrs of sleep and REALLY wasn't in the mood to sing. It was like barely 6:00am in Maui when we warmed up! Ugh. Kinda stupid hymn, but not too high, so I sung soprano with my mom. I kept automatically going to the alto line. It was funny. Well, I thought it was funny. But whatever. It's really hard to sing 'wake' and pronounce the k when you're singing an E. Or anything semi-high, I guess. Oh well.
I have a voice lesson tomorrow!! YAYYYY!!
Oh, and I think I now have 3 life-changing events. They have changed once more.
1)the incident (in VERY LITTLE detail, mostly stressing the 'what i learned' part, which is what the essay should be stressing)
2)my parents' divorce
3)robbie's suicide
Another thing that my brain had tucked away. Weird.
Oh, and I'm officially a geek. I'm just really into geeky things. I thought it was SO sexy that a sort-of-not-anymore friend of mine went to a creative writing camp this summer. Apparently that's not cool...whatever!
When I said this (I happened to be at Ali's house partying with Ali, Nicole, Louise, Molly, and Sara) Nicole immediately remembered a time when we were driving to the movies and somehow we got on the subject of "hot" guys. OH yeah, we were talking about Josh Groban being hot and how Nicole thought he wasn't. Like, physical-wise. Anyway, my mom and Nicole came to the conclusion that I go for dorky guys. I guess I do. But I came up with something like "I guess I just have a thing for dorky guys who won't do anything with me!" My mom was like "YESS!!" all happily. Haha.
So yeah. We discussed many things. We discussed them in the yard in front of Ali's parents, the Butenskies, and Laurel and Hannah. And our discussions weren't exactly G or PG. Hahaha...whoops.
It was SOO MUCH FUN!! Ahhhh I miss you all!
I need to sing. WAHHH!!! I NEED A LITTLE SOUND-PROOF ROOM SO I CAN SING AND PRACTICE ALL I WANT! I swear I'm going to pop. I have so much singing energy built up! I usually sing in the shower, but I haven't been able to recently becuase of group showers (okay, maybe that sounds a bit wrong, it's just like a bathroom with stalls, but with showers in them...) and the hotel room which had my bathroom close to my parents' room. I NEEED TO SIIIIINGGG!!
MARIAAAAA! Sing it loud and it's music playing. Sing it soft and it's almost like praying. Maria, I'll never stop saying Mariaaaaaa!
Now maybe if I could actually sing that about 10 times in a row I'd be better. Ugh.
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2004 1 August :: 9.03pm
:: Mood: just fine
:: Music: Lil' Shop of Horrors
updating!
Hey y'all! I am finally updating again! The last two weeks have been crazy! I have been doing SETT for the last two weeks with Nicole and other cool people like that! It was a lot of fun, all in all! I got to do Who's on First in the showcase and some other fun stuff like Nicole and my spiffy little piano scene thing. Don't ask. And our super awesome MJ dance, choreographed by the wonderful Christina, was great too. Oh, and who could forget Grayson dressing in drag? That was great. I am SO bummed that Kristi is leaving, though... I won't ever get to work with her again! *cries* I am going to miss her so much it isn't even funny!
Louise and Nicole and I have been hanging out the last few days since she is home from Franceland! We saw Anchorman together which is hilarious! Friday, Marcella, Louise, and I saw Terminal which is REALLY good! I love Tom Hanks!!!! I also saw the Downtown cast of West Side Story after the movie, but with Nicole. It was pretty good actually. One of the best performances PYT has done in a while. And where did all those guys come from? I saw the other cast today, and even though they were supposed to be worse, I didn't think they were to bad! Of course, there were mistakes, but hey, it's children's theatre and I don't feel like being negative. Overall, I was impressed with the show! Good job everybody!
Off to partay at Ali's! Later!
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2004 1 August :: 12.31am
:: Music: Kiss Me Kate-Where Is The Life That Late I Lived?
Maui and other related sentiments (and some unrelated ones too...)
First things first: WE BOUGHT A COCKATOO IN MAUI!!!!!
He'll be arriving on Thursday. (When, unfortunately, I'll be in San Diego with my dad.) But he's a goffin cockatoo, just over 3 months old...just a baby! He's soooo affectionate!! I love him.
Seriously, if something could replace the need in my heart to love a boy, this bird has. I just love him! <3
We also ziplined. OMG IT WAS SO COOL!! All you really have to save you is a harness and a rope and a zipline, which is like metal. It's COOOOOOL!!!
Oh, and I got in touch with my absolute obsession of book stores. Only in the summer do I have time to actually READ. I was a bookwormy kid, as in, you wouldn't see me without a book and I'd read like 2 a day, and I miss that. A lot. Bookstores are my friend...ahhh yes...
So my summer reading so far has been:
1) Second Helpings (after reading Sloppy Firsts)
2) A Yellow Raft In Blue Water (HELL. oh my God was it boring. it was okay during the end and when Christine and Elgin had sex, but that was it. Oh, and apparently Father Tom raped Raymona on the raft?! Didn't catch that. I think they should have detailed it more.)
3) Phantom of the Opera (wohooo!! It was a much quicker read this time *shhh, don't tell the teacher I read it a long time ago!* and was a lot of fun to read. Read it in about a day while we were on the Hana Highway.)
4) The Lovely Bones (I have like 40 pages left, but it's SOO GOOD!! I read it on the plane...couldn't put it down. Speaking of rape...it was really greuseome in the beginning, but it gets better. It's really sad, though. *sniff*)
I still have to read about 60 pages of art history. I'm SOOOO scared that I'll finish the 2 (or is it 3? SOMEBODY PLEASE TELL ME!!) chapters and not know a single thing about how to write about art. The whole thing is way over my head. I thought my reading comprehension was pretty good, but...:-/
I really don't want to go to San Diego and then Disneyland with my dad. He doesn't really know me. It's nice that I get to see him, just to be able to, but it's not something I long for. It's really weird that I hardly ever think of him and don't miss him at all, but that's the way it is. I mean, it's apparent how much he doesn't understand me when he says the stuff about how I need to use a condom when I have sex. Right. Me having sex. I freak out when someone tries to make out with me, and that's far from sex! Not that with the right person it'd be different... but it's not like I'd have unprotected sex at 15 anyway! I wouldn't have unprotected sex at 30 unless it was with my husband and we wanted to have kids! But anyway, not looking forward to it. I'd rather stay home and catch up with everyone online and hang out with people who want to hang out with me and stuff. (And if you're one of those lucky people, hit up the cell at 823-1137!) Not that I'm advertising it or anything...
I'll have some free time after I get my wisdom teeth out. Oh yeah, oral surgery...fun... But I just found out that Nat and I are having the same procedure at about the same time, so we can suffer through it together. Here's what he has to say about it:
Cookie4Nat: ok so they showed me this video
Cookie4Nat: first they put u to sleep
Cookie4Nat: they will split open ur gum
Horseeyoregal: eek
Cookie4Nat: if there are any jaw bone obstructing the passage of the teeth
Cookie4Nat: they will need to remove the jaw bone
Horseeyoregal: they'll break it
Horseeyoregal: oh holy crap
Horseeyoregal: i'm scared
Cookie4Nat: then once ur wisdom teeth is exposed
Horseeyoregal: tooth*
Horseeyoregal: or are*
Cookie4Nat: they will split ur tooh into two pices while still in ur gum
Cookie4Nat: once split..they will extract each side one at a time
Cookie4Nat: so they dun needa yank the whole thing out at once
Cookie4Nat: ive gone through surgeries when i was lil
Cookie4Nat: like 3 times
Cookie4Nat: where i go to sleep
Cookie4Nat: when they put u too sleep
Cookie4Nat: expecting to wake up the next 20 seconds
Cookie4Nat: expect*
Cookie4Nat: but in real like its one to one and half hour
Cookie4Nat: but the drug they put in u..it like freezes ur body's ability to judge time
Cookie4Nat: so it feels like a 2 min procedure
Cookie4Nat: and when u wake up....dun freak out
Cookie4Nat: stay clam!
Cookie4Nat: calm!
Oh Lord...
Anyway, I still don't know what I'm going to do about the barn closing. I was talking with Mary (my friend from the barn...we've been riding there together since she was 9 and I was 8) about what to do. We want to go somewhere together with all of our barn friends. We both ride Dante and there might be some hope. He'll be used for the Stanford Equestrian Team, but, knowing him, they wno't want him long. He freaks out during shows (well, not for me, but he really doesn't like strange-looking fences) and they won't be able to control him. So anyway, at least he's not sold for good or already gone or anything...
So yeah. Summer has gotten better. I still haven't found a boyfriend yet, though. The various few I'm interested in aren't available or wouldn't be able to commit for various reasons though. (As in one's in college and one's sort of fickle and ALL are online-based relationships only, though I know all of them outside of the online world and have talked to them all in person...) But I suppose something magical may happen at band camp again. You never know. I might even fall for a freshman. Ha. Fat chance. But maybe something I wouldn't expect will happen. Anything's possible.
Well I'm supposed to go to bed "not too late" seeing as Brian has to do the video recording for church and that means that Mom and I are singing. Ugh. I don't want to leave the house for a while. I haven't been here for more than 24 hours in over a month!! But whatever. I might have plans after church for tomorrow with Nat, and there are lots of people online and a certain person who's worth staying up for...(even though I'm sure he meant 'later' as in tomorrow or sometime this week and not in a few hours.) But ANYWAY...
Oh, on to a more philosophical and thoughtful item of "discussion." I have to write an essay for World Lit about 3 events that have changed my life (that I experienced with another person.) So I've been thinking about it.
The first that came to my mind was my parents' divorce. Obviously. I mean, it's only been like 2 years and who wouldn't write about it if they remembered their parents' divorce? In all honesty, though, it really didn't change my life. I cried when they told me just becuase I felt like my "perfect" family was shattered. No more stick figure mom's and dad's holding hands with their daughter in front of them under a sloppily drawn rainbow with the label "My Family" above it. But it didn't really matter to me when it was just my mom and me. I guess I could write about the first time I met Brian. It just doesn't have the ring of "when my parents told me they were getting divorced" though. The second was suggested by my mom, my first voice lesson with Paige. Of course. I was so happy after that lesson. Finally someone was telling me that there was hope and that I had a nice voice. Much different from that bastard Shane Troll and the sort of cold half-compliments from Mr. Shaull! I was so excited after that lesson. Of course it changed my life. Voice was the most important thing to me besides band, and if I didn't make main street I'd be crushed. Up until that lesson, I didn't think I had a chance. The third I couldn't put my finger on. The first time I rode a horse wasn't memorable. It was at a Girl Scout camp (back when I still was one...lol a LONG time ago) and it was just some crappy walk thing in a western saddle. Not some amazing experience. My first time on stage? A cute story, but it's not like I can honestly say that I remember being the only one in the ballet class that would go onstage and do the little thumbelina dance. Last summer, the first time I had ever tried to diet and succeeded? I could make that work, bs some stuff about how I never thought I could lose weight and how I was so happy being able to have so much willpower and crap. Eh.
In the plane it hit me. What had REALLY changed my life? Not the stupid, corny, wowing things that I'd mentioned. Duh. What I'd taken to calling "the incident" and became used to bringing up if anyone asked me if I had any good stories to tell about myself. What I'd expanded to what was hardly true, that I was almost-raped. Out of the things I'd already mentioned, this was actually life-changing. And the weird thing was, it took me over a month to even think of it! It was so incredibly traumatic that it took my brain that long to come across the experience in my mind and then place it with the fact that it, above all other situations I can think of, has really affected who I am and what some of my judgements are now. I'm just blown away by the fact that I hadn't thought of it until then. That it was so tucked away and hidden... I've heard that the brain shuts out memory of intense situations like car crashes and whatnot. I guess maybe it doesn't come to mind frequently now that 1) I'm over it and 2) my brain wants to protect me from dwelling on it.
Then I wondered whether to write about it or not. Probably not. I can write about my parents' divorce, but not that. Too personal. I'm sure that that's what the teachers are looking for (personality) but that's not something I need to share like that.
I'm glad that a topic actually got me to thinking for once, though. 3 events that have changed my life...hmmm...
Well I suppose I'm pretty much done. For now...mwahahaha. I've missed my precious journal.
Ya know what I REALLY like? I like it when people say things like "sweet dreams" or "sleep tight" or "sleep well" or something like that when they sign off or when I tell them I'm going to go to bed. I just find it really sweet. So anyway, sweet dreams to you all! Goodnight!
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2004 22 July :: 1.12am
:: Mood: good, but tired
:: Music: that great theme from "La Traviata"
Italy and more!
I am so sorry I haven't updated! I have been so busy since I got home from Italy on the 16th! But speaking of Italy, it was AMAZING! We flew to Rome first and spent a few days there. We took a tour the first day and saw all the big sites throughout our time there. The Coliseum, the Forum, Villa d'Este, Trevy Fountain, Spanish Steps, the Vatican museum, Sistine Chapel, St. Peter's... to name a few!
Then off to Florence by train (the wrong train actually! We took the local train instead of the express and arrived in Florence two or three hours late. Oh well, the Tuscan countryside was definitely compensation enough!) Florence was one of my favorite cities! The Ponte Vecchio, the David, the Duomo, museums galore! Very musical and alive and happy!
Then from Florence we had a driver take us to Sestri Levante through Monte Raggione (this incredibly old, incredibly tiny little city, very cute), Siena (very nice place, calmer, and beautiful; they have the famous Il Palio horse race there), and Pisa (the pictures don't do it justice, the leaning tower is SO cool in real life), and then finally to Sestri Levante on the coast of Northern Italy. This was another of my favorite places. The Italian coast is GORGEOUS! When we came in to Sestri Levante, though, we had planned on staying in a hotel on this cliff that had this fantastic view. But, when we got there, after a long day of traveling, we were informed that our valid and confirmed reservation had been lost and they in fact did not have any rooms for us! So they found us another hotel, right on the beach, that ended up being a better location anyway, and everything worked out quite well! From Sestri Levante, we took a day trip to Cinque Terre. It is this collective name for five adorable, little towns on the coast, hiking distance apart from each other. We returned to Sestri Levante for a last night. We went out for our traditional gelato. My dad got cherry and something called "crema di basilico", something he assumed to be some kind of cream. After making us all try it, we figured out that basilico was BASIL. YUCK! :)
We then took the train to Verona. Very charming city! We were there only one night and that was to see the OPERA! When we got there, though, it started pouring! After days of hot, lovely weather, it was raining the one night we were in Verona to see an opera in the OUTDOOR theater! So, we went to dinner and asked our server if after all this, the opera would be called off. She confidently told us that they would definitely get through the first act, even if it took them till 2:30 in the morning, because then they don't have to give you your money back! Ha! So we went, in our nice opera-going attire and rain gear to our FABULOUS seats in the Verona Arena for "La Traviata." It turned out that there were only to times they had to stop the opera because of the rain and then it cleared up (they had to stop to keep the beautiful instruments from getting damaged in the rain.) During one of the breaks, the audience in the higher seats started THE WAVE! It was hilarious! Here we are at an Italian opera, thinking it would be all prissy and fancy, and people are in their ponchos, doing the wave! Good times! The actual opera, by the way, was fabulously wonderful. I loved it! In Verona, we also went to the little tourist attraction "Juliet's balcony/house." Yeah, unwanted memories. Everywhere, they mock me!
After Verona, we took the train to Venice, our last stop in Italy! I loved Venice. The canals were incredible! And San Marco Square, the Realto, riding in a gondola! We took a walking tour of the town while we were there, as well as a boat off to three islands called Murano (where they make a lot of the glass), Burano (famous for lace), and Torcello. Besides the gondola, my favorite part of Venice had to be the late nights in San Marco Square at these little gelato places where they had live music. It was unbelievable! The square was all lit up, the music was beautiful... sigh! Oh, and of course, we did a TON of shopping in Venice too!
Reluctantly, we left Venice and Italy for one night in London and the theater! After a huge mix-up with our apartment, we finally got ourselves a place to stay with the help of some We saw the longest running show in the world: Mousetrap by Agatha Christie. It has been running for 52 years and we saw the 21,518 performance! The queen even saw this show (on the 50th anniversary.) It was a great murder mystery that I completely recommend! I LOVED it!
So home we went, ecstatic and exhausted. What a trip!
Since then, I have been to the Salinas Rodeo and started and acting camp/conservatory called SETT with Nicole. I am still getting over jet lag and am thoroughly tired, so now after this massive update I feel I am ready to go to bad. More later!
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2004 17 July :: 10.59am
This has been the worst summer of my entire life.
I sure hope you all don't feel the same way.
Stanford (the barn) is closing. No joke. I have no idea where I'll want to ride. A girl who rides in my lesson might buy my second-favorite horse, Ivy. I guess this is good because I might get to ride her. I don't know about my favorite, Dante. Maybe I'll never get to ride him again. Cheryl and Sara, two instructors, are keeping 8-10 horses and might try to find some land to continue teaching, but this may or may not happen. I've been riding there once or twice a week for 7 years now. I don't know what I'll do without it.
Oh, and camp sucked. No one talked to me, and I was a total loser. Currently I feel like shit because apparently I'm not worth associating with or even looking at.
I hate Springdown. The horses there are beyond words, and they sold the only one I ever liked. There is no way I will ride there.
Oh, and this is definitely my last year at Camp Unique. I don't want to put myself through this ever again.
Leaving for Maui in like 3 hours. Hopefully this will be the first 2 weeks of my summer that are enjoyable.
Note: Sorry for the lack of anything upbeat in this journal entry. So far I have nothing happy to write about. Usually by the end of summer I can't wait for school to start. This year I'm already wishing for the first day of school.
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2004 11 July :: 1.22pm
That is sooooo fucking true like you wouldn’t believe!!!!!!
See that Nansi?! Johnny is mine!!!
lol, smile soooo is me
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2004 10 July :: 5.24pm
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Camp was fuuuun
Hey! I'm back from camp and it was uber fun!!!! So I don't have to explain later, Pat is Mollie's (new friend) cousin and so is Nick. Cole is Mollie's brother. I'm pretty sure that's right ^.^ Btw, I don't remember the dates so sorry. Things are a little jumbled.
Sunday: Yee slept over the night before and we left at like 10:30ish in the morning. Apparently the we didn't turn the volume on the dvd player so the ride was boring because we couldn't watch the dvd's on the way there. We got there and the cute kitchen boys, later identified as Nick and Cole, helped carry our stuff to Red Barn, our cabin. We changed into our swimsuits and we got the van for the ride to the lake. Everyone passed their swim test but I was really tired because I'm out of shape lol so on my way to the tramp I got really tired... Oye, was that embarasshing! So I refused to go in, had a 'I miss my daddy' moment. Chatted with the counselors but didn't know who they were lol! Didn't think to ask, so the first day was pretty bad. But we had fireworks and it was coolness, very pretty
Monday: Red Barn rode to the lake, I rode this awesome brown horse with a black mane and white star called Jack, who will be referred to as Jackie Boy from here on out. Love that horse, but he really liked to be in the lead. So when we got to the part where the horses gallop, he took off before I told him to and I flew up off the saddle (not off off, but into the air and landed back on it). Next to me was this girl Pria, who's been riding since she was 6, and she was on Hudini who was racing my horse. Crashed into a tree branch, didn't fall but it hit my neck. Not fun lol, was actually it was!!! When we got there I tried wakeboarding, I fell the first three times before I could even get up. The fourth time I got up for a little and then fell, ditto for the fifth and then I quit. Pat, counselor, said I did pretty good and I should try again a later day because I'll get it. Btw, Pat *swoonage* *faints* So that was fun, went on the dock and pushed counselors off. Pushed Dillion, Cowboy Chris, Tyler, Charle (aka Lysol) off. It was great when I pushed Charle off b/c he got revenge by sweeping me up bridal style, but he held me like that for a bit b/c he had to ask Chris if I knew how to swim because of what happened on the first day. So when Chris said yes he went to the edge and backflipped while still holding me! *more fainting* Some later day I pushed Charle off again, well I tried. But he saw me so he flipped me intoa hugging like posistion to try and push me in but I refused to go in unless he fell in too so we fell into the water in an embracing like posistion... hehe ^_^
Tues.: Did arts and crafts, made a cute hemp bracelet but never got the clasp for it... We did a little sorting, had to ride Three Socks, Matt's horse, and he refused to listen to me and would go for the barn whenever I let his reins down -__- We also played kickball, our time creamed the other. The score was like 20-15 or something like that. We also did a little goat tieing, that was most definately amusing... Went to the lake, sat on the dock and pushed counselors off... same old stuff ^_^ Think we played some games as a camp, we played um... steal the bacon or something and the Michelle was like "Run if you have a crush on a counselor" so, being me, I ran since I had a crush on like every counselor lol.... It was embarasshing, only two guys and myself ran... lol
Weds: We had our little rodeo thingie and yeah, we did a little goat tie relay in our cabin and yeah... my half lost but Pat said I did really well when I tied up the little goat ^_^ This is when I started chatting with Mollie, Amelia, Lauren and Kiki. Then I began spending more time with them and it was fun, they're not perverted and they're really funny. They play guitar and they're just awesome. We played BS later that night, and it was just funny because Kiki says the funniest things. She was thinking of a comeback and she finally got one and she turned to Mollie and says, "Well you what?! You despise me!" Lol, and then when she tried to correct herself she said, "I digust you." It was funny!
Thurs: We went river rafting (this might have been weds... I don't remember lol) and I got thrown in 4 times, 5 if you count Cowboy Chris tricked me and pushed me back in lol. We slept at the lake that night and did skits and games. The marriage game was funny, I just wish someone would have called me and Pat T-T Lol, they called Yee and Jimbo, counselor. That was good, Jimbo is awesome. Anyway, so after some "marriages" and the skits they asked who had never been and Mollie and Lauren raise my hand and myself and three other people go with Chris to a the van so we can't hear. The send us out one by one, so it's my turn and I go out and they ask me to stand next to this one guy (don't remember his name but I think it was Justin). So the first guy goes, "You can not sit down until you've given us the right answer. We are the three solemn judges." Then the second guy says, "We demand honesty for your answer." And then Jimbo, the third one, finishes, "Who do you love?" I didn't know who to say without getting some weird reaction from someone so I just said it was a tough question and everyone was like, "I know who it is" because I didn't keep my mouth shut when it came to telling people which counselors I thought were cute. So I asked if they meant love love or who I had a crush on at camp and so the Cheyenne (second oldest girl's cabin) shouts out "Crush!" I didn't want to say b/c I thought they were thinking Charle and he has a girlfriend, so Jimbo told me to listen carefully and they said it again. Now, I cracked because yeah.... I just did and I blurted out really fast, "It was Charle but now it's Pat!" And everyone gasped/ clapped and I turned around and hid my face. Lol, and then I was heading back to me seat and they're like, "That's not the right answer!" It was horrible, so then the middle guy says, "Don't listen to them, listen to me." and then I got it, I had to say 'Honesty' as my answer, duh! *hits self* Then the first guy is like, "That took you a while, but we got what we wanted from you." Lol, but Terra was funny! She didn't get it and they were like practically telling her. I can't describe it, I'd have to show you in person. So we listened to some stories and went to bed.
Friday: Didn't swim or eat breaky, chatted with my friends and we drew on ourselves. Anyway, so we had a dance that night. Lol, yeah. So for slow dances they yell switch and you have to switch partners, I danced with a lot of counselors since the campers were really young/ not cute or nice. Danced with Jimbo twice, the second time he tried to twirl me into him which didn't really work lol. There was this nice counselor, he had on this red shirt that said Green Day on it and had a dragon. I danced with him twice too, he was sweet and we actually talked a lot and laughed. Mollie got Pat to ask me to dance, I was in heaven but I couldn't say anything because I was way too embarassed lol. Anyway, so skip ahead in time and the the kids under 13 left. This girl in my cabin comes up to me and tugs on my sleeve and is whispering, "Dear God, please help me!" She was refering to the guy she was dancing with so I got him off of her and freaked with him, yes the first time Dee got down and dirty on the dance floor. Lol, anyway so this kid is hella perverted. I started out facing him and then he turned me around and whispered into my ear, "I can tell you've been doing this for a long time." I was like like, "Wtf, are you high? I don't freak dance with guys." So then he says, "Oh, well for your first time I've got to tell you that you're good at what you do." I damn near beat the shit out of him but I just bit my lip and he turned me around to face him. Then the little fucker had wandering hands, but it's not like I've never been groped and he wasn't going anywhere bad so I ignore him and then he leans in and has the nerve to ask me, "What color is your thong?" That was the end of the line, but I didn't hit him, should have, but didn't. I told him off and went back to my friends. So, now for the best part. This is before ther little kids left and yeah. So Marcus is dancing with this group, trying to get them to liven up and he was dancing weird so I stopped and arched an eyebrow at him for a minute. Too bad he saw me so he came over and started dancing behind me, well he was behind me for like 10 seconds and he wasn't leaving so I decided to freak him. It was bad, sure I pushed back into him a couple times but nothing too bad.... but then another counselor came over and was like, "Whoa! No no no! You two seperate yourselves" and pushed us apart. Lol, that was hella embarasshing but fun. Damn other counselor... lol!
Anyway, I had fun and I'm going back next year before my 16th birthday since it was just too awesome. Going to keep in touch with my new friends via AIM with Lauren, and next year we're going to go the same session ^_^ I'm going to get Michelle's email and sn from Yee, Michelle was the Red Barn counselor. I had fun.... nice to be home, but I miss Jackie Boy, Genie (owner), Steve (owner), Michelle, Terra, Nicole, Rhyland, Chris, Pat *drool*, Charle *faint*, Jimbo *growl*.... and most importantly Mollie, Lauren, Kiki and Amelica ^_^
New fav song: "All for you" by Sister Hazel and new fav insult: "Unless you want your penis in a sling, don't shaving cream me."
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